Chapter 1

"Sorry Im late," Blaine breathes heavily, walking into the little music store.

"Youre late every day, Blaine," Blaines boss, Frank, tells him, but he isnt mad, he never is.

"Yeah, I know, Im trying to get better, but-"

"Blaine, its alright. I know you have a lot going on and there arent many customers this early on the day anyway, so Im okay alone for a little while."

Blaine nods and starts unpacking some new CDs that came in this morning. Frank is a good guy. He is a middle aged man and is the owner of this music store. He used to be a music teacher before he moved to New York with his wife and kids. He told Blaine he loved working as a teacher, but he needed to do something else, something different. And since he loves music, a store suits him perfectly.

The day goes by slow, not many people coming this afternoon so Frank closes early. Blaine says goodbye to Frank before walking out. He checks his phone and sees that Iris has text him a little while ago.

Lunch? –I

You got time now? –B

Blaine walks to the subway and takes the red line up to 103 St. He gets a text form Iris telling him she will be at their usual spot in five minutes. Blaine walks down Broadway when something catches his eye. He sees a familiar name on a poster and walks closer to get a better look at it. Blaine stops breathing. Demons of the Neighborhood is playing in three days… Kurt… he is here. He has seen pictures in magazines and they have been on TV, but never a poster about them having a concert in New York. Maybe he should go? No, he cant do that! Why would he go? He doesnt know Kurt anymore, he belongs in the past. He is not going back to that part of his life, he is done with that. He needs to let it go. But Kurt used to be a good friend… He can just see him, Blaine doesnt need to talk to him. No, he cant go, he needs to stop punishing himself. Its just a stupid concert. And he cant get a ticket now anyway, they are definitely sold out.

Blaine continues walking down Broadway, pretending he didnt see anything. When he gets to 100 St. he walks into the diner. He finds a nice place by the window to sit, trying not to think about Kurt. Its impossible not to though.

It doesnt take long before Iris comes in, saving Blaine from his thoughts. She smiles when she sees him and Blaine smiles back. She hugs him before sitting down. They order two coffees and two sandwiches.

"So how are you stranger?" Iris asks.

Blaine smiles, "Im good, stressed, but good."

Iris rolls her eyes, "Honey, you need to relax more. Youre going to kill yourself if you continue this way."

"Im fine," Blaine tells her, but she doesnt believe him, "but how are you?"

Iris shrugs and the waiter comes with their coffees.

"What?" Blaine asks, taking a sip of his coffee.

"Brad is an idiot" Iris informs Blaine.

Blaine rolls his eyes, "Thats old news. What did he do this time?"

"Fucking Ashley" she says with an angry voice and an elderly couple at the table nearby looks over at them.

Blaine stops his hand which was about to bring the coffee cup to his mouth, "What?"

"Yeah, he-"

"Wait, Ashley, Ashley?" Blaine asks, not believing this, putting down his cup.

"Yes, Blaine, Ashley who you almost slept with at that party years ago and Ive been friends with for years," Iris sighs, closing her eyes.

Blaine met Iris five years ago, their first year at NYADA, and they also met Ashley at a party that first year. Blaine was in a really dark place at that time and Ashley was there. Luckily, Iris jumped in and saved him. Blaine hasnt really talked to Ashley after that, but she and Iris became good friends. Apparently not so good friends anymore now though.

The waiter comes with the sandwiches and Blaine thanks her. Blaine moves over to the side of the table and Iris opens her eyes. She has an amazing brown eye color and Blaine tells her this often. She is really beautiful and many guys can see this. Iris is good with picking the bad guys though, something Blaine had a feeling would happen this time too with Brad.

Iris pulls her brown, soft hair behind her ear and looks at Blaine, "I dont care about Brad; hes just a jackass, but Ashley…"

Blaine hugs her, "Im so sorry, Iris."

Iris pulls away after a moment, "Its fine, Im over it." She says, sounding like she is trying to convince herself instead of Blaine, "Lets not talk about this; I want to have some fun, not crying."

Blaine smiles, "Sounds good, but I have to go in an hour."

Iris rolls her eyes, "I know, Blaine."

oooo

"Kurt, were here" Quinn shakes Kurts shoulder and he wakes up. He looks out of the window and looks at the city in front of him. The first thing he thinks about is Blaine. Does he still live here? Its been five years so he would be done with NYADA by now. What is he doing?

Kurt sighs and hates he is still thinking about Blaine. He tries to forget about him, but nothing works. He sleeps with guys, drinks, plays music, but Kurt doesnt feel anything. Nothing compares to Blaine.

Kurt looks around the bus and can see Puck is still sleeping. Dylan is listing to music and they look at each other for a second, both smiling slightly, before Dylan looks away. Kurt thinks about that night they last spent together. It was the time he also talked to Blaine the last time. After Blaine had called, Kurt stopped living for a few months. He didnt go to the studio, didnt go out, didnt eat with the others - didnt really eat much at all - and didnt talk much to anyone. Kurt isnt sure why he suddenly got out of bed and got back to the old Kurt, but he did and has tried everything to stop thinking about Blaine. Nothing works though, nothing will ever work.

He and Dylan are okay now though. They are passed everything that happened in high school. Kurt is happy to have a friend like Dylan; he is a nice guy, something Kurt didnt see five years ago.

