Finn wasn’t quite sure what exactly was going on. He had been preoccupied with a bag of gummie worms he found in Kurt’s dashboard to have paid attention to any of the events going on a few feet away. Whatever it was, the tension on the ride back to Lima was high and no one was really speaking. Sad to say, he felt a rush of relief when Kurt dropped him off at home, with a quick goodnight. He still wasn’t sure what to think about this Blaine guy, yea his life kind of sucked right now but at least his wife was hot.


Kurt led Blaine into his apartment, forgetting that he’d never been there before.

“Bathroom’s down the hall, Kitchen is through that door. I’m just going to get changed real quick, make sure self at home.” Blaine opened his mouth to speak but was cut off gently by Kurt who’d expected it.

“I promise, as soon as we get settled down. I’ll tell you everything I know. Shit… I’m sorry, your probably sick or wearing those dirty cloths.. I think I may have something that’ll fit. The shower’s through there, I’ll leave some cloths by the door for you.” Kurt didn’t know how much more of the awkwardness he could take, he was already at wits end here. He was doing so well, moving on getting over Blaine, and then sure enough all that went to hell in a hand basket. Now he was finding excuses as to why he couldn’t be around the boy, not knowing if he could trust his own actions or not. He changed into some PJ bottoms and a loose T shirt, grabbing a pair of Sweat pants and Tee for Blaine. He waited till he heard the shower turn on before leaving the bed room, placing Blaine’s change of clothes on the floor by the door.

Blaine sat on the bathroom floor against the wall, he found himself second guessing everything he’d been told and everything he had begun to believe over the last few months. He didn’t know what was real now, and what wasn’t. He was legally married to Mia, but why would he marry her if he was gay? He was gay, that he was certain of now more than ever. He brought his fingers up to lips, remembering the feel and taste of Kurt’s against his, even if it was brief. The more he thought about it, the more he was confused. He really didn’t know Kurt any better than he knew any one else, even less so than the people’s he’s spent all this time with. But he knew that’s where he belonged right now, was here with Kurt., even if it was only just friends. For the first time he’d noticed the dry vomit on his jeans and became disgusted, images of his incident with Mia running back to his head. He’d warned her he didn’t feel well, but she just wouldn’t listen. He began to feel somewhat guilty, and then thought of her facial expression as the vomit ran off her cheeks bought laughter out of him. He stripped down, admiring himself in the mirror as he did so. He was slim, but that was to expected, he’d began to build back a tiny portion of the his muscle that’d he been told he once had. He washed off and cleaned up, and headed out of the bathroom, finding the cloths Kurt had left for him.

Kurt sat in his favorite recliner near his window as he watched Blaine enter the living room. He had to admire how well his clothes clung to Blaine clean body. He could see the outline of some of his features through the fabric, and felt himself begin to blush a bit darting his head down as to not make eye contact. What he wasn’t expecting though was to see the extremely large outline showing through the front of Blaine’s sweats. His mind was quickly racing realizing that Blaine had no underwear on at all. How the hell was he suppose to keep a calm and centered mind while staring across at that!

“ Ok so, will you tell me now?”

Kurt took in a deep breath, setting his coffee cup down on the table and began to go through the story of how they met, only this time not leaving out any details. He watched how Blaine would smile at something he said and then it slightly bothered him as he looked almost sad at others.

“So, tonight was not our first kiss?”

“No.. it wasn’t. I never meant to hid any of this from you I swear, I just thought.. All things considered.. It was the best choice at the time.”

“I understand why you did it Kurt, but I wish you hadn’t. I’ve been miserable these last few months and had no clue as to why. Now I do somewhat. But I have to say, this really isn’t very fair.”

Kurt was confused now, what wasn’t fair? He’d told him everything he wanted to know, didn’t he?

“You see Kurt..” Blaine got up from the sofa crossing the room and sitting on the floor in front of Kurt’s legs. Resting his chin and arms on the boys lap, staring up at him with a slight smile. “ Its not fair because , you have two memories of our kiss and I only have one… I’m sorry for forcing it on you earlier but, I couldn’t take it anymore…and now.. If you’ll allow me.. I’m going to do it again.”

Kurt didn’t even have a chance to respond before he felt his own head being lowered instinctively meeting the other boys. This time it wasn’t forced, there was no rush to it, it just was. If Blaine didn’t know any better he’d think the entire world stopped, and only those two existed in the moment. He didn’t know about his life and at this point the didn’t care. All he cared about was this, right now!

“Do you..ummm..think it would be ok if I stayed the night here. I really don’t want to go home right now. Oh GOD, no I didn’t mean anything like that… I just meant… shit…ummm… I don’t want to be alone right now.”

Kurt simply smiled kissing him briefly again before standing up taking Blaine’s hand and leading him to the bedroom. Both Boys climbed in Kurt’s King Size bed, Blaine wrapping arms around Kurt, as Kurt nuzzled into his neck. It didn’t take long before both boys were fast asleep.

= = = =

Blaine woke up the next morning, feeling the loss of Kurt’s warmth next to him. Moving around a bit, he found a note sitting on the table next to him.

Blaine, had to go into work for a few hours this morning. I’ll be back around 2. Make yourself at home for now. We’ll talk more later…

K.

Blaine felt a smile grow on his face, this was definitely something he could get used to. Waking up to little notes Kurt left for him, being there waiting for him to come home from work.. It was a nice thought.

= = =

“So.. Are you going to tell me what his name is or what?”

“Mercedes, I have no idea what your talking about once again.”

“Oh don’t play coy white boy, You’ve been smiling all morning. Something’s up! I swear if you tell me your hooking up with Sebastian again, we will have issues.”

“As if, Sebastian was just a bad habit I needed to get out of my system.. And I did.”

