Chapter 6

What the hell is he doing? How did this happen? Fuck he is so screwed.

Kurt quickly walks away from Blaines house, trying not to think about the mess he has created.

Kurt walks back to the café where he met Blaine and gets into his car. He drives home and runs up to his room, mumbling a hello to Burt, who is making dinner, on his way up.

He puts on some music and lies down on his bed, looking up at the ceiling. Blaine likes him. How the fuck can he do that? This is only going to end up in a big mess, so Kurt really needs to stay away. He needs to be done with Blaine, he cant risk it anymore. Even if that kiss is nothing like he has ever had before and every time he sees Blaine his stupid stomach does this funny thing. He isnt actually hungry is he? And even if sleeping with Blaine was different than the others, he cant do this. Its only because Blaine looks at him differently, like he can see right through him. Kurt doesnt like him. Of course he doesnt! Kurt scoffs at the thought. Who would like someone like Blaine? No one likes an innocent curly, hazel eyed boy with the most adorable smile ever. No one likes that.

Kurt sits up in his bed, what the fuck is he thinking? He cant think like this! Kurt Hummel doesnt do feelings. It never ends well; he always finds a way to screw it up. And this will not be any different, he thinks while touching the left side of his chest.

Its not like he likes Blaine of course, Kurt thinks to himself over and over again, trying to convince himself.

Fuck he is so screwed.

He finds his phone; he needs to talk to someone, someone who knows what he is going through.

Can you come over? Need help –K

What the hell is going on with him? He needs to talk with a friend about his feelings? This is not good, he needs to stop this.

Sure, Ill be there in ten –Q

Kurt sighs, can he really talk to Quinn about this though? Its not like its actually something to talk about, he just needs to get these stupid thoughts away from his head.

In about ten minutes the doorbell rings. Kurt gets up and starts walking down. Burt opens the door though. He looks up at Kurt and tells him its for him.

Quinn walks in, with a little smile and a bag in her hand, "okay, Im here to rescue you"

Both Burt and Kurt frowns, "what are you talking about?" Kurt asks.

"You said you needed help and after what you told me yesterday, Im sure its something to do with Blaine?"

Kurt's mouth drops slightly, how the hell did she know this?

"Close your mouth idiot, even a blind man could see you staring at him during school today. And Im not stupid when both of you just have to go to the bathroom at the same time."

Kurt looks at Burt for a second who looks confused, but it looks like he dont want to know what she means.

Quinn looks at him too, "oh sorry, Im Quinn."

"Burt," he says with a little smile before walking into the kitchen again.

Kurt shakes his head at Quinn, "just get your skinny ass up here."

Quinn chuckles and they walk upstairs, sitting down on Kurts bed. Quinn finds her bag and pulls out a big t-shirt and another smaller bag. Kurt frowns as he looks at her pulling out different stuff; his eyes grow though when she pulls out a bottle of tequila and two shot glasses.

"Are we having a party or something?" Kurt asks, shaking his head at the girl in front of him.

"Yup," she says simply and walks into the bathroom with her bag.

Well she doesnt have a problem feeling at home, Kurt thinks and lies down on the bed, starting to regret asking her to come her.

She comes out again after a few seconds in the big grey t-shirt and tiny black shorts.

"What the hell are you doing?" Kurt asks, trying not to laugh.

"We are having a sleepover, what does it look like, idiot?"

"Hell no! It might be something all you girls like, but guys dont do that."

"Youre gay, so you can make an exception."

Kurt glares at her and falling down on the bed again. Why did he ask her to come here again?

"Come on! Change into something comfortable and then we can drink," Quinn says.

Kurt rolls his eyes, but does as she says. He never says no to some alcohol. He changes into something else before sitting down on the bed again, lying against the headboard. He takes one of the bags with chips and starts eating it.

"Its only 6pm and its school tomorrow, so lets take it easy on the alcohol," Kurt informs Quinn, who rolls her eyes.

