Chapter 12

“That's great guys! Let's do it one more time” Jace says from the control room and starts the music again.

Dylan starts to sing softly and the others follow his lead. They have worked on this song for a while now, wanting to get it perfect since it's their first song. Quinn and Puck wrote this one together, and Kurt is surprised of the result. It's an amazing song; just how they want their songs to sound like. They used to play heavier stuff, but this is better. When they covered songs, it didn't really mean anything. It has more meaning now, when it comes from them. And like Jace said, it's much better when they mix their voices.

They have recorded three songs now, but this one is the first one that will go public. Jace knows some people and it will be all around the world if people like it.

“Okay, I think that's it!” Jace says with a big smile, “Get in here and listen to it”

They listen to it and everyone is really happy with the result. All they have to do now is sing it at the club tomorrow. First they will sing this one and later they will sing more of their new songs.

Xx

Kurt knocks on the door and Blaine opens it, smiling.

“Hey” Kurt says and kisses him softly.

“Hey” Blaine closes the door, “so how did it go?”

“Good, we're done with three songs now. You get to hear one tomorrow”

Blaine lights up like a Christmas tree, “really? That's amazing!”

“What's amazing?” Cooper asks, walking downstairs.

“Kurt's band's first single is coming out tomorrow! They are singing it at the club.”

“Wow, that's great, Kurtie” Cooper grins.

“Stop calling me that” Kurt says, but Cooper ignores him with a teasing smile.

“I have to come see too, did you write it?”

Kurt shakes his head, “no, mine is not done yet”

“Mhm” Cooper walks into the kitchen and Kurt rolls his eyes.

Blaine grins and kisses Kurt on the cheek, “come on”

They go upstairs and into Blaine's bedroom. They lay down on the bed, side by side, shoulders touching. Blaine takes Kurt's hand, running his thumb over it.

“Are you regretting telling everyone at school we are together?” Blaine asks.

Kurt looks at him, “no, are you?”

Blaine shakes his head, “no. It changed a lot though.”

Kurt moves closer, “what changed?”

“I don't know… People look at me different I guess. Most of the guys in New Direction think I'm crazy for being with someone like you”

Kurt rolls his eyes, “of course they do”

“Come on, they are not that bad. I explained what I feel for you and they were happy for me. They are good people. You would know, if you bothered to get to know them” Blaine pulls a little away from Kurt.

Kurt stops him from moving further away, “okay, I'm sorry.” Kurt thinks for a second, “why don't we have a party?”

“A party?” Blaine asks, lifting his eyebrows.

“Yeah, if you want me to get to know them, let's have one. And you're parents are gone this weekend, right? So let's have it here on Saturday”

Blaine tries not to smile, “I guess that's okay. I'll tell them tomorrow”

“Great, now can I kiss you? I haven't gotten one today”

“You need one every day?” Blaine teases.

“Of course I do” Kurt says before kissing Blaine on his soft lips.

Blaine chuckles and kisses Kurt back.

oooo

Everyone is coming tomorrow and suddenly Blaine is nervous. What if they don't like Kurt? No, of course they will like him. They just need to get to know him, that's all.

“Hey” Kurt says behind him and kisses Blaine on the cheek.

Blaine quickly looks around them to see if anyone saw them, only a few girls, but they don't seem to mind. Thank god.

Blaine turns around and smiles, “hey”

“So, the band is coming tomorrow too, if that's okay?”

Blaine nods, “yeah sure”

“Good” the school bell rings, “okay I have to go, but you're coming tonight, right?”

“Wouldn't missed it”

Kurt winks and walks away. Blaine looks around him one more time just to make sure before he walks to class. Okay, fine, he isn't completely comfortable with this PDA thing. He is just not used to it. He never kissed Rachel that much in public, but it looks like Kurt likes to do that. He will get used to that of course; it's not that big of a deal. It's just two guys kissing around people judging them, no big deal…

Xx

Nathan and Rachel comes too with Blaine and Cooper to Demons of the neighborhood's concert. They find a place to stand, which is quiet close to the stage. It's a lot of people here. It normally is a lot of people here, but not this many. They probably saw on Facebook that they were playing an original song tonight. The man who always announces the band, Jake, walks on stage and people starts to cheer. No one really care what he has to say though, they are all just waiting for Kurt and the rest of the band.  Blaine can't wait to hear their new song.

