Chapter 12

Kurt ran down the hall. Worried didn't even cover the way Kurt felt right now. He really didn't know what was happening, but he knew it was something bad just by the way Blaine had sounded on the phone…

Kurt couldn't hear anything except his throbbing heart and the thuds of his feet as they frantically hit the floor. All he could think about was Blaine and what could be wrong.

Was he overreacting? Kurt didn't even know what was really happening, but he still felts like the world is about to explode…

After what felt like hours, Kurt was finally back to their dorm. He opened the door quickly and burst in, breathing heavily.

Blaine was sitting on the edge of the bed, head in his hands and fingers massaging his temples. One of his legs was going up and down fast, like he always did when he was nervous or thinking really hard about something he didn't like.

He didn't even look up when Kurt stormed in, if anything, his leg bounced harder than it did before.

Slumping slightly against the wall, Kurt tried to catch his breath first before speaking.

"Blaine…?" It comes out almost a whisper, but it looks like Blaine heard it as he abruptly stopped all his movements as he looks over at Kurt.

His eyes were red-rimmed and puffy, so Kurt guessed he had been crying for a while.

"Blaine?" Kurt asks again and sits down beside him, the bed bouncing under his weight.

"I'm sorry…" He mumbles, looking down at his hands.

Kurt frowns. Why would he say that? He had told Blaine that he could call him if he needed him and that's what he did.

"What?" Kurt asks confused, "Blaine, you have nothing to apologize for."

Blaine shakes his head, leaving Kurt frowning again. He was about to say something in response, but Blaine says something before he can get a sound out of his mouth.

"No I do. I'm sorry Kurt… I-I lied to you…"

Blaine is still not looking up at Kurt.

"What do you mean?" Kurt asks a little hurt.

Lied? Why would he do that? Couldn't Blaine trust him?

Blaine looked up at Kurt's hurt question and instantly regretted saying anything.

Kurt was looking at him with a mixture of expressions, hurt, confused, worried and many others Blaine can't put his finger on.

"Do you remember when we played that get to know you game?" Blaine asks Kurt.

He watches Kurt's expression change from hurt to confused before he answered a yes.

How could he forget that? He remembers every answer, religiously.

"And when I…when I told you I had come out to my parents, and they didn't take it well?" Blaine asks, probing further.

Kurt nods, still feeling worried.

"Well, that's not completely true…" Blaine says, looking slightly ashamed.

Kurt frowns, but let Blaine continue.

"I did come out to them. And they didn't take it well at all. They yelled at me and said it was just a phase… They made it clear that if I wanted to keep up with "this", I would be kicked out. They gave me a week…" Blaine stops to take a deep breath. "I was 14… Just a 14 year old, scared boy… How was I supposed to be without my parents?" Blaine stops again, shaking his head at the memories.

Kurt doesn't believe what Blaine is saying. How can any parents say something like that to a 14 year old boy? Who was their son? Aren't you supposed to love your child no matter what? Kurt could feel his anger coming up, but he managed to stay calm, if only for Blaine's sake.

Suddenly Kurt remembers Blaine him telling him once about his brother.

"What about your brother?" Kurt asks, not knowing if he wants to hear the answer.

"Well after telling my parents, I didn't think anyone would think different. So I didn't tell him. And after a week with my parents ignoring me the whole time, I couldn't take it anymore. So I told them I was over it, so I could stay with them…"

Kurt could understand. He knew how hard it was to come out and all of that. Kurt "came out" really early. Well, he didn't say it to anyone before he was much older, but the ones close to him always knew. Kurt was lucky to have a dad like Burt. He was so accepting and loved him with all his heart.

"I know I was stupid for doing that and I'm sorry for not telling you the truth. I just… I was just embarrassed."

"You weren't stupid, Blaine. You were scared… And I understand why you did that. I did that once too. Well not to my dad…but to my friends." Kurt smiles at Blaine before telling the story to Blaine, "My first year at McKinley, where Mercedes and Rachel are going at the moment, I hadn't told anyone. Suddenly Mercedes has feelings for me and I tell her I have feelings for someone else, who turns out to be Rachel for some reason." Kurt says quickly.

