Woah, another Kurt POV. This guy can’t seem to share chapters, but otherwise it was going to be too long. I try to have all chapters between 3K - 5K. It still looks like there are going to be 5 chapters, but I might surprise myself.

Not only that, but Kurt… well, Kurt was the one who initiated it. Blaine stopped it right before they actually kissed, but Kurt’s afraid that if Blaine hadn’t done that, that he would’ve gone through with it.

What does that say about Kurt?

He’s tried to justify it for himself by reminding himself that he was an emotional mess. He was stuck between being happy for Rachel and feeling sad about Finn, and that led to some questionable side emotions, but that honestly makes no sense. He can’t say: Hey, I’m sad about my dead brother, so let’s kiss!

For the entire week, he’s in a weird haze. Everyone notices. Adam asks him if everything is alright and what he can do to make it better, Kitty sends him some selfies of herself with question marks, Rachel and Jesse are confused why Kurt isn’t in full wedding planning more.

Every night, when he lies down next to Adam, he feels incredibly guilty. He didn’t do anything, but he almost did and the almost shouldn’t have been there. Adam’s stopped kissing him goodnight, since Kurt instinctively pulled away every night. It didn’t feel right, knowing that he almost cheated on him. Kurt feels like he doesn’t deserve Adam’s affections.

Adam doesn’t ask. He never does. Even though they’ve been together for four years, they know that some things are left unsaid. Kurt’s always had problems opening up and Adam always felt too nervous to talk about things, so he waits it out. The rare deep conversations are always emotionally harrowing, like the time Adam told Kurt that Blaine’s in love with him.

This doesn’t mean that Kurt and Adam aren’t in a loving and caring relationship. They love each other. They’re each other’s families and his dad and Carole adore Adam in the same way that Adam’s parents adore Kurt. They don’t always need to talk, since they understand each other without words. And when something seriously bothers one of them, they still talk. They just prefer not to and it works for them.

But all of that changed when Blaine arrived in the city almost two years ago.

The same way Kurt refused to see that Blaine’s obviously in love with him, he refused to see that something changed between him and Adam since then.

And the kiss has accidentally made Kurt realise why. Blaine’s not only in love with Kurt, but Kurt’s in love with Blaine too.

When Kurt realised that Blaine’s love for him was right in front of him the entire time, he was still in deep shock even though he could’ve seen it coming.

Same thing now.

Kurt tries to look back on the past. It all started at the very beginning. Kurt so desperately wanted ‘to be friends’ with Blaine. The week between their first meeting and Blaine showing up at The Street was filled with Blaine. He talked Adam’s ears off whilst talking about Blaine.

He keeps telling everyone that he’s never clicked with a person this fast, not even Adam. He always wants Blaine to be around, even after Kurt found out that Blaine’s in love with him and that it hurt Adam. The moment he started prioritising Blaine over Adam, it should’ve fallen in place.

Just like before, Kurt just didn’t want to see it.

Another week passes, but now Kurt’s also absolutely confused and a mess about this. He even has troubles looking at Adam. Adam has gone as far as trying to make Kurt talk, which is not their usual way of dealing with things.

Kurt needs to talk to someone, but he can’t tell Adam. What is he going to do with Adam? He also cannot tell Blaine. He cannot tell his dad either, since he hasn’t told him any of this yet. Kitty, Jesse and Rachel are too close by, and Wes is too close to Blaine.

Then, it hits him. Kurt grabs his phone and he looks for Roderick’s number.

> hey are you home?

> Yes

> can I come over?

> Kitty isn't home tho

> I know. I need to talk to you actually

Kurt doesn’t wait for a reply. He grabs his coat and he practically runs towards Kitty and Roderick's apartment. Luckily, all his friends live close by.

Roderick seems confused when he opens the door.

"Again, Kitty isn't here."

"Again, I'm here to talk to you."

"Why?" Roderick asks, but he lets Kurt in anyway.

"Because even though we like each other, we aren't super close friends and I need someone more objective," Kurt says.

"You sound stressed," Roderick points out, which makes Kurt laugh. Roderick is out here stating the obvious.

"I am stressed," Kurt says. He hasn’t felt a moment of peace ever since he found out that he is in love with his best friend.

"Uh, do you want some water?" Roderick asks awkwardly.

Kurt laughs again. He is endearing. "No, I need to talk to you. Please don't tell Kitty or anyone what I'm about to say. They're big gossips and they... well, they are too close by. Like I said, I need someone who's more distanced from all of this."

