Chapter 9

Kurt opens his eyes the next day and immediately regrets opening them. Wishing to sleep all day, he closes his eyes again even though it's light outside. He had such a good dream! Kurt looks down and can see how much he really enjoyed his dream. A knock on the door announces it's time to go to school. Kurt groans, but forces himself up. He quickly gets in the shower and fixes his problem, thinking about Blaine. He finds something to wear, just the usual; tight black jeans and a t-shirt. Kurt looks out and can see it's too hot for a leather jacket. 

He runs downstairs and grabs an apple. He sees his father sitting in the living room. They haven't said much and Kurt doesn't want to talk to him just yet.

He walks out of the front door and towards his car. As much as he wants to just skip school, he needs to talk to Blaine. He needs to know how it went with his brother after Kurt left.

After a few minutes he is walking towards the school, a cigarette between his lips. A few people turn their heads, but Kurt just ignores them like he always does.

He blows out some smoke before opening the door. He walks down the hall and sees the football player from the party. He still has a black eye, but it has turned to a more purple-green color. Kurt winks at him and he can see the football player tense.

Suddenly someone is in the way and Kurt walks right into them.

“What the hell? Watch where the fuck you're going?” Kurt says angry and looks up at the man.

He has never seen this man before, but it looks like a teacher.

“Put out that cigarette before you get a visit to the principal” he says strict.

Kurt just rolls his eyes and walks pass the man. He doesn't get far though before the man takes his arm and drags him the other way.

“What the hell?” Kurt says and tries to remove the tight grip around his arm.

“I warned you” he says and stops, “are you putting that cigarette away and go to class or going to the principal?”

“Fine” Kurt says and spits out his cigarette so it lands on the floor, “Happy?”

“No, you need to throw it away” the man says, clearly trying not to get angry.

That would be fun though, to see him get angry.

Kurt rolls his eyes, “fuck you” and walks away.

This time he doesn't get stopped.

He walks to his locker to get his books even though he never uses them. He gets them when someone leans against the lockers beside his.

Kurt look to his left and sees Dylan standing there, “can I help you?”

Dylan smiles a little and moves closer, “haven't talked or not talked in a while… busy tonight?”

“I thought I told you we are done?”

“I don't recall that and besides… you can never get enough of me”

Kurt grins slightly and moves closer too, running his finger down Dylan's chest. He can see the hope in Dylan's eyes, which makes this even better.

“In your dreams…” Kurt whispers in his ear before backing away.

Kurt closes his locker and walks away, a grin on his face.

Xx

The first class goes by slowly just like every other class. English isn't so bad though since Quinn is in the same class. They usually talk during the class, ignoring the warnings that the teacher gives them for not being quiet.

“It's crazy right?” Quinn whispers and I lift a questioning eyebrow, “that we have a record deal” she says obviously.

Kurt nods.

Quinn sighs, “do you even want this?”

“Miss. Fabray, is there something you want to share with the others?” the English teacher asks just when Kurt is about to answer.

Quinn looks up and shakes her head, “I can't think of anything? What about you Sir, anything on your mind?” she asks and the teacher looks at her surprised for asking him that before ignoring her.

The teacher just shakes his head and continues.

“It's not that I don't want this” Kurt says after a few minutes, “I just didn't expect it. I never thought that would be my future.”

“If you don't want that to be your future, you need to say something now”

Kurt doesn't say anything, thinking.

“I love music and the band is great” he eventually says.

“But?” Quinn asks.

“I don't know, I guess it's just new to me.”

Quinn nods, “yeah I get that.”

Xx

The next class is the most boring one. The history teacher spends the time talking. Kurt never knows what he is talking about; all he knows is that every class is like this. Talk about some shit for one and a half hour.

His phone suddenly vibrates in his pocket and he thanks who ever saved him from this class. He looks down at his phone.

Can I ask you something? –B

Kurt frowns a little but sends back a yes.

I know we should talk about this in person, but I can't concentrate… So I'm just gonna ask, are you still with that guy in your band? –B

This was not what he was expecting Blaine to ask about.