They sing a few covers before Dylan tells the crowd, “we are Demons of the Neighborhood and this is our new original song, Demons!”

Everyone cheers, but stops the second Dylan starts to sing.

When the days are cold

And the cards all fold

And the saints we see

Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail

And the ones we hail

Are the worst of all

And the blood's run stale

Kurt and Quinn starts to play and everyone listens.

I wanna hide the truth

I wanna shelter you

But with the beast inside

There's nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed

This is my kingdom come

This is my kingdom come

Puck starts to play on his drums as the course starts. Everyone is cheering and dancing to the music now.

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

At the curtain's call

Its the last of all

When the lights fade out

All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave

And the masquerade

Will come calling out

At the mess you made

Dont wanna let you down

But I am hell bound

Though this is all for you

Dont wanna hide the truth

No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed

This is my kingdom come

This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Blaine can't stop smiling. This is amazing, Kurt looks amazing, and everything sounds amazing.

They say its what you make

I say its up to fate

Its woven in my soul

I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright

I wanna save that light

I cant escape this now

Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Everyone screams and cheers and Blaine isn't holding back either. Kurt finds him and winks with a big grin. Blaine smiles brightly back, cheering with the rest of the crowd.

Xx

“That. Was. Amazing!” Blaine shouts when he sees Kurt and the rest of the band walk out after the concert. It was mostly directed to Kurt of course, but the others smile; except Dylan. Blaine knows that they slept together once, but he is starting to wonder if there was something more going on between them. No, Kurt would have told him that.

Blaine hugs Kurt tightly and Kurt laughs, “thanks, babe”

Blaine pulls back and looks at Quinn, “did you write it?”

“Mostly Puck, but I helped” Quinn says with a smile.

“No, you did most of the work” Puck says.

Blaine smiles, “Anyways, it was really good. So I'll see you guys tomorrow right?”

They nod and walk over to their car. After saying goodbye to everyone, Kurt drives Blaine home. He stops outside his house and looks at Blaine.

“Did you really like it?” he asks.

Blaine moves closer, “I absolutely loved it. I didn't expect it to be that good. And you looked really hot up there, more than usually”

Kurt grins and kisses Blaine. Blaine moans slightly and kisses him back.

“Do you think Cooper is home already?” Kurt asks breathlessly, already taking off Blaine's shirt.

“Maybe, but let's just sneak inside” Blaine grins and they get out of the car.

The door is open, so Cooper is home. They quietly and quickly get upstairs without being noticed. They laugh and Kurt pulls Blaine closer again, moaning as their lips touches again. Blaine closes the door and pushes Kurt against it. Kurt bites his lip and is about to take off his pants when Cooper knock on the door.

“Just so you know, I'm in the room across the hall, so I hear everything you guys do.”

Blaine sighs, “we're just going to watch a movie”

“Oh that's great” Cooper opens the door, pushing Kurt to the side, “I want to watch one too”

Blaine gives his brother an annoyed look, but Cooper chooses to ignore it. Kurt gracefully puts his pants in place and his t-shirt, which is around his neck, on again.

“Are we changing to pj's?” Cooper teases.

Kurt shakes his head with half amusement and half annoyance.

“No, I should get home”

“The show was awesome by the way, great song”

Kurt claps Coopers shoulder, “thanks man”

“You don't have to go, Coop is the one leaving”

Kurt laughs, “It's fine, I'll see you tomorrow” Kurt kisses Blaine quickly before walking out of the door.

“I hate you” Blaine says to Cooper, who is just smiling innocently.

“Love you too” he says and walks out of the room too.

Xx

People will arrive in five minutes. Kurt came early and Blaine got Cooper to leave the house. Everything is ready. Music is on and alcohol is here even though Blaine said they shouldn't have any. Kurt said there wouldn't be a party without, so Blaine didn't bother argue. He doesn't have to drink anything even though everyone else is drinking.