The band is doing really good. They have released three albums and are now touring for the third album. Kurt hasnt really written anything since the first album. For Kurt, the first album is the most personal one since he wrote most of the music and sang on many of the songs. And they were all really personal, things that he needed to get out of his system at that time. The other albums are not the same.

They have been traveling all around the world this summer and are now on their last stop: New York City. They are going to stay here for a few weeks since its their last stop and Kurt isnt really sure what to feel about it. He hasnt been in Manhattan since he met Blaine. On the other tour they didnt go there since Kurt refused to, but this time he couldnt say no. Jace told him there are too many fans here to not perform so Kurt didnt really have a choice. Kurt might just go back to LA after the concert. It would be nice to be alone for a little while.

The bus stops and they get out and a few girls gasp when they see them. Kurt sighs, but gives them a little smile. They ask for a picture and an autograph, which they give to the girls before they run away. Kurt quickly walks into to the building to avoid more fans and the others walk after him up to their apartment. Its a big place, 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, huge kitchen and a living room. Puck and Quinn share a bedroom like they always do and Dylan and Kurt take the two others.

After unpacking, Kurt finds his sunglasses before walking out. Its been a long time since he has been here, he has to look around. He pulls the hood of his sweater over his head and puts on the sunglasses, trying to hide his face as much as possible. Its warm with his dark hood, but Kurt doesnt take it off. He walks around in Greenwich Village, noticing there are a lot of posters about them having a concert tomorrow night. Kurt smiles a little.

Kurt buys a coffee and sits down on a bench in the park. He watches the people walking by. Some walk with their dogs, some walk with their kids and some just walk alone. A teenage boy looks at Kurt for a second, probably wondering if its him or not, before he continues walking.

Kurt loves being in the band, but they should seriously have thought about some way to avoid people in the streets. They should have done the same as Kiss did, it would be a lot easier. Then he could just walk down the street without worrying about fans stopping him.

After sitting in the park for a while, Kurt walks around some more. He gets a text from Quinn, saying they have a meeting in an hour, so Kurt starts moving towards the subway. Kurt sees a music store on the other side of the street and decides to just take a little look before going back.

He looks inside the window as he walks towards the door when he abruptly stops in his tracks. Is it him? Can it be? Kurt looks a little closer and gasps. Its Blaine. Blaine is here. Blaine is still in New York. Fuck, what should he do now? Does he say hello? He looks so good, older and more mature. And that ass… he can never forget it. Blaine turns around towards where Kurt is standing outside and Kurt quickly starts walking again, pretending he wasnt looking. Thank god he is wearing the hood and sunglasses, or else Blaine would have seen him.

Xx

"Where were you today?" Quinn asks and Kurt only shrugs, not wanting to talk about it.

They are done practicing for today. They have played their songs enough times now to only go through them once before the concert.

"Are you okay?" Quinn frowns and Kurt nods.

They walk out of the door and Kurt looks at his phone. Its only 3pm. He will probably still be there. Kurt thinks about going back. Just one more time. That wont hurt, right?

"I just have to go do something," Kurt tells the others, "Ill see you guys later."

He walks away before anyone can answer.

It takes too long. Everything is going painfully slow; the subway, the people in front of him that wont step aside so he can walk pass them. The only thing going fast is his stressing thoughts.

Finally he gets there and his heart pounds inside his chest. He carefully looks inside through the window. There he is. Right there, laughing at something an older guy is saying. Kurt takes a closer look at Blaine. He hasnt changed much, just a little older and more hair, both head and face. He looks tired. Not only from lack of sleep, but also tired of life. He looks exhausted. Kurt frowns, is he okay?

Should he go inside? He wants to make sure Blaine is okay, but Kurt doesnt think that is the first question you ask after five years without seeing each other. But should he go inside anyway? What is he supposed to say? Does Blaine even want to see him?

No, he has to talk to him, even if its not the best idea. He will regret not doing it. Maybe this will help him move on. Blaine is probably in a relationship, so Kurt knows there isnt a chance for them again. Does he even want that?

Kurt takes a deep breath and opens the door, taking his sunglasses off. Here it goes, no turning back now. His heart stops when the bell over the door rings, announcing his present. Blaine and the other guy turn around with a welcoming smile, but Blaines vanishes in a second and the CDs in his hands shatter on the floor. They all jump at the sound, but Blaine and Kurt never break their eye connection. None of them say anything and Kurt can hear the older guy mumbling something before walking away.

"Kurt…?" Blaine mumbles and just the sound of his voice makes Kurt shiver.

Kurt tries to smile, but he cant move his mouth. He cant move anything. Blaine moves a little closer, a look of shock in his eyes. His fingers are tickling to touch Blaine. They dont say anything, but Kurt has to do something. He moves closer to him this time and carefully hugs Blaine. Blaine freezes for a second before wrapping his arms around Kurt.

None of them are sure what to do next, shocked to see each other again. Kurt mumbles a hey, feeling stupid, but he cant think of anything better to say. Kurt can feel Blaine breathe heavily against his neck, bringing old memories back. Blaine whispers a hello back before taking a step back.

If this was five years ago, they would kiss hello. That wont happen this time though. Of course it wont! Fuck, Kurt stop thinking like this!

"What are you doing here?" Blaine asks.

"I-I walked passed and saw you," Kurt says.

They are still standing really close, looking into each others eyes. Blaine really looks tired, but still amazing. He is so close… only a little closer and Kurt can… Stop! No! Not doing this! Blaine has probably moved on. Blaine doesnt want this and neither should Kurt.

