Chapter 4

It was quiet for a second before Blaine looks over at Kurt with an unreadable look.

“You were thinking of me? What were you thinking about?” Blaine asks shyly and looks up at the selling again.

Kurt looks in the corner of his eyes at Blaine, and can see a small smile creep up on the side of his mouth. Kurt blush slightly, before panicking. Oh God, he must think I’m a crazy person right now!

What is he supposed to tell him? The truth? Or should he just make up a lame excuse? He can’t tell him that he likes Blaine. But what else can he say?

“Oh nothing special really… j-just that I’m glad you are my-my roommate… You know I could get a lot worse. Someone who is really messy or use too long time in the bathroom or is snoring really loud…” Kurt makes up fast, but is facepalming himself in his mind.

Blaine turns his head to look at Kurt and looks at him with that unreadable expression again. Blaine just nods when Kurt is done whit his stupid excuse. Suddenly Blaine remembers something else Kurt had said his was thinking of.

“Y-you said something about Sebastian too. What was that about?” Blaine asks nervously.

Kurt, again, has to make up an excuse, “Oh uhhh, just-just that you two look really good together…” Is he really saying this right now? “And… t-that he seems like a really good guy. I’m glad you h-have someone…”

Kurt don’t know why he just said all of that and he don’t know what he is going to do now, but one thing he knows is that he has never felt more miserable.

Blaine looks at Kurt and frowns. “You thin- thanks. Yeah we have been going out for a while now.” He gives Kurt a small smile and looks up at the selling again.

“Great…” Kurt mumbles, looking away too. “We should go to sleep now… Goodnight.”  With that it was completely silent and dark.

Kurt couldn’t believe it. He always knew something was going on between them, but he still hoped that it was just something in his head. But it looks like he was right and he couldn’t feel worse. Kurt doesn’t know how he can fall for a person so fast, but he did… And he couldn’t hate himself more then he’s do right now. Why do you always do this? You know how this ends! It always ends the same way! Kurt suddenly notices that he is crying. He can feel the tears running down his face and this just makes him cry even harder. He struggles not to make a sound, so that Blaine doesn’t hear him, but right now it’s just impossible. Kurt is thinking of everything bad that is going on, and this just makes the ears come faster and suddenly a sob comes out of his mouth, and he can’t stop them from coming anymore. After struggling for a while, he finally calms down and falls asleep, hoping Blaine hadn’t heard him.

What Kurt didn’t know was that Blaine had heard it, every sob and every sigh.

When Kurt wakes up next morning, the first thing he remembers is last night. Looking over at Blaine’s bed, he sees that it is empty. Great, he manages to embarrass Blaine, screw up their relationship and he probably heard him cry himself to sleep last night… And now he must think Kurt is a stupid little freak and probably don’t want anything to do with him anymore. Kurt feels a tear run down his face, but quickly wipes the tear away. He takes a deep breath before going to the bathroom to get ready.

Kurt haven’t see Blaine today, and he don’t even know if he wants to, but this is just making him really depressing. Kurt starts to think about everything that can go wrong. What if Blaine heard him last night and now thinks that Kurt has feelings for him, which is true… But that is something Blaine can never know about! It’ll just get even more awkward because he is with Sebastian… And what if he asks for a new roommate?

Kurt is walking down the hall to his next class, thinking of all of this mess, when a voice calls his name. Kurt looks over at the voice and sees Benjamin run towards him.

“Hey!” He says when he reaches Kurt, smiling.

Kurt smiles back, forgetting what he was just thinking about.

“Hey!” He says back, “I didn’t lose anything again did I?” Kurt jokes with a little chuckle.

Benjamin laughs, “No, I don’t think so.”

They start to walk down the hall together.

Kurt nods, “Did you need something then?” he asks.

Benjamin stops and looks over at Kurt. “Yeah, I was just wondering if you wanted to eat lunch with me. If you don’t already have plans! Cuz that can’t be hard for someone like you” He winks whit a huge grin on his face.

Kurt looks down, blushing. He is shocked that someone, except Blaine, even wants to ask him that, but he have to say that he really likes it.

“Uhh…” is all he manages to say. He is just so shocked.

“Not like a date or anything, just as friends” Benjamin assures him, “Trust me, if I’m ever lucky enough to get a date whit you, it’s not going to be in a cafeteria. I’m a bit more romantic than that!” He says whit that grin again.

Kurt blush again before nodding.

“Great I’ll see you soon that! And by the way, you are really cute when you blush!” He winks at Kurt and then walks away.