"Most of this is for tomorrow, we are being drunk at school tomorrow," Quinn adds simply, like this is something normal, and finding her own bag of chips and sits on the middle of the bed.

Kurt grins, "oh really? Didnt think you were that kinda girl."

"Well I am," she says with a grin, "so start talking. And every time you lie, you have to drink."

Kurt rolls his eyes, "what do you want me to talk about exactly?"

"Blaine."

Kurt grabs the bottle and takes a drink when he hears the name, wincing at the strong taste, "Its nothing."

He needs to be really drunk to talk about this, but he has a feeling Quinn is really good at being prejudice.

"One more sip," Quinn tells him and Kurt does, shaking his head, "come on, just drop the image for one night and talk to me."

"I dont have an image," Kurt says, eating some chips to cut the tension he feels inside.

"You are going to get fucking drunk if you keep this up."

Kurt sighs. "Fine! I went to Blaines house after school and he told me he likes me, so I ran out."

"Isnt he dating someone? A girl? And why the hell did you run out?" Quinn frowns, taking a little sip of the flask herself.

"Not anymore," He says and shrugs, "I told him it wouldnt work and shit, but he didnt want to listen."

"Do you like him?" Quinn asks.

Kurt takes a sip, "no of course not" he chuckles at her stupid question, taking another sip of the horrid drink.

Quinn raises an eyebrow. "Keep telling yourself that buddy and you took a sip so I guess you are lying," she grins.

Kurt sits up a little, "it doesnt even matter what I feel, I dont do relationships; they always end up in a big mess."

Quinn nods. "Maybe… You know, I was like you before I started to date Puck again. After I gave my baby away and all that shit, I was like you; thinking relationships were just pointless. But Ive been dating Puck for a while now, and it isnt pointless. Maybe someone will get hurt in the end, but isnt it worth it, if you really like someone? And who says it has to end badly?"

Kurt doesnt say anything, thinking over what Quinn is saying.

"Have you ever dated someone?" Quinn asks, taking a sip.

Kurt lies down against the headboard again and shakes his head, "no, Im fine with one night stands."

Quinn nods, "so what made you think every relationship is a waste of time?"

Kurt shrugs. This is getting too deep for him. What is happening to him?

Quinn waits, looking at Kurt. Kurt looks back before he gives up.

"I just know they are never going to last, someone always gets hurt or leaves."

It was another reason, but he doesnt have to tell Quinn that. He doesnt know her that well yet.

Quinn nods again. "Well, what do you got to lose right? And that Anderson kid is hot as fuck if I can say so myself," she says with a wink.

Kurt grins with a wink, "A good fuck too."

Quinn laughs, clearly a little inebriated from the alcohol. Kurt laughs too. Shit, hes tipsy too.

xXx

Kurt wakes up and groans at the light hitting his face. He closes his eyes again, not ready for the headache to come just yet.

"Come on! Get up!" Quinn says and hits him with a pillow.

Kurt groans, trying to catch the pillow so she will stop.

"We need to drink and get ready for school," Quinn says, laughing.

Kurt gets up, drinking more actually sounds really good right now. He grabs the bottle and takes a few sips, the alcohol burning down his dry throat.

After struggling to get their clothes on and drinking the rest of the tequila bottle, they are ready to go to school. They stumble down the stairs, giggling like two little kids, and gets out of the house. Kurt is happy he has sunglasses on so the sun isnt too sharp. That would hurt, Kurt thinks with a laugh.

They walk to school, singing one of the songs they played Friday night, the walk taking 15 minutes more than it would normally do. Quinn told five times that Kurt was actually a really good singer, but Kurt just ignores her, hoping she will forget about it.

"You are s…s-so smart! This is so m-much fun-fun!" Kurt says with a grin and almost falls over a little rock, both laughing.

"I know!" Quinn says happily and opens the door to the school.

They actually made it to school in time and Kurt is shocked. They walk to Quinns locker and Kurt rests against the lockers, looking at the students walking pass them blearily through his foggy eyes and his alcohol-soaked brain.