"Its been so long…" Blaine says and Kurt nods.

"Five years, Kurt says even though Blaine knows it.

Blaine looks down at Kurts lips before moving them further down. Kurt stops breathing again. Is he even breathing at all right now? Did he just look at Kurts lips? Thats a sign right?

"Blaine-", Kurt starts, but the bell over the door rings.

They both jump and look towards the door. A teenage girl walks in and smiles a little before walking over to the shelves with CDs.

"I should get back to work…" Blaine sighs and looks at Kurt again.

Kurt tires not to look disappointed, but he fails. Thats it then…. Kurt nods and is about to walk out when Blaine stops him.

"Can we… meet tonight?"

Hope fills Kurt again and he nods quickly.

"Yeah sure," he says, trying to stay calm.

Blaine smiles a little and nods, "Ill call you, okay? You still got the same number?"

"Yeah, its the same," Kurt says and smiles, "Ill see you tonight then."

Blaine nods and Kurt walks out, smiling brightly.

oooo

"Hey, its Blaine," Blaine says into the phone nervously.

"Hey," Kurt answers awkwardly.

Blaine can hear someone talking in the background, but ignores it. Well, he tries to ignore it. Its a guy, what if its Kurts guy? No, it doesnt matter, they arent getting back together. It cant happen. They are only going out as friends. Kurt will probably not stay in New York for long anyways.

"I know of this great place to eat if youre hungry?" Blaine asks.

"Yeah, that sounds good," Kurt says and the guy in the background laughs.

Blaine takes a deep breath, trying not to get paranoid or jump to any conclusions.

"Okay great, Ill text you the address and meet you there in an hour?"

"Perfect," Kurt says and Blaine tries to breathe normally.

Its been so long since he has heard Kurts voice.

"Great," Blaine says and hangs up.

He quickly text Kurt the address before walking into the living room.

"Is this really a good idea?" Cooper asks and Blaine rolls his eyes.

"Its just dinner, Coop."

"You sure about that?" Cooper asks, but Blaine decides to ignore it.

"Im going to take a shower; youll be okay here, right?"

"Of course, you go have fun."

Blaine quickly takes a shower and finds some nice, but not too nice clothes to wear. He gets to the restaurant a little early. A man shows him to the table and Blaine sits down. Its a nice table by the window and not too many people around so its quiet enough to talk.

Kurt comes in ten minutes later and they both smile at each other.

"Hey," Kurt says and takes off his jacket.

He is wearing a dark blue shirt and dark pants. He has changed a little. His hair is darker with some lighter highlights in the bangs; he doesnt have his pink hair anymore. It looks much better this way. Really good…

"Hey," Blaine says back.

They order some food and something to drink. Blaine doesnt really drink much anymore, but tonight is an exception.

"So…" Kurt says and they both chuckle, "where to start?"

Blaine smiles, "Lets start with you, Mr. Rockstar. How is it?"

Kurt laughs at the nickname, "Well… its been crazy. Not exactly what I imagined I would do after high school, but I love playing, I really do. The other stuff… not really my thing. The photo shoots and interviews and stuff."

Blaine nods, "Yeah, youve gotten pretty popular."

Kurt rolls his eyes with a smile, "I guess. Were having a concert here. Weve been on tour for a few months now and were ending it here."

"Yeah, I saw a poster." Blaine says.

"Yeah, were having a best of concert tomorrow since its our last this year"

"Are you working on a new album?" Blaine asks.

Kurt shakes his head, "No, not yet. We havent really talked about that. Were staying here for a while to take a little break, so well see after that."

Blaine nods, "Im really happy for you and the band, you deserve it."

Kurt smiles, "Thanks. So what about you?"

"Oh… Well you know Im working at the music store…"

Kurt nods, "What happened with NYADA?"

"Didnt really work out," Blaine says, looking down.

"Im sorry… You didnt like it?" Kurt asks.

Before Blaine can answer, the waiter comes with their food. Thank God…

Blaine looks up from his food and can see Kurt is still waiting for an answer, "Yeah, I liked it, but something got in the way."

It looks like Kurt understands Blaine doesnt want to talk about it, so he nods before changing the subject. Kurt knows him so well, he could always see what Blaine was feeling.

"What about Cooper and everyone else? You keep in touch with any of them?"

"I moved here with Cooper after graduation and two years ago he got married."

"Wow, thats great," Kurt says surprised, but happy for Cooper.

"Yeah… It isnt going so well right now though, so he is living with me again for a little while."

"Oh, that sucks… Tell him I hope it works out for him", Kurt says.

Blaine nods, but his stomach sinks. Does this mean he wont see Kurt again? Is it only for tonight?

"You probably know about Finn and Rachel?" Blaine asks, not wanting to think more about it.

Kurt nods, "Yeah I saw it in a magazine, they seem happy. Happened fast though."

Blaine nods, "Yeah it did,"

"Cant believe they want kids so young…" Kurt thinks more to himself, but Blaine clearly hears it.

Blaine nods, looking down at his food again and taking a bite from his chicken.

Xx

After they are done with dinner, they walk outside and start walking down the street. Both of them have had a little too much to drink, but Blaine can think clearly. Neither of them says anything. The dinner was nice enough, but it was a little awkward at times. At least Blaine thinks so. Why did he ask to meet Kurt? He should have known it would be awkward.

