Jan. 21, 2012, 8:30 a.m.
You Are Perfect To Me: Chapter 1
T - Words: 1,510 - Last Updated: Jan 21, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 1/? - Created: Jan 21, 2012 - Updated: Jan 21, 2012 421 0 0 0 0
"I have to find Blaine."
He took off in the hallway trying to hold himself together until he found his boyfriend. "Please still be at your locker, please still be at your locker."he thought to himself.
It was the end of the day and his locker was on the other side of the building. Blaine was putting his books away and taking the ones he needed and put them in his bag. As he turned around to go meet Kurt he saw him walking towards him, red-eyed and and clutching his Marc Jacob's bag like it was a lifeline. "Kurt?"
"D-do you have everything?"
He nodded "Yeah...wh-" Kurt took his hand and walked down the hall. "Kurt, what's going on?"
Kurt shook his head "W-wait until we get to the car."
He nodded and they made their way to the parking lot. Kurt stopped short when he saw Brittany and Santana celebrating. Kurt picked up the pace not wanting anyone to see him starting to cry. He wrapped an arm around him as they continued to walk. Rachel and Finn were waiting by the car. He sighed "Not now guys!"
The two didn't say anything and left. They got into Kurt's car. "Do you want to talk about it now or..?"
It was then Kurt lost it. He wrapped his arms around him "Hey, shh it's okay!"
He kissed his forehead "What's wrong sweetheart?"
It took Kurt a few minutes to actually be able to talk. "They think..they think I c-cheated. S-someone stuffed the ballot boxes."
He could not believe what he was hearing. "What?!"
"If the can prove it...I-I'll be s-suspended."
Kurt sobbed on his shoulder. He held him closes rubbing his back. "I'm so sorry Baby!:
"I'm not g-gonna get into NYADA n-now! I-I didn't do it Blaine!"
He held him close "Shh, I know you didn't. I know you didn't"
Kurt shook his head " I don't know what to do Blaine! They brought my dad in!" Kurt started crying again "He looked s-so disappointed!"
He rubbed his back, he know that feeling and he didn't want Kurt to ever feel like that. "Do you want to go to my house or do you want me to bring you home?"
"C-can we got to your house? I- I need to be with y-you."
He nodded "Of course."
He pulled out of the McKinley parking lot holding Kurt's hand, only letting go when his cell went off. "Hello?"
"Hey man it's Finn. Is Kurt still with you?"
"Yes Finn, he's with me."
"Oh, so you're on your way to my house then?"
"No, he's going to my house. He's not doing well, and he just wants to be with me. You know what happened right?"
"Yeah, I know. I'll let Burt know. Take care of him okay?"
"Thanks Finn, I will. Bye Finn."
"Later dude."
Kurt was looking out the window, tears rolling down his cheeks. He's never seen his boyfriend so upset before. "Hey,"
Kurt looked at him "I love you Kurt."
Kurt smiled briefly "I love you t-too."
He squeezed his hand. The rest of the ride was silent minus Kurt's sniffling. As soon as they got to his house he was by his side opening the door for him, helping him inside. Once they're inside he wrapped his arms around Kurt holding him close. Kurt started to cry when he leaned into him feeling his 'Vote Unicorn' pin on his jacket. "Shh, come on Kurt, let's go upstairs."
He wrapped his arm around his waist leading him to his bedroom. He laid on his bed Kurt crying on his chest. The last time Kurt was crying on him, they were tears of love and pure joy, it was after they had made love for the first time. He pulled him close kissing his forehead rubbing his back. "It's okay baby,"
Kurt sniffled "What am I going to do Blaine? I'm not going to get into NYADA now, I lost the election ,the lead in West Side Story. Besides glee my applications b-blank!"
He still felt bad about taking the lead from Kurt. "Well, you didn't get the lead but you got Officer Krupke, that's something."
Kurt shook his head "NYADA isn't going to care a-about that Blaine! Plus with my suspension...it's not gonna happen! You'll get in next year when you apply. You'll have the perfect app-application. You're p-perfect Blaine."
