Dec. 3, 2023, 4 p.m.
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T - Words: 1,300 - Last Updated: Dec 03, 2023 Story: In Progress - Chapters: 10/21 - Created: Dec 01, 2023 - Updated: Oct 15, 2024 186 0 0 0 0
Blaine wakes up on time, which is a good thing, since that means that jet lag is finally ebbing away. He goes to the kitchen in order to get some breakfast and Quinn’s already dressed and ready to go.
“Morning,” Blaine sing-songs, “Are you going to spin club?”
Quinn nods.
“Can I take the car?” she asks.
“Of course,” Blaine answers, but then he feels a bit uneasy. The car. That’s another thing they need to figure out. They own that together as well. “Will you be back afterwards?”
Quinn grabs the keys and says: “I don’t know. Might have a drink with the girls.”
“Ah.”
“But tonight we can figure stuff out, alright?”
Blaine’s certain they won’t be able to figure it all out in one evening, but it’s a start. He tells Quinn to have a nice day.
Blaine goes to visit his parents. They weren’t there yesterday to welcome him back, because they were busy, but Blaine’s mom basically demanded that he’d come over for lunch today. They missed him a lot.
Since Quinn has the car, Blaine takes public transport and it’s doable, but it’s not Ljubljana. Los Angeles, and all of America, heavily favours cars and Blaine misses his Slovenian €1,30 bus ticket immediately.
Blaine walks up to his parents’ house’s porch and the front door always swings open.
“My boy!” his mom yells loudly, probably upsetting everyone in this posh neighbourhood. She runs towards him with her arms stretched out.
“Mom!” Blaine goes to hug his mother.
Then he hears his father chuckle.
“Someone’s missed you,” he says, “And that someone is me.”
“Hey dad,” Blaine says.
He missed his parents. They might not be the most affectionate and adoring parents in the world, and they’re insane workaholics and spent a lot of time away from home, but Blaine and Cooper grew up being loved.
Besides, once Blaine’s dad’s company got big, they moved to LA, and then Blaine and Quinn moved to LA after their studies, so now they see each other more often.
Blaine’s mom ushers everyone inside and as expected, she went all out in the kitchen. Blaine’s mom loves cooking as a way to share her love. The three of them eat and talk about Ljubljana. Of course Blaine’s talked to his parents while he was there, but it’s different face-to-face and Blaine spent more time talking to Quinn. After an hour or so, Cooper barges in and it’s fun and Blaine almost forgot that there’s something different now, until he mentions Kurt.
“Kurt? That’s your American friend, right?” his dad asks, “Has he also returned home?”
“Oh. Yes.”
“Good,” Blaine’s mom says and that’s that. The conversation moves on to other topics and Blaine sits back, slightly in shock.
Right.
Kurt is just some guy he met in Ljubljana. That’s all his parents know. Blaine never talked much about him, even before Blaine realised he had feelings for him, because those conversations were mostly with Quinn. And of course once he and Kurt got together, he never told anyone apart from Quinn, Sunil, Tadeja and Kurt’s family. Then Quinn told Denise with his permission.
Blaine isn’t ready to enlarge this safe bubble of people who know that he’s gay. It feels so daunting. He knew that coming out would be part of it, but back in Ljubljana it was “a thing for the future” and now it’s that future and Blaine has no clue what to do.
But maybe he can already plant a seed in his family’s brain. Maybe he can slowly let it slip that Kurt’s more important than they think.
“Actually-” Blaine cuts off Cooper’s spiel about his new face routine, “-I am going to New York to visit Kurt!”
“Lovely, dear,” his mom says, “Glad to hear you got a lasting friendship.”
And that’s it again. Blaine doesn’t know what else to add, since it’s clear that his family doesn’t pick up that Blaine wants to say more about Kurt, so he just eats his lunch in silence. After all, he has no more stories about Ljubljana to share, since they all involve his new love life.
“Apartment?”
“Check.”
“Car?”
“Check.”
“Household contents?”
“Check.”
“Shared subscriptions.”
“I’m still fine with sharing a Netflix account.”
“Same. Did I miss anything?”
Blaine looks over the list that Quinn has created. They’re brainstorming on what to brainstorm on. Everything is going to change. The two of them have been living separately since April, with Quinn dating Denise in LA and Blaine dating Kurt in Ljubljana, but now it’s time to actually plan for their future without each other.
Unfortunately, they had planned a shared future.
“Can I just say I am glad we never decided to share a bank account?” Quinn sighs.
“Or buy a house together,” Blaine adds.
“Or get married and have a kid!”
Those were all part of their future plans, but they weren’t there yet.
Blaine slides the list back to Quinn. Where do they start? Right now, they live together. Quinn and Denise did remodel the spare room into a new bedroom for Quinn, so they sleep separately. That is fine for now, but something is off. They were living together as friends before they started dating, so they can do it again, but what will change and what won’t?
Even little unimportant things are so big out of nowhere. Yesterday evening, there was some contention on whether or not they would be in the bathroom at the same time. They didn’t do that when they were friends, but they did when they were dating. So do they stop? But they’ve already seen each other naked, so does it matter?
Are there rules for this?
The main thing is the apartment. Can they continue to live together?
The two of them discuss the pros and cons, and Quinn mentions that she might not be ready live with Denise.
“Aren’t lesbians known for moving in together immediately?” Blaine jokes, “That’s the U-Haul thing, right?”
But Quinn’s face falls and Blaine immediately senses he made a mistake.
“I’m not…” Quinn trials off.
An awkward silence stretches between them.
“Oh,” Blaine says quietly.
“Or I- Well, I don’t know if I am, you know, a lesbian.”
Quinn looks very uncomfortable with this situation.
“Oh,” Blaine says again. He fucked up. He tries to think what to do. What would Kurt say? “You know it’s okay if you are.”
“Of course I do,” Quinn snaps and it shocks Blaine. Quinn’s eyes also widen and she groans. “I know. Being a lesbian is a good thing. Lesbian isn’t a dirty word! Lesbians are amazing.”
It sounds like a mantra.
“Lesbians are amazing,” Blaine agrees.
“But this is- I’ve only known that I’m not straight for four months. I get that I’ve always liked girls in a way, but does that mean I never liked guys? I don’t know!”
“You don’t have to know,” Blaine says, because that is also Kurt would say. Blaine is new to this as well. “Sorry that I assumed.”
“No, no, I get it,” Quinn says awkwardly, “I am in love with a lesbian. And maybe I am one as well, but as I say, all that I know for sure is that I am Denise’s.”
That makes sense. Blaine also held on to his feelings for Kurt when everything else was changing around him. But Blaine knows he’s gay. He’s never liked a girl in his life, but he just thought he did.
“… Do you want to talk about it?” Blaine asks.
“I’d rather not think about it,” Quinn says after a beat of silence, “Can we just go back to our list?”
“Sure,” Blaine says, although he has the feeling that they won’t get anything done today.
It's been 3.5 years since I lived in Ljubljana and I still bitch about how much I miss the €1,30 bus ticket.