That was the constant mantra that Blaine kept repeating though his head as he shoved his boyfriend against his bed and attempted to take his pants off.

"It s good to know you believe in yourself," Kurt snickered looking down at Blaine from his position on the bed.

Shit he'd been saying that out loud.

"I like to keep up my self esteem in any aspects of my life," Blaine mumbled in to Kurt's hip, blushing furiously.

Blaine tried to shake off the temporary embarrassment and get back to the task at hand. He was going to rock Kurt Hummel's world.

That is, if he could ever get his god damned pants off. Any other day Blaine would literally do tribal worshiping dances to his boyfriend's skin tight jeans. They made his ass look fantastic. And Blaine would know, seeing as he spent a good 97% of his time staring at said ass.

But today they were just making him extremely angry. He just for the life of him could not get those bright red fuckers off.

"Baby," Kurt cooed, "Let me help you."

"I can do this!" Blaine said, shooting up to glare half heartedly at Kurt.

"So you've said."

"Do you want me to suck your dick or not?" Blaine asked flippantly, kind of taken aback at his own sassiness.

"Well - yes, yes I would enjoy that," Kurt said blushing slightly.

"Then lean back and lemme take care of you," Blaine smiled getting back to the epic task of removing Kurt's pants.

After a couple minutes, numerous swears, and at one point a threatening pair of scissors Blaine had finally managed to tug Kurt's pants all the way off.

Grinning triumphantly Blaine couldn't help but fist pump, just a little.

"I don't know whether to coo over how cute you are or be disgusted that you just fist pumped," Kurt grinned.

"Always how adorable I am. Always," Blaine explained. Then he decided that it was time to wipe any coherent thought from Kurt's mind with his amazing blow job skills.

Blaine licked and nipped lightly at Kurt's hip, earning him a delicious moan from the boy underneath him. Moving closer and closer, Blaine could feel his own arousal twitching.

And the all of a sudden Blaine was yelping and tumbling to the floor.

"Oh my god baby!" Kurt cried, quickly leaning over the bed to check to see of his boyfriend was okay.

"Wha?" Blaine asked, completely disoriented.

"It just- that tickled!" Kurt tried to explained, half mortified and half in hysterics.

"Oh yes go ahead and laugh it up. See how much I suck your cock!" Blaine grumbled, picking himself up and getting back on the bed.

Kurt's breath hitched at his words, and Blaine knew that there was no way that he wouldn't be sucking said cock.

"Just- harder. Be harder," Kurt tried to explain.

"I can't get harder!" Blaine exclaimed.

"No! Not like that! I mean don't kiss there so softly. It tickles!" Kurt shot back trying not to laugh.

"This has got to be the worst blow job in the history of blow jobs," Blaine whined.

"Oh baby do you wanna stop?" Kurt asked, always considerate of Blaine's feelings.

"No!" Blaine nearly shouted, "I have to be able to give head! What kind of gay man can't give proper head!"

"I don't think that-"

"I got this!" Blaine shouted excitedly. He never was one to give up.

Licking down Kurt's chest Blaine remembered to be just a little more firm that go around. In no time he had Kurt panting and begging again.

Slowly, Blaine finally sunk his mouth around Kurt's length.

And Kurt was in heaven. He couldn't help but thrust up into the warm wet heat of Blaine's mouth.

"Kurt!" Blaine scolded through his coughs, "Choking me is so unsexy!"

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry! Blaine please!" Kurt whined, tugging at Blaine's shoulders, trying to get him back on task.

Grunting, Blaine gave in but remembered to sling his arm over Kurt's hips this time.

After that, Kurt didn't last too much longer. Blaine mouth was just so perfect. So warmwethottight. He never wanted it to end, but he was a teenager and this was his first blow job.

Kurt's orgasm came almost without any warning. He only just managed to tug Blaine off of him before he was coming all over Blaine's pretty face in long pearly strands.

"Oh no! I'm so so sorry!" Kurt panted, looking at Blaine who was completely shocked.

"You know what?" Blaine said composing himself and reaching for a tissue, "After everything else this was actually okay."

Kurt smiled, calming his breathing and took a moment to just look at Blaine.

This is what it was all about. Sure it was awkward and there had been some slip ups, but Blaine was his everything, and getting to experience this with him was just the icing on the cake. It was trial and error and Kurt was sure that with enough practice they'd get it down to a science.

Speaking of.

"Why don't you let me return the favor?" Kurt all but purred as he slid towards Blaine.

Blaine gulped, but still nodded and leaned back.

"I can do this. I can do this. I can so- Oh Kurt!"