Jan. 27, 2013, 6:55 a.m.
My missing puzzle piece until the end of time: Chapter 1: Blaine's POV
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Its been weeks after the drama of the wedding of Mr. Shue and Ms. Philsburry … oh wait Mrs. Shuester by now, but the happiness and pain that day brought is still present on his heart, the pain that kurt brought on his heart is full force and doubled by now, more than the pain that their split up have done to his heart.. it felt like kurt stomp on the broken pieces of his heart and scattered it on the sea so there will be no way possible to bring it back together, a little dramatic that's true, but that is how you will feel as well if you've been on Blaine's place on the wedding day, especially after the day where he sing come what may to kurt,,
*flash back on the wedding day*
Blaine is so happy for the wedding of Mr. Shue and Ms. Philsburry, because one, all the drama of them will finally stop on being so stupid to become realistic and more mature since they are on their way on building their own family and two because kurt is going with him as his DATE.. I repeat as HIS DATE, not Adam but Blaine.. so you can pretty say that Blaine is on cloud 9 right now..all the sadness of the previous week because of Sam, Tina and Adam was gone the moment kurt agreed to be his date on the wedding.
Blaine's POV
I was standing outside the door of the hudmel home and waiting for kurt to come out, well it was a shock when kurt told me that his not bringing Adam on the wedding as to why I don't know.. I am just happy to be with kurt right now.,. so I am here outside my car waiting for the door to open and for the most gorgeous man and love of my life to come out, why thus the time seem to go slow right now?
All the self musing stop when the door open and kurt, finn, Burt and Carole comes out, the voice I first heard sounds so sweet to me "finn I told you I was going with Blaine ok, and no I refuse to tell you why I don't bring Adam home"
"Kurt, I was just confused rachel told me that you are with that creep so I think it is my responsibility to remind you that- "
"finn, first off, don't call him a creep, his super nice and second are you in speaking terms with rachel again? Watch out his sleeping with broody, on our apartment.. that is why I still somehow hate her and last you have no responsibility when it comes to me and my love life thank you very much, so you don't have to grilled you're as-" kurt didn't have the chance to finish it because Burt cut him off to address me "Blaine, how long are you waiting here? Sorry about waiting but I think kurt and finn miss each other so much so they won't stop on bickering.." Burt said rolling his eyes on his son and step son.
"not for so long Burt, it's actually fine continue bickering you two" I replied to Burt smiling brightly to him and then I turned to finn and kurt and offered them a little wave,, I feel like a stupid 12 year old girl..
"no were actually done talking about Adam.. let's go Blaine.." kurt said grabbing my hands.. if only he didn't mention that Adam name..this will be perfect..we were just turning when I heard finn asked "wait are you two riding together on the same car?" "yes finn, I am going to the wedding riding my baby".. kurt said and turned to his heel and I saw some mischievous grin from Burt and Carole and confused look from finn.. it will sound sexy to me as well if I didn't know that kurt call his navigator baby.. well I bid my goodbye to everyone before kurt drag me with him.. we went inside the car and kurt just shout a big goodbye to his father, Carole and finn and drove to the church..
It's a bit awkward for me like hello-i-am-with-my-ex-boyfriend-who-happens-to-be-my-best-friend-but-i-am-still-in-love-with-him kinda awkward.. but I think I'm going to survive this.. I tried to focus my eyes on the road to not ogle him too much.,. that is not cool..
"can I open the radio.. so at least have some noise here?" kurt asked reaching for the stereo..
"sure "I replied to him
"is there any particular station you want?" kurt asked again turning the radio.. I heard some noises coming from 70's songs on the radio , "no just put whatever you want" I heard kurt hummed a little as a reply.. he stop his searching on the station that play a top 40's song.. my ghad,, what is he doing to me?
I tried to avert my attention to the road and succeeded for a couple minutes, but then that faithful song have to play..
Made a wrong turn once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
I almost thought kurt will turn the radio off.. because hello it's just happen that the song playing currently is our love song… but then hold and behold.. I heard kurt singing the song on the next part
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good'
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated, look I'm still around
I love him.. I still love kurt.. I can't deny it,, I never denied it.. but the familiarity of this situation is making my heart go weeehhhh.. this is what it supposed to be,,, him being on my side singing our love song, so I join him on the next verse
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me
You're so mean (you're so mean)
When you talk (when you talk)
About yourself. You were wrong.
Change the voices (change the voices)
In your head (in your head)
Make them like you instead.