Why would you think that? Of course I'm not, I only want you –K

Sorry, I just needed to ask –B

It's okay. I promise Blaine, I would never do that to you. It was something going on with me and Dylan, but it was nothing. It's different with you –K

Okay, thank you –B

Kurt sends back a smiley face and thinks that talk is over and he needs to pretend to listen to the teacher again, but he is wrong.

So how is your favorite class going? ;) –B

Kurt smiles, happy Blaine's isn't mad or doubtful anymore. He remembers all the times he has complained about his history teacher and answers.

Fantastic of course ;) What about you? English right? – K

Hehe :P Yes and it's fine. –B

So how did it go yesterday? –K

It takes a few minutes before Blaine finally answers and Kurt quickly looks at it, hearing his teacher say something about a war.

It went good actually. We talked and I told him everything. We used to be really close when we were kids so it was nice talking to him again. And he is staying in town for a while so you should meet him. Missed you last night though, we never got to continue where we left off… –B

Kurt bites his lip and reads the last sentence a few more times. A strange warm feeling appears inside him and he can't help but smile. How can someone make him feel like this? And what does it even mean?

Wish I could have stayed. Miss you too. I had a good dream about you though ;) –K

Really? What was that about? ;) –B

Kurt bits his lip again and looks around him to see if everyone is looking at him right now. No one is so he starts to type.

All I can say is that you were naked on top of me ;) –K

It takes a while and Kurt gets impatient. Finally he answers and Kurt can't help grinning when he pictures Blaine blushing.

What happened? –B

Kurt thinks back to his dream and tries not to moan at the pictures in his head. It's good he is in the back of the classroom.

You were riding me. It was so good baby, you looked so hot. You moaned out my name, screaming when I hit you at the perfect place and pulled your hair just as you like it. I was so hard when I woke up, I wish it wasn't a dream –K

His pants are getting a lot tighter at the memory of his dream and it doesn't help when he reads what Blaine answers.

Damn… I want to do that right now. –B

Kurt can picture how much Blaine is blushing right now, trying desperately not to think about it since we are in class. That gives Kurt a crazy idea and he looks up at the clock. It's fifteen minutes left. Fuck it.

Fuck baby, meet me at our place now. –K

Kurt makes an excuse and walks out of the classroom, trying to hide his hard one. He walks quickly towards the place when he gets a text.

What? Now? What about class? –B

What do you want more? Me or watch Mr. whateverhisnameis talk? –K

On my way –B

Kurt grins and opens the door to the room. It's no one here, just like Kurt expected and he sits down on the couch, impatient. It doesn't take long before Blaine comes breathlessly in. Kurt stands up quickly and looks at Blaine. Blaine looks at him back as he closes the door. Kurt can't take it anymore and push Blaine against the door, locking it just in case, and kisses him hard on the lips. Blaine gasps before he kisses him back. Both moans and Blaine pulls off Kurt's jacket.

Blaine pushes him backwards towards the couch, but a chair is in the way and Kurt falls down on the floor. They both laugh and Blaine helps Kurt up.

“Sorry” Blaine says and bits his lip at this awkward scene.

Kurt shakes his head and looks at the chair, remembering the dream.

“You know…” he says and sits down on the armless wooden chair, “I didn't fuck you in a bed…”

He pulls Blaine closer so he is standing between Kurt's legs. Blaine wraps his arms around Kurt's neck and lifts an eyebrow.

“Oh yeah? Tell me more about this dream”

Kurt grins and runs his hands up and down Blaine's thighs, sometimes going all the way up to his ass. He can see Blaine bite his lip and he grins up at him.

“Well… I was sitting like this and you were standing like this… You kissed me softly as you took off my clothes…”

Chills run up Kurt's back when Blaine does exactly what Kurt is saying. He soft lips are moving with his as he takes off Kurt's pants.

After they are off and Kurt takes off his jacket, Blaine starts taking off his own, but Kurt stops him.

“You don't have to do what we did next, but-“

“What happened?” Blaine says a little out of breath.