Kurt suddenly sees Blaine and Kurt smiles like an idiot at him. Blaine looks away and just walks pass like he doesnt know who he is.

Someone hits Kurt in the stomach and Kurt looks around to see who it is. He cant see anyone… Kurt frowns and looks at Blaine in his football jacket walking down the hall. He is suddenly gone when he walks into one of the bathrooms.

"He didnt even smile at me…" Kurt mumbles sadly and Quinn chuckles.

"Well you can forget about never getting feelings involved, buddy, yours are as obvious as hot pink in a sea of black."

Kurt looks at Quinn with a shocked expression, mouth and eyes wide open. He can pretend all he wants, but he knows she is right. He is getting feelings involved and he already knows this is going end badly. Kurt feels like crying.

oooo

Dont look at him. Dont look at him. He isnt smiling at you, you dont know him. Hes just a stupid guy who thinks he is badass, but actually he is just afraid. Afraid to be happy… No stop looking at him! Just walk.

Blaine sighs; he needs to get over this. He needs to forget about everything that has happened with Kurt and start over again. But why is it so hard?

A few cheerleaders look at him and he smiles. It drops though when they laugh. Blaine frowns but they just walk past him whispering something. What was that about?

Some others it also looking at him and whisper something to each other before laughing. Blaine suddenly panics, what if they know about him and Kurt? What if they know he is gay?

Blaine quickly gets into the closest bathroom and hides in one of the stalls, trying to breath. What is he going to do now? He cant go out there when everyone knows.

"Did you hear about Anderson?" Someone says outside of the stalls by the sinks.

Blaine stops breathing as he listens, trying to recognize the voice.

"No, what?" someone else says.

He doesnt know who they are. Blaine closes his eyes as he waits for the words to come.

"Claire said that Blaine took her with him home and they almost had sex. He didnt have the guts to do it though. He probably hasnt done it before."

Blaine opens his eyes with a gasp.

"Isnt he with that loud annoying girl?" the other guy asks.

"Doesnt look like it anymore. And if they are, not for much longer, the whole school knows about him and Claire," he says laughing.

Blaine gasps again. Shit! The whole school knows?

"Who doesnt sleep with her though? Either you are an idiot or you are gay for saying no to someone that easy," one says and they both laugh as they walk out of the bathroom.

Blaine gasps yet again. Double shit! They think that too? No, this is not good! He has to do something about this.

He texts Rachel to come and after some convincing, she comes.

She walks in a few minutes later, "Whats going on? I had to walk out of class because of this. God you are not going to believe it, Kurt and that girl, Quinn, came to school drunk! Who does that?"

Blaine ignores the latter, "Rachel, Claire told the whole school that we almost slept together yesterday. And since we didnt, they think Im gay now. I need to do something!"

Rachel gasps, "did you almost sleep with her?"

"Yes, but dont mind that!" Blaine says, panicking.

Rachel looks confused and shocked, "okay… so why am I here?"

"Well, they think we are dating… So what happens when you hear about this? Are we breaking up?"

"I would, if we were actually together…" she sighs, "maybe its for the best though?"

Blaine nods, but isnt sure if it is or not though, "yeah, it wouldnt be right to continue this forever. But if someone asks, we have slept together; I cant have people think Im gay."

"Arent you though?" Rachel asks, "and why cant you just say you slept with someone else?"

"No, Im not ready for anyone to know about this yet and we dated, so it sounds more believable. I dont want people thinking Im sleeping around with everyone."

Rachel sighs. "This is getting out of hand, Blaine… I said Im here for you and I am, but this is a lot. Like I said, Finn and I-"

"I know! Im sorry I shouldnt have asked. Just forget it. We are officially broken up so you can be with Finn now, sorry I asked."

"Blaine…" Rachel starts, but Blaine walks out.

xXx

"Why did you tell everyone about us?" Blaine asks, trying not to sound angry.

