The weekend had been really hard for them, it was a very emotional one at that full of anger, sadness and confusion. Kurt was dreading going to school today, he knew he wouldn’t be able to concentrate on anything but he couldn’t tell his dad what happened his heart couldn’t handle it, not to mention he has a shotgun with Blaine’s name on it if he hurt him. He went to do his moisturizing and went downstairs to eat breakfast. His dad smiled at him. “Hey kiddo! Heard from Blaine?”

He shook his head having to hold back tears at just hearing the name. “N-no, I’m sure he just needs to cool off is all.”

“What did you two fight about anyway?”

“It’s nothing really dad, it’ll work out eventually…”

Burt nodded “I’m sure it will. Now hurry up and eat or you’ll be late for school.”

He nodded and got up to his car.

“Kurt! Wait up bro!”

He sighed “What do you want Finn?”

“You can’t keep lying to him forever you know…you’re going to have to tell him eventually.”

He sighed “I know Finn, I’m trying to figure out what to tell him so just don’t say anything okay?”

Finn sighed “Kurt, you need to figure out something soon. If he comes to me and asks me I’m not going to lie to him okay?”

He nodded “I will…just drop it okay?”

Finn nodded and got in his truck and drove off.

He got into his Navigator and drove to school completely dreading the day.

Mercedes was waiting for him when he got to his locker. She smiled sadly at him. “Hey Boo…how’re you holding up?”

He sighed “As well as can be expected.”

“How’d your dad take it?”

He looked down “He doesn’t know…all he knows is that we had a fight, he can’t handle that kind of stress right now.”

Mercedes shook her head “Ok boo…”

He opened his locker and there was the picture of Blaine and the word Courage. He just stared at it.

“Kurt, you okay?” she asked.

He shook his head. “N-no.”

She hugged him “It’s okay Boo… You want me to take it down for you?”

He nodded “Yeah just put it in my bag, I have a box I’m collecting the stuff in.”

She nodded and took it down and put it in his bag. “Come on, let’s go. I’ve already told everyone not to say anything.”

He nodded “Thanks.” He went through the day with only one meltdown when he heard Santana talking to Karofsky about it.

He finally made it to Glee practice, it was the only class everyone had together and as soon as he went into the room the room fell completely silent. “Uh, don’t let me interrupt your conversations…carry on.”

He took his usual seat in the back of the room.

Mr. Schuester came in “Okay guys, Nationals in a month people time to get working on it!”

He looked at Kurt. “Are you alright?”

He nodded “Yeah, just a really lousy weekend. I’m fine.”

He lied he wasn’t fine.

Mr. Schue nodded “I heard…I’m really sorry Kurt.”

He just nodded and Mr. Schue carried on with his lesson until there was a knock at the door. Mr. Schue opened the door and froze in his tracks.

“Can I um..”

Mr. Schue sighed “I don’t know if it’s a good idea, Blaine.”

Everyone’s heads turned towards the door and Kurt’s heart raced.

“Just let him in Mr. Schue…I haven’t talked to him and NOBODY is to lay finger on him okay!?”

They all grumbled agreements.

Blaine walked inside and looked at him. He was stunned at his appearance, he was out of uniform with a guitar in his hand, in just jeans and a t-shirt, hair ungelled and looked like he hadn’t slept in days…he looked worse than Kurt did, who was just wearing jeans and a t-shirt but he looked more kept.

“Hey Kurt.”

He sighed “Hi, what are you doing here?”

Blaine sighed “Um, I needed to talk to you about what happened. Well you know I really suck at it so, I have something I want to sing,”

He looked at Mr. Schuester. “if that’s okay?” Mr. Schue nodded.

He felt Mercedes taking his hand giving it a reassuring squeeze as she noticed him tense. He looked at her and gave her a small smile.

Blaine looked at Kurt and began to sing a slower acoustic version of I wanna Hold Your Hand

Yeah I’ll tell you something
I think you’ll understand
When I, say that something
I wanna hold your hand

I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

He already felt tears coming to his eyes and Blaine had just started the song

Oh please, say to me
You’ll let me be your man
And please, say to me
You’ll let me hold your hand!

Now let me hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

Blaine wasn’t sure if Kurt really was getting what he was trying to say with the song at all and looked at Kurt when he sang the next part, to let him know that he was being sincere.

And when I touch you,
I feel happy Inside
It’s such a feeling that my love,
I can’t hide!
I can’t hide
I can’t hide!

Blaine couldn’t help but shed a few tears when he saw Kurt crying freely as he continued.

Yeah you!
Got that something
I think you’ll understand.
When I feel that something
I wanna hold your hand

I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

Once Blaine finished the song everyone’s eyes were on Kurt. Kurt looked at Blaine and shook his head running out of the choir room. He tossed his guitar to Puck and ran out after him. “Kurt! Wait!”

Kurt was headed into the direction of the auditorium and he wasn’t surprised…it was one of the few places Kurt went to when he was upset.

He was sitting on the stage crying. He slowly walked over. “Kurt…”

Kurt sniffled “Why did you do that?”

He sighed “I love you Kurt.” He sighed “Look, I talked to Jake, Thad, Flint, Wes and even James…I’m an idiot Kurt, I was just…”

Kurt sighed “Just what Blaine?”

“Look, I don’t know what I was thinking…”

Kurt shook his head “Yeah you did Blaine. You remembered what you went through with Logan…even though last weekend you said you finally realized that I wasn’t Logan.”

Kurt took a deep breath. “Blaine, when we got together do you remember what I told you? How I would never do what Logan did to you? I meant that, Kurt Michael Hummel always keeps his promises Blaine, always!"

“Kurt, I know that, I do. I just, I love you too much you know, and seeing you just kissing someone else. You need to understand how scared and hurt I was!”

Kurt shook his head “You? What about me Blaine? You don’t think I wasn’t hurt or scared about that? Part of the reason why I couldn’t sleep was because I was terrified about what I’d see once I closed my eyes! Blaine, do you know how much it hurt me when you thought that I betrayed you and would purposely do something to hurt you?”

He wiped his eyes “I have a good idea…I just want you to know, that I love you Kurt, more than anything and that I am sorry.”

Kurt turned around placing his hands on the stage and then turned back to face Blaine and said “Blaine, I do love you. But you didn’t let me explain what happened! You let your stubbornness get in the way again.” Kurt took his hand and flipped it over and placed something in it.

“You’re bracelet?”

Kurt nodded. “Blaine, I do love you. You need to know that. As much as I want to be with you and it kills me but I think…I think I just need some space…time.”

He let tears roll of his cheeks his worst fears were realized. “Kurt…what?”

“Blaine, you didn’t let me explain myself and I need time to just figure this out okay? I want you to take this, just while I try to figure it out okay?”

He nodded. “Y-yeah okay. I love you Kurt.”

Kurt smiled sadly “I know, I do too.”

Kurt gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek. “I’m doing this for us okay? If you love me like you say you do, I know that you’ll respect this and my decision.”

He nodded “Okay Kurt…So I’ll see you later?”

Kurt nodded and tearfully said “Definitely.” And with that Blaine left the auditorium in tears. They weren’t back together, but he had hope but it still didn’t mean the hurt wasn’t still there.