He knew he was farfrom perfect. "Hey, look at me."
Kurt looked up at him his beautiful eyes filled with tears. "You are getting into that school."
He swallowed his own tears and continued "You deserve this more than anyone!"
Kurt shook his head "w-what about my s-suspension?"
He smiled at his boyfriend "Don't worry about it." He lifted his chin "I'll take the fall for you."
Kurt's eyes widened and pulled away from Blaine "No! Absolutely not! I'm not going to let you throw away your future for me! You won't get into NYADA either! You're perfect for NYADA Blaine!"
He sighed he knew Kurt would have that reaction "Kurt, I'm not even going to apply to NYADA if you're not there! It wouldn't feel right going if you didn't get in."
Kurt shook his head, his boyfriend was honestly the sweetest person he's ever known. "The answer is still no Blaine!"
He knew it wouldn't be worth it to fight anymore, he opened his arms and Kurt snuggled into them again. "I love you Kurt."
"I love you too. I-I just don't know what to do I f-feel s-so useless."
It broke his heart to see him so upset and knowing there wasn't anythinghe could do about it. "Kurt, you are not useless! Far from it!"
Kurt shook his head crying on his shoulder. He didn't know how to make Kurt see howamazing he reallywas. He was perfectin his eyes. He smiled thinking to himself "That's it!"
He pulled away from Kurt and put his iPod into his iHome. "I love you Kurt, I want you to listen to this."
Kurt nodded, confused "Okay..." Listening to Blaine sing almost always made him feel better. He pressed play on his iPod.
"Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood, "
Kurt was crying he knew the song.
"Miss "No way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken,
Always second guessing
Underestimated,
Look i'm still around."
He took his hand letting Kurt know he meant every word he was singing as he looked at him tearfully and sang the chorus.
"Pretty pretty, please
Don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than...
Less than perfect.
Pretty pretty please !
If you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing"
He cupped his cheek
"You are perfect, to me."
Kurt choked back a sob as he listened to Blaine continue.
"You're so mean
When you talk
'Bout yourself,"
He looked Kurt directly in the eyes.
"You are wrong.
Change the voices,
In your head,
Make them like you
Instead."
He smiled sadly at Kurt
"So complicated
Look how big you'll make it
Feel with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough !
I've done all i can think of
Chase doown all my demons,
And see you do the same."
"Ohh, ohh!"
He took Kurt's hand again.
"Pretty pretty, please
Don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than...
Less than perfect.
Pretty pretty please !
If you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing"
He cupped his cheek
"You are perfect, to me."
He stood up and started the next verse.
"The whole world scared, while I swallowed the fear.
The only thing i should be drinkin' is an iced cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try,
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics cause they're everywhere,
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair.
Exchange yourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that ?
Why do I do that ?
Why do I do that ?"
Kurt chuckled at his Boyfriends attempt at rapping, it was adorable.
"Yeahh ! Ohh ! Oh pretty pretty please !
Pretty pretty, please
Don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than...
Less than perfect.
Pretty pretty please !
If you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing
You are perfect, to me !"
He pulled Kurt to his feet and sang
"You're perfect, you're perfect to me !
Pretty pretty, please
Don't you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing"
He wrapped his arms around Kurt's waist.
"You are perfect, to me..."
Kurt kissed him softly "I love you so much. Thank you."
He pulled him close to him "I love you too."
He cupped Kurt's cheek, "I meant every word I just sang. You are not useless, you areperfect. You make me happy. I love you more and more every day. NYADA or no NYADA. I love you more than anything and I'm so proudof you."
Kurt smiled sadly "I don't even think I'm going to apply now, there's no point."
He held him as he started to cry again. "Hey don't give up hope, ever. We'll figure something out, I promise."
Kurt hugged his boyfriend tightly "I love you so much. I don't know what I'd do without you."
He kissed his forehead. "I love you too. Luckily, you don't have to. I'm not going anywhere I promise." He hoped that he got across to Kurt, he was perfect in every way and that he believed with him, and he thinks he might have just done that.