“I don't want to push you to do something you're not comfortable with”

“Kurt, tell me. I know I don't have to do anything I don't want to do”

“You… you blew me, but it's fine if you don't want to.”

Blaine looks at him for a while and Kurt is sure he is going to say no when he sits down on his knees and moves closer.

“What are you doing? Seriously, you don't need-”

“I want to, but I'm not sure how to do this…”

“It's okay, just try. I'll help you”

Kurt holds his breath as he looks at Blaine licking his lips before slowly moving closer. His tongue touches the tip of Kurt's hard cock and Kurt sighs out an approval sound, getting much harder just by that single touch.

Blaine licks it slowly and Kurt opens his dry mouth and moans.

“Is it okay?” Blaine asks unsure.

“Fuck baby, Don't stop!”

Blaine chuckles and takes Kurt in his mouth, going as deep as he can. Kurt arches his body and grabs Blaine's hair. This makes Blaine moan loudly, which feels amazing around Kurt's hard cock. He pulls Blaine's hair harder and trusts slightly up into the wet, tight heat.

They continue this for a little while before Kurt needs to pull Blaine away, not wanting to go over the edge just yet.

“What happens next?” Blaine whispers and kisses Kurt's thighs.

Kurt needs to catch his breath before saying anything, “You… I…. ahh fuck come here”

Kurt pulls Blaine up and kisses him harshly, teeth clinking and tongues fighting for dominance. Blaine moans as Kurt orders him to sit in his lap. He does after removing his shirt.

They sit like this for a bit, looking at each other. Blaine wraps his arms around Kurt's neck.

“Are you okay?” Kurt asks, seeing Blaine's look.

It looks like he is enjoying this, but there is still something off about him, like he is a little uncomfortable. He always has this look when they are doing things like this, but Kurt always thought it was nerves because he is new to all of this. He doesn't get the feeling it's only nerves now though.

“What?” Blaine asks as his hips moves slightly on top of Kurt.

Kurt tries to stay serious, but the pleasure takes over and his eyes rolls back as he moans. It feels so fucking good. Maybe he shouldn't say anything? It will ruin the moment. Blaine knows Kurt doesn't want to push him or anything right? So he would have told him if he didn't want this.

“Nothing” Kurt decides to say.

It's not like they haven't done this before. Kurt is just thinking too much for some reason.

Kurt runs his hands over Blaine's ass before pushing one finger inside. Blaine gasps and thrust hard down so Kurt's finger goes as deep as it can. One more finger fills him and Blaine moans loudly.

“Shh, someone is gonna hear us” Kurt whispers and pulls out his fingers, wishing Blaine could shout his name instead of being quiet.

Kurt finds a condom and puts it on, looking up at Blaine a few times to see if the look is gone. It isn't, but it's harder to see. Is he overreacting?

“So what happens next?” Blaine asks, touching his own dick slowly.

Kurt swallows his dry throat as he watches, “you ride me, fast”

Blaine groans and lifts his hips up so Kurt can place himself under him. They look at each other for a second and the look is there again. He can see Blaine wanting this but on the other hand it looks like he doesn't want this at all. There is something wrong. Kurt is about to stop him when Blaine sits down. It's not slow and genital at all. Kurt makes a strangled sound mixed with a gasp and a moan. He didn't expect that. He places his legs further apart so they are steadier on the floor as Blaine lifts his hips up again with the help of his own legs.

He moans loudly and right now Kurt doesn't care if anyone hears them because Blaine sounds so hot. He looks hot, jumping up and down fast into Kurt's lap. Blaine's fingers holding Kurt's shoulders hard as he goes up and down.

“Blaine… fuck yes” Kurt moans, lifting his hips to meet Blaine, his hands holding Blaine's hips to steady him.

Blaine slows down and kisses Kurt softly on the lips, his arms tangled around Kurt's neck. He is still moving his hips slowly back and forth, but it's more tender and sweet. This makes Kurt feel something in his stomach again. Like… like someone is tickling him.

