2011, still

"Remember Jeremiah?"

Blaine laughs bitterly.

"I gushed about him for over two hours a couple of weeks ago. So I followed Kurt's advice- oh wait, I haven't told you that part yet. It was Valentine's Day and I decided to sing to him, since Kurt thought it was a good idea. In public. What have I done? I embarrassed the hell out of me. Jeremiah and I aren't speaking.

Is it foolish? I fell for him so quickly. I talked about it with Wes. He was at home, since he recently broke up with Amanda. No need for a romantic date on Valentine's for him.

By the way, in case you haven't noticed yet: 'home' means Dalton.

He told me that I'm right. I feel too much, too quickly. He flat out tells me the truth, opposed to David or Kurt, but from all people, Wes is the one who understands that I need that. According to him, I'm craving for love. Romantic love. Every sign of affection… I immediately think too much of it.

Which leads me to Kurt. He basically admitted that he likes me. We went to the Lima Bean again and he told me he thought that our friendship was a bit, uh, dubious. Not fully platonic. I feel bad for leading him on.

So, are we together?

Shockingly, no.

Normally, I would've jumped on it, but after my talk with Wes, I needed time. Also, I don't know if I like Kurt. I mean, I do like Kurt, but not like-like. Don't get me wrong, he is an amazing person and anyone would be lucky to have him, but- not me. Just… not me.

We're great friends. Dating him would mean he will find out about what happened. I don't- I can't do that. The last couple of weeks have been great, exceptional even. I feel like myself again. I don't want to ruin things. I don't want to mess up one of the best friendships I've ever had, and I don't want to mess up this better version of life that I'm living."