Sept. 10, 2013, 7:19 a.m.
Love me, not him: Chapter 11
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It had been two months since Kurt and Ben became boyfriends. Two months since Kurt and Blaine had become friends. And Kurt was finally happy at last.
He and Ben had become a lot closer since they got together and they now knew a whole lot more about each other than when they had first started dating.
They still hadn't taken any big steps though. They still hadn't met any family members and they still hadn't done anything physical. Ben had been ready for that since they got together. He had been with one guy before, so naturally he was ready to take that step with Kurt. But Kurt, never having done anything like that, wasn't ready for it yet. And thankfully, Ben completely respected that.
His friendship with Blaine had also become a lot better. They weren't awkward around each other anymore and they could talk for hours about anything and everything. Admittedly, at times it was still a little hard for Kurt to be around Blaine though. He still felt something for the boy, but he knew they could never be anything more than friends, so he tried to suppress it.
Kurt also loved being a part of the Warblers. It was different from how he was used to, but he started to love this club too. It was a good different, and all the boys were really great! Well, except Sebastian. Kurt still didn't understand how Blaine could ever be with someone like Sebastian. Blaine was a sweet, perfect guy, but he was dating a selfish stupid one, who definitely didn't deserve him. It just didn't make any sense.
But Kurt tried not to care and instead focused more on the friendship aspect of his relationship with Blaine and the romantic aspect with Ben.
Kurt had also become good friends with some of the Warblers, especially Jeff and Nick, who had talked to him at his first day at school. The two that had taken a seat beside him, making Blaine sit beside Sebastian.
Over the past few weeks they had become really good friends and they had helped him with Blaine and Ben. It felt really good to talk to someone about this, other than Mercedes and Rachel.
Kurt was going up to his and Blaine's dorm, his shoes the only noise reverberating off the tall, silent hallways, when he got a text from Jeff. He opened it and frowned.
Can you come to my dorm? Please? I really need your help. – J
What could that be about?
Sure. I'll be there soon. – K
Kurt turned around to go towards Jeff's dorm instead and tries to think of a reason why Jeff would need his help. It sounded serious… maybe something really bad had happened! Kurt thought, as he quickened his pace.
Kurt knocked hard on the door to Jeff's dorm and not three seconds later it opened. Jeff half smiled hesitantly and signaled for Kurt to come in.
Kurt sits down on Jeff's bed and watches Jeff walk around the small room with a small, puzzled frown on his face.
It's quiet for a while, Jeff in his own thoughts and Kurt patiently giving him time for him to say them out loud.
"Jeff…" Kurt starts, but Jeff had suddenly stopped walking and bursts out what's apparently on his mind.
"I'm in love!"
Kurt looks up at Jeff with big, surprised eyes before he smiles up at the blond boy.
"That's great! But…why are you looking like you just saw a ghost?" Kurt asks, confused.
Shouldn't he be happier about this? Isn't love supposed to be this amazing feeling? Well for Kurt it was a little hard to call. He wasn't in love with Ben yet, but he thought for a while he was feeling something like that for Blaine, but he wasn't too sure anymore…
"No it's not good, Kurt! I-I-I don't know what to do…" Jeff desperately says to Kurt.
Kurt frowns. Maybe he had the same problem as him? No, Kurt doesn't have any problems! He is with Ben and likes him very much. Blaine is just his friend!
"Jeff…It's okay! Who is it, if I may ask?" Kurt says carefully.
Jeff sits down beside Kurt with a sigh, making the bed creak slightly. He mumbles something, but Kurt can't make out what he's saying.
"Sorry, I didn't quite catch that…" Kurt says to Jeff and moves a little closer, so their thighs are almost touching.
Jeff sighs again before saying it so Kurt can hear it, "Nick…"
Kurt's eyes grow big with surprise and his mouth slightly parts before he could control it.
Jeff looks over at Kurt when he doesn't answer and blushes when he sees his face.
"Nick?" Kurt asks and Jeff nods, blushing even more and looking down at his linked hands. "And why's that so bad? He's an amazing guy. You are an amazing guy. And I'm sure he feels the same, the way he looks at you!"
Jeff looks up at Kurt when he says this. He looks slightly more hopeful now.
"You think so? I mean we have always been best friends… But he can't like me that way! Can he?"
"Yes he can and I'm sure he does! Have you seen the way he looks at you?" Kurt smiled, shaking his head in mock despair at Jeff. He hesitantly smiled back, a blush still coloring his otherwise pale cheeks.
