Chapter 8

Blaine sees Kurt in the cafeteria and decides to go over to him. They were friends now so he could do this; Blaine tells himself before walking over to Kurt, calling his name. Just saying it makes him blush slightly. His heart was beating faster and he was holding his breath, though he didn't know why.

Kurt turns around and Blaine immediately smiles at him. When Kurt sees this, he smiles back and Blaine's heart jumps over a few beats. Can he be more beautiful?

"Hey!" Kurt greets, still smiling at him.

Blaine is so nervous, so he just outs the question right away, not wanting any small talk to stall him, "Eh, I was just wondering if you wanted to sit with me…and some of the other Warblers?" Blaine asks, hoping Kurt will say yes. Blaine really wants to try and be Kurt's friend again…

Blaine can see Kurt's smile drop slightly, "Sorry, I can't… I'm meeting someone…else, maybe tomorrow?"

Blaine was disappointed and sad that Kurt couldn't sit with him, but since he really wants to be his friend he agrees with eating together tomorrow.

They say goodbye to each other and Blaine walks over to his friends from the Warblers. Sighing, he sits down beside one of his best friends, Wes. David, another friend, was sitting on the other side of him. The two boys look over at his morose expression, frowning.

"What's wrong? Already problems with your lover boy?" Wes jokes, smirking. David chuckles at the joke. But they both stop quickly when Blaine doesn't respond, just sighing one more time.

"What?" Wes asks, now concerned.

Blaine doesn't respond now either, just looking down at his hands instead.

"Come on, Blaine. You can tell us anything." David tries this time, concern clouding his face and voice.

Blaine looks up at this, laughing. The two boys look at Blaine with an expression mixed with shock and mild confusion.

"Yeah right! The last time I told you one of my big secrets, it didn't even take a day before the whole school knew about it! Even Ted! So no, I'm not telling you guys what it is!" Blaine says angrily, still haven’t completely forgiven his two friends.

Last year Blaine had a huge crush on one of the guys in the counsel. He was the best singer in the club and everyone wanted to have his place in the group, except Blaine; he wanted a bit more than that. Ted was a senior with blond hair and light blue eyes. He was tall and very muscular. Blaine had been lucky to get to see Ted shirtless one time, and he could never get that picture away…He was running shirtless in the hot sun down the road; sweat running down his abs and strong arms, making his body glitz slightly. The sunglasses covered his eyes whilst his hair moved slightly when he was running.

After a while Blaine and Ted became friends, but Blaine wanted more…

Ted was Blaine's first crush, and he was stupid enough to tell his two best friends.

The next day, after he told Wes and David, the whole school knew about his crush, included Ted. Blaine didn't see him that day and the next morning he got a text from him. Only two words and seven letters:

"I'm sorry"

Blaine never saw him again after that…

Blaine shakes his head to get the thoughts away and suddenly sees David moving his mouth in his direction.

"Is it a big secret this time too?" David asks excitingly.

Blaine is about to say something, but Sebastian comes over and sits down.

"Hey boys!" He greets Wes and David. They smile at him, before turning away. Sebastian looks over at Blaine. He kisses him on the cheek and whispers in his ear, "Hey you." in a much more seductive voice.

Blaine smiles at him before saying a hello too.

"Here!" Sebastian smiles and gives a salad to Blaine on the table.

"Thanks… but I'm not hungry…" Blaine mumbles looking down at the salad.

"Okay," Sebastian says, never losing his smile. He leans in closer, so no one else can hear him, and whispers in Blaine's ear, "Are you hungry for something else than?"

Blaine blushes fiercely and looks over at Sebastian to see if he is serious, shivering despite himself as he met his gaze. And he did look very serious. He was looking at Blaine with lustful eyes and a seductive smirk. Blaine blushes even more at the spectacle and can hear Sebastian moan quietly.

Blaine finds himself looking over at where Kurt is sitting, like he was asking for permission. And what he sees is not what he thought he would see. A guy was sitting really close to Kurt, something Blaine doesn't like. He is laughing and it looks like he is flirting with Kurt too. He is really handsome, but not exactly Blaine's type. His dark hair falls in his eyes a couple of times, but he never stops smiling at Kurt. It looks like he had hearts in his eyes, and this makes Blaine's stomach twist slightly. Who is this guy?

