'' Umm.. Sure"

" Well it all began the next year when Kurt left to go live in New York, he leaving was hard to say the least. It mot like we didn't talk orSkypeit was just hard not being around everyday after school, or our weeklycoffeeSkype dates and phone calls came least frequent when he began to intern at a fashion website. When we did talk it was always about something he was doing in New York related. And that made me feel as though I was not doing my job right, he wasalreadybored with me. Which I felt as though my biggest fearhas cometrue. So after a few months of being push aside I did the worst thing I could have done I cheated on him. Before you ask I didn't have sex with other guy, but I still cheated. That next weekend I went down tovisitKurt, during myvisitKurt knew that something was wrong, so I told him the truth. Before I got the chance to tellthe reason whyhe yelled at me and walk off in tears.Hewas cutoff before he could go on.

" What was the reason for your cheating?"

" Thereason whyfor my cheating was I needed to know if it was worth all this pain and loneliness. And at the end I was sure it was. But then I didn't matter I lost him. Over the next month I called to tell him how sorry I was. My guilt grew big, so I did my cutting. It got to the point I was even going to switch back to my old school. The Frist thought of killing myself came a little time after the break up whenKurtcame tovisitandflat-outyelled at me how he couldn't trust me any more. ThatThanksgivingKurt called me and told me how he growing to terms to forgive me, he even told me that he was going to come down to talk about the break up. Ourrelationshipcame to back to just friend liking feeling in what going on in each other lives. When Kurt told me he couldn't fly down since he had to save up his money for school, I was sadden to hear that but I knew school was more worthy than a ticket to fly down to see your Ex. Two weeks later I was informedsome shocking knewformKurt's dad Burt . He also flew me down as a gift to Kurt for Christmas. My trip down their how you say wasinteresting, Kurt told me even though we where broken up we are still best friends, Going back was hard but I feltmuch betterthan I had in a long time. But that feel didn't last long. Thepressure of being perfect came back when the school introducethatthey where having their same type dance I had at my old school. In my mindIdidn't want anyone to think I was weak.So I hid as long as I could, but at the dance I couldn't take it so I called Kurt. But the person who answer was some British guy name Adam and he told me he was Kurt was in the bathroom. I ask what he and Kurt where doing, and he stated backsmugas ever that they where on a date. Right then there I knew that I had lost everyone I cared about my parents and Kurt. So this isthe reasonI am killing myselfright now..."

" Wait what do you mean your killing yourselfright now?"