May 19, 2013, 8:37 p.m.
I Know You're Scared It's Wrong: Chapter 6
E - Words: 1,130 - Last Updated: May 19, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 8/? - Created: Oct 17, 2012 - Updated: May 19, 2013 654 0 2 0 0
Blaine was looking down at Kurt, heart beating faster than it ever had before, he didn't know why he did it - okay, maybe he did. Biting down on his bottom lip Blaine moved down, inch by slow inch until he was a breath above Kurt's lips. Before he connected their lips Blaine whispered one word, "You."
Kurt inhaled sharply once his and Blaine's lips were one. His didn't see this coming at all, he was stunned frozen, his lips not moving an inch as Blaine's kissed. Once Blaine actually realized Kurt was not kissing him back he pulled away, looking at Kurt in confusion.
"I," Kurt started to say, not really knowing what he wanted to say.
Blaine pulled his whole body off of Kurt's, moving to the other side of the couch. He looked down, not meeting Kurt's eyes. "I thought..." Blaine mumbled, playing with the lint he had found on his jeans. Blaine, just like Kurt previously, didn't know how to finish that sentence.
There was tension in the silence that followed, both of them not speaking or even looking at each other for what seemed like hours, but was most likely only a few minutes.
Kurt was the one that finally broke the silence, "What was that?" Kurt questioned, looking at Blaine with wide eyes.
"I.. I don't-" Blaine started to say, before Kurt cut him off.
"It was a mistake right? You were," Kurt paused, clearing his throat before he continued, "caught in the moment." He finished, his eyes locked with Blaine's.
Blaine nodded while he bit the inside of his cheek, not wanting to say something he would regret, because no he had wanted to kiss Kurt, he had needed to. He wants to again, but he knows he can't. He hated that he couldn't have what he wanted, what they both wanted. Kissing Kurt, it was magic, Blaine could get lost in it all, and that would ruin everything, he needed to be more careful. No more dumb games that could get them caught in this position anymore.
"Yup! You're right, it was all just a ‘in the moment' kind of thing. It was a mistake. I'm so sorry," Blaine said, in a brittle voice, looking down toward the ground and playing with his own fingers.
He then jumped up to his feet, not sparing a glance toward Kurt, "If you would excuse me for a minute." Blaine dashed off toward the bathroom, closing the door once he was in. He closed his eyes, taking a few deep breaths. He felt like he was on the verge of tears. How had he been so stupid and forgotten everything he had told himself? How could he kiss Kurt? Blaine walked over to the sink, he laid his forehead onto the tile and breathed in and out. He couldn't do this. He was stupid to think that he and Kurt could be just friends. That his, or their, feelings wouldn't get in the way. At first he believed it would work, but that was because he hadn't been in love with Kurt then. But now. Now he is so in love with Kurt, he can hardly think when he is around him. Blaine stayed in the bathroom a few more minutes, calming himself down before finally being able to go back into the living room with Kurt.
Upon walking into the living room, Blaine smiled widely at Kurt, taking his seat on the couch once more. "I'm sorry about that," Blaine apologized, gesturing toward the bathroom.
"It's okay," Kurt replied, looking straight at him.
The air was thick with what had happened, both of them not knowing what to say, until Kurt spoke up again.
"I.." Kurt started, he scooted over more until he and Blaine were thigh to thigh. "I don't think it was a mistake, and I know you do. Of course you do. This is wrong, I'm too young." Kurt retorted, with an eye roll. "I do know all that. But to me? To me this was not a mistake, it was pure, beautiful, and it was always supposed to happen. I believe that, and I just want you to also believe that." Kurt pleaded, taking a hold of Blaine's hands.
Blaine licked his lips, looking down at Kurt's hands holding his own. He wanted to. He did. He didn't want to think being with the person you loved was wrong, but Kurt was a child, and there was also the matter of Kurt's father. He was just so torn. He didn't know what to do anymore. He was so in love with this person and it was getting so much harder not to give in to what he wanted.
Blaine sat there in silence for a few minutes, taking in everything Kurt had said. "Kurt," Blaine started, "I know how bad you want this. I do, okay, but we just, we can't. We can't be more than what we are. Which is friends. We're friends and I thought we were doing a really good job at that."
"We were. At least up until the point where you kissed me." Kurt shot back at Blaine.
Blaine sighed and nodded, smiling sadly. "I'm sorry. I am so sorry. We both know it was a mistake. We should just move on, and watch a movie or something," Blaine suggested, pointing toward the TV.
Kurt didn't want to just move on, he wanted to talk more about it and finally get Blaine to see that he was right. But maybe just for now he could forget about it and watch a movie with the man he was in love with. Tomorrow, tomorrow he will bring this all up again. They could talk about it and Kurt could get him to open up more about his feelings.
Kurt nodded, biting down on his lip, his cheeks turning a light pink. "Okay. We can watch a movie." Kurt agreed, making himself more comfortable on the couch.
"I'm picking," Blaine said, sticking his tongue out at Kurt. He walked over to the TV, pulling out a movie from the shelf and sticking it into the DVD player. Blaine grabbed the remote on his way back over to the couch, sitting down next to Kurt, he opened his arms out for Kurt to crawl into. Once Kurt did he pressed play on the movie, hearing Kurt laugh at what he had chosen.
"Finding Nemo, Blaine. Really?"
"What? It's cute and funny." Blaine defended, wrapping his arms around Kurt. "Be quite and enjoy the movie."
They watched the movie in relative silence, laughing when appropriate.
Once the movie was over, Blaine noticed soft snoring under him. He smiled to himself, because Kurt was too cute for his own good. Placing a soft lingering kiss to Kurt's forehead, he followed Kurt's lead by sleeping the afternoon away, more comfortable than he has ever slept before.
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aww that was soo cute!!!!