The doorbell rings and Blaine opens it for Rachel, Finn, Sam and Mercedes. Blaine hugs Rachel and Mercedes and starts to talk about last night's concert. In half an hour, everyone is here and already drinking. Blaine only took one beer, but he isn't getting drunk tonight. Everyone else is apparently.

“Hey you” Nathan says with a smile and sits down beside Blaine on the couch.

Blaine smiles, “hey, having fun?”

Nathan smiles and nods, drinking some more from his cup, “what about you?”

Blaine shrugs, “I guess”

“What's wrong?” Nathan asks.

“Nothing”

“Why aren't you drinking?” Nathan continues.

“I just don't feel like it” Blaine shrugs again.

Nathan rolls his eyes and gives him his cup, “please drink this and stop moping”

“I'm not-“ Blaine stops himself.

Why isn't he drinking? He isn't old enough, but he has been drinking before, so what's the problem? Blaine takes a sip of the drink. There is no problem, he needs to drink.

Blaine continue to drink from his cup as he looks around. Most of the people are dancing. Puck and Quinn are making out on the couch and Dylan and Kurt are talking. Blaine watches them carefully. They are sitting really close to each other and Dylan is practically fucking Kurt whit his eyes. Blaine can feel a hit of jealousy so he moves closer to Nathan, resting his head on his shoulder. He glazes over at Kurt and Dylan and can see Kurt is watching him and Nathan now.

“Are you okay?” Nathan asks.

Blaine nods, “yeah I'm fine, I'm just happy I have you as my friend. I'm sorry for what happened between us”

“It's fine” Nathan says.

“Let's dance!” Blaine says and pulls Nathan with him. 

Blaine isn't sure how long this party has been going on, but what he knows is that everyone is dancing around or doing something else. And everyone is really drunk. Blaine has had a lot too, but he isn't having any more now, or it will be too much and he won't be able to think straight.

“Hey, babe” Kurt says, wrapping his hands around Blaine.

Blaine smiles and turns around in Kurt's arms, “hey”

Kurt kisses Blaine softly and he moves closer. Blaine freezes when he feels something tight in Kurt's pants.

“Are you…?” Blaine mumbles and Kurt nods.

“You are so hot when you dance, babe”

Blaine hitches his breath and turns around again so his back is against Kurt's chest, “like this?”

He moves slowly and gracefully in Kurt's arms, rubbing his ass against Kurt. Kurt moans inside his ear and gets out a ‘yes'.

Blaine bits his lips and turns around again. He pushes Kurt backwards until he hits a wall. Kurt makes a sound when his back hits the wall and kisses Blaine hard on the lips. Blaine moans and runs his hands under Kurt's grey t-shirt. Blaine hates this shirt; Kurt knows how hot he looks in it. It's slightly too short so some teasing skin is showing. And those tight pants…. Kurt is really killing him tonight.

“Let's go upstairs” Kurt gets out between the kisses and Blaine nods eagerly.

“Where are you guys going?” Rachel asks when they are halfway up the stairs, “we are playing a game so we can get to know each other”

Blaine sighs, “can't it wait?”

Rachel shakes his head like a four year old, “nope, we are playing now”

“Fuck” Blaine can hear Kurt mumble before they walk into the living room again.

Everyone is sitting in the couches and chairs. Some are also sitting on the floor. They have made a circle and Kurt and Blaine sits down on the floor so the circle is complete.

“What are we playing?” Blaine asks.

“Truth or dear of course!” Tina says with a grin, “and I'm going to start with asking Mercedes”

Blaine and Kurt chuckles, neither really knowing why, and Blaine sits between Kurt's legs. Kurt places soft kisses on Blaine's neck as they are watching. Mercedes answers if she has ever peed on herself in public, which she haven't, and she asks Sam if he has a crush on someone, he says yes, but refuses to say who. Suddenly Kurt's name comes up.

Puck is the one asking and Kurt tells Puck he wants a dare.

“Okay” Puck grins, “I dare you to kiss a girl”

Kurt rolls his eyes and stands up. Blaine watches carefully as Kurt walks over to Quinn. He pulls her up on her feet and kisses her deeply.

