2015

"Happy birthday, Logan." He's holding the daisies. "Does this seem familiar to you? We're back to me being depressed and you being dead, and you're the only one I can talk to.

I mean, Sam and Wes and David. And Tina. But I don't feel like contacting them. I've been back in Lima for a couple of months now, and I only visited you twice. I didn't really tell you what's wrong. I was too sad to properly talk.

I flunked out of NYADA after Kurt broke up with me.

Let that sink in.

I don't know how much Lillie told you about my life in New York, since I didn't really talk to her, but it was pretty good actually. I didn't feel at ease, or not as much as I hoped. Kurt and I…" he trails off. Everything with Kurt is still fresh, but his therapist told him to talk about this with Logan.

Blaine might've left out the part where Logan is dead, but whatever.

"Kurt and I did have this fall out, which led to me living with Mercedes and Sam, but that was very good for me. NYADA was going well.

Then Kurt got beaten. Because he's gay. I had a sort of relapse after that, because my PTSD and depression decided to kick in after months of lying low, and dad decided to leave mom, so I kept eating my feelings away, but Kurt… he helped me. He always used to help me. Then why did he do this to me?

No, Blaine, focus. I need to tell you what happened in chronological order. We'll get to that later." He takes a deep breath. "I have to talk to someone, I can't keep bottling this up. My therapist thinks that's my problem. Her name is Mrs. Julio, by the way.

So I got back up. Then I got an amazing career opportunity. So did the others. Rachel quit her show and went to LA, although I hear her show is bad. Sam is back in Lima after he achieved his dream of being half naked on a bus in New York. I still haven't talked to him. I know he keeps calling me. Mercedes, Santana and Brittany are on tour, and Artie has started his first short movie. He wanted me to star in it, but I was busy with working for June.

I moved back in with Kurt, and since Rachel was leaving, we had the loft to ourselves. Perfect, right? Well, everything went downhill from that point. Kurt… became more stoic. I felt inadequate and childish compared to him, since I couldn't stop touching him. Yet, he kept pushing me away, which led to me getting more agitated, which led to him snapping at me…

Our fights got worse and worse.

And Kurt broke up with me. He said we were too young and that this wasn't working." And Blaine starts to cry.