"I mean, sure, I hate gossip and it is true that we're not super close. I think this is actually the first time we've talked on our own."

"... yeah. I think so too."

"Which is partly my fault, since I am still trying to not call you Mr. Hummel, even though it's been years."

Kurt shakes his head. "No, it is both our faults, since I never put much effort in it either."

They both stand awkwardly in the living room. Roderick breaks the awkward silence.

"So, what is up?"

Since there's no easy way to say it, Kurt decides to just blurt it out.

"I think I'm in love with Blaine."

He looks away in shame and he waits for a shocked reaction, but it remains silent. When Kurt dares to look at Roderick again, Roderick just seems a bit confused.

"Uhm, yeah, I know," he says.

Now, Kurt expected a scandalised gasp, or a shocked look, or a face filled with contempt since Kurt is still dating Adam.

But this?

"You know?" Kurt asks.

"Well, doesn't everyone? It is pretty obvious."

"WHAT?" Kurt yells out.

"I mean, it is pretty obvious to me," Roderick quickly says, "I have no idea if others know. As I said, I don't do gossip, not even with my gossip loving girlfriend. And because of that, I didn't want to pry. You're right, Kurt, we don't talk so I decided that whatever was going on was your business and Kitty never mentioned everything, so I kind of assumed that you, Adam and Blaine were figuring it out. And if Kitty knew, then she probably wasn't gonna tell me, since this stuff is personal."

Kurt is absolutely shocked. He was so certain that all of this would be a shocking revelation, but now Roderick has swept him off his feet in a bad way. While Kurt is standing silently, processing all of this, Roderick continues talking.

"I mean, I knew from the moment I met Blaine. At first, I mistook him for Adam since it was so clear that you two love each other. But then Adam appeared and not much later, Blaine started dating Jude, but it was always on the back of my mind. And then the short-lived Blude romance ended, so I decided to just wait it out since it is obviously not up to me to decide. But it’s been so long, so a part of me was wondering if the three of you were going to continue as the three of you.”

Kurt remains silent and Roderick gives him an embarrassed look.

"But it wasn't obvious to you, was it? Shit, sorry, again, I thought you knew."

Kurt blinks a couple of times.

"So, do you want a glass of water after all?" Roderick asks, "Or vodka. I can break into the liquor cabinet if needed."

"Yeah," Kurt says when he's finally regained the ability to speak, "Let's break into that motherfucker."

Roderick winks. "Atta boy. I don't drink pure, but I can make a mix. Did Kitty tell you I used to bartend?"

"Give me something strong, my former student!" Kurt says.

Roderick laughs and he goes to the kitchen. Kurt falls down on the couch. His mind is still spinning.

Blaine being in love with him? Yeah, he's gotten gotten used to it by now and that truly was obvious from the start. Kurt just didn't want to see it.

But this too?

Kurt once again tries to look back on the past months. By now he's pinpointed moments where it was apparent that Blaine loves him, but are there also moments that Kurt just wished to ignore.

According to Roderick, he knew the moment he first saw Kurt and Blaine together. Does this mean that Kurt tried to ignore that too?

Roderick comes back with two drinks and Kurt asks Roderick to give him examples of when it was 'obvious' that Kurt's in love with Blaine.

To Kurt's horror, Roderick has a long list.

"Honestly, this should be a drinking game," Roderick says after he's listed the tenth example, "Take a shot every time it's obvious that Kurt and Blaine are in love with each other."

"Well, then we'd all die of alcohol poisoning, wouldn't we?" they hear.

Kitty is standing in the door frame with her arms crossed, and the look on her face can best be described as a mix between amused and concerned.

"Kitty?"

"She does this sometimes," Roderick says, "She sneaks in silently and then she scares the hell out of me."

Kitty looks at the drinks in their hands.

"Ah, are we getting drunk today?" she says, "If we play that alcohol game then we're gonna be sloshed soon."

"You knew too?" Kurt yells out.

"About you and Blaine being in love? Yeah," Kitty deadpans, "I can’t believe you admitted it to Roderick first. Rachel technically wins the bet now."

"What?" both Kurt and Roderick say.

"Oh, Rach and I have a bet. Five dollars for me if Kurt comes to me first. Five dollars for her if Kurt goes to someone else first. Shit, she expected it to be her or maybe even Santana or Mercedes, but no one expected Rod to take the price."

Roderick whispers: "I told you that she loves gossip."

"Rachel knows too?" Kurt asks.

"I think everyone does," Kitty says.