Kurt stops and takes Blaines hand to stop him too. Blaine stops breathing for a second. Even though it was an awkward dinner, Kurt can still make him feel warm and breathless.

"This was bad… well not bad, but not good," Kurt says chuckling and it surprises Blaine, "Can we just go do something else?"

"Oh… like what?" Blaine asks, a little relieved Kurt also thought the dinner was awkward.

"I have an idea," Kurt says and starts walking again.

They dont walk long before Kurt stops outside a door.

"Where are we?" Blaine asks and Kurt opens the door.

He doesnt answer and they walk to the elevator. Its a nice place, a really nice expensive place. Where are we?

"Kurt, where are we?" Blaine asks again when the elevator starts going up.

"My apartment," Kurt smiles, "Well, ours, the band. But they arent here right now, so I thought we could stay here a little."

Blaine doesnt say anything, too many thoughts running in his head. Kurt brought him to his apartment where no one else will be. So they will be alone. Is this his plan? Does he have some plans for tonight? No, this is Kurt. Okay, that doesnt really help much. If it wasnt Blaine, this would totally be his plan, but he doesnt have any plans with Blaine. Right?

"Sorry, I didnt mean to make you uncomfortable…" Kurt says when the door opens, "I just thought we could be alone and talk about whatever we want without people and nerves being in the way."

Blaine tries to relax and nods, "Its fine, that sounds nice."

Kurt smiles and opens the door to the apartment. Its a really nice place, not a big surprise though. Of course they have an amazing place, being as successful as they are.

Kurt finds something to drink, a lot stronger than what they had at the restaurant. What the hell, its just for one night. He sends a text to Cooper, telling him he will be a little later than planned. Cooper texts back its fine and that they have to remember protection. Blaine rolls his eyes and tells him its not like that before putting his phone back in his pocket.

After a few drinks, more lightheaded and long conversations that never becomes awkward, Kurt tells Blaine to follow him outside. Blaine grins and follows Kurt. They walk outside on the terrace.

Its a big terrace with green bushes around it and a view over the city. To the left there is a Jacuzzi and by the door there is a cozy sitting area.

"Wow…" Blaine says and Kurt nods.

"Yeah pretty much."

They both laugh and walk, more like stumble, towards the Jacuzzi.

"Wanna get in?" Kurt asks and Blaine raises an eyebrow.

"What? I didnt bring anything to wear."

"We dont need that," Kurt says and starts to unbutton his shirt, looking at Blaine; a look Blaine knows too well.

Blaine stares for a second and swallows, chills running up his back.

This cant happen though.

"Kurt…"

"Blaine, relax, were just going to get into the water,"

Kurt takes off his shirt and his pants, and gets into the water. Blaine licks his lips and takes off his clothes too before joining Kurt. Blaine sees Kurts tattoo on his chest and smiles a little, remembering that time in bed when he told Blaine about them.

The warm water feels amazing and Blaine can finally relax completely. He really needs this, get away from everything and just relax. Kurt fills their glasses and they sit in the water for a while without talking.

"Are you happy?" Kurt suddenly asks, looking at Blaine.

Blaine thinks about this for a little while. Its a hard question and not something he has thought about lately.

"I just… when I think about you, Im worried youre not. That is the most important thing," Kurt tells Blaine and Blaine can feel butterflies in his stomach.

Kurt thinks about him and worries about him. Blaine does that too, but he always thought Kurt wouldnt care anymore.

"Sometimes I guess," Blaine says, "Of course I didnt picture my life to turn out this way."

"What do you mean?" Kurt asks and moves a little closer.

Blaine shakes his head, not looking at Kurt, "Never mind, what about you? Are you happy?"

Kurt shrugs, "On stage Im happy; I love playing. But the second Im off the stage… I dont know."

They look at each other and Blaine doesnt even notice he is moving closer to Kurt.

"Blaine…" Kurt whispers. Blaine isnt sure if Kurt is approving or disapproving this. He probably doesnt know himself.

Blaine tries to breathe normal, but he cant. He breathes embarrassingly loud and he can see Kurt smile slightly. He looks down at Blaines mouth and Blaines eyes fall down on Kurts for a second. He forces them up to Kurts eyes again.

"W-we cant," Blaine whispers back, placing a hand on Kurts chest to stop him.

Kurt touches Blaines leg under the water, "Why not? Blaine, I cant stop thinking about you, Ive never stopped."

Blaine doesnt answer; his brain doesnt work and his heart is pounding in his ears. Kurt takes this opportunity and kisses Blaine softly. So Kurt approves… But does Blaine? Does he really want to get involved with Kurt again?

"Ive missed you so much," Kurt whispers and Blaines heart jumps a beat.

Maybe its because he is drunk or maybe its because its been so long since he has been with anyone, whatever the reason is, Blaine needs to kiss Kurt again. He grabs Kurts shoulders and pushes him closer so their lips touch. Kurt moans and deepens the kiss.

Kurts hand run down Blaines leg and brings it around his hips. Blaine wraps them around Kurt and can feel how excited Kurt is. Blaine moans, feeling Kurts member against his ass, and tilts his head back. This is so wrong, but still it feels so right.

Kurt sucks on Blaines neck and Blaine moves his hands down Kurts back. Memories of them five years ago flash inside Blaines head and he cant help but moan loudly.

"We shouldnt do this," Blaine says, even though he just wants to let go and do this just one more time.