Suddenly two blue-green eyes look into his and he quickly looks away. Not knowing why but he feels himself moving closer to Sebastian. Maybe this was what he needed to do?

After trying not to look too much in the direction of Kurt and the dark haired boy, something catches his eye. The boy moves closer to Kurt and kisses him right on the mouth and Kurt never pulls back.

Blaine is shocked to say the least. He could feel his stomach twist again, but this time it really hurts. He can feel tears threaten to run over the edge, but Blaine manages to stop them before it's too late. He feels sick…

When did this happen? How well does he even know this guy? Have they done it yet? Are they in love? All the thoughts are swimming in his head and all at once.

Sebastian is moving closer to Blaine, still with lustful eyes. His hand is moving closer to his crotch, waiting for an answer.

Since it didn't look like Blaine was gonna answer anytime soon, he moves closer to his ear again and whispers, "You didn't answer my question."

Blaine shivers again, and then does something he knows he will regret later. One of the worst things he has ever done since this happened. Something he is not proud of (well, everything he has done this week is something that he hasn’t been proud of):

Blaine looks over at Sebastian, looking into those beautiful, but lustful eyes and smirks. Sebastian smirks back and Blaine can see how hopeful he is.

And he says it. He says the thing he promised himself to never say to Sebastian. "I'll be in your room after school." He whispers in his ear, trying to sound seductive.

Sebastian's breath stops for a second, surprised that Blaine had actually consented. But after a second he recovers and moans, moving his hand over Blaine's cock.

Blaine moans too, but quickly removes Sebastian's hand after.

"Save that for later" Blaine winks at Sebastian and stands up to walk out of the cafeteria.

What the hell did he just do? What is he thinking? He can't do this? This is wrong! Sebastian is wrong! You know what this is! You can't have sex with him!

The school day goes too fast and before he knows it, he is walking up towards Sebastian's room, his heart somewhere in his feet. On the way up, he comes up with every cursing word he can and hits himself in his mind every second. How could he have been this stupid?

He knew why he said it to Sebastian, not just because he was stupid, but also because of Kurt. He hates to think like that, but it's true. When he saw Kurt with that guy, he just broke. And he couldn't think of anything else than to agree with Sebastian.

Blaine has to force his legs to walk up the stairs. God, he is so damn stupid!

Clenching his fist hard to knock, he waits for Sebastian to open the door, praying he's forgotten.

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!

Before he knows it, the door opens and he was being dragged into the room.

The door slams behind him and suddenly he was against the door, another body pressed against him.

"Seb, wha-" Blaine starts, but a pair of lips stops him.

Sebastian presses his body harder into Blaine's, moaning and forcefully kissing him down the neck.

All of Blaine's thoughts are gone and all he can think about is the pleasure.

He tilts his head back against the door, giving Sebastian more access.

"God, I've been hot for you all day! God!" Sebastian moans against Blaine's neck and Blaine can't help but to echo his moan too.

Sebastian rolls his hips against Blaine's and he can feel that Sebastian was hard already. He does the same movement and Blaine loudly groans. Not thinking of what he was actually doing, too desperate to even think about the consequences, he pushes his hips into Sebastian, hard.

Sebastian bites on his neck, trying not to scream at the sensation, but instead of pain, it was making Blaine hotter than ever.

What are you doing? You know this is wrong! This is Sebastian, not Kurt! A little voice in Blaine's head was telling him, but the pleasure is too much for Blaine to listen.

And since Blaine is a horny teenage boy, this is too good for him to even think about to stopping.

When Blaine moaned again, Sebastian loses it. He loses all control he did have and does the first thing he can think of. He pushes his hips into Blaine again and grabs Blaine ass, receiving another moan from the shorter boy. He brings his mouth back up to Blaine's and sucks and bites on his lips, rewarded with a throaty scream of pleasure.

Blaine pulls Sebastian's jacket off and then pushes him backwards, towards the bed. Blaine's jacket also somehow is removed before he falls down on the bed.

Sebastian places one leg on each side of Blaine's hips, straddling him, and starts to rock his hips down to Blaine's hardening length.