He looks up at Blaine when he breaks the kiss and it's like he sees him for the first time. Kurt isn't sure what is going on right now, but he knows he have never felt anything like this before. He has never seen anything as beautiful and breathtaking as Blaine before and this realization hits him hard in the stomach. What does this even mean? He knows he likes Blaine, but does he feel anything more? So soon?

Blaine fastens his tempo again and Kurt's thought vanish quickly. He moans, but for some reason he doesn't want Blaine to do it quick and dirty. He wants this to last as long as possible. He doesn't want to let Blaine go just yet.

“Wait… baby”

Blaine stops, “what's wrong? Did I-“

“No, no” Kurt assures him, “I just don't want to come yet… I-I just want to stay here for a while”

Kurt can see Blaine stop breathing for a second before letting out a shaky breath, smiling, “really?”

Kurt frowns slightly, “yeah, is that so hard to believe? That I don't want every time to be quick and dirty?”

Blaine shakes his head, “no, I just thought you liked it best like that”

“I have never done anything else, but with you it's different…”

Blaine smiles slightly and gives Kurt a little kiss.

“Are you okay?” Kurt finally asks even though it's the most stupid timing to ask these questions. He should have waited.

“What? Of course I am” Blaine says and moves his hips a little, clearly forgetting their position.

Kurt gasps slightly and Blaine mumbles a sorry.

Kurt dwells on what to do. Either they talk now, but that means they have to part, still hard and Kurt doesn't want that, or they continue this and talk after. He doesn't know what is worst.

“You just don't seem to be as into this as I am, but its fine, let's just get this over with first.”

Kurt moves his hips up a little, but Blaine stops him, clearly not pleased with his boyfriend. Blaine gets off Kurt's lap and walks over to his clothes. Kurt is already missing the closeness. Blaine puts on his boxers and looks at Kurt with a hurt and angry look.

Kurt frowns, trying to understand what is happening. He finds his own boxers before asking what he did wrong.

“Oh I'm sorry, let us continue where we left of and just get it over with” Blaine says with an angry, sarcastic voice.

Kurt remembers his own words and sighs, “I didn't mean it like that. I just thought we could continue before talking. It kinda ruins the mood when we have to talk in the middle-”

“Do you hear yourself?” Blaine asks angry, “do you realize how bad that is? Just continue like it's not a big deal even though we both know there is something wrong”

“So there is something wrong?”

“Of course it is!” Blaine yells, “I thought maybe you had changed, but you haven't. You just want one thing, don't you?”

“What?” Kurt asks, hurt by Blaine's words, “didn't you hear what I just said to you? It's totally different with you.”

Blaine shakes his head, “you don't act like there is a difference. This is what you do, sneak out of the classroom and bring them here. Do you tell everyone they are different too so they will fall for you? You did that with Dylan too, right?”

Kurt is struggling to breathe right now, is this what Blaine thinks of him? He let Blaine in, he never does that.

“Yeah exactly, that's what I do” Kurt lies angry, not sure why he said that, but he hopes Blaine will understand he doesn't mean that. 

Blaine nods and finds his clothes. He is about to put them on when the door suddenly opens. Everything happens so fast, but it feels like minutes.

The door opens and of course it's Jacob Ben Israel, the gossip source and writer of the school paper, who walks in. Kurt isn't sure whose eyes, Blaine's or Jacob's, is the biggest. Jacob looks surprised to say the least, but after processing this for a few seconds, he smiles. Blaine looks like he is about to pass out.

“Well, well, well, what do we have here?” Jacob says with a wicked smile and Kurt knows what he is thinking about.

“Don't even think about telling this to anyone” Kurt says angry and it looks like Jacob is afraid for a second.

Before anyone can do anything about this, Jacob finds his phone and takes a picture. Blaine gasps.

“Please don't do this, please. I know you think this is fun or whatever, but you are messing with people's life. Please, I'll do anything.” Blaine pleads.

“Too bad this is the best gossip that has ever happened here” he says and runs out the door.

Kurt would have run after, but he is still in boxers. And so is Blaine. Shit this will be a bad picture.