"Why not?" Kurt asks again, "Just relax, Blaine, its okay," Kurt whispers, still sucking on Blaines neck and his hands on Blaines ass.

Thats a good question. Why not do this just one more time? But will it only be one more time if they sleep together now? Can Blaine really handle this?

"Because… because its been five years and a lot has happened since."

Kurt pulls back and they look at each other.

"Are you still unsure?" Kurt frowns slightly, "Or are you dating someone?"

"Kurt, I just cant do this, okay?" Blaine says and gets out of the water.

He quickly puts his clothes on as Kurt gets out of the water too. Blaine walks towards the door.

"Blaine, you dont have to leave, Im sorry I didnt mean to push you or something. I didnt think."

"I wasnt thinking either. I just need to go, Im sorry" Blaine says, not looking back at Kurt, and walks out of the door.

oooo

"Hey," Quinn says when she walks out on the porch and looks around, "What happened here? Do you have company?"

"Nope, not anymore," Kurt mumbles grumpily in the Jacuzzi.

Quinn lifts an eyebrow, "Wanna talk about it?"

Kurt shakes his head no.

"Alright," Quinn sighs and takes off her pants and shirt so she is only in her underwear, "Talk to me."

"What are you doing?" Kurt asks, not looking at Quinn as she gets into the water.

"Oh, come on, there are three guys in this house and two of them dont care and one has seen a lot more than this."

Kurt makes a face, "I dont need a picture."

Quinn rolls her eyes, "Im not the bad guy here; I dont bring guys home with me and wake up the whole house."

Kurt rolls his eyes, "You sure about that? I think we all know where your soft spots are."

Quinn grins a little before getting serious, "Whatever, tell me what happened"

Kurt shrugs, "its nothing"

"Fine" Quinn says and notice Puck and Dylan coming towards them.

"Whats going on here?" Puck asks and takes of his shirt to join.

Dylan hesitates before joining too. Puck takes a seat beside Quinn and Dylan finds a place between Puck and Kurt.

"What have you been doing?" Puck asks, looking at the two glasses with alcohol in them.

"Nothing, just had some company," Kurt says and stands up, "Im gonna go to bed."

Xx

Kurt wakes up and looks at his phone. 6 am… He couldnt sleep last night, his thoughts were running in his head of everything that has happened since he met Blaine again. He didnt fall asleep before 4 am, so to wake up now, its not appealing. Kurt tries to sleep some more, but his thoughts are still all over the place.

With a sigh, Kurt gets up. He takes a long shower and eats some breakfast. He decides to go out for a walk. Maybe that will calm his thoughts a little. He thinks about going to the music store where Blaine works. He wants to talk to him, tell him he is sorry, but something inside him tells him he shouldnt.

He ends up going to Madison Square Park, which is not too far away from where Blaine works, and buys a coffee and a croissant. He watches a woman with a dog, when suddenly he hears his name. He looks up, and so do many of the people around him. He can see four girls, maybe 17 years old; look at Kurt before seeing who called him. Damn it.

Kurt looks at the source of the voice and is surprised to find Patrick, a guy from Portland he used to fool around with, standing not too far away. Before any of them can say anything, the four girls are asking for autographs and pictures. Kurt quickly gives them what they want before walking over to Patrick, who is grinning.

"Patrick? What are you doing here?" Kurt asks confused.

"I live here," He tells Kurt, "What about you? I have to say, I didnt see you as a famous guitar player."

"Not what I expected either…" Kurt tells him honestly, "So hows it going with you? Whats new?"

Patrick shrugs and they sit down on a bench, "Not much really. Im working as a personal trainer."

Kurt isnt surprised by this, Patrick loves working out. You can see it clearly too, Kurt thinks to himself as he looks over Patrick.

"Thats cool," Kurt says and Patrick nods.

"What about you? Beside the band of course."

"Um, nothing really. Ive been on tour for a while now, but I live in LA. Im just staying here for a few weeks before going back."

"Anyone special, or is that even a question?" Patrick asks, chuckling.

"No, no one special," Kurt mumbles, looking down.

"Wow, did someone actually break Kurt Hummels heart?" Patrick says, not believing it.

Kurt looks up and frowns, "What? No, why would you think that?"

"Because your face is screaming it," Patrick says simply, grinning.

Kurt shakes his head and rolls his eyes, "It was a long time ago, Im over it."

Patrick hums, "Whatever you say, but I have to go now, I have an appointment soon. It was good seeing you babe, we should get together sometime."

Patrick winks and walks away.

Kurt sits for a little longer before deciding to get out of here. He is about to walk over the road when he sees Blaine. He stops and looks at him. Should he say hi? Is Blaine still mad at him for last night?

Before he can think of what to do, Blaine turns towards him and sees him. Kurt tries to smile, but it doesnt quite work. Blaine seems to be dwelling too about what to do, but eventually he walks over.

"Hey…" he says, "Im sorry about last night."

Kurt shakes his head, "No, dont be, it was my fault."

Blaine looks down for a second before looking back at Kurt, "So what are you doing here?"

"Just needed to go out for a walk and get some fresh air," Kurt shrugs, "Youre going to work?"

Blaine shakes his head, "I was supposed to, but I just got a text from my boss saying I dont have to come today."

"Oh, okay," Kurt says awkwardly, wanting to ask, but feeling like he shouldnt.

Of course he wants to ask if Blaine would like to do something since he doesnt have work, but after last night he isnt sure thats a good idea.

