Never Can Say Goodbye
LilLizzie94
Chapter 1: News on NYADA Story
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Never Can Say Goodbye: Chapter 1: News on NYADA


T - Words: 1,391 - Last Updated: Aug 31, 2012
Story: Closed - Chapters: 1/? - Created: Aug 31, 2012 - Updated: Aug 31, 2012
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Author's Notes: This is basically what happens AFTER he finds out he didn't get into NYADA
Chapter 1: News on NYADA

"I didn't get in...I didn't get in." Kurt said, looking at the letter that killed his hopes and dreams. Rachel didn't even need to open hers, they knew she got in, which she did. Kurt left Rachel and Finn alone, to celebrate. Blaine was waiting outside the choir room, to either celebrate or comfort him. Kurt took a deep breath before going out.

He was pacing back and forth. "Hi" Kurt said.

He turned and faced his boyfriend, when he saw the expression on his face, he knew. "Oh Kurt." he said before pulling him into his arms.

"I'm okay." Kurt whispered.

It was concerning to him because he knew his boyfriend better than that. Kurt's always trying to be strong, his dreams had just been crushed, but he knew Kurt wouldn't cry, not here anyway. He kissed his forehead. "Come on, I'll bring you home and we can cuddle and have some cheesecake okay?"

Kurt only nodded. He knew that Burt was at the shop, Carole was at work, and Finn would be with Rachel, they'd be all alone. "Hey I love you Kurt."

"I love you too."

The ride to Kurt's was silent. When they got there Kurt just stood in the doorway. "Go on up to your room, I'll get the cheesecake and I'll be right up."

Kurt trudged upstairs while he went into the kitchen. He didn't understand, his audition was flawless and Rachel choked on a song she'd been singing since she was two years old and stalked Carmen Tibideaux. And she's celebrating while Kurt's upstairs holding back tears, with his heart broken. It just wasn't fair. He took the cheesecake and a glass of water to his room. Kurt was sitting on his bed staring at the items sticky-noted pink for stay.

Okay, I've got the cheesecake." He said putting a smile on his face.

Kurt smiled sadly "Thank's Blaine."

"You're welcome."

Kurt just stared at the piece of cheesecake on his plate. "Don't you want it?"

Kurt shrugged "Oh come on...it's chocolate from Breadstix, your favorite."

Kurt shrugged again. "You wanna talk about it Kurt?" He asked as he took the plate and placed it on the bedside table.

"What's there to talk about? I got rejected, Rachel got in." Kurt looked at him with tears in his eyes "Rachel did more than I did, and when Madame Tibideaux saw her at Nationals, with her solo's that I didn't get, that's why."

He sighed "Kurt Sweetie..."

Kurt shook his head "Once again the universe has showed me that I'm not good enough!"

He looked at him "Hey" Kurt didn't look at him. "Kurt Elizabeth Hummel, look at me."

Kurt sighed and looked at him. "Don't think you're not good enough, you are!"

Kurt shook his head "No, not this time. I'm not good enough to get out of here! You got what you wanted Blaine, I'm staying here in Lima with you!!"

He knew Kurt didn't mean it, but that didn't mean it didn't hurt. "You're so mean." He knew he needed to hear their song. Did he want to? Probably not.

"Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than, less than perfect
Pretty,pretty please, if you ever, ever feel.
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me."

Kurt was just staring at him. "Kurt, sweetheart?"

"I can't Blaine, I'm nothing. I'm stuck, I'm a Lima loser. Why are you with me Blaine? you can do better."

He closed his eyes and held him close"Kurt, I meant what I said in Miss Pillsbury's office. You are the love of my life, Kurt. I made you a promise in December, to always love you, no matter what." He lifted Kurt's chin so he was looking at him. "I made you a promise and you know when I make a promise I keep it. I'm with you because I love you Kurt, so much it scares me sometimes. I'm a better person because of you, I'm stronger and-" He let out a shaky breath, cupping his cheek and wiping away a tear from his boyfriends face with his thumb. "Y-you made me believe in love again, Kurt."

