Dear Mike,

I‘ve been wondering how to tell you the things I wanted/needed to. I know you can read me like an open book but sometimes it’s not enough. Texting seems a little bit impersonal, don’t you think? So I decided to be old-fashioned and write you a letter. A few letters in fact.

I spent more than three years in silence. Almost four now. I didn’t really miss the contact with people. It was good for me. It was effortless – just keeping my mouth shut. I don’t know how to explain it but it felt right. It was the easiest way to deal with my emotions. And then you came into my life…

My parents were great. It was difficult for them but they tried and with time we learnt to communicate. But with you it was different. You could instantly read me as if you knew me for your whole life. At first I thought it was because of how talented you were and blamed it on your training. Later I realised that it was only you who actually understood me. It felt… special.

You make me feel more like myself. And not only around you. Even when I’m among the others, I can express myself much easier than in the beginning. That’s because I know you will voice my words. Every day you help me more than you know. I keep thinking that maybe one day I will be able to say these things out loud.

This is only the first letter. I will keep writing to you, whether you want it or not.

You will always be in my heart.

Forever yours,

Tina