Claire looks up. "Because someone asked…?"

"And you had to tell them everything?"

Someone whistles behind them, but Blaine ignores whoever it is.

Claire sighs, "Its what happened. Whats the big deal?" she asks moving closer to Blaine, "are you afraid people are going to talk?"

"Of course not," Blaine lies, looking at Claire moving closer.

"You know Im the head cheerleader and you are the quarterback… Its like were meant to be together." She runs a finger down Blaines chest and Blaine looks around quickly to see if anyone is watching.

And someone is. Kurt is standing with Quinn on the other side of the hall, staring at him. Blaine gets a little idea, bad one, but who cares? Maybe it will work. And then people will not think he is gay.

Blaine smiles his half smile and moves closer. "Is that so?"

She nods and Blaine quickly kisses her. She kisses him back, groaning slightly.

"Get a room," someone says and Blaine quickly pulls away from Claires sucking lips.

"I need to go to class, see you later handsome," she says, winking at Blaine.

Blaine nods and looks over at Kurt. He is still looking at Blaine with dark eyes and an angry face. Blaine smiles slightly to himself.

Everyone is going to next class now and Blaine finds his book before going too. He almost comes to the classroom before someone pulls him into a little dark room.

Blaine gasps and tries to get out of whoever is holding him.

"What are you doing? Let me go! Stop!"

The person holding Blaine pushes him against a wall. Blaine tries to push the person away again when the light turns on. Blaine squints in response to the bright light before he notices who is standing in front of him.

Kurt. Of course. 

"What the fuck are you doing? You cant just do that!"

Kurt bites his lip, "youre so hot when you are mad."

He moves closer as Blaine is just staring at him. This guy is crazy... and drunk! Wow, he smells... its surprising that none of the teachers have noticed.

"Whos the girl? Youre new girlfriend?" Kurt asks, clearly jealous.

Blaine cant help but to smirk, "so what if it is? You dont care."

Kurt shakes his head, "I want you…" he whispers and Blaine stops breathing, "you were right yesterday… Im scared but… fuck I need you."

Kurt moves even closer, their lips almost touching.

"Youre drunk…" Blaine says, even though he just wants to forget he is and kiss him. This is what he has been waiting for.

"So? That doesnt mean Im lying. When Im drunk I tell people the truth, too much sometimes," Kurt whispers, lips even closer and their noses touching.

Blaine can feel Kurts breath on his lips and practically sees double because of how close Kurt is to him.

"I know Im going to regret saying this to you, but I have to. I want you and not just sex. I want more with you…. I-I like you. Its freaking me out because Ive never done this before…"

Blaine wants to kiss him even more now, but something is still stopping him. Kurt tries to kiss Blaine, but Blaine moves his head so Kurts lips touch his cheek. Kurt frowns and takes a few steps back.

"You will hate yourself tomorrow for telling me this… How am I supposed to react to that? Are you ashamed of me…?"

"No its not that!" Kurt says quickly, looking a little bit more sober now. "Im going to hate myself tomorrow because I promised myself to never get feelings involved… But Ive already broken my promise, feelings are involved here. I know this might not work, but its worth a try."

Blaine listens carefully, taking in every word coming from Kurt's beautiful mouth. Blaine licks his lips, nodding. Kurt moves closer again and kisses Blaine softly. Blaine sighs in the kiss and forgets about his worries.

Kurt likes him. Blaine screams inside of him and pushes Kurt closer, deepening the kiss. Kurt "Fucking Hot" Hummel, likes him. Blaine pushes him even closer, trying to wrap his head around this. Its so surreal. Kurt moans and pushes his tongue deeper into Blaines mouth, running his hands down Blaines body. Blaine whines at the feeling, wanting more, but he knows they cant right now.

Blaine pulls back, "you should go home… You can barely stand," Blaine chuckles.

"No, Im fine!" Kurt says quickly and tries to kiss Blaine again.

Blaine stops him, "no, you are going home before someone notices how drunk you are."