"Then why did no one tell me!" Kurt yells, suddenly feeling betrayed. He's been stuck with this confusion for a while now and he felt like he had no one to talk to, but apparently everyone talked about it behind his back.

Kitty sighs sadly. "Because we didn't know how to tell you, babe."

"What?"

"It was clear that everyone knew apart from you," Kitty says, "How would you have reacted if I just dumped that on you out of the blue? 'Hey Kurt, you def wanna bang your bestie!'? You would've hated me for it and not because of the obnoxious language."

Kurt and Kitty stare at each other intensely. Roderick clears his throat and he tells the others that he's going back to the kitchen to mix a drink for Kitty.

"Roderick knew too," Kurt tells her when Roderick is out of sight.

"I never talked about it with him, but that makes sense," Kitty says. She sighs deeply and she sits down next to Kurt. "What made you realise?"

Kurt tells her about the almost kiss two weeks ago and how it’s messed him up. He makes it very clear that he wasn’t thinking rationally, otherwise he wouldn’t have done it. But even though he’s tried to deny it, he has realised that he wanted that kiss to happen.

“Well, about fucking time,” Kitty says, “I mean, I saw you two in the kitchen and I decided to yeet the fuck out of there.”

“Oh?” Kurt raises an eyebrow.

“I mean, I’m not the one to condone cheating. I know I’m a glee club gal, but fuck that. It ruined my parents’ marriage. Yet, when I saw an opportunity to give you two some alone time, I bolted out of that kitchen,” Kitty says, “I didn’t expect you two to almost kiss, but I did hope for at least something. I think everyone’s tired of this dance.”

"So, everyone knows?"

Kitty nods.

"Even Wes? Jesse?"

Another nod.

Kurt rests his head in his hands and he groans.

"Kurt, I think that even Blaine knows," Kitty tells him.

"He- what?"

At that moment, Roderick comes back with a drink and he hums in agreement.

Kitty gladly accepts her drink and she continues to say: "I mean, I have no clue. He's never told anyone whether or not he knows. Maybe Wes, but if so, then Wes has kept that a secret. But we all know that Blaine's loved you from the beginning and somewhere in the past almost two years it started to make sense that you're in love with him too."

"Yeah," Roderick says, "It just became obvious at a point. You loving him was probably also always there, but it took a bit longer for us to realise. Blaine wears his emotions on his sleeve, but you do not."

“Honestly, I only realised, like, a year ago,” Kitty says, “I don’t know when Jesse and Mercedes realised, but Rachel only fucking realised a month ago or so. But she did it!”

“Again, obvious!” Roderick adds.

Kitty seems hesitant to say something, so Kurt tells her to spill it.

She still looks a bit conflicted, but she says: "Kurt, I'm pretty certain that Adam knows."

"Adam?" Kurt says, alarmed. His eyes widen in panic. "Oh, no, no, no!"

He looks at Roderick. Based on the look on Roderick's face, he seems to agree.

"I mean, I told you, I was under the impression that you, Blaine and Adam were figuring it out," Roderick says and he shrugs.

"This cannot be happening!" Kurt yells, "I love Adam! Truly, I do. You guys have to believe me!"

"And I do," Kitty says, "You care a lot about him, but you just love Blaine more. And you're still in love with Adam, but it's ending. You're falling out of love."

Kurt gets up. He staggers and almost falls. Despite the alcohol, he's not drunk. He's only had one drink, but his mind is spinning anyway. This is all too much. He can feel himself tear up.

"I never wanted any of this to happen," he says and his voice breaks, "I never wanted to fall out of love with Adam. I- I-"

Roderick tries to make Kurt sit down again, but Kurt shakes him off.

"I have to go home. I have to fix this."

"And do what?" Kitty asks, "Kurt, you cannot stop this from happening."

"Yes! Yes, I can!"

Kurt basically runs out of their apartment after that. He hears Kitty and Roderick yell after him, but Kurt exits the building and he runs back home.

Adam. He needs Adam. He needs to show everyone, including himself, that he loves Adam more.

Once he’s home, he sees Adam sitting in at the dining table with his laptop in front of him. When Adam hears the door, he looks up.

“Honey, I’m home!”

Adam’s face remains neutral, but when he says “And what sort of time do you call this”, it sounds hesitant, as if Adam’s wondering if they still have that inside joke.

“Adam, I love you!” Kurt blurts out.