Quinn and Kurt laughs when they pull away. Puck looks a little disappointed it wasn't someone else, but Blaine is relieved is wasn't someone else.

“Okay you” Kurt says and points at Nathan.

“Truth” Nathan says nervously.

Kurt sits down again and Blaine leans against him again, “have you ever thought of someone in this room while getting off?”

Blaine isn't sure if he wants to laugh or get mad at Kurt for asking that. He knows that Nathan had feelings for Blaine. Doesn't mean he has thought of him that way though…

Nathan blushes slightly and shakes his head, “no, never”

It doesn't look like Kurt believes him though.

A few more rounds and everyone are even more drunk, most of them can't even say a sentence without messing it up. Quinn asked Blaine if he and Rachel ever slept together, but there wasn't many more questions directed towards him. Everyone was more interested in Kurt.

“Okay Kurt” Finn says, “h-how many have you slept with?”

Kurt laughs, “oh god… wait… Blaine, Dylan, Patrick…” Kurt starts counting and people starts to laugh.

Dylan blushes slightly when everyone looks at him.

“You slept with Kurt?” Puck asks.

“You didn't know?” Quinn asks Puck, “They did it like before every practice how could you not notice?”

“It wasn't before every practice!” Dylan says defenselessly.

Blaine doesn't move or say anything, wishing he didn't have to hear this. Fuck you Finn for asking this quiestion.

“Eight I think” Kurt says with a grin.

“Are you seriously? Have you had eight boyfriends?” Tina asks with a big mouth.

“No of course not, haven't you met me?” Kurt laughs, including Puck, Quinn and Santana.

Blaine gets up from the floor, pushing Kurt, who is still sitting on the floor.

“What the-“ Kurt says and stands up too, catching Blaine before he can walk off, “what's w-wrong?”

“Really classy, Kurt” Blaine says, trying not to show too much emotion in front of everyone.

Kurt suddenly gets serious too and it looks like he understands why Blaine is mad.

“Oh come on Blaine, you know how I was before you.”

“Yeah, but you never told me you fucked Dylan multiple times, you said it only happened once!”

“Does it matter how many times? I'm with you now and you know I don't want to be with anyone else”

“You lied to me! You always do and I'm sick of it.”

“Are we back there again? Seriously, why can't you just trust me?”

“Because you are making it so damn hard! How can I trust someone who has slept with everyone and lies about it?” Blaine shouts.

“You want to know about every time I fucked someone? Fine! My first time I was so drunk I don't even remember it.”

“Oh just like mine?” Blaine says angry and he can hear someone mumbles something.

Kurt just continues “It was with Daniel and we slept with each other one more time before he got sick of me. After that I slept with Patrick god knows how many times before he-“ Kurt spits out every word with anger and hurt and this makes Blaine cry.

He can't listen to this. He lets out a sob before he quickly runs up the stairs and into his room.

Everyone is quiet, shocked at the sudden change in conversation.

oooo

“There you are!” Jace says when Kurt walks into the studio and the others looks up.

Kurt rolls his eyes behind his sunglasses and sits down on the couch, his head is killing him. He drank way too much last night and the fight with Blaine didn't help. They haven't talked this morning. Kurt left right after Blaine ran upstairs. This defiantly didn't change Blaine's friend's thoughts about him. Maybe they are right, maybe Kurt will always be a player. He really messed things up. They haven't even been together for a week before they start fighting. Maybe they aren't supposed to be more than friends…? Maybe Kurt isn't supposed to be in a relationship; maybe he is supposed to live on one-night stands. No, he loves Blaine. He doesn't want to live alone forever; he wants to be with Blaine.

“You okay, man? Really messed up what happened last night?” Puck says.

“I'm fine” Kurt answers, not in the mood for talking.

“So are we ready to record some more music?” Jace says and everyone gets ready.

The play through the songs they have. They have four songs already, but they need more. So they decide to get home and try working on some songs.

Kurt gets home and finds his book with unfinished songs. Most of these are useless though, but one might work.