“I can't believe this” Blaine says and Kurt can see a few tears run down his face.

Kurt panics, he can't watch Blaine upset, “baby, relax okay? I know this is scary, but maybe this is for the best? Now you don't have to hide”

Kurt puts a hand on Blaine's shoulder, but Blaine pushes it away.

“I don't have anything to hide! This is your entire fault! Now everyone will think I'm like you!” Blaine yells, more tears running down his face.

Kurt frowns, “like me? Blaine can't you see it? You are gay too; you just don't won't to admit it because it's easier not to”

“Don't say that! I'm not and I will never be”

“So why do you like me? What were we if you're not?” Kurt asks hurt.

“There are no us! I don't know what I was thinking. So you can go back to fucking Dylan or whoever you want, because that's all you are; a player. You have no heart.”

Kurt can see Blaine being surprised by his own words just as much as he is which means he probably doesn't mean what he is saying. But he doesn't know that for sure. Maybe he never had any feelings for Kurt, maybe he was just exploring. But if he was just exploring, why would he cheat on his girlfriend and tell his brother about them?

Even though Kurt thinks the words just came out before Blaine could stop them, there has to be some truth in it since he said it. So it was all just a lie…

Kurt is the one to nod this time, “fine… but this is not my fault, you just can't trust me.”

Kurt quickly gets dressed and gets out of the room, never felt so betrayed before as he feels now. 

Fuck him, Kurt thinks angry as he walks down the hall. He deserves to be outed. Kurt can't believe he fell for Blaine. He had to know something was wrong every time he kissed him or touched him. He always had that look; the look of shame and discomfort.

Kurt can feel a tear threatening to fall down, so he quickly takes a deep breath to stop it. Kurt Hummel doesn't cry. He doesn't have a heart, like Blaine said. So if that's what Blaine thinks, why shouldn't that be true? Blaine thinks he is heartless? Well heartless is what he is going to get.

Kurt gets in his car and finds his phone. After sending a text he drives home.

oooo

Blaine closes the door behind him and tries to find the stairs, but he can't see anything. His view is foggy and it's hard to see through all the tears.

“Blaine?” Cooper calls out.

He doesn't answers though; he doesn't want to talk to anyone.

“Blaine what happened? Are you okay?”

Cooper hugs him and this only makes the tears run down faster and he begins to sob into his brother's shoulder.

After calming down he tells his brother what happened. All from seeing Kurt and Dylan by the locker, to the fight and being busted. He can never enter that school again. By tomorrow everyone will know. But it's not true and he tells Cooper this. Yes he liked Kurt a lot, but he isn't like him. But everyone will think this now.

“Blaine… okay I'm not telling you what to feel, but it looked like you and Kurt really cared about each other. Maybe you're not… but maybe you are. It's okay either way, Blaine. You will still be the same person, just liking someone else. But you don't need to find out this now.”

Blaine nods, tears running down his face again, “I just can't believe everyone will know… I'm not ready”

“I know, I'm sorry…”

Blaine pulls away, “I'm gonna go take a shower…”

Cooper nods and Blaine walks up. After getting undressed, he walks into the shower and turns it on, enjoying the warm water hitting his body.

So this is it. From now on his life will be changed forever. Everyone will know he was with Kurt, well at least slept together, and they all will think he is… he is gay.

A tear runs down Blaine's face. But he isn't that right? He just thought he was so he tried to be with Kurt, but it didn't work out so he isn't that.

Blaine sighs and puts some shampoo in his hair. Even though it didn't work out with Kurt doesn't mean his feelings were true… He just needed to test it out, right? Everyone goes through this, doubting them self.

Okay a moment of truth.

It was totally different being with Kurt than Rachel. Blaine thought he knew how it was to like a person, but when he first met Kurt, that changed. With Rachel it was just a friend he cares about, but with Kurt… it wasn't just as a friend, Blaine was really getting true feelings for him. He knows this, even how much he is trying to ignore these feelings. He would never be with someone the way he was with Kurt without feeling something. As much as he hates to admit this, he really likes Kurt, who is a guy. So that means…

No, he liked Rachel. Maybe he is bi. Yes, that is more likely.