Now, Adam’s face changes. He looks downright confused. He’s not supposed to be confused to hear that Kurt loves him and Kurt tries not to panic. It looks like Kitty was right. Adam probably thought that Kurt is planning on breaking up with him.

Kurt has to fix this. All of this has to go back to the way it was.

“What?” Adam says after a long silence.

“I love you,” Kurt repeats. He is still standing in the doorway. He’s too afraid to move closer. God, he’s fucked up so much. “I love you and I am so sorry for the past two weeks. I can’t- I don’t think I can tell you what was going on, but I shouldn’t have pushed you away either way. I love you, Adam Crawford, and I will try to be better.”

And something changes again. Adam looks hopeful. He closes his laptop and he gets up. He moves closer, but slowly, as if he’s also wondering if they can still do it.

When they’re standing in front of each other, Adam says: “I love you too.”

Then, Adam smiles. It’s still a bit ungenuine, but Adam grabs Kurt’s face and he kisses him. Kurt wraps his arms around Adam to pull him closer and this is how it’s supposed to be. He tells himself that this is right.

He tries to believe it.

A week later, he sees Blaine for the first time since their almost kiss. The universe must clearly hate Kurt Hummel, since Adam is with him when they run into each other.

At least Wes is there to soften the blow.

Honestly, they could’ve seen it coming. All their friends use the same coffee shop. It’s kind of a miracle that they hadn’t run into each other beforehand. Kurt and Adam are sitting at the table near the entrance, so Blaine and Wes spot them immediately.

Blaine tries to act like he hasn’t seen them, but it’s impossible to look over Kurt and Adam, and everyone knows it.

“Hey guys!” Wes says cheerfully. He sounds too cheerful. Blaine looks at his feet.

“Hey!” Adam also sounds too cheerful.

God, this is a mess. Kurt can’t go out on a coffee date with his boyfriend. He’s tried very hard the past week to show Adam how much he loves him and Adam also looks radiant these days, but seeing Blaine again makes Kurt’s stomach flip, even when Blaine is trying to look everywhere but his direction. Kurt hates that he wants Blaine to look at him.

He’s in love.

But you love Adam more, Kurt thinks.

“Hey Wes, did you like the article I sent you?” Adam asks Wes. Kurt looks at him in shock.

“Obviously, man,” Wes says and to Kurt’s horror, he grabs a chair to sit down, “It is so insane that the theatre district has this reputation of the inclusive dream and that leads to these kind of cases going unnoticed.”

“Mate, tell me about it!” Adam shakes his head in disapproval. Kurt is still looking at him.

He knew that Adam and Wes liked each other, but he didn’t know that they talked outside of the shared trips, parties, potlucks and events. Kurt looks at Blaine real quick and it looks like Blaine’s as baffled as Kurt.

“Uhm, Wes, I’m gonna get coffee.”

“Yeah, bring me a chai latte, Blainers.”

“Stop calling me that,” Blaine grumbles before walking away to the counter. Kurt watches his go. He doesn’t know if Adam’s paying attention to him, since Kurt’s fully focused on Blaine.

Blaine looks over his shoulder and he looks shocked and uncomfortable when he sees Kurt staring at him. He quickly looks away.

Kurt looks away as well and he tries to contribute to the conversation, but Adam and Wes are caught up in their own law entertainment world.

When Blaine hands Wes his coffee, he grabs a chair too. He has to. No one wants to acknowledge what is happening, so Blaine has to play along. He tries to sit next to Wes, but that would mean butting in between him and Adam, so Blaine reluctantly sits down next to Kurt.

“Hi Blaine,” Kurt says nervously. He sneaks a quick glare towards Adam, but he doesn’t seem bothered. He’s showing Wes something on his phone.

“Hey,” Blaine says under his breath. Then he takes out his phone and he continues to ignore Kurt. This time, Wes and Adam do look at him with questioning looks on their faces.

“You two got in a fight or something?” Adam asks and everyone looks at him as if he’s broken an unspoken rule. He probably has.

Wes probably knows what has happened, since he usually is more welcoming towards Kurt, but Adam is still completely in the dark.

“Alright dude, let’s give them time to talk,” Wes puts his hands on Adam’s shoulders and he leads them away. Both Kurt and Blaine look annoyed. Blaine’s probably annoyed because he does not want to talk to Kurt, and Kurt’s annoyed because now Adam will ask questions. He has no idea how much Wes knows and what he’ll say.

Blaine gives him a knowing look.

“No worries, Wes is great at keeping his mouth shut.”

“Ah.”

