2015, still

"After the last visit, I went to my mom. I couldn't go back to Dave's apartment, so I went to my childhood home. I told her what happened.

Dave and I talked. We're both leaving the apartment. I'm going back to mom. I've been coping well. I felt a storm coming up, but I guess I grabbed an umbrella. Do you get the metaphor? Mrs. Julio is proud of me for doing so.

So yesterday, I was packing my stuff when I hear someone banging on my door," and Blaine can't help but smile, "and it was Kurt. He… We… I guess we're back together. He came over to my place and he told me that he loved me and… we kissed. We kissed, Logan. We kissed. We can do that again.

I'm not going to tell you what happened after that kiss, since you don't want to know, but this morning we talked. Kurt said something that had been nagging me. 'I know that everything was completely messed up, but everything is fine now' is not true.

Yes, everything was completely messed up, but it fine yet. I told him I needed to talk to him about this. You cannot just say 'everything is fine now' because that is a lie. We were in an unhealthy relationship. You cannot just erase that with 'everything is fine now'. That relationship made me go back to being depressed, which led to me flunking out of one of the most prestigious performing arts school in the country, which made me move back to my home state and see a therapist.

That relationship made Kurt realise he needs to work on himself. He saw a therapist too. I didn't know that.

Anyway, I told him and he completely agreed. Apparently, yesterday he said that without thinking, because of the adrenaline rush. I'm very happy to hear that the two of us have grown a lot in the past couple of months. I know it's bad to say, but maybe I was right when I told you that I was happy he broke up with me.

I just mean we both had a hell of a lot of growing up to do. We weren't ready for what we were. We were just kids. I know he told me that when we broke up, but I guess I didn't want to believe it. Our relationship grew too fast for us to keep up. We both still had a lot to learn about love and about life.

Hell, we're still learning, but I think we're both ready to try this again. And this time, we're smarter. Logan, I think I'm doing something right."