It was early in the afternoon when Blaine finally arrived at Kurt's house.

Kurt was busy cooking lunch for his father when the door bell rang. He wiped his hands in the apron he was wearing, fixed his already perfect hair with his hands and opened the door.

Blaine had already been standing a thousand times on his porch but every time he opened the door and saw him there, Kurt was in awe about how amazing he looked. Kurt's heart skipped a beat and he realized how stupid he had to look with his apron.

“Hey there”, Blaine greeted him and got inside.

“Hy, Blaine”, Kurt smiled and closed the door.

“I've got the movies!”, he said and held up his backpack. “Nice apron by the way.”

“Uh,I'm..thanks”, Kurt said awkwardly and blushed. “I'm actually cooking lunch for my Dad right now and I didn't want my clothes to get dirty.”

“It smells pretty good”, Blaine said, lifted his head and sniffed.

Kurt laughed and went back into the kitchen. “You can have some too. If you want.”

“Thanks. But I already ate.”, Blaine stated, sat down at the kitchen counter across from Kurt and rubbed his stomach.

Kurt only grinned. “Never stopped you before!”, he said with a wink.

Blaine looked at him with a faked shocked expression, mouth wide open. “How dare you! I'm not fat!”

“I've never said that, Blaine”, Kurt grinned and leaned over the counter towards Blaine. “Let's just say: insatiable!”

Blaine's eyes widened and he leaned towards Kurt. “Take that back or-”

“Or what?”, Kurt asked grinning brightly. “You can't tickle me here...I mean please I'm cooking with hot water and there's lying a knife around and if you tickle me and I don't watch out...” Kurt playfully shook his head.

“You'll pay for that later!”, Blaine grinned and tipped his index finger against Kurt's nose.

Kurt only giggled and ran his hand over his face. “Not if I can prevent it.”, he told him smirking.

Blaine looked at him, laughing.

“What?”, Kurt asked. “That wasn't even funny!”

“No”, Blaine said. “You've got something in your face!”

Kurt put his hand on his cheek. “What? Where?!”

Blaine tipped on his own cheek and pointed his finger on the spot. Kurt ran his hand over the pointed spot. Blaine only began to laugh louder.

“No, on the other cheek!”, he said giggling.

Kurt ran his hand over the other cheek and looked at Blaine questioningly.

“Still there”, Blaine stated and leaned forward. “C'mon”

He ran his thumb over the spot slowly, his eyes fixed on Kurt's. Kurt exhaled a shaky breath, eyes never leaving Blaine's.

After a few seconds Blaine's thumb was gone and Kurt thought that maybe, maybe he could have been wrong about Blaine's feelings towards him and Blaine did like him back. And maybe they could forget about this stupid guy and Kurt's stupid suggestion. Blaine's eyes left Kurt's and Blaine stared at his thumb, shrugged and sucked it into his mouth. Kurt gulped and cleared his throat, trying to sound normal.

“Blaine do you even know what this was?!”, he asked, eyes wide.

Blaine only shrugged. “Nope, but it tasted good!”, he said as if to defend himself.

Kurt pulled a face. “Gross”, he said, hiding his grin.

“No, delicious”, Blaine said and Kurt rolled his eyes. “Don't look at me like that. You were cooking and had something in your face and I wiped it away and-”

“Ate it!”, Kurt completed and shook his head. “ You don't even know what that was.”

“But it was delicious”, Blaine said and pouted. “And it's my mouth not yours.”

Kurt laughed. “You're right. Wanna have something to drink to flush that 'something' down?”

Blaine nodded. “You're so mean”, he said as Kurt filled two glasses with water.

He handed one of the two Blaine and grinned at him. “That's what you like about me.”

Blaine chuckled and began to drink. Kurt put off his apron and turned off the cooker before tacking a sip of the water.

“You know I texted this guy”, Blaine suddenly mumbled and Kurt choked. He began to cough and tried to catch his breath but he only coughed more. Blaine hurried to his side and clapped on his back until Kurt stopped coughing.

“Better?”, Blaine asked before returning to his chair.

“Yeah”, Kurt breathed and cleared his throat. “Much. Thank you. Drank too fast I think.”

After a few seconds of silence Kurt asked: “What did you text him?”

Blaine looked at him like he didn't know about what Kurt was speaking.

“The guy from the mall, Blaine”, Kurt said, rolling his eyes. “You just told me you texted him.”

“Uh,well,yes I asked him to meet me”, Blaine shrugged and took his glass in his hands. “Like you told me”, he said before taking another sip of the water.

Kurt felt his hoped crash down. So much about forget about this guy and Kurt's suggestion. He sighted quietly and looked to Blaine.

“Did he already answer you?”, Kurt asked trying not to sound too curious.

“Yeah”, Blaine said. “He suggested to meet tomorrow and go watch a movie.”

“Great”, Kurt heard himself say with a strange voice.

“Hmm”, Blaine hummed. “Sebastian said we could watch this new movie.”

Kurt nodded and they fell into a silence.

Sebastian. That was the guys name. The name sounded strange out of Blaine's mouth so unfamiliar.

A movie, Kurt thought. In a dark cinema, close to each other. Too close. What if this guy was going to kiss him, Kurt thought and jealously grew inside him. He had always wanted to kiss Blaine but he never had the courage to do it. And now there was this guy, coming into Blaine's life, having the courage to just do what he wanted. To ask the boy out he wanted. But Kurt couldn't blame him for what he wanted. And he also couldn't blame Blaine because maybe without him Blaine hadn't even called that guy. Oh god, Kurt thought, that's all my fault.

Kurt cleared his throat. “Well, what about a movie? Our favorite occupation”, he said smiling lightly.

Blaine's face lit up. “Yeah. I've got some you'll like”, he said, opening his back.

After they chose a movie, they sat down at the couch with some snacks. Blaine was eating popcorn and Kurt leaned his head on the other boy's shoulder like he always did.

“I thought you already ate”, Kurt said, smirking.

“Oh, shut up”, Blaine said nudging him playfully with his elbow.

Kurt didn't really pay attention to the movie and the fact that Blaine began to rest his cheek on Kurt's head wasn't helping either. They'd sat like that a lot. Mostly every time they'd watched a movie together. But Kurt couldn't loose the thought that this could be the last time. Because if Sebastian would be Blaine's boyfriend, they couldn't do this anymore. At this thought of Sebastian, Kurt didn't know him but he was already hating him, and Blaine as boyfriends his stomach clenched. Kurt sighed and snuggled closer to Blaine. If that would be the last time, he should enjoy it, shouldn't he?

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Kurt couldn't sleep that night. He was lying in his bed for hours just staring up to the ceiling and hoping sleep to come. But I didn't. Kurt had too many thoughts in his head and he just couldn't stop thinking about Blaine and this guy, no, Sebastian he reminded himself.

Would Blaine still spent time with Kurt if he had a boyfriend? Would they still be best friends and be spending all their time with watching movies and going to coffee shops? Probably they would stay best friends and Kurt definitely hoped so. But spending all their time together? That wouldn't be possible anymore and Kurt already began to miss it.

As Blaine had left this evening, they had hugged extra long and extra tight and Kurt had tried to just enjoy it because maybe Blaine wouldn't even want to hug him anymore if he had a boyfriend.

Kurt sighed and got up from the bed. He wasn't tired at all. He walked towards the window and pressed his forehead against the cold glass. It was raining outside and streams of water were running down the window from the outside.

Why couldn't his life just for one time be good? Why couldn't he have a little bit of luck? Why seemed life to hate him this much?

Kurt stood at the window for what felt like hours. His tears building their own streams, running down the glass.