But whatever he is, he is not Kurt's boyfriend anymore. Blaine doesn't understand why he thought it would be different this time for Kurt, but to see him with Dylan really opened his eyes. Kurt doesn't like to commit and it wasn't any different with Blaine.

The worst problem though isn't being hurt by Kurt, it's the fact that the whole school will know tomorrow, or maybe everyone already knows. What is he supposed to say? He can say it isn't true, but everyone will see the picture and that he can't explain. Of course he could say Kurt reaped him or walked in on him and a girl. But he isn't a bad person and it wasn't any girl in the picture. No there isn't any other explanation; everyone will understand that he slept with Kurt. Hopefully they will think it was only a onetime thing, most likely they will too based on Kurt's reputation. For Kurt this is not a big deal, he is probably used to this, but for Blaine. His life is ruined! What is he supposed to do? Everyone will judge him and talk behind his back. Only friend he has left is Rachel…

Blaine steps out of the shower and puts on some new clothes.

Blaine walks downstairs, not noticing the suitcases by the front door, “Coop, my life is officially over, I can't go back tomorrow, everyone will know-“

“Blaine?”

Blaine gasps a little, surprised to see his mother. What if she knows?

“Mom, what are you doing here? I thought you and dad weren't coming back before a few days”

“Change of plans. Honey are you okay?” She gives Blaine a little kiss on the cheek before looking at him with a concern look.

Blaine's father appears behind his wife and looks at Blaine too.

“I'm fine…”

“You sure, it looks like you have been crying”

Blaine desperately tries to think of something, he even looks at Cooper for some help.

“Is this about you and Rachel?” his mother asks and Blaine is happy she mentioned her.

Or he thought so.

“She isn't pregnant is she?” his mother asks with a gasp.

Blaine frowns, “what? We haven't even-”

Why is he saying this? His mom can't know about his sex life!

“Honey, it's okay. I saw the condom on your room and you two have known each other for a while”

Blaine closes his eyes, not enjoying hearing what she found on his room. He had suspected she was the one that found it, but he always hoped it wasn't true. Guess is was though…

“Mom, please… Rachel isn't pregnant, we broke up”

“What?” it's his father's turn to speak now, “son, why would you break up with her? We are really close with the Berry family; this is really selfish of you”

“Okaayy, that's enough” Cooper says and pulls Blaine away, “why don't you guys go upstairs and unpack while I speak with my little brother”

“This is just getting worse…” Blaine says, feeling himself getting emotional again.

“Don't worry about them,” Cooper says, “I'm more worried about you”

“Thanks for being here Coop, I don't know what I would have done without you”

“Of course” Cooper says with a sad smile.

“I think I'm just gonna go upstairs, I don't really feel like talking.” Blaine says and walks upstairs.

He tells his parents he isn't feeling well before he walks into his room.

After trying to read a book for a while, he gives up and calls Rachel. He really needs to tell her about what happened, maybe she can help.

“Hey Blaine” she answers with a happy voice, “so happy you called, we haven't talked for a while”

“Hey…” Blaine says, breathing heavily to not start crying again.

Rachel hears Blaine isn't happy though, “are you okay? Did something happen?”

“You could say that… You will find out tomorrow, everyone will…” Blaine sighs, looking up at the ceiling.

“Blaine what's going on?” Rachel asks worried.

“Someone walked in on me and Kurt at school and took a picture. It will be out tomorrow”

It's quiet for a few seconds.

“Are you still there?” Blaine asks.

“Sorry…” Rachel answers, “I'm so sorry Blaine, but are you sure they will show the picture to the whole school?”

“It's Jacob Ben Israel, so I don't think I need to dwell on that”

Rachel sighs, “I'm sorry… Is there anything I can do?”

“No, I'm just going to lie in bed the whole day and try to forget what happened”

“You can't do that! Have you talked to Kurt?”

“No” Blaine says simply.