Its an awkward silence and Kurt cant handle this anymore, "Would you like some coffee?" he blurts out.

Blaine thinks for a second before nodding, "Sure, why not?" he smiles and they walk down the street.

They find a nice café and they both order a coffee and a little cookie. They sit down on a couch in the corner of the small café and they start to eat.

"Sorry I just ran out last night," Blaine apologizes again.

Kurt shakes his head, "Really, its fine, I should be the one to apologize. I was way too pushy."

"And Im not confused, "Blaine says and Kurt frowns, "You asked me if that was the reason last night. I know Im gay"

"Oh, right, okay, but thats good."

Blaine nods slightly and they change the subject.

"I should go…" Blaine says after a few hours of drinking coffee and talking.

Kurt nods, "Yeah, of course."

They walk out of the café and smile at each other.

"If you dont have anything to do tonight, I would like it if you came to our concert." Kurt says.

"Dont you need tickets?" Blaine asks confused.

"Not when you know the guitarist," Kurt grins and Blaine chuckles.

"Okay, if I have time I would love to."

Kurt smiles brightly, "Great, just say your name and they will let you in."

Blaine nods, "Okay, bye" and kisses Kurt on the cheek.

oooo

"Hey, Im Blaine Anderson, Im a… Im a friend of Kurt Hummel," Blaine says to the guy by the entrance of Madison Square Garden.

The guy checks his list before calling over another guy. The other guy walks over to them with a smile. He is tall with dark short hair; Blaine can see why he is security. The two guys say something to each other before the guy with dark hair asks Blaine to follow him.

"Is everything okay?" Blaine asks when the guy guides him another way than all the other people are going.

"Oh yes, sorry," The guy says and opens a door, "Mr. Hummel wants you backstage and-"

"Backstage?" Blaine frowns.

The man nods, "Thats right."

After going down a few hallways and through some more doors, they are backstage. Blaine looks around him and sees Quinn.

"Thank you," Blaine smiles at the guy and looks around the room awkwardly.

He thinks about walking over to Quinn, but after five years and never really knowing her, he feels like he shouldnt. Blaine looks towards her again and this time she looks back. She looks at him for a few seconds before giving him a surprised look. She walks over.

"Blaine? Is that you?"

"Hey," he says awkwardly.

Blaine smiles and Quinn looks around worried, like she doesnt want anyone to see them, "What are you doing here?"

Blaine smile drops, "Kurt didnt tell you he invited me?"

"Wait, have you met Kurt?"

Blaine frowns. Why hasnt Kurt told Quinn?

"Yeah…"

"Blaine?" Kurt says behind Blaine and he turns around, smiling slightly.

"Why didnt you tell me you and Blaine met?" Quinn asks Kurt, she doesnt sound mad just a little disappointed.

"It never came up," Kurt says, shrugging.

Quinn nods and walks away.

Kurt watches Quinn go away and Blaine takes this opportunity to look over Kurt. He is wearing black tight ripped jeans and a white t-shirt. Damn…

Kurt looks at Blaine again and smiles, "Hey"

Blaine quickly looks up and can see Kurts smile. That stupid smile.

"Hey," Blaine breathes out, trying not to blush.

"Im glad you came," Kurt says and walks a little closer.

Blaines heart pounds inside his chest, but smiles softly, acting like Kurt isnt affecting him like he is.

"So what am I doing backstage?" Blaine asks.

"Because this is the best place to watch the show," Kurt says with a grin.

Fuck, why is he smiling so much? Stop looking at his mouth!

"Im just going to get my guitar, dont move."

Blaine nods and watches Kurt walk away. His eyes drop down to Kurts ass and looks away quickly. He needs to stop; he cant get involved with Kurt again. Not after what happened last time. Blaine knows Kurt has changed, but not how much.

It doesnt take long before Kurt is back, "Okay its starting now, come on."

They walk closer to the stage and Kurt shows Blaine where he can sit. There are a few people already sitting there and Blaine finds a seat. He looks towards the stage. Its still backstage, but its on the side so they can clearly see the band.

Blaine looks towards the audience and smiles. There are a lot of people here. He remembers Kurt and the band just starting. There were only people from Lima who came to the club to hear them play. No one else knew about them. Now, the whole world is coming to see them.

Blaine watches Kurt and the others walk on stage and the audience starts cheering. Blaine smiles and looks at Kurt. Kurt looks back and smiles. Dylan thanks everyone for coming before they start playing a song from the newest album.

Blaine has heard it before, he has heard them all, especially the first album. If Blaine is going to be totally honest, he used to listen to the songs while crying in bed. But thats a long time ago; he doesnt do that anymore of course. He is totally over Kurt.

Everyone is cheering as they start the next song. Its from the first album. Warrior is a really good song; its one of Blaines favorites. A few years ago he hated that Dylan was the one singing this, but now he doesnt care. Its a good song and he is an amazing singer.

They play a few more songs, before Kurt steps forward. Everyone starts to cheer, Blaine can hear some screaming and some I love yous around the audience. Blaines heart starts to go faster when the music starts. He knows which one it is right away. Its embarrassing how many times he has listened to this song.

Kurt starts to sing and everyone cheers before quickly turning silent so they can listen. Blaines breath hitches and he cant think straight.

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Its completely quiet, just Kurt and his guitar.