So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
(Ohh ohhhhhhh)
I missed the synchrony and harmony our voice have.. like its created to sing with each other,, not with anyone else..
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect
and yes his still perfect for me.. the perfect missing piece of my life..
The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line and we try try try but we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)?
The reason why I am not afraid to try before, now and till the end of time
(Yeah! Ooooh!)
I'm pretty, pretty, pretty
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me
(Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than less than perfect)
You're perfect, you're perfect to me
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me.
In this moment.. no one can go between us, no Eli, Tina, Sam and even Adam can go between the two of us.. just us,, kurt-and-Blaine.. like how it supposed to be.. I barely felt the stopping of the car and heard the song at-last when I saw kurt turn to me and look at me like the way he used to look at me before.. like as if no one else suppose to matter, just the two of us on our own word.. so I was consumed with my love with kurt that it gives me the strength to lean in and kissed him on the lips,, relaying the message and intensity that I tried to suppress when we were together last Christmas.. and then it was heated our tongue and hands is dancing on each other while Etta James sang my feeling on the air
At last
My love has come along
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song
Fuck yeah Etta James.. you will see life like this if your tongue is playing tonguesie with this gorgeous man
Oh yeah yeah
At last
The skies above are blue
Yes.. I saw it again my heaven on his eyes..
My heart was wrapped up in clover
The strength of his touch
The night I looked at you
I found a dream that I could speak to
The beautiful sound from his lips..
A dream that I can call my own
I found a thrill to press my cheek to
Your hands on my cheek
A thrill that I have never known
The feeling that I always felt only for you…
*tapping annoying sound that i will hate forever* "kurt, Blaine the wedding is almost starting.." Mercedes.. haist I love her but come on give us some more time!..
"will be out in a minute.. love you cedes.." kurt replied voice a little bit harsh..i did that to him.. me! No one else..
"ok hon" Mercedes replied and leave us alone..
"kurt what was.."
"let's talk later Blaine" kurt cut me off and rushes to fix himself..
"ahhh.. if you say so".. I answered and fixed myself as well..
"don't worry will talk about that later" kurt said and he smiled at me., his smile.. I can hear the last part of the song
Oh yeah yeah
You smiled, you smiled
Oh and then the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
for you are mine...
At Last
Yes.. Etta James is correct.. AT LAST.. you and me..again
The talk didn't come so soon.. the wedding ceremony was ok,, well not so much because I am pretty sure the drama will go down the McKinley wedding as the most dramatic one.. but let's focus about kurt and me, and our duet,, I was so shocked.. when Mr. shue ask me if I can do a duet with kurt on his wedding I just gaped at him.. as in really gaped at him.. then I asked if kurt is ok with,, because let's face it I thought kurt will be bringing Adam on the wedding.. It's the perfect opportunity to break my heart and introduce to his friends the new guy that has his attention..But Mr. Shue said it was ok with kurt.. So who I am to say no to kurt?.. we actually have no chance to practice… but well we do so many impromptu Disney performances to know that it will be amazing even without practice..
The background of the stage is awesome.. a color red background light and paper heart shaped design is on.. kurt and I were standing on the stage by now the song is starting..
When I'm with you baby, I go out of my head
And I just can't get enough, I just can't get enough
All the things you do to me and everything you said
And I just can't get enough, I just can't get enough
We slip and slide as we fall in love
And I just can't seem to get enough of
We walk together, we're walking down the street
And I just can't get enough, I just can't get enough
Every time I think of you I know we have to meet
And I just can't get enough, I just can't get enough
It's getting hotter, it's a burning love
And I just can't seem to get enough of
I just can't get enough
And when it rains, you're shining down for me
And I just can't get enough, I just can't get enough
Just like a rainbow you know you set me free
And I just can't get enough, I just can't get enough
You're like an angel and you give me your love
And I just can't seem to get enough
While were singing the song all I could think of is Ahhhemmm…. This is true,, kurt hummel turned me on like crazy, I hope he still feel that way.. and I still love you.. always..I can't get enough on loving you..the song ended and kurt gets out of the stage.,., a slow music play next and everyone is slow dancing.. I felt kurt shifted on my side so I faced him.. "do you want to dance?" kurt asked me.. he asked me to dance with him.. so I did.. I grabbed his hand and escort him to the dance floor.. I leave a little space because hey even though I still love you were best friend and I still respect you..