Blaine shakes his head at Kurt, who comes to school drunk?

Kurt sighs as Blaine looks out the door to see if the coast is clear. When he doesnt see anyone, he grabs Kurt and pulls him with him outside and to his car. Kurt is humming on a song as they walk and Blaine cant help but notice how wonderful his voice is.

After two stops along the way to Kurts house because Kurt has to throw up, they are finally there. Blaine helps him out, trying to ignore the strong scent of vomit that seems to pass through the normal smell of Kurt and his intoxicating cologne. Kurt seems to take no notice of his mouth and what its been through recently as a result of his drinking and he latches his lips onto Blaines neck as Blaine steers him toward the front door. Kurt is about to nibble on his neck when Blaine pushes him away and begins to blush when he looks up to see Burt holding the front door open.

Burt shakes his head, looking at Kurt with an angry face.

He looks over at Blaine, "is he drunk?"

Blaine nods, feeling bad for Kurt to get caught. What did he expect though? Who doesnt get caught drinking in school hours?

Burt comes over and takes Kurt away from Blaine, "Im sorry you are getting caught up in all of this, Im sure you have something better to do… But thanks for bringing him home, thats really nice of you."

Blaine nods, "its no problem."

He looks at Kurt as he is half sleeping with a smile on his face. Blaine cant help but smile himself. Even though Kurt is crazy, he cant help but like him more and more every time he sees through Kurts façade.

"Well, I should get going," Blaine says and smiles at Burt.

He walks out and gets into his car again. Thank god Kurt didnt throw up in his car. Blaine thinks about going back to school since its only lunch time, but he decides not to. He doesnt want to face Claire and the masses speculating about the two of them together and whatever other rumor may have cropped up in the past hour. Its just better to go home, do some homework and maybe watch a movie tonight, if he finds the time. His parents arent going to be back for a week, so he has the whole house to himself. Not like that was a new thing.

oooo

Kurt wakes up and notices its dark outside. When did he go to sleep? Which day is it? Kurt thinks confused and looks at his phone. 8pm… Wait maybe its 8am. No, its 8pm. Wait what?

Kurt tries to understand what is going on and he remembers he had been drinking with Quinn yesterday and this morning. Kurt chuckles at the memory, they were so stupid.

Fuck, he is so stupid! He remembers his talk with Blaine and he suddenly feels a pain in his head. What the hell have he done now? He is giving mixed signals to him. And its not even true!

Who is he kidding, of course its true. Everything he said at school is true… But fuck, Blaine isnt supposed to know that. He knew he could get over Blaine, so if he didnt say anything, nothing would happen. But now… he told Blaine and Blaine feels the same. What is he going to do now?

He needs to talk to Blaine. He cant remember everything that happened and Blaine deserves to know everything while Kurt is sober, well sober enough.

He gets out of his bed and sends a quick text to Quinn so she knows he is alive. He takes a quick shower and changes his clothes. He runs downstairs and puts on his jacket where he know he have hidden some cigarettes. He is about to walk out the door when Burt comes.

"And where are you going? Are you sober already?"

Kurt turns around, "Im not sure, but I need to talk to Blaine. I need to… apologize for being drunk and all."

Burt looks a little surprised, "I want you home tonight, you can see him at school tomorrow."

"No, please, Ill be home by 11, I just need to talk to him."

Burt frowns; he never asks if he can go out, "okay, fine be here to 11. A minute later and Im locking you inside your room."

"Okay, thanks dad."

What the hell is going on with him? He never acts like this.

"Sure youre not drunk?"

Kurt glares at his dad, "why do I even bother?"

Burt chuckles, "no, sorry, youre welcome son."

Kurt rolls his eyes, "whatever, see you soon."

And then hes out of the door, running down the street to Blaines house thats only five minutes away.