And you were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistake

I was careless, I forgot

I did

And now when all is done

There is nothing to say

You have gone and so effortlessly

You have won

You can go ahead tell them

Kurt doesnt look nervous; Blaine can remember how much Kurt tried to hide his talent. It looks like he really enjoys it now. Blaine have seen some videos online, but never live. Its completely different.

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard

Falling for betrayal is worse

Broken trust and broken hearts

I know, I know

And thinking all you need is there

Building faith on love and words

Empty promises will wear

I know, I know

And now when all is done

There is nothing to say

And if youre done with embarrassing me

On your own you can go ahead tell them

Blaine cant help think about what this song really means. Kurt wrote it about him and not in a good way.

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Everyone cheers, much louder than before. Blaine claps with the rest of them and smiles, trying not to over think anything right now.

The next song starts and everyone cheers. Blaine smiles when he hears which song it is.

Kurt plays on his guitar and starts to sing.

Oh baby, oh baby, oh we both know the truth

If it were the real me and you,

This wouldnt be the right thing to do

Now the room is all hazy, were too lost in the fumes

I feel like its just me and you,

Yeah we got nothing to lose

Kurt is so into this song, his eyes are closed and he is moving with it slowly.

Its too late to run away from it all

Its too late to get away from it all

Im done with running so I give in to you

This moment has caused a reaction

Resulting in our reattachment

Blaine licks his dry lips and watches Kurt.

Will you take me to nirvana?

I dont think this will last

But youre here in my arms

He cant help but think this is about him and Kurt. He wrote it years ago though.

Oh baby, oh baby, oh, we both feel the same

Im not gonna give you my name

And I dont think you want that to change

Were in this together, we dont know who we are

Even if its moving too fast,

Baby we should take it too far

Its too late to run away from it all

Its too late to get away from it all

Im done with running so I give in to you

This moment has caused a reaction

Resulting in our reattachment

Will you take me to nirvana?

I dont think this will last

But youre here in my arms

Shit, Kurts voice is so hot… Please let him take Kurt to nirvana. Wait, what is he doing? He cant think like this!

Will you take me to nirvana?

I dont think this will last

But youre here in my arms

Everyone cheers, including Blaine. Kurt smiles and looks over at Blaine, winking at him. Blaines heart pounds in his ear.

The band sings many more songs, Kurt singing two more. Kurt walks backstage, sweat dripping from his body. His white shirt is see-through and his hair is wild. Holy shit… How is this even legal?

Kurt looks over and gives him that sexy smile of his. Blaine makes a strangled weird sound and blushes quickly when he feels a guy besides him look at him with a weird look. He tries to cover it up by coughing, but he isnt sure if it works.

He doesnt come over though, so Blaine stands up to walk over to him. Before he can catch him though, Kurt walks into the bathroom. Blaine sighs and walks over to where they have water. His throat is so dry.

It doesnt take long before Kurt comes back and they look at each other. Blaine isnt sure what kind of look he is sending Kurt, but he knows which one Kurt is giving him. He tries to give the same look back to Kurt. Blaine takes one more sip of his cup of water before passing Kurt into the bathroom. Kurt closes the door.

"Kurt we shouldnt," Blaine says even though he just wants to shut up and kiss Kurt.

Blaine turns around to face Kurt. He bites his lip and looks over Kurt. He has been working out… And he is sweating from the performance.

"I know…." Kurt says; his throat is also dry.

Blaine looks down, thats not what he wanted to hear. But what does he expect? He is always pushing Kurt away.

Kurt moves closer, "I know we left things off badly five years ago, but we both are more mature now and a lot has happened since."

Blaine nods, much has definitely happened since they talked.

"I dont know what we are doing, but… I just miss you Blaine," Kurt says, placing his hand around Blaines waist, "My feelings havent changed a bit, if they have they are only stronger."

Blaine breathes out a shaky breath; he cant argue with this, he cant stay away. No matter how much he tries, he will end up in this situation until he just accepts he wants Kurt. He knows he shouldnt and there is a lot in his life he hasnt told Kurt, but right now he doesnt care. He can worry about that later.

Blaine moves in and kisses Kurt on the lips. Kurt makes a hot sound and deepens the kiss. Blaine presses him against the door, running his hand down Kurts wet t-shirt.

"Wait, we cant stay here," Kurt says, "Can we go to your place?"

"Oh, uhm, no, Cooper is home," Blaine mumbles.

"You sure he is now?" Kurt asks, kissing down Blaines neck.

"Yeah-yeah, Im sure," Blaine sighs, "What about your place?"

"Everyone will be there… its a big place though," Kurt smirks and Blaine smiles back.

They kiss softly before Kurt walks out. Blaine needs to use the bathroom, so he stays behind. He quickly finishes in the bathroom before walking out with the rest of the band.

"Hey," Dylan says when they meet.

Blaine smiles a little and mumbles an awkwardly hey back. Blaine notice Kurt grinning beside him, but ignores it. Was it that bad?

Everyone gets into the limousine and it starts to drive down the street.

"When did you guys meet again?" Quinn asks and looks at Blaine and Kurt in front of her.

Puck is sitting beside her and Dylan beside Puck. Blaine and Kurt are sitting on the other end towards them.

"Two days ago, I went to where Blaine is working."

"Why didnt you tell me?" Quinn asks again.

"Because it didnt come up," Kurt says again, "Can we talk about this later?"