Xx

It's been a week since Kurt and Blaine talked to each other and tonight is New Direction's regionals competition. Kurt promised to go, so of course he will. Maybe he will get the chance to talk to Blaine too. Kurt has tried talking to him at school, texted, called, but nothing works. Blaine just needs some time, but he really needs to talk to him.

Cooper comes over and they drive to where Blaine and the club is preforming. They don't say much on the trip over. Cooper tries to joke about some stuff, but it doesn't work, Kurt can't stop thinking about Blaine. What is he going to do?

“So are you going to tell me what is going on between you two? I've haven't seen you in a week and I know Blaine hasn't been over at your house” Cooper says and turns off the radio.

Kurt sighs, “We got into a fight”

“About?” Cooper presses on.

“My past”

“Ah” Cooper says, understanding, “have you told him he got nothing to worry about? Because he doesn't right?”

“No of course he doesn't and I've told him before yes. Not after the fight though. I just don't understand, we were totally fine before we got back together again. It's like he suddenly doesn't trust me again. I thought we were past that”

“Maybe it's because when you were just friends, he could be himself-“

“He can be himself around me now too” Kurt cuts in.

“Dude, you have a lot more experience than him. He just came out and is probably feeling insecure about all of this.”

Kurt shakes his head, “this is what happened last time. He wasn't ready, so we broke up. It's different this time, he knows who he is and isn't ashamed about it. Yeah I might have more experience than him, but that doesn't matter, I love him.”

“Did he tell you this?” Cooper asks, lifting an eyebrow, already knowing the answer.

“Ye-“ Kurt sighs, “I'm a terrible boyfriend”

Cooper claps Kurt's thigh and gets out of the car. Kurt follows after him. They sit down in the audience and waits for it to start. A glee club walks on stage and starts to sing. Damn, they really need to work on their vocals.

Finally it's New Direction. Kurt sits up in his chair and watches them. They all are standing in the dark as the music starts. Everyone is clapping and stamping.

Blaine walks towards the front of the stage and starts to sing. He is wearing a dark blue suit which fits him perfectly.

Ill be your light, your match, your burning sun,

Ill be the bright, in black thats makin you run.

And well feel alright, and well feel alright,

Cause well work it out, yeah, well work it out.

Kurt smile as he watches him. He looks amazing.

Ill be doin this, if you had a doubt,

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out.

Rachel walks over to Blaine and they sing both the next part.

Ill be your ghost, your game, your stadium.

Ill be your fifty-thousand clapping like one.

And I feel alright, and I feel alright,

Cause I worked it out, yeah, I worked it out.

Ill be doin this, if you had a doubt,

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out.

The whole club comes in as the chorus begins. 

I got my mind made up, man, I cant let go.

Im killing every second til it saves my soul.

(Ooh) Ill be running, (Ooh) Ill be running,

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out.

And well start a fire, and well shut it down,

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out.

Blaine continues, dancing with the rest of the club.

Theres a maniac out in front of me.

Got an angel on my shoulder, and Mestopheles.

but mama raised me good, mama raised me right.

Mama said, "Do what you want, say prayers at night,"

And Im saying them, cause Im so devout.

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out, yeah.

I got my mind made up, man, I cant let go.

Im killing every second til it saves my soul.

(Ooh) Ill be running, (Ooh) Ill be running,

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out.

And well start a fire, and well shut it down,

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out.

Rachel sings the next part.

Oh, we all want the same thing.

Oh, we all run for something.

run for God, for fate,

For love, for hate,

For gold, for rust,

For diamonds, for dust.

Everyone is clapping, making the crowd joining.

Ill be your light, your match, your burning sun,

Ill be the bright, in black thats makin you run.

I got my mind made up, man, I cant let go.

Im killing every second til it saves my soul.

(Ooh) Ill be running, (Ooh) Ill be running,

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out.

And well start a fire, and well shut it down,

Til the love runs out, til the love runs out.

Everyone cheers, but stops when the next songs starts.

“I didn't know Blaine was this good!” Cooper says and Kurt nods, agreeing.

Rachel walks to the rest of the club, but Blaine doesn't move. A piano starts to play and Blaine starts to sing.