In all the pleasure Blaine is feeling, he can still feel the one broken piece in his heart. He knows it's stupid to feel this way about Kurt, especially whilst he is in this mess! But he was…should he just ignore it?

But every thought is gone when Sebastian starts to suck on his neck again and unbutton his shirt. Blaine moans loudly in Sebastian's ear, encouraging him on.

This was really new for Blaine, so he doesn't know if he is doing anything right or what to do next… They have never done this before; they are not supposed to do this. This is not a part of the deal!

But Blaine can't hear his brain screaming to him that this was not a good idea, because his lust and desperation to have someone close to him, was screaming louder.

Blaine's shirt is off now and Sebastian is kissing down his chest. Licking around his nipples and sucking on all the right places.

Blaine is a shivering, groaning mess now and he can feel his hard cock rubbing painfully against his tightening pants. His hands have found Sebastian's hips and are now pressing them harder into his own moving hips.

Sebastian starts at the new movement, sucking harder on the already purple mark on Blaine's neck. After he is seemingly satisfied at the result, he gets up to a sitting position, looking down to Blaine with dark eyes.

Wanting more contact, Blaine sits up too and sucks on Sebastian's neck while trying to get his shirt off

Finding just the right spot, Sebastian gets even crazier. He tilts his head back and loudly moans Blaine's name, rubbing faster and harder into Blaine's cock.

After trying to get the shirt off a while, Blaine gives up and just rips it off, buttons flying everywhere. Sebastian moans even louder at this and starts to palm Blaine's cock between them.

"Oh…Oh my god! God… don't s-stop!" Blaine shouts feeling himself getting closer.

"You are so hot!" Sebastian breaths, bringing his mouth to Blaine's again.

After doing this, Blaine moans in Sebastian's ear, "I'm s-so close!"

"Me too!"

Before knowing it, Blaine came hard in his pants screaming in pleasure.

Hearing Blaine actually scream, makes Sebastian come not long after. He moans loudly and starts to slow his movements.

Blaine falls down on the bed again, breathing heavy, feeling the sweat run down his chest and forehead.

Sebastian falls down beside Blaine, breathing heavily too.

"Wow, that-that was amazing. Didn't think you had it in you Anderson!" Sebastian says, smirking at Blaine.

Blaine just rolls his eyes, not saying anything.

What had he just done? It was good; but it was so wrong!

Blaine had known what this is from the beginning, so why did he do this? Sebastian also knows about his situation… he told him about that and made it really clear that it didn't mean anything. He just needed some help, and Sebastian was there…

To think of it, this was actually Sebastian's idea, Blaine didn't even want to do this in the beginning! Not before Kurt…

Kurt… The name makes him get butterflies in his stomach every time he says, hears, sees or thinks of the name. The problem is that he can't be with him… And now he has a boyfriend, so now he can defiantly not be with him! Why does everything have to be so fucking hard?!

Sebastian gets up from the bed and pulls off his pants before going into the bathroom to shower.

Blaine lies in bed for a while thinking of what he had just done and what is going to happen now.

His parents suddenly come in his mind. Blaine has never told them about him being gay… because he knows his dad is not going to accept him. When Blaine was a child, when he and his father were outside and they saw a gay couple in the streets, he would make a disgusted face and tell Blaine that it was wrong. For a while Blaine thought so and was so scared when he understood he was like that too.

That he was wrong…

But when he got older, he understood that it was completely okay to be gay, but his father will never think that… So Blaine has never said anything to his parents.

Blaine doesn't know how his mother would react, but when his father would say how disappointed he was in his son, she would not say anything. Blaine knows this was going to happen, so he has decided to not say anything. It's for the best…

Blaine's thoughts get back to his situation he is in right now and quickly gets out of Sebastian's bed, cursing in his mind. He looks down at his sticky pants and sighs. Blaine looks in the mirror that is on the other side of the room. It was very visible...anyone passing by could see it very clearly...

He writes Sebastian a quick note and walks out of the door, shutting it quietly behind him. He runs down the hall, hoping no one would see him, but of course he was not that lucky.

Blaine runs right into someone else, falling down on the floor. He looks up and sees Wes standing there surprised.