He knocks on the door and suddenly freaks out. What is he going to say? What if his parents open the door? Hes sure they wont let him get in; this is a big expensive house. So Blaines family is rich…

Thankfully its Blaine that opens the door, spoon in his mouth and dark blue PJ pants on, he looks adorable. Kurt punches himself in his mind for thinking this.

Blaine takes the spoon out of his mouth, blushing, "what are you doing here?"

"I need to talk to you… Can I come in?"

Blaine nods and steps out of the way so Kurt can get inside. Blaine looks like a lost puppy and Kurt cant help but smile.

"So… whats up?" Blaine asks, moving towards the couch.

They sit down and Kurt looks around the room. He is watching a movie; he isnt sure which one it is though. Its a bowl with ice cream on the table that looks really good.

“Are you alone?” Kurt asks, looking around.

Blaine nods.

"I wanted to talk about what happened at school today… Thought you should hear this when Im not drunk," Kurt chuckles nervously.

It looks like Blaine is nervous too, probably thinking the worst right now.

Kurt moves closer so their knees are touching, "I… Im not good at this stuff, and I dont know if this will work, but…" they look at each other, "I cant hide it anymore. I like you, Blaine… I cant promise that Im going to be a good boyfriend since Ive never done it before, and you will probably break up with me before we even get together. But I feel so different with you. Just listen to me now! I sound like a little teenage boy trying to ask someone to prom! I dont know if this is going to work, but someone told me if I dont take chances, Im never going to be happy. So Im going to take a chance now, but if you have changed your mind thats-"

Kurt stops when Blaine kisses him. He gasps slightly, out of breath from his long speech.

Blaine pulls away. "Sorry, I just needed to shut you up. You talk a lot when youre nervous," Blaine chuckles.

"Dont apologize," Kurt mumbles and kisses Blaine again, deeper this time.

Blaine moans slightly and Kurt pushes him down so he is lying down on the big couch, Kurt climbs on top of him, kissing him a little faster, their tongues exploring each others.

"What does this mean?" Blaine whispers, moaning when Kurt sucks on his neck.

Kurt thinks for a second, "what do you want it to mean?"

"Do you only want sex? Because if so, well just end this now," Blaine says, moaning again.

"Didnt you hear what I said? I like you, I want more. Dont you?"

Blaine thrust up, "yes… yes I want more."

"Good," Kurt moans and looks into Blaines eyes, "So, Blaine Anderson, do you want to be my boyfriend?"

Fuck, that was something he promised he would never say. But now, he suddenly wants it. He wants it with Blaine

Blaine smiles, biting his lip, "yes, I would love to be your boyfriend, Kurt Hummel."

Kurt smirks and kisses him. "Lets celebrate," he whispers.

"Its not all about that right?" Blaine asks, running his hands down Kurts back, making Kurt bite his lip.

Kurt looks up, "no of course it isnt. Do you want to wait?"

It takes a few seconds before he looks back up at Kurt, a little smile playing on his soft lips.

Blaine shakes his head and sits up, "no, I dont want to wait."

He reaches out for Kurts hand and he takes it. Blaine brings him with him upstairs. Kurt closes the door and smiles slightly to Blaine, bringing him closer and kisses him.

Blaine kisses him back, and Kurt pushes him backwards towards the bed. He falls down on it and Kurt quickly lies on top of him, kissing him hard on the lips.

"You sure you want this now?" Kurt asks.

Blaine nods, kissing him again.

This wasnt just sex for Kurt, but he would lie if he said he didnt want to fuck him as much as he could. But this is a relationship, it doesnt work like that. Right?

Fuck he has a boyfriend. What the hell happened to Kurt Hummel, the skank?

Blaine makes a beautiful moan and Kurts cock ache to get touched. He wants Blaine so bad right now.

"What do you want baby?" Kurt moans out, trusting down at Blaines hips.

Blaine gasps, "you… I want you inside…" Kurt can see him blush as he moans and this just makes him harder.

"Okay… Ill make you feel good baby, just relax," Kurt kisses Blaine and takes of his jacket and t-shirt, before taking Blaines t-shirt off.