What was that? Did he just ask Kurt to eat lunch whit him? And did he say that he wanted to go on a DATE whit him? And did he just flirt whit him? He even said he was cute when he is bushing! Wait is he even gay? Well, he has to be after all that just happen! But how does he even know if Kurt is gay?

Wondering about all of this, he walks towards the classroom. He sits down and waits for his teacher. Kurt looks up at the clock. 90 minutes till he will be sitting with Benjamin eating lunch. He doesn’t know if he wants the clock to go faster or slower, but it looks like it goes slower…

After the class is finally finished, he walks to the cafeteria. He walks in and the first thing he sees is Blaine sitting by a table with Sebastian beside him with that stupid grin. Sebastian looks up and right at Kurt and his grin get even bigger. Blaine never looks up, just looking down at his untouched food. Sebastian turns to Blaine again and moves in closer. He whispers something in Blaine’s ear and Blaine suddenly looks up at Kurt with big eyes. Kurt quickly looks away, but not for long. When he looks back up again, Blaine has put his hands on Sebastian’s shoulders and is now bringing him closer to Blaine. Sebastian grins again before closing the last few centimeters between them. Sebastian brings his hand to the back of Blaine’s head to bring him even closer.

Shocked, Kurt tares his eyes away and quickly walks over to a table, fares away from Blaine and Sebastian, who was still making out.

“Hey!” A voice greets behind him and Kurt knows its Benjamin.

Kurt turns around and smiles up at him and say hello too. Kurt tries not to look at Blaine and Sebastian, who have finally parted, but finds it really hard.

“Are you not hungry?” He asks frowning at the empty place in front of Kurt.

Kurt looks down at the table and realizes that he forgot to get food.

“Oh no, I’m hungry! I just wanted to wait for you, so we could get some together.” Kurt quickly makes up with a shy smile.

Benjamin smiles too and brings out his hand to Kurt. Kurt looks down at it before taking it and sands up. They walk over at the serving area, Kurt trying to avoiding Blaine and Sebastian, and try to find something they want to eat. Kurt takes a salad and a smoothie and Benjamin a baguette and also a smoothie. They walk over at their table again and start to eat.

“So why did you come to Dalton?” Benjamin asks after a few seconds of silence.

Kurt looks up from his salad and look at Benjamin. He is smiling. His black hair has fallen to his green-grey eyes that are looking right into his green-blue ones. He is really handsome.

“Oh, it was just some troubles at school, so I started here. It just wasn’t safe for me there anymore…” Kurt shrugs it off and takes a drink from his smoothie.

Benjamin nods, “I’m sorry… Then same reason for me too.” He says taking a bit of his baguette.

Looking at Benjamin now, he suddenly remembers something from their last conversation.

“Benjamin…” He starts, but Benjamin interrupts him.

“Call me Ben, it’s much easier.” He winks.

Kurt tries to understand why he winks at the end there, but giving up after a few seconds.

“Okay…Ben. Can I ask you something?” He asks shyly feeling himself blush.

Ben sees this and grins before nodding and taking another bite of his baguette.

“You are gay right?” Kurt says fast, looking shyly at Ben.

Ben suckles, still with some food in his mouth and nods again.

“And how do you even know if I’m gay?” Kurt asks.

Ben swallows and grins.

“I have my sources.” He says simply, shrugging.

Kurt frowns before letting it go.

“So how old are you?” Kurt asks. Ben looks older than Kurt.

“I’m 18, and you are 17?” Ben asks still with a smile on his face.

Kurt nods. One year older isn’t that much of a difference!

They talk for a while longer before they have to go to class. Kurt hasn’t forgotten about Blaine and Sebastian, but he has found a good distraction. Kurt doesn’t know what he feels, but since Blaine is dating someone else, maybe he should too… Maybe he’ll forget about Blaine if he goes out with someone else, someone like Ben. Kurt really likes Ben, not as much as Blaine, but enough. He could easily find himself falling for Ben, so maybe he should ask if he wants to go on a date. Kurt decides to ask him before they go to their classes.

Before he can even ask, Ben is asking him.

“So this was great! We should do this more and maybe sometime after school too? What about Friday? You free?” Ben asks hopefully.

“You mean like a date?” Kurt asks, still not used to all this attention.

Ben grins, “Yeah! So what do you say?”

“Sure.” Kurt’s voice getting a bit higher than normal. He choughs.

“Great! Give me your number and I’ll call you or something.” He hands his phone over to Kurt.

Kurt hands it over again and they say goodbye to each other.

Oh.My.God Kurt is going on a DATE with Ben! Suddenly this day got a little bit better!