There’s an awkward silence. It’s worse than that one time at the theatre. Now, it seems never-ending. Blaine’s gone back to not looking at Kurt and Kurt doesn’t know what to say. He hasn’t seen or heard of Blaine in three weeks, which has never happened before.

Out of the corner of Kurt’s eyes, he can see Adam and Wes talking in rapid pace.

Blaine drinks his coffee in silence and he checks his phone.

Kurt’s honestly not in the mood for this, so he snaps: “Am I going to get the silent treatment for the rest of my life?”

Blaine finally looks away from his phone, but he doesn’t look happy.

“Well, I have nothing to say.”

“You’ve been in love with me since forever and it never bothered you that I didn’t love you back-” Blaine’s eyes go sad when he hears that “-so why does it bother you now? Remember how much it sucked when Jude ignored you? That is how it feels for me now.”

Blaine sets down his phone and he turns to Kurt. Blaine’s never looked so rigid and tense before.

“Sure, maybe it’s not fair to you to leave you hanging, but people, you included, also kept telling me to give Jude some fucking space, so I did.”

The swearword is another thing that’s new.

“And to answer your question, I was fine with this being a one-sided thing. I mean, it sucked for me, but before that kiss I didn’t feel like you were playing with my heart. And I’m mad, Kurt.”

The bite in his voice is also unfamiliar.

“Falling in love with you has meant heartbreak from the very beginning, I know that, but the way you looked at me after we almost kissed- that look of shock and distrust and discomfort?” Blaine shakes his head, “Well, that is an image that has haunted me for the past three weeks. So mostly, I am sad and I need time. And I still don’t know what you were thinking. I started to believe that maybe, if the stars would align, you’d like me back, but nope. So, I asked you to choose.”

“… And I chose Adam.”

Blaine’s eyes flicker towards Adam and Wes for a second. “Yeah.”

“But that doesn’t mean that we can’t be friends again.”

“Maybe. And sure, I want that, but it will never be the same again. You almost kissed me, knowing that I was in love with you, which made me admit it to you for the first time in a shitty way, and then you looked disgusted and ran back to your boyfriend. How can we continue from that, especially since I-”

Blaine shakes his head again.

Kurt tilts his head and he waits for Blaine to continue.

Blaine takes a deep breath and says: “Especially since I am still absolutely, madly in love with you and seeing you makes me wish for more, even now. I wished you would just love me, but I can’t make that happen, no matter how much I wish.”

And Kurt loves him. He doesn’t want it to be true, but he does love Blaine, and in order to at least be friends again, that has to be known. It wouldn’t be fair, but it also won’t be fair to tell him and to continue dating Adam.

Yet...

“Blaine, I need- I’m sorry,” Kurt says and he puts his hand on Blaine’s, which makes Blaine look up in shock. He pulls his hand back.

“See? Those kind of things? Don’t do that, because I hate that it made the butterflies in my stomach come alive.”

“Then at least look at me,” Kurt pleads.

Blaine does.

“Blaine, I’m so sorry to tell you this and I know this might only make things worse, but I need you to know this, so please do not interrupt me,” Kurt says, trying not to cry, “But I love you.”

Blaine sits back in his chair, frozen in shock.

“I almost kissed you because I wanted to, truly, and realising that made me freak out, hence the disgusted look, since I was disgusted at myself for falling in love with someone other than my boyfriend, but I could never be disgusted of you. Please know that.”

Blaine blinks.

“But you told me to choose, and I chose Adam.”

That snaps Blaine out of his thoughts.

"What the fuck, Kurt,” he hisses.

“I'm sorry, but it also wouldn’t feel right to keep this from you. I don’t wanna do the classic 'it's not you, it's me' speech, but don’t think you're incapable of being loved.”

He tries to reassure Blaine, but that sentence only seems to make him more angry.

"Don’t use my words against me. I told you those things about Sebastian for a reason."

"I’m not trying to, but we can’t be friends without this being in the open."

"And now we can? This is worse, okay. Do you at least see why this is way worse?” Blaine says and he shakes his head, “Now you're practically saying 'I love you, but I still don't want you'. I can’t believe this. I often dreamed about you telling me you love me back, but this is not what I had in mind."

"Blaine-"

"Good thing we're in public, otherwise I would’ve run out sobbing, but I don’t wanna cause a scene, especially with your boyfriend watching us."

"I'm sorry."

"Damn right you're sorry,” Blaine grumbles.

Blaine looks away and when Kurt follows his gaze, he sees that he’s looking at Adam. Adam and Wes aren’t paying attention, so Wes is probably distracting him with more law, and Kurt is grateful for it.