We dance,, and dance the beauty of the night,, the love in the air,, even finn and rachel was spotted together,, the flushed of body to body.. and I felt the little space that I put was slowly dissolving as I felt kurt leaning into me.,. I felt my head slowly resting on his shoulder, and his cheeks resting on my gelled hair and the world perfect flashed in front of my eyes..I let myself be soaked on the moment..forget that were not together and soon it will come to an end.. I just let myself breathe kurt, be surrounded by kurt for a moment..
But just like every other beautiful moments,, It has to end ..I felt his cheeks being remove from my curls and he slowly pushed me away and look me in the eyes..
"let's go to our room.."
"o…u,,r rooomm?" ok I stammered like an idiot,., but hello this is my true love/ first man on my life,, of course I have the pass to be shock..
"yes, didn't you know? They saved a room for everyone but I think every couple possible is together in one room..including you and me.. even though you know.." kurt stop abruptly..
"I know.. let's go.." I felt like my heart just got broken there.. but never mind..
We went to our room and changed, he went to the bathroom first before me so I had the chance to look on the window.,, and the scene is breath taking.. "Blaine, I'm done,," I heard kurt said, I just nod and grab my prepared shirt and pajama and went straight to the bathroom.. I just let myself relax on the bath tab.. I tried to put my minds away from the inappropriate things I want to think.. this is not my room (where our first time happens), this is not his room (were we tried to be joined as much as we can) and this is not last year where everything is perfect and nice.. reality is they are not together what happen on the car was not done because they are together but just the heat of the moment,, and i won't let it happen again.. i will never be end up just a hook up to kurt.. i finished thinking with the resolve that he will not going to let himself be taken away by desire… he went out of the bath tub and prepare himself to sleep.
I went out of the shower and went straight to the couch preparing to sleep when I heard Kurt's voice.. "don't do that Blaine, you know I am ok with you sleeping on the bed with me" .."I don't want you to get all weird on me kurt" I replied softly and I lay on the couch taking myself on a ball.. a minute or so I heard shifting on the bed and I felt Kurt's hand on me..
"come on. Just sleep with me on the bed Blaine.. I missed you so much,," kurt said giving me soft kisses on my exposed skin on the neck..it get heated a little more when I didn't moved i uncurled myself from the couch and capture kurt's cheeks before he can attack my lips.. "come on I will sleep with you in that bed.. but promise me we won't do anything kurt,, I still love you and I know you can feel that so I won't let myself be one of your hook ups.. so come on let's sleep now.. you have an early fly to catch.." I grab his hands and lead him to the bed.. I tacked him first and I tacked myself on his side,, just like before I am on the right side and he is on the left side,, we fit together so much just like a puzzle piece.. "thank you blaine,, for saving me from myself" I heard him murmur,, "you're welcome.. always,." I replied kissing his forehead and curling with him..
The morning comes past we were escorted back to our own home and I went to the hudmel house to escort kurt and rachel to the airport., i think finn and rachel are together again because they are playing tonguesies again on the hallway of the hudmels when Burt let me in,, the morning past easily with awkward conversations and finn and rachel playing footsies under the table and kurt rolling his eyes on finn and rachel..we get ready to go to the airport,, on the car we were packed were finn and rachel is on the back.. 'for me to not get distracted when that two decided to have sex in front of us,,' and kurt and I on the side driver.. 'you too keep it PG ok.. I love you blaine and I don't want any blood here in my car..i blushed red hot because of that comment and tried to block the hummel's snort.
We arrived on the airport after 10 minutes and finn and rachel decided to stop their tongue war,.. I didn't even have the courage to talk to kurt.. well I don't know what to say so I escort myself out of the car to help finn and Burt on unloading all the bags of kurt and rachel,, rachel bid goodbye to me and Burt with a little 'good bye' and a smile and wave and with saliva war with finn.. kurt bid goodbye to finn by a pat on the shoulder, his dad with a fierce hug and an I love you..and too me by a hug and a kissed on the cheeks and a little thank you. I am ok with it..i just look on them as they are dissolving on the sea of people all heading on their own world.. and I will be left again here.. alone,, oh well with tina,, but let's just say that I don't care!,,
After few days I heard from finn that kurt and adam are going stronger based on rachel..and it breaks my heart but I have to continue we have a regionals coming up.. then cooper called he told me that he bought me a ticket to go to new York for me to see kurt..i never love him more..i readily agreed telling the nd that I will go to new York to see my brother.. no one believe me.. but well sue me!..