“Your really not going to tell me the new guys name huh? Ok fine be that way, but you better be careful. I care to much about you for you to let some man use and abuse you.”

“Girl, when have I ever….” Both were cut off as the yelling from down the hall made its way to them. Both were used to this sort of thing by now, the occasional unruly patient or patients family. Usually Kurt or Carole were the ones called because they had a way of talking with people that seemed to work. Carole was off today so of course figured he better step in. He made his way to the front desk, and saw the receptionist having an argument with a man he’d never seen before.

“…look, I’m not asking for much. I just need to know what my brother’s Doctors name is, so I can see how his visits are going..”

“Sir like I told you, I can’t release that information to you. Now you can get the information from your brother and consult the doctor directly, but I can’t help you from here. I’m sorry.”

“ I swear, is everyone in the damn hospital useless?” Kurt could see the other people in the waiting room getting a bit nervous so he figured this was the point for him to step in.

“Excuse me sir, Hi, my name is Kurt Hummel, I’m a nurse here. Why don’t we take a walk outside and you can explain to me everything that’s going on and I’ll see what I can do to help.”

“Fine.”

Kurt lead the man out into the gardens, he didn’t seem like the dangerous type. Kurt had seem all types before, but this man just seemed like someone he truly cared about a relative and wanted to help.

“Ok .. Kurt is it? Look, I’m trying to get in touch with my brothers doctors, I know he comes here for rehab once a week. I just want to see how he’d doing. You see, Our parents really don’t keep me in the loop, and I’m just worried.”

“Well like the receptionist said, I can’t give you any of that information. Only the patient can give it to you. But I’m sorry your having family troubles, I really do wish I could help.” He could see the resignation on the mans face, he couldn’t hide the pure look of defeat.

“Ok I guess, I just.. I don’t know what to do… he needs me right now.. More than he knows…” The man stood, and began to walk away before stopping a turning.

“Thank you Kurt for talking to me, I appreciate it.”

“Its not a problem Mr..”

“Anderson.. Cooper Anderson.. But you can just call me Coop”

“Anderson? As in Blaine’s brother?”

Coop rushed across the Kurt, excitement and smiles flashing across his face. “Yes, you know Blaine? How is he? Is he ok? God I miss him?”

“He’s… he’s been better. Look maybe you and he need to speak, meet back here around 1:45 ok? I’ll take you to him.”

“It’ll never happen, I’ve tried for the last two weeks to get in to see him. But my father won’t budge a inch, as long as they keep him secluded in Dalton, he’s out of my reach.”

“Well then I guess it’s a good thing for you, he’s at my apartment then isn’t it?”

= = = =
Kurt Drove Cooper back to his apartment ,both men sitting in the car before heading up. “ Ok look, he’s been through a lot here lately. He’s starting to rediscover himself, he just recently figured out he was gay last night. So if you have anything of shock value, baby steps please.”

“Last night? I knew it! That fucking bastard lied to him. Our glorious fucking father, plans on running for Governor this year. He wants a perfect happy normal family to show off. I knew as soon as I realized they were keeping me away, something like this must have been up. No doubt Mia helped it along.”

“So you know Mia then too? Are they really…married?”

“Unfortunately they are! It’s more of a marriage of convience really. Mia’s father at the time was the director of the FDA, so of course having that kind of pull would be interesting to Jonathan Anderson, head of the one of the worlds leading Pharmaceutical companies. Not to mention the hefty living expense and dowry my father gave her.”

“That bitch married Blaine for money? But why did Blaine go through this with it. He couldn’t have said no… “

“I love my brother Kurt, More than anything. Family is the most important thing in the world to him. If he didn’t agree to marry Mia, then our father was going to pull Jackson out of his life for good. He threatened him that he’d never see him again if he didn’t.”

“That’s horrible, what kind of monster would threaten to keep his own children apart, just to get what he wants. Look, I think this is something you need to hold off telling him, at least for now.”

“You care about my brother don’t you, more than just as a friend?”

Kurt began to blush, he knew he couldn’t hide it, but he knew it was true. “Yea I guess I do.”

“Your not going to screw with him are you? He needs people who love him and he can rely on now more than anything.”

Kurt was offended by this, Cooper didn’t know him so why presume that at the first sign of trouble Kurt would leave. “ Look I’m committed to seeing this through to the end, I’m not going anywhere, as long as he needs me and wants me around, I’ll be here.”

Cooper lightened up a bit, he felt like he could trust Kurt, and he hadn’t been lying. This was going to be a hard fight and he was going to need others in Blaine’s corner looking our for him.

“Well since your all in, I need to let you know one more thing. Our father was not threatening to keep our little brother away from Blaine.”

“But you said…”

“Jonathan Anderson was threatening to keep Blaine away from his son. Jackson is Blaine’s son.”

“You’ve got to be shitting me! How the hell?”

“Lets just say Blaine questioned himself one night when he was 16, got drunk, played spine the bottle with a stranger, one thing led to another, although I’m told it was disastrous , 9 months later Jackson is born. His mother died in Child birth, and with Blaine being a minor our parents took custody and raised him as their own. He was 2 when Blaine went missing.”

Both men got out and headed up the stairs to Kurt’s door. Kurt went to unlock it but noticed it was already unlocked, he pushed it open and his entire apartment from what he could see was a mess. Everything was broken, and trashed. “oh god.. BLAINE!” he rushed in and headed straight for the bed room where he left Blaine that morning, the bed had been demolished, but sitting on the nightstand in the same spot where he’d left his note was another note addressed to Kurt.

Kurt…please forgive me. I can’t do this.. I came to a realization today… I love you. And now that I know that I can’t put you in harms way or get you involved in this right now. I’ve called my father and he’s sending someone to come and pick me up shortly… I’ll call you later, please don’t me mad at me.