"Why do you even think he isn't feeling the same way? Have you even asked?" Kurt asks.
Jeff shrugs, "No, but why would he? He is just so perfect and well…I'm not…" he trails off, looking back down at his hands.
"Jeff, you are amazing! You are funny, nice, handsome… Everything a guy would dream to have." Kurt exclaims with a smile.
Jeff laughs at this, "Don't tell me you have a crush on me too!"
Kurt rolls his eye, but laughs too. "No, I think it's more than enough trouble with two…" Kurt says sadly.
Jeff lays a hand on Kurt's shoulder, "I'm sorry Kurt…"
Kurt just shrugs before falling down on Jeff's bed, Jeff mimicking his action.
"So no news then? Still the same?" Jeff asks sadly.
He knew how much Kurt struggled with this. He had to say he didn't really understand why Kurt got together with Ben in the first place if he was so confused, but what could he do? Blaine is with Sebastian, which, like Kurt, he didn't understand how Blaine could be…
How can Blaine be with someone like Sebastian when he could be with someone like Kurt?
Kurt shrugs again. "Not really…Well I now know and have accepted that I will probably never ever be with Blaine, so I'm just trying to focus on me and Ben. I just need to get over Blaine. We are really good friends now, so I don't want to screw anything up."
Jeff just nods, although it sounded more like Kurt was talking to himself than to Jeff.
It's quiet for a while, both boys just looking up at the ceiling with their own thoughts swimming in their heads.
Jeff suddenly breaks the silence, "So how are you and Ben?"
Kurt thought about this. They were good, but there was still something that didn't feel quite right…or was it just because of Blaine? If it was, he needed to get over it. He couldn't risk one guy, who he would never have, ruin a relationship he had with another guy…A guy who actually wants him.
"We are good. I'm still confused, but we are really good. I really like him."
Both boys smile at this.
"You'll figure out what you need to do." Jeff assures Kurt.
Kurt just nods.
Xx
After saying goodbye to Jeff and convincing him to talk to Nick, he made his way over to his dorm. It's not very far, so before he knows it, he's opening the door.
Blaine is lying on the bed watching TV, looking really tired. He doesn't even look up when Kurt walks in, but at first Kurt doesn't give it much thought.
"Hey!" He says, taking his jacket off and walking over to his own bed.
Still not looking up at Kurt, he mumbles a barely audible hello.
Kurt frowns at how Blaine's acting. The way he was just lying in bed watching TV and barely registering Kurt. Not looking at him or smiling… It really started to concern Kurt. He didn't act like that around Kurt anymore…
…It was very…un-Blaine-ish.
"You okay?" Kurt asks tentatively.
"Yeah, why?" Blaine replies, still looking at the TV.
Kurt sighs."You don't look that good…"
No answer.
"Blaine?" he presses, though it falls on apparently deaf ears.
Kurt was more than slightly concerned now. What could be wrong?
Finally Blaine looks up at Kurt. He looks excessively tired… His eyebrows were frowning and he doesn't look good at all. Almost sick.
"What's going on Blaine?" Kurt asks gently, moving over to his bed.
Blaine just shrugs, apparently not wanting to talk.
Blaine's phone suddenly rings, making Kurt jump slightly. Blaine takes the phone and frowns down at the ID. Kurt gets a look too.
Sebastian
Blaine sighs before he answers.
"What?" Blaine asks harshly.
Kurt frowns again. Blaine didn't sound like he particularly wanted to talk to him. Maybe they had had a fight.
Kurt could hear Sebastian's voice rattle down the line, but couldn't quite make out what he was saying.
"Now? But I'm with Kurt." Blaine says into the phone, frowning, if possible, more than he was previously.
Sebastian said something and Kurt could see Blaine's face rapidly pale slightly.
"No Se-"Blaine began, the undertones in his voice sounding like he was begging for something.
Kurt could hear Sebastian say something in the phone again, but Blaine just seemed to get paler and paler.
Kurt was growing worried again. He put his hand on Blaine shoulder, but Blaine quickly gets up and bolts out of their dorm.
Kurt, confused, watched Blaine run out and close the door after him. He stares at the slightly dented spot where Blaine had just been before he disappeared. What just happened? Should he be worried? He certainly was regardless… but what should he do?
His phone briefly interrupts his thoughts. He looks down and sees that Ben has sent him a text.
Hey babe, can you come over? I miss you xx –B
Kurt smiles down at his message, but Blaine quickly comes back into his mind. Should he just leave? Or should he wait for him?