"W-why are you crying?"

He chuckled "Kurt, you're my best friend and I love you." He smiled sadly at his boyfriend "But I know you try to be strong, your dreams were just crushed and you're hurting. It's just me, you don't have to be. I love you so much, but it breaks my heart to see you struggle being strong when you don't have to be all the time. I'm here okay? You don't need to wear a mask with me."

Kurt was biting his lip not looking at him but the wall. He squeezed his shoulder "Take off the mask, I love you Kurt, just let out, it's only me sweetheart."

Kurt squeezed his eyes shut as the tears he'd been holding back all day escaped and his shoulders shook as he sobbed. He was relieved, it worked. He wrapped his arms around him, gripped his shoulders like a life line. "I'm here, I love you." Kurt turned to him wrapping his arms around his neck, burying his head into the crook of his neck, sobbing. Kurt was heart broken but he still had Blaine. "I'm sorry."

He shushed him "Shh, it's okay, I'm here, I've got you."

Kurt continued to weep repeating "I didn't get in." over and over, while he held him close rubbing his back as he wept. It broke his heart to see him like that but he knew Kurt needed to cry it out. "I love you, I'm here and it's okay." He whispered in his ear as he let him cry.

After a while, Kurt put his head on his shoulder sniffling as he kept whispering "I love you." As he closed his eyes he remembered and realized what he'd said to Blaine... "You got what you wanted Blaine, I'm staying here in Lima with you!", and began to weep again. "I'm So s-sorry Blaine! IT's n-not your f-"

He placed his finger on his lips silencing him. "Shh, no it's okay Baby."

Kurt shook his head "No it's not! I blamed you! I'm sorry!"

He shook his head "No, it's okay." He cupped his face in his hands, looking into his beautiful eyes, even though they were red and puffy from crying, they were still beautiful. "You were distraught, I know you didn't mean it. It's okay Kurt, really."

Kurt nodded "I'm Sorry I said it, I really didn't mean it." Kurt said sniffling.

"I know." He said holding him close kissing his temple.

"You're my rock y'know. I- I couldn't do this without you Blaine."

He pressed a kiss to his temple. "I know Kurt, and you're mine." He held him closer as he said "You're never alone."

Kurt cried silently burying his head into the crook of Blaine's neck inhaling his scent before pulling away slightly resting his forehead on Blaine's "I love you so much Blaine." Kurt whispered.

He kissed him softly on the lips before replying "I love you too Kurt."

Kurt smiled at him. "Lay with me, hold me?" Kurt pleaded.

He smiled at him "Of course Kurt. " He layed on his boyfriend's bed holding his arms out to him. Kurt sighed and layed in his arms cuddled next to him resting his head on Blaine's chest as he wrapped his arms around him. "I love you." He kissed the top of his head "I love you too."

Kurt fell asleep within minutes to the sound of his boyfriend's heartbeat. Only after he was sure that Kurt was asleep did he let himself cry. He wept for his boyfriend's pain , and he couldn't help his pain fully. He remembered how Kurt felt filling out his application, the only one he finished, and how sure he felt after his audition. He heard a soft knock at the door. "Come in." He said.

It was Burt. "So?" He sighed and shook his head. Burt sighed "How is he?"

He sighed "Cried for over an hour, and fell asleep a while ago."

Burt nodded "You can stay the night. They came y'know."

He nodded "Thanks, oh great. Tomorrow?"

Burt nodded "Okay. Dinner's in an hour."

He nodded as he left. He looked at his boyfriend, he still had drying tear tracks on his cheeks, and his nose was red from crying but he looked peaceful. He just hoped that tonight would be okay, and that tomorrow would be a better day.

End Notes: Yeah, I hope you enjoyed! Let me know what you thought!With Love and Klainebows,Lizzie

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