Kurt stands up and helps Blaine out of his pants and underwear. Fuck he still looks amazing. Blaine looks at Kurt as he slowly takes of his tight black leather jeans. He can see Blaine bite his lip, staring with lust blown eyes.

Kurt cant take this anymore, he quickly steps out of his clothes and throws himself over Blaine. Blaine falling on his back on the bed and Kurt straddles the boy, kissing him hard. Teeth hitting each others and biting, arms exploring each others bodies and sounds of aha and yes sounding in the room.

"Do you have any lube and condom? I dont have any," Kurt breaths out, thrusting hard down into Blaine.

Blaine points to the table beside the bed and Kurt quickly finds what he needs. He gets some lube on his fingers and pushes a finger inside Blaine, who groans loudly.

Kurt goes slowly and after a few minutes, he has three fingers inside Blaines prefect round ass. Blaine is moaning, thrusting down.

"Kurt please…" Blaine moans, touching his cock, running his hand up and down fast with Kurts fingers.

Kurt swallows hard, trying to take his eyes away from Blaines moving hand. He pulls out his fingers and lies back down on Blaine, who groans when he lets go of his hard cock.

Kurt rocks his hips, kissing Blaines neck, "ride me…"

Blaine moans loudly, "yes, fuck yes."

He pushes Kurt down beside him and straddles him. Kurt is surprised to see Blaine this eager, but he loves it. He looks so damn hot like this.

Blaine gets the condom and quickly puts it on Kurt. He hesitates for a moment before sitting up, placing Kurts cock under his welcoming ass. Kurt bits his lips, waiting eagerly.

Blaine carefully sits down and Kurt tilts his head back, moaning.

"Shit…" Blaine sighs and sits completely down.

They both breathe heavily as they wait. Kurt wants to just thrust up into that amazing tight heat, but he waits for Blaine to get ready. Blaine leans down and kisses Kurt softly. Kurt moans at the movement. Blaine sits up again and lifts himself up slowly, his mouth wide open, before slowly moving down again.

"Kurt…" he gets out and starts to move a little faster.

"Ahh, oh god," Kurt moans loudly, trusting up.

Blaine gasps at this and starts to move even faster, Kurt thrusting up with his feeling. Blaines hands are on Kurts chest, running over his tattoos, as he works his ass quickly up and down.

"Kurt… please."

"Ride me baby… fuck ride me hard," Kurt moans, thrusting up as hard as he can, his hands squeezing Blaines ass.

Blaine screams as Kurt hits the spot and he practically jumps up and down on Kurts cock, moaning loudly every time he gets down, feeling how deep Kurt can get. Kurt looks down and watch his hard cock moving in and out of Blaines ass. The sight makes him closer to the edge, fuck thats the hottest thing he has ever seen. He has never let anyone ride or fuck him. He is glad Blaine is the first to ride him, because this is fucking hot.

"Fuck! Kurt! Yes right there!"

Kurt manages to hit the spot three more times before Blaine comes over his stomach, groaning loudly. Kurts legs are shaking at the tightness and his eyes roll back as he comes hard inside Blaine.

Blaine falls down on Kurt, both breathing heavily, "that was amazing."

Blaine moves so Kurt gets out of him and he lies down beside Kurt. He snuggles closely to Kurt and Kurt isnt sure what to do. He never snuggles after sex. Well, one day have to be the first. He brings his arms around Blaine and holds him close. Blaine place feather light kisses over Kurts chest and he cant help loving how it feels. He moans slightly when Blaine kisses over Kurts tattoo on his chest.

Blaine runs a finger over Kurts tattoo on his hip and Kurt bits his lip, "what do they mean?" he says softly.

"What?" Kurt mumbles, his eyes closed.

"Your tattoos," Blaine mumbles back.

Kurts eyes are still closed as he thinks if he should tell Blaine this or not. He never has told anyone what they mean. He decides to do it though, he trust Blaine and he wants something new with him. If he wants that, he needs to be honest.