Compromising, Kurt decides to call Blaine, but it goes right to voicemail.
After thinking about this for a while, he settles on just leaving a note for Blaine to call him if he needed him. He then quickly sends a text to Ben to tell him he was heading over.
He can't force Blaine to talk to him and it looks like he wanted to be alone… Maybe he just needed to talk to Sebastian.
Kurt knocks on Ben's door and not long after the door opens. Ben smile widens when he sees Kurt and he can't help but to do the same.
"Hey babe; thanks for coming. I've missed you so much." Ben says taking Kurt's hand and leading him inside.
Kurt playfully rolls his eyes at what Ben is saying.
"You saw me yesterday." He smirks when Ben closes the door.
Ben chuckles lightly, putting his hands on Kurt's hips.
"So you're saying you didn't miss me too?" Ben says raising an eyebrow with a teasing smile on his face.
Kurt looks into Ben's grey-green eyes and blushes slightly. Even after 2 months, Ben still made him blush almost constantly.
"Well I didn't say that."
Ben grinned down at him before moving closer.
Their lips meet in a soft, loving kiss, moving together perfectly, and Kurt could feel his heart thrum in his chest. Ben's lips were warm and intense against his own.
Kurt could feel Ben's tongue on his lower lip and without even hesitating he opened his mouth, letting Ben explore him.
They do this for a while, tasting each other with occasional small moans slipping out from their mouths at the sensation.
When Kurt had to finally pull away to get some oxygen back to his body, he looked back into Ben's eyes.
They were both looking at each other with a loving look and their breath uneven.
Ben grins down at Kurt and kisses him chastely on the cheek, before moving to the bed, Kurt closely behind.
They lay down, both on their sides so they could look at each other.
Ben rested his hand on Kurt's waist, with Kurt's own hand tangled in Ben's hair, both smiling at each other.
"So how was your day, babe?" Ben asks, stroking Kurt's back with his smooth hand.
"It was okay I guess… what about yours?" Kurt says, not meeting Ben's gaze.
He really doesn't want to talk to Ben about Blaine. They always had some issues about each other. God knows what…
"Mine was good, but yours wasn't? What happened?" Ben asks concerned, moving closer to Kurt.
Kurt shakes his head, "I don't want to talk about it…" He mumbles, before moving even closer so he could kiss Ben again.
This would be the best way to stop him from asking any more about his day!
They kiss for a while, but Ben suddenly decides he wants a bit more.
He deepens the kiss, running his tongue over Kurt's lips before exploring his mouth again, the heat rising fast in the small room.
Ben moves over, so he was leaning over Kurt, legs on each side of Kurt's hips.
Kurt moans into Ben's mouth, pulling slightly in his hair.
Suddenly Kurt's phone rings and Kurt pulls away quickly.
Ben moans a disappointed sound, but let's Kurt go anyway.
Seeing that Blaine is calling, he quickly takes it with Ben still in his lap.
"Hello?" he says into the phone.
"Kurt?" Blaine asks. He voice is small and it sounds like he has been crying.
Kurt frowns, "Yes it's me, Blaine," he says softly as Ben's face drops, "What's wrong?"
"I-I'm sorry to bother y-you, but c-can you come back to our d-dorm? I really need your h-help…" Blaine says.
Ben gets off Kurt's lap, apparently finished, and waits for his boyfriend to finish talking with Blaine.
"O-of course. I'll be there soon." Kurt says with a worried voice.
He ends the call and looks over at Ben.
"I'm sorry, something came up… I'll see you tomorrow okay?"
Ben only nods slightly dejectedly and accepts Kurt's goodbye kiss.
Kurt quickly runs out of the room and down the hall to his own.
What could have happened?
Comments
I really like this story. I was surprised when I first read that Sebastian and Blaine's relationship wasn't real but I was also relieved because I can't picture Blaine having feelings for him. I am really disliking Sebastian. I found Jeff's nervousness about his feelings for Nick really cute and the fact that Kurt was able to help was awesome. I am looking forward to seeing how that works out. I am really anxious to see what is wrong with Blaine and why he needs to see Kurt. I hate when Blaine is in pain, I just want to give him a hug and tell him everything will work out. I really can't wait to read chapter 13 and I look forward to seeing where you will be taking this story.
Aww thank you! You are awsome! Yeah I don't like Sebastian much eiter, but you will find out what's going on in the next chapter :) I'll give Blaine a hug for you ;) Thanks again xx