Blaine was chuckling and Kurt was relieved at the change of demeanor.

"But they found out eventually." Kurt laughs.

Blaine nods, his smile dropping.

"You know I still haven't told them. I should though… Like you said, they will find out eventually. Cooper knows now and he is accepting, but I know they haven't changed their minds. They freak out every time I'm with a boy… Not sure why they put me in an all boy's school though, if they're worried that their son is gay." Blaine wondered.

It's quiet for a few seconds, no one really knowing what to say.

"But that wasn't everything I needed to tell you." Blaine says to Kurt, who feels the butterflies in his stomach return at the statement.

"If I tell you this, do you promise not to tell anyone and to not judge me? Please?"

"Sure, I promise. What is it Blaine?" Kurt takes Blaine's hand in his to calm him a little.

Blaine looks down at their hands before drawing a deep breath.

"Okay… ahh… Like I said I still haven't told my parents. And Sebastian found out about this. Don't ask me how though, I still have no idea."

Kurt frowns. What has Sebastian got to do with this?

"And I don't know why, but we started to date. I was just lonely I guess and he wanted to be with me…Anyway a few months ago, I had decided to break up with him. He was getting really pushy about sex, and I wasn't ready." Blaine looks anywhere but Kurt, blushing slightly.

"But Sebastian didn't want to. So he said that he would tell my parents about me if I broke up with him. I tried to get away from him, but it was no use… So now we are only 'together' because I don't want my parents to know I'm gay..." Blaine shakes his head, as if he had only just realized how stupid it sounded out loud.

Kurt's mouth is wide open and his two blue eyes were bigger than ever. He was shocked to say the least. How the fuck could someone be so cruel? And to Blaine? To threaten someone to just be with them. Kurt had never liked Sebastian, but now he fucking loathes the guy. No more than that! Think of the worst word you can come up with and double that with one million. Than we might be close to how much Kurt hates Sebastian.

Blaine tentatively looked up and saw how angry Kurt looked.

"Kurt?" Blaine finally says when his knuckles start to whine in protest of Kurt's tight grip.

"How can he do that to you? That fuc-" Blaine interrupted Kurt before he could say anything else.

"Kurt! Stop! Please? I don't care about that right now." Blaine looked like he was about to cry, so Kurt quickly changes tact.

Kurt nods, and relaxes his grip so Blaine knew he had calmed down.

"Remember what you promised when I tell you this. And don't get angry and try not to do anything stupid after I say this. Please?" Blaine begs, his voice trembling.

Kurt nodded again, but not knowing if he really wanted to hear what Blaine had to say next.

"He told my parents. I'm not sure why, but he did. He did it over the phone today, before he called me… I-I went over there and started to yell at him, but he just smirked that stupid smile of his… Not long after getting to Sebastian's dorm, my father called me. He didn't mention anything about what they had heard from Sebastian, but I knew they knew about me. They said I had to come home as soon as possible… Sebastian had even sent a photo…" Blaine said before he started to cry again.

Kurt was trying not to show how mad he really was whilst he listened to Blaine, but when Blaine started to cry, it all ebbed away. He couldn't remember anything. He could only focus on the beautiful boy beside him, his chest racking with sobs. Don't think about him like that!

Kurt tentatively folds his arms around Blaine and hugs him whilst he sobs in Kurt's arms.

After a few minutes, Blaine and Kurt are both much calmer.

"I'm sorry for laying all this on you…" Blaine mumbles into Kurt's neck.

Blaine's breath is hot and he shivers slightly as it hits his neck.

He pulls back so he can look at Blaine properly.

"No, don't worry about that. I'm really glad you told me." Kurt gives Blaine a small smile.

Blaine nods, "Thank you. You are such a good… good friend."