Blaine quickly stands up and is about to run away, but Wes stops him.

"Why in such a hurry? Are-" He stops when he notices the wet sticky mark on Blaine's grey pants. He gasps.

"Wes…" Blaine starts, blushing furiously, "I have to go!"

Blaine is about to run away again, but, again, Wes stops him.

"Blaine, what the hell?" Wes hisses, looking at Blaine with an angry glare.

"Wes, please don't…" Blaine begs, not wanting to talk to his friend right now, "I just spilled some water!" He lies.

Wes rolls his eyes, "Do you really think I'm that stupid? What about your messy hair? Did you two have a pillow fight?" Wes rolls his eyes again, still angry at Blaine.

"No…" Blaine mumbles, looking down at the floor.

"What were you thinking? You know what it is! You told me it didn't mean anything and that you two were just pretending to be with each other! Why would you do this?" Wes looks really confused and still angry at Blaine.

"I don't know okay! I just… I'm really confused Wes! I don't know what to do and I'm so tired of these lies!" Blaine feels tears roll down his cheeks.

Wes expression softens and now looks at Blaine with pity.

"Sorry… Come with me." Wes takes Blaine's hand and leads him to his dorm.

They sit down on Wes' bed and don't say anything for a while.

"Tell me what happened. And tell me everything!" Wes finally says, with a worried, but firm look.

Blaine blushes slightly before starting to tell Wes what happened. Not saying every graphic detail, mind.

It was good to just let it all out. Wes knew about Blaine's situation, but not everything. So after telling him everything, it felt really good, like a weight had come off his shoulders.

Wes had come up with some advice and Blaine already feels better.

Xx

Blaine walks over to his own dorm, in new pants and fixed hair, courtesy of Wes, feeling really nervous, but then he was always nervous when he is about to meet Kurt, but this time was almost overwhelming.

He gets to the door and opens it without thinking.

But when he the door opens, the first thing he sees is Kurt making out with that guy from the cafeteria. Blaine can feel that knot in his stomach and tears threatening to run over the edge again.

Kurt quickly steps away from the dark haired boy, blushing. The other boy just smiles at Kurt before looking at Blaine with an annoyed look.

"S-sorry I-I didn't mean to interrupt!" Blaine blushes too and is about to close the door, when the dark haired boy stops him.

"No, no it's okay. I was just leaving." He says to Blaine, but something about the way he says it, makes Blaine not believe him.

He turns to Kurt who was just standing there with red cheeks and leans closer to him.

God, he looks so beautiful when he blushes!

"I'll see you tomorrow?" He mumbles, Blaine just hearing it.

Kurt nods, before his boyfriend kisses him on the mouth.

Blaine thought he would just make the kiss short since he was here and all, but no, he definitely wasn't on the same wavelength as Kurt's boyfriend.

The boy tried to deepen the kiss, but Kurt pulled away, not wanting to do this in front of Blaine, which Blaine was really grateful for.

After the guy walks out of the door and he and Kurt are alone again, it gets awkward, no-one knowing what to say.

"So… are we still going to eat lunch together tomorrow?" Kurt asks with that beautiful voice of his.

Blaine didn't want to sound very cliché, but Kurt's voice sounds like an angel, an beautiful angel.

"Yeah, that would be nice." Blaine smiles at Kurt.

Kurt nods and sits down on the bed.

Blaine walks over to his closet to find some pants and take a shower, leaving Kurt in their room.

When he gets out of the shower and is about to get dressed, he notice that he have forgotten a shirt.

He pulls on the pants and looks in the mirror.

"Shit!" He says a bit too loud.

A big purple hickey is placed on his left collarbone. He tilts his head to the side and can see another hickey on the right side of his neck.

"Fuck!" He says to himself, jumping when Kurt asks him if he is okay on the other side of the door.

"I-I'm fine" He calls over to Kurt.

No I'm not fine! I have two huge hickeys on my body! And the guy, who gave them to me, is just my fake boyfriend! What the hell am I doing? How can I be so fucking stupid! You know it's not real! You know you don't like him! You like Kurt! But you know you can't stop seeing Sebastian. You know what he will do if you break up with him… God, this is such a fucking mess!