I arrive at new York and rachel let me in telling me that kurt is on the rooftop.. I went on the rooftop and I saw him their adorned by a background of lanterns a beautiful scene to see after days of being deprived and I felt like all my feelings can be sang on one simple song.. Come What May
Never knew I could feel like this
Like Ive never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day Im loving you more and more
'He looks torn.. does this mean he doesn't love me anymore?' I took tentative swaying steps to go near him.. if this is the end then I will sing my hearts out
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
I have to do this.. if this will be the end.. then I should tell him what I feel..
Come what may
Come what may
He didn't sing with me..
I will love you until my dying day
On this moment I gave up all the hope.. I tentatively smiled at him and turned my back ready to let go no string attached.. but then I hear it a small voice like as if it's a reply to me..
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
And I cried.. I can't help it
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
That's true,, for me..
It all revolves around you
I hope its true for him too..
And there's no mountain too high
I grab both of his hands by this time..
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you(I love you) until the end (until the end) of time
A promise of my heart witnessed by the lanterns and the moon,, a promise of forever..
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh, come what may, come what may
My tears are now flowing on my eyes right now.. the heavens I can see on his eyes
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
And this rooftop is the witness of my love for this man..
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
A promise of love.. is a promise of forever..
"kurt i…" I start but kurt cut me off with such a pained look on his face,, gone the heaven's eyes.. it is now cloudy as an approaching storm..
"I'm sorry blaine.. I love you but I don't want to hurt adam.."
He loves me… he said he loves me.. but he doesn't want to hurt adam? Well that hurts more than anything.."so your willing to hurt me?" that's all I can say… the promise of forever just seem so broken for me right now.. like as if there is no one to be on my side while I am building that forever..
"I am so sorry blaine,… so sorry I didn't mean it like.." kurt said grabbing my hands and putting it on his chest
"didn't mean what kurt? It's ok I understand,, I'm sorry.. I should get going.." I said grabbing my hands away from him and turning away,,, now I know it will be for real.. I will lose him forever.. the missing puzzle piece is now broken somewhere I will never feel myself complete again..
"I…I will miss you kurt,,".. I can't say goodbye.. i just can't .. maybe just not now.. maybe never…I turned to head to the doors blocking his voice from my ears and ignoring rachel.. I just run,,. Run from the pain.. the rejection,, the forever that is lost and never will comeback..
My missing puzzle piece is gone now.. forever..
End of flashback
And now weeks after the wedding and that almost-forever-turned-doom's-day blaine is lost in pain and hurt.. he can't function well, the glee club is supportive but he can't feel his smiles anymore., even sam tried to copy and be ridiculously funny as ariel he can't still feel himself.. like as if the pain his feeling in his heart made him numb..
"blaine, are you ok? Finn s talking to you for like a minute now,, but you just seem loss.." I heard tina talking to me directly..
"sorry finn,,, what is it?" I told finn not feeling sorry at all.. his happ now with rachel.. and me.. here I am alone..
"I am saying that you will be the lead and I am giving you the power to choose the song you want to sing for regional." Finn said looking at me sympathetically.. I don't need his pity
"whatever you want .. I will sing whatever you guys want" I snapped at him.. I can't help it I don't want their pity on me..
"I think blaine you should decide it on your own" sam chimed in before another blow of snarky remark can go on finn's way…
"whatever.. I will find some.. can I go now?" I grabbed my bag and leave the room..
The days before the regionals just slowly killing me.. I tried to find a song, but everytime I think back to come what may.. it just hurt me much.. and the memories of Dalton.. days before regional as well,, me and the love of my life on the music room.. confessing love and sealing it with a kiss.. if only I can go back on those stair where I first saw him.. and then it clicked,, I know the exact song I want to simg.. I texted finn and told him the song.. and I will sing it the way I want..
Three days before regionals I texted him..
"kurt I know you said you didn't want to hurt adam.. but this is me trying for the last time.. I love you and I want to spend forever with you.. If you could come to regionals with rachel to see us perform.. I want you to hear my song for you.. for us,… love you "–b
And now regionals here we come we are up against vocal adrenaline again.. but I don't care,, I am still wishing for kurt to come,.. rachel arrive and told me that she didn't think kurt will be coming to watch us.. Burt told me as well.. but I am still waiting.. I will wait for him forever… until my heart just stop beating..
We were last,. And based on our experienced,, that is bad,, but I don't care.. my eyes and heart is still searching for a light brown hair, pale skin and blue eyes..and here I am now standing in front of the crowd I still didn't see the most important person in my life..