It's a pause before Rachel speaks again, “I'm coming over”

“No!” Blaine says and sits up in his bed, “my parents just got home and I told them we broke up”

Rachel sighs, “then get over here”

“No, it's okay”

“Blaine either you get over here right now, or I'll come to your house and get you myself”

Blaine smiles a little, “fine, I'll come over”

“Good, see you soon”

She hangs up and Blaine forces him out of his bed. He packs a bag, not wanting to come back here later. He walks downstairs and Cooper sees him. Blaine can't see his parents.

“Where are you going?”

“Rachel's” Blaine says, “please don't say anything, just tell them I'm sleeping over at a friend”

“Do you think this is a good idea?” Cooper asks and Blaine hears his mother in the kitchen.

“I have to go; I'll talk to you later”

Blaine quickly walks out of the door and drives over to Rachel's house.

He knocks on the door and Rachel opens it. She pushes him into a hug and tells him how sorry she is. After a long hug, they walk up to her room.

“Okay, I have ice cream, your favorite, and alcohol” Rachel says and shows Blaine a bottle of some liquid.

Blaine is surprised by this, “alcohol?”

Rachel nods, “yes, I thought that would maybe help, but if you don't want to we can just eat ice cream”

Blaine looks at the bottle, it looks really strong. Screw it. He takes the bottle and takes a swing. That is really strong.

“God that is awful!” Blaine says and takes another sip, the taste is even worse this time.

“Blaine, you don't need to drink that much, just thought we could have a little”

Blaine nods, but takes another sip. He gives it to Rachel and she looks at the bottle for a moment before taking a small sip. She makes a disapproval face.

They eat some ice cream, mixing it with the liquid and after a few hours they are dancing around her room, Kurt and what happened today is completely forgotten.

“Thank you so much!” Blaine says and falls down on the bed, “this really helped”

Rachel falls down on the bed beside Blaine and she laughs, “I'm glad it did”

It's quiet and this makes Blaine think again.

“Are you okay? We can talk if you want to” Rachel says and looks at Blaine.

Blaine drinks some more of the bottle, which is soon empty.

He shakes his head, “no, don't what to think about it. It's done. I don't know what I was thinking.” He looks at Rachel, “it was a mistake to let you go”

She is surprised by this; she didn't expect to hear this.

Blaine moves closer and before Rachel can get her foggy head to understand what is going on, Blaine is kissing her on the mouth. They have never kissed like this before, it feels like both of them want each other.

Blaine lies on top of Rachel and kisses her hard on the mouth, “I want you and I always have”

Rachel gasps a little, neither of them thinking about what they are actually doing. Blaine takes of his shirt before kissing her again, ignoring the pictures of Kurt in his head. Blaine lifts up Rachel's dress and runs his hands down her thighs.

Rachel moans and kisses Blaine again.

“Wait, wait… no this isn't good, I'm with Finn and you don't like me this way”

Blaine looks at her and realizes what she is saying is true, “oh god… I'm so sorry” he says and starts to cry.

Suddenly the door opens and Blaine quickly jumps away from Rachel, but it's too late. He falls down from the bed and all the spinning makes him throw up on the floor, still crying hysterically. He can't see anything, but he can hear everything.

Finn had walked in on them and he is upset. He can't make out the words, but he can hear Rachel saying they are drunk and she thought it was Finn she was with. Blaine tries to say something too, but for some reason he can't. Someone is pulling him along the floor and he can hear someone washing something, probably the floor after he threw up.

Someone is lifting Blaine again and he knows it isn't Rachel, he knows it's a guy, a strong guy. Blaine smiles and cuddles into the warm body.

“I'm sorry, Kurt… Don't leave me, I need you” Blaine mumbles and kisses his neck.

“Blaine, it's not Kurt” Rachel says and helps him into her bed.

Blaine starts to cry again, “Is he gone? He will never forgive me… Rachel I'm lost without him”

Blaine's eyes are closed so he is surprised when he hears Finn is still here. Blaine tries to listen to what they are saying, but he is too tired. So he just let's go and falls asleep, tears still running down his face.