Kurt frowns slightly at Blaine's hesitation, but smiles anyway.

"You too."

They look in each other's eyes for a while, not knowing what to say.

Kurt had always loved Blaine's eyes. It was one of his favorite features about Blaine. His

eyes… his hair… His mouth… Which was moving closer to his own…Wait, what?

Kurt's eyes grow wide when he realizes Blaine is slowly moving closer to him.

No, you can't do this! You have a boyfriend! His mind screams as his body moves closer to Blaine.

But before he can even think about what he really should do, smooth lips are touching his.

Kurt gasped slightly, before kissing Blaine back.

Blaine Anderson is kissing me. Blaine, who you have had a crush on since you met him! Blaine freaking Anderson!

His lips were so smooth and warm, and so loving and gentle. Kurt had always thought Ben's lips fitted perfect to his, but he was wrong. This was so much better. Words couldn't describe how perfect this felt.

Before he knew it, the kiss got needier and more passionate.

Blaine's hands were on the sides of Kurt's face, pressing him closer and Kurt couldn't bring himself to complain, as electricity spread from his touch.

Kurt opened his mouth to let Blaine's tongue come inside and he couldn't help but moan at how it felt.

Tongues teasing each other, small sounds of pleasure coming from both mouths, hands

touching each other and everything feeling too perfect…

…Stopped when a small knock sounded at the door.

Both boys quickly sprung apart and looked at each other with big eyes. Not quite believing what had just happened.

One more, slightly louder, knock and Kurt suddenly remembered why they had parted in the first place.

He drew a big breath and smoothed out his uniform and hair, before answering the door.

Shit!

"B-Ben! What are you doing here?" Kurt asks surprised, cursing at how high his voice is.

Ben frowns at Kurt. His hair is slightly out of place, which was really quite unusual for Kurt. His lips were pink and he had an uneven breath…

"Hey…" he says, as Blaine walks into the bathroom, before Ben can even look at him, but he didn't really care.

"Sorry for just coming here, but I had to make sure you were okay." Ben smiles slightly to Kurt.

"Oh, ahh, sorry for just running out before I got to explain… It must have freaked you out…"

Kurt was still trying to recover over what had just happened with Blaine. Did Blaine feel the same way? He asked himself over and over. But when he saw Ben, his thoughts changed…

How the hell can you do this? And to Ben, who is a great boyfriend you really liked! What the hell, Kurt? Why are you so fucking stupid! What am I supposed to do now?

Kurt was getting dizzy from all the thoughts battling for dominance in his head. He really needed some time alone. He couldn't wait anymore, he needed… he needed to… he….

Kurt felt like crying, but he holds his mask on so Ben wouldn't get worried.

"No it's okay, I just got really concerned…" Ben assures him, placing his hands on the sides of Kurt's arms.

The connection didn't help Kurt in any way, so he quickly stepped back, as Ben's arms dropped lamely to his sides.

Ben frowns at this action, but Kurt says something before he can comment.

"Ben… I-I'm really tired… Can we just see each other t-tomorrow? It's been a long day…"

Kurt looks at his lap the whole time, but when Ben walks closer to him, he looks up. He shouldn't have done that.

Ben was still looking worried, but it looks like he understands. He nods with a small smile, before moving even closer to Kurt.

"Okay, babe, I'll see you tomorrow."

Kurt's eyes widen when Ben leans down to kiss him, but he kisses back to not make any suspicions.

After kissing for a few seconds, with Kurt feeling worse and worse, Ben finally pulled away.

"You taste funny…" Ben says.

Kurt just looks up at Ben with slightly bigger eyes.

"R-really?" Kurt breathed out, attempting nonchalance.

Ben nods, "Yeah, but I like it." He says, licking his lips.

Kurt forces a smile, before they say goodnight and Kurt closes the door.

At the moment the door is closed, he releases a deep breath, not knowing he had been holding it in.

He rests his head against the door and closes his eyes.

What the hell is he gonna do now?