Kurt watches Adam too.

"Do you love him, then? Adam?” Blaine asks.

"I- of course."

"Just more than me," Blaine concludes.

"I'm sorry,” Kurt says. But does he really love Adam more? He tries to believe it, but watching Blaine now also makes Kurt’s heart flutter. Even when Blaine’s angry at him, he doesn’t want Blaine to leave. He can take the anger, but Blaine leaving? That would be devastating.

He loves Adam. He will always love Adam, but Kitty is probably right.

But what can Kurt do? He’s committed to Adam. They’re meant to be. Everyone always assumes that Kurt and Adam, or ‘Kadam’ as Rachel calls it, would get married and have a bunch of kids. That’s how strong they are. Or were. They’ve been together for years. They live together and they have plans for the future and Adam still believes in those plans. Kurt can’t just walk out!

"Look, you chose Adam and that is fine,” Blaine says, while still looking at Adam. His voice sounds different. He no longer sounds angry, but now he just sounds resigned. “It sucks for me, but if you choosing him means you're not gonna give me more mixed signals, then it is fine. And I appreciate your honesty, because I've been waiting for clarity for ages, but I think I need to let it all sink in."

"Did you know that I was in love with you?"

"... I thought it was the classic wishful thinking. Seeing things I want to see. But since it's real, yes."

"Sorry. Please believe me when I tell you I didn't know."

"I do, I really do. But you know, it feels kinda icky, like you've experimented with me to understand your feelings and now that you do, you still pick Adam. That's fine and I hope you two are happy and I still won't try to, like, break the two of you apart. Just, uhm, leave me alone."

So, Blaine knew too. Kitty was right once again. Kurt doesn’t know if Blaine knows that it’s apparently obvious to everyone else, and he’s not going to be the one to tell him. He’s messed with his head enough.

That’s why he also can’t tell him he’s falling out of love with Adam. He’s chosen Adam and Blaine seems to accept that.

"Are you still mad?” Kurt asks.

"Kinda. But now I'm more sad. I was always sad."

"Can we be friends again?"

"Damnit, Kurt,” Blaine says, sounding tired.

"Sorry."

"But yes, I hope so, but now- I can’t yet."

“When will everything be okay again?” Kurt genuinely wants to know.

“Well, once we stop being in love with each other,” Blaine answers, “So, never.”

“You don’t know that,” Kurt says, but he knows it’s no use.

Blaine grabs his coffee cup and he laughs humourlessly. “Ah, my coffee’s gone cold, even though it’s in a special takeaway cup. That’s how long we’ve been talking. I guess that is my cue to go.”

“You don’t have to!”

“Well, I do,” Blaine says and he gets up. Kurt gets up and he tries to pull Blaine back to his seat, but Blaine gives him a stern look. “I told you, I need to process all this new information, but I’m no longer mad at you. I’m just a bit confused. So I’m going to get a new cup of coffee and I’ll be on my way. If Wes wants to stick around, he can, but I’m going home. Let me go.”

Kurt sits down.

“Thanks,” Blaine says. He slings his bag over his shoulder and he walks back to the counter.

Adam and Wes notice the movement, so they watch Blaine with a curious look on their faces. Wes looks to Kurt and he raises his eyebrow. Kurt shrugs. Wes says something to Adam before moving to Blaine. He touches Blaine’s shoulder and he has a questioning look on his face. Blaine says something back and he gives Wes a quick hug. Then Wes steps back.

Blaine walks out of the coffee shop without looking at Kurt, which is difficult, since Kurt’s still sitting at the entrance.

Adam and Wes sit down again.

“You know, I don’t even want to know,” Adam says.

“Great choice, my friend,” Wes sighs.

Adam doesn’t mention what happened in the coffee shop, which is rare, even for him. Kurt waits for a reaction, but nothing happens. Another week passes like that. Kurt tries to continue to show Adam how much he loves him, but it’s changed again.

Even though Kurt understands that Blaine needs to be left alone, he wonders how much longer he can keep this up. He can’t deny it: he’s falling out of love with Adam. He never meant for it to happen, but life has taken an unexpected turn. After this, he’s going to be prepared for every unexpected turn in his life, because he’s genuinely thinking about breaking up with Adam. It’s not even for Blaine, but because Kurt also feels like he can’t do this to Adam.

There’s no great way to say it. There’s no great moment to say it.

It happens when both of them didn’t expect it to happen.

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