"hi everyone.. this is for the love of my life.. I hope you could hear this,, but I asked Mr. shue to record it so you can hear it later,.. I am willing to wait for you forever.. I love you so much"
And just like that i went to the piano that is slightly adjar on finn's way for me to be seen by the audience.. and just like what I did to teenage dream.. I mellowed the tone of this song.. so I can play it with heart..
Going back to that stairs where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying if you see this guy can you tell him where I am
yes I want to return to that day.. the first time I saw you In that stair.. I can actually picture it a beautiful voice and a light tap and when I turned a beautiful shy boy in front of me.. why can't life just bring me back to that time.. if only I can redo everything..or just come back on that time I will be perfectly happy to be stuck there forever
Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you
no one understand my love for you.. they all say that high school sweetheart didn't suppose to be together forever.. but I refuse to give up on you just because of a stupid statistic..i still love you.. and that breaks my heart..
'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on that Dalton stairs
I will be here for you… waiting even if it means forever..just call me and I will be there.. if you to start again I am willing to go back to that stair and Dalton and reenact the most beautiful scene of my life
So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I still love you..
Policeman says son you can't stay here
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If he changes his mind this is the first place he will go
And then I saw it when I turned my head on the side stage where finn and Mr. Shue is located.. bright blue eyes stinging with tears looking at me.. this is our new Dalton.. this is were he went the time he changed his mind
'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you see me waiting for you on that Dalton Stairs
So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I looked him in the eyes while singing the lines.. trying to convey to him that when he decided to forgive and give me a chance I am still the same blaine that he met on that dalton stair,, stronger and loving him more.. I am still here waiting for him,, forever,,
'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we meet
Oh, you see me waiting for you on that Dalton stairs
So I'm not moving
('Cause if one day you wake up, find that you're missing me)
I'm not moving
(And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be)
I'm not moving
(Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet)
I'm not moving
(Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street)
Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move
I am here.. I will wait for you even if it takes forever..
There is a standing ovation after I sung.. I really didn't expect it because of the nature of the song,.. it scream gay.. but I just have to let go of my feelings.. I just want kurt to know that come what may.. I will love him until my dying days.. I will wait for him.. even if it takes forever..
My part is done and we did our show stopper.. and so we all run to the backstage.. and here I am searching again for a brown hair and blue eyes.. and then I saw it charging in me enveloping me on the fiercest hug he ever gave me and kissed me on my lips.. I felt like I won national's because of that..
"I love you blaine.. *kiss*I am sorry *kiss*.. I have to put things straight with adam.. I am sory for hurting you so much *kiss*.. I.. huh.. broke up.. huh.. with adam.,.huh..a week after you left.. he knows that I didn't love him the way I love you.. I am so sorry.." and then he kissed me again so fierce that I thought his sucking my soul.. well I am happy to die here if that's what he wants..
"I love you too so much.." I told him and kiss him lightly.. that's when I hear Santana..
"hey ponnies stop smooching each other I know you practically eye-fuck lady lips here while your singing that song but I have you know hobbit that we need to get to the stage to get the award so move your lazy ass now!..
"oh don't be such a coc-" I stopped him their I don't want to hear the word cock right now from his lips..
"ok Santana I'll be coming up.,. give me a minute"
"no sex will be-"
"san please.. and don't mention sex.. thank you" I said cutting him sharply
"ok enjot lady lips and Burt Reynolds.."
"I need to get the trophy because I know we won.. will you wait for me here?"
"as you said on the song.. I will wait for you forever.." kurt said kissng my lips..
My missing puzzle piece is finally home here in my arms..
And I will love him until my dying breath…
Omg! Ok I need to say sorry to the CWM part.. I'm just sorry.. i cried literally on that part but I hope I give justice comments is welcome everyone..thank you for reading.. R&R!
-deanne
Comments
This was really good. I love that you had them reunite at regionals though personally I really hope that Come What May in episode 15 has them come to an agreement that they at least want to try again whether that is immediately or once Blaine graduates. I seriously just want Klaine back together so I was happy to see that happen in your story. All the songs that you used were awesome and they fit their relationship really well. I look forward to reading your future stories.
you are the first person to ever give a nice reply to this story.. i actually have to delete this from fanfiction.net because of all the bashing and criticism i get..thank you so much.. i edited it actually becausee of many errors so i will put it up later.. but still thank you.. and i want klaine back as well but with so much shit spoilers this is what makes me go on and love klaine.. the idea of them getting back together,,