All her life she has seen

All the meaner side of me

They took away the prophets dream for a profit on the street

Now she's stronger than you know

A heart of steel starts to grow

All his life hes been told

He'll be nothing when he's old

All the kicks and all the blows

He wont ever let it show

Cause hes stronger than you know

A heart of steel starts to grow

The rest comes in, but Kurt only looks at Blaine.

When youve been fighting for it all your life

Youve been struggling to make things right

That's how a superhero learns to fly

Every day, every hour

Turn the pain into power

When youve been fighting for it all your life

Youve been working every day and night

That's how a superhero learns to fly

Every day, every hour

Turn the pain into power

All the hurt, all the lies

All the tears that they cry

When the moment is just right

You see fire in their eyes

All the sudden he can't think of anything else that is going on, he can only think about how amazing Blaine is.

Cause he's stronger than you know

A heart of steel starts to grow

When youve been fighting for it all your life

Youve been struggling to make things right

That's how a superhero learns to fly

Every day, every hour

Turn the pain into power

He looks amazing up there and Kurt really didn't know Blaine was that good. Why would he hide a voice like that?

Shes got lions in her heart

A fire in her soul

Hes a got a beast in his belly

Thats so hard to control

Cause theyve taken too much hits

Taking blow by blow

Now light a match, stand back, watch them explode

When youve been fighting for it all your life

Youve been struggling to make things right

That's a how a superhero learns to fly

Every day, every hour

Turn the pain into power

Everyone cheers again, even louder this time. The whole club sings one more song before they walk off stage.

oooo

Blaine hugs Rachel one more time before walking out the door. They won. They are going to New York for Nationals. Blaine smiles brightly to himself, but he freezes when he sees Kurt walking towards him.

“What are you doing here?” Blaine asks.

“I said I would come didn't I?” Kurt says and Blaine's heart jumps a little.

“Can we please talk?” Kurt asks, almost pleading.

Blaine nods, not trusting his voice.

They get to Blaine's car and they drive for a while, neither of them knowing where to go. Blaine finally just stops the car on the side of the road and gets out.

Kurt gets out too, “where are you going?

Blaine walks into the wood and Kurt follows him, “I just need some air”

“Blaine… we need to talk about this”

They stop when they come to a meadow with a little stream running through it.

“Blaine” Kurt says again and finally Blaine turns towards him.

He is right; they need to talk about this. They sit down on a fallen tree and Blaine looks down at his fingers, which is really cold.

“I'm going to LA” Kurt quickly says, finally getting it out.

Blaine looks up, surprised, “what?”

“People are really liking our new song and we are going to Jace's studio in LA so we can finish the album and do gigs there”

Blaine looks at Kurt, unable to read what he is feeling right now. Probably a lot.

“When do you leave?” Blaine asks.

“In a week”

“What about graduation?” Blaine frowns.

Kurt shrugs, “we talked to the school and we can finish our degree online.”

“I thought Jace said you were going to wait after graduation?” Blaine asks with a little hope in his voice.

Kurt shakes his head, “we have a big opportunity right now and we can't risk losing it. And I don't really think I will graduate anyways”

Blaine nods, looking down at his hands again, rubbing them to try getting some warmth in them.

“Let me drive you home” Kurt says and they walk to the car.

The drive to Blaine's house is quiet. Kurt stops the car outside Blaine's house and looks at him.

“I'll see you later okay?”

Blaine nods and Kurt moves over to give him a hug, “congratulation, you were amazing”

Blaine smiles a little as a thank you and gets out of the car. He walks towards his house, feeling like he is in a dream. A nightmare.

Blaine walks inside and walks up to his room. What just happened? Did they just break up? They can work it out, long distance relationships can work! It has to work, he can't lose Kurt.

He can't-he can't… Tears fall down Blaine's face and he lies down on the bed. A sob escapes his mouth and he burry his face into his pillow, letting the sobs get out.

His phone vibrates and Blaine lazily gets it out of his pocket. It's a text from Kurt. Blaine sits up and opens the text. He have to concentrate to see what is says through the tears.

I love you -K