"The stars dont really mean that much. I just like them I guess," Kurt shrugs slightly, not opening his eyes, "and the music on my foot is from a song my mom used to sing for me," he tries not to think too much about what he is saying, he dont like talking about this.

He can feel Blaine move his head to look at his foot, so he lifts it up so he can get a closer look.

"Thats nice," Blaine says and rests his head back on Kurts chest.

Kurt smiles slightly, "and… the birds on my hip are just about remembering Im free and that I can go anywhere I want. Im not in a cage. It's also blackbirds because of my favorite song by the Beatles"

He feels Blaine smile and he opens his eyes, wanting to see it for some reason.

Blaine looks back up at him, "and this…?" he asks tracing his finger on the left side of his chest.

Kurt swallows, “that… its the date… the date my mom died," Kurt looks away from Blaine.

Blaine stays quiet for a few seconds before moving closer and kisses Kurts cheek, "Im so sorry, I didnt know."

Kurt shakes his head, not wanting Blaine to feel sorry for him, "Its a long time ago, its fine."

Blaine shakes his head, "its never okay to lose someone you care about."

Kurt closes his eyes again, not wanting Blaine to see him like this.

"Is…" Blaine hesitates and Kurt knows what he is going to ask, "Is that the reason you dont want to have feelings involved and all that?"

Kurt can hear Blaine hates to ask this question, but really wants to know. Kurt isnt sure what he can say though. Yes, the big reason is because of his mother, but its not only that, he has other reasons too.

"Part of it, yes…" Kurt sighs, "I dont know, I just think its easier not to. Then I know I wont get hurt."

Blaine lifts his head up and rests it against his hand, looking at Kurt.

Kurt looks back as Blaine softly says, "what about now?"

Kurt rests his head on his hand too, running his other hand over Blaines waist and hip, "I thought we were boyfriends now," he jokes with a grin.

Blaine rolls his eyes and Kurt sighs, "Blaine, I want to try this with you. I know we dont know each other that well, but its just something about you… I want to know you better, I want to do other stuff than just the physical, not that I dont want a lot of that though..." Kurt smirks a little and even more when Blaine chuckles.

"Youre such an idiot," he laughs, shaking his head.

Kurt laughs and gives him a little kiss on the mouth.

"But seriously, I know this is hard for you," Blaine says, holding Kurt close, "but I like you too and I never want to hurt you."

Kurt smiles slightly, "we'll just try and see what happens, right?"

Blaine nods, "yeah I guess. And we dont see other people," Blaine says, looking at Kurt with a serious look.

Kurt grins and pushes Blaine down on the bed again, lying on top of him.

"You understand the world boyfriend right?" Kurt mumbles and kisses Blaine.

Blaine smiles in the kiss, “just making sure you do”

It feels good to say this to Blaine, it is good to know someone knows about what he has gone through. Even though this isnt his style and he will probably do something to mess this up, he cant help but feel like he can get used to this. He feels safe in Blaines arms.

Kurt kisses Blaines neck softly. Blaine sighs lightly and wraps his legs around Kurts hips. Kurt moans slightly, biting his lip. Blaine grins before kissing Kurt again.

This is crazy. He isnt sure whats going on with him, but he is turning into a love sick puppy. But he cant help it though; its just something about Blaine that totally changes him. He isnt going to change completely of course, but Blaine is bringing all the good inside him, and Kurt isnt sure if thats a good thing or not.

Kurt has never told anybody about his tattoos or his mother, and he just told Blaine all of this. He wants to tell him. He wants to tell him everything, and that scares the shit out of him.

Blaine groans, "Lets take a shower…"

Kurt moans and rocks his hips down, "yeah… yeah a shower sounds good."

Blaine bits his lip as Kurt gets away and out of the bed. Blaine gets out of the bed too and Kurt quickly kisses him. Blaine pushes him into the bathroom with him.

He can definitely get used to this.