March 8, 2012, 3:58 a.m.
Don't Tell: Chapter 6
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Blaine was scared. He just had kissed Kurt Hummel, Kurt Freaking Hummel, the man that he had dreamed about for those long 2 weeks, the man that made his heart skip a beat, Blaine had just pushed him up against a shelf and kissed him.
"Y-you really are attracted to me" Kurt said quietly, voice filled with awe. It wasn't a question.
Blaine wanted scream a "Yeah I am stupidly attracted to you!" but when their eyes met again he couldn't speak.
They stood gazing at each other for a moment, blue meeting hazel, a million of feelings being expressed in unspoken communication.
Kurt's eyes didn't look angry anymore, just confused, and that made Blaine hopeful. This could be the time for him to explain everything, make things right again and who knows, maybe even get a second chance with Kurt.
"Yes, I-I am attracted to you, like a lot. I really like you Kurt, I am just an idiot and insecure and inexperienced and I just thought that I would ruin everything that's why I-" Blaine tried explain before Kurt interrupt him. In one moment Blaine was almost rejecting him in a way, by not calling and in the next the hazel eyed man was pushing him against a shelf and kissing him like he couldn't live without him. That was a lot of information for Kurt's brain absorb he needed some time to put his thoughts in order.
"I get it. You are gay, like 100% gay, but you are inexperienced." Kurt said, talking through his thought process out loud, taking the time to make sure it all made sense. Finally he was able to get out some of the questions that were filling his head "Look I have to ask you this; you can tell me it's none of my business if you want, but had you ever kissed a man before tonight?"
Kurt didn't notice but his question made Blaine's face twist into a panicked expression. "Oh great now it's the time when he notice how pathetic I am and dump me" thought Blaine before murmur a shy "No".
Blaine was sure that Kurt would reject him now, that the blue eyed man would made some lame excuse to leave that place and avoid Blaine for the rest of his life. "Face it, Anderson, you're no prize. He can't deal with your baggage." thought Blaine, truly believing that there was no point in arguing with that. How he could ask to Kurt deal with an inexperienced and shattered man? Blaine really thought that he didn't have that right. So he just gave up, and resigned himself to an evening that concluded with him going home alone to his mother's house after be rejected by the most gorgeous men that he had met. He hung his head, dropped his shoulders and began thinking of the quickest way to get out of the store.
But, surprisingly, Kurt didn't begin any lame excuse; actually, the blue eyed man stepped even closer. Blaine's head rose slowly, until they were once again face to face, looking at each other eye to eye.
"How many fingers am I holding up?" Kurt abruptly inquired raising three fingers.
"W-What?" exclaimed Blaine confuse, this wasn't the moment when Kurt would dump him for be a pathetic 23 years old closeted guy. Why he was raising three fingers to him?
"How many fingers?" Kurt repeated looking deadly serious and studying Blaine's confusion with a critical eye.
"Three! Why? This is kind of a gay insult because I just told you I'm kind of new at this! If you want insult me just call me of idiot or asshole…or something." Blaine answer not really understanding Kurt's actions.
"Well, you're not drunk" A soft smile played across Kurt's lips while he said that.
"Of course I am not drunk I even paid for the beer yet and I…" Blaine started babble explain himself before Kurt interrupt him once more.
"Calm down. I am just checking. I don't want be the gay experiment of a drunken guy" Kurt said making Blaine became anxious again. How Kurt could think something like that?
Kurt wasn't a gay experiment for Blaine. The hazel eyed man didn't want a gay experiment. Kurt was what he wanted, regardless of the cost. He'd recently learned the hard way how precious life was, and after admitting who he was out loud, Blaine didn't have any intention of hiding and spending the rest of his life wondering what might have been. Not after that kiss.
"No, it's not like that. Kurt you are not a gay experiment! How can you say that! And after we just kissed! You don't think that you would be able to taste the alcohol in my mouth! Or at least smell it on my breath." Blaine gasped desperately trying to put his thoughts into words.
"Alright, alright, actually I suppose that if you were drunk that would have been a little stupid of me, but I needed to check, I don't date drunk guys." Kurt said while a soft smile played across his lips.
"Wait! You just said that you will go out on a date with me? Really? After all this mess?" asked Blaine shocked. Kurt was really giving him a second chance? Even after discover that Blaine was this pathetic and inexperienced guy?
"Yes, actually we are going on date on this right moment. So be a gentleman and grab the ice-cream tub on the floor". Kurt said, slightly mocking Blaine's shocked expression.
Usually, Kurt would never consider inviting someone on a date, all of a sudden, in a convenience store at 1 in the morning. The blue eyed teacher wasn't exactly spontaneous, but something in Blaine's eyes made Kurt feel that that was what the veteran needed, a little of spontaneity, a little of vivacity in his life.
"Really? Now?" said Blaine still incredulous. He was dreaming or Kurt was really asking him in a date at 1:00 A.M?
"Yeah, I will not give your insecurity another chance to mess this up. So let's go Soldier, and don't forget my ice-cream." Kurt replied smiling so beautifully that made Blaine's forget how to breathe properly.