Blaine is looking at his hands, he isnt sure why he feels unwanted right now, and its not even really about him. Kurt and Quinn look so much closer now than they used to be five years ago, they probably tell each other everything. Blaine feels a pang of jealousy, but pushes it back quickly. Blaine and Kurt have lost five years, of course things have hanged. Blaine isnt the only person Kurt can talk to anymore.

"Youre coming to the party?" Dylan asks, looking at Kurt.

Kurt shakes his head, "No Im tired."

Dylan nods, but Blaine can see Dylan knows Kurt is lying. He doesnt say anything about it though.

The car stops and Kurt and Blaine get out before it drives off again. Kurt takes Blaines hand and leads him to the door. They dont let go before they are inside the apartment. They look at each other and move closer.

"Why am I suddenly nervous?" Blaine breathes out, blushing slightly.

Kurt smiles and kisses Blaine, "Its okay, Im nervous too."

Blaine smiles back and kisses Kurt deeper this time. Shivers run down his back as Kurt runs his hands over his body. Kurts t-shirt is still a little wet and Kurts hair is still messy.

"Come on," Kurt whispers and takes Blaine with him to a bedroom.

Blaine closes the door and takes a quick look over the room. Its a light and cozy room with a big bed in the middle and closets on one side. There are also two windows with a view over Manhattan and a door to the bathroom.

Blaine walks over to the bed and starts to unbutton his shirt, not looking away from Kurt. Kurt is looking back, moving slowly closer, licking his lips. Kurt unbuttons Blaines last button and runs his hands over Blaines chest and back. Blaine closes his eyes and concentrates on Kurts hands. Kurt kisses Blaine one time before taking his t-shirt off. Blaine looks closely and his throat is getting dry again. Blaine cant help but touch Kurts much fitter chest and Kurt sighs.

"Youre so hot…" Blaine mumbles and kisses Kurt again, not as tender as before.

Kurt moans and Blaine shivers at the sound, feeling how tight his pants are. He unbuttons his pants and struggles to pull them down without breaking the kiss. Kurt chuckles slightly and pulls back so they both can take off their pants. Kurt needs a little more time since his pants are harder to get off. Blaine enjoys looking though.

Blaine grins when Kurt finally gets them off and Kurt mumbles a shut up before kissing Blaine again. He pushes Blaine down on the bed and Blaine sighs at how good and soft the bed is.

Kurt sucks on Blaines neck and running his hand down Blaines thigh. Blaine bites his lip and can feel how hard he is in his underwear. He rocks his hips up into Kurt and can feel Kurt stop everything for a second before moaning. Blaine loves Kurts reaction and continues to rock his hips.

"Blaine…" Kurt moans and rolls them around so Blaine is on top.

Blaine kisses his way down Kurts body and stops right bellow Kurts bellybutton. He pulls down Kurts boxers and takes a second to admire what he used to see a lot five years ago. Memories of that inside him makes him moan and he quickly moves up again to kiss Kurt.

He pulls down his own boxers and sits down in Kurts lap. Kurt moans and bites down on Blaines lips.

"Can we… can we not go further?" Blaine asks unsure and Kurt stops.

"Are you okay? Should we stop?" Kurt asks worried.

"No, continue doing this. Its just… its been a while and I dont want to rush anything."

Kurt nods, "Of course, lets go slower this time," he smiles and Blaine smiles back, nodding.

Blaine rocks his hips slightly and Kurt looks up at Blaine, biting his lip. Blaine smirks and kisses Kurt. Kurt rolls them around again and kisses down Blaines body.

Blaine moans and grabs Kurts hair, which he knows Kurt loves. He can feel Kurts tongue go further and further down… He moans and Kurt kisses Blaines stomach before kissing the tip of his cock.

Blaine gasps and looks down at Kurts mouth sinking down around him, "Fuck!" he moans.

Kurt smirks and moves up again to kiss Blaine. Blaine smiles into the kiss, a light tickling feeling in his stomach. Kurt pulls away and looks down at Blaine, a soft smile on his mouth.

Blaine looks back, "What?" he whispers and Kurt shakes his head.

"Nothing, I just cant believe Im here with you again. Ive missed you so much and now we can finally be together."

A little pang in Blaines stomach comes as he listens to Kurt, but he ignores it and smiles.

"You were so amazing tonight," Blaine mumbles and Kurt smiles.

"Really?" Kurt says with a flirty grin, stroking his hand over Blaines hip.

Blaine nods and gives Kurt a flirty look back before kissing him again. Kurt moans slightly. Blaines breath hitches and he kisses Kurt. Its like they are teenagers again, they can never get enough.

Blaine moves on top of Kurt and they sit up, "You were so hot up there…" Blaine whispers in Kurts ear, "So sweaty… ahh," Blaine moans, pictures of Kurt on stage in his head as he rubs his hands over Kurts back.

Kurt moans again and thrusts up. Blaine gasps and rocks his ass over Kurts cock.

Kurts eyes roll back and he opens his mouth in pleasure. Blaine licks his dry lips as he watches Kurt fall down on the bed again. Kurts cock is rubbing against his ass and Blaine just wants to sit down on it. But he cant, he doesnt want to screw things up again.

"Fuck, Blaine…" Kurt moans, thrusting up.

A sound comes from the hallway and informs them the others are back. Blaine stops which makes Kurt whine and sits up, stopping Blaine from getting off his lap.

"What about-"

"This is my room so they wont disturb" Kurt says and kisses Blaine again.

Blaine is about to protest when Kurt starts to move again. He cant care right now.