Dec. 19, 2012, 12:29 a.m.
Hopelessly devoted to Kurt: Chapter 2
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“Wha' did ya have to wake me for?” She asked, her voice thick with sleep. Not an attractive sound on her. Kurt smiled as she glared at him.
“Well if you want to stay on the plane and go to California, then go ahead and sleep.” Kurt said with a small smile as Rachel shook her head and stood up, leading the way off of the plane.
They were met outside the airport by the Hudmels and Rachel's dads. Kurt was enveloped in a hug from his dad and Carole and got a high five from Finn as Rachel moved away from them, not even looking at Finn. Finn looked hurt by that, but the look slowly lessened as Kurt pulled him in for a hug, this got a laugh from Finn as he gently clapped him on the back. Rachel looked over one of her dad's shoulders at Finn then, and was glad to see that his back was to her so that he couldn't see the look on her face as she stared at the man she still loved. But she didn't look away fast enough as Finn turned around and accidentally looked at her, a look on his face that was similar to the one that had been on his face back in sophomore year during Madonna week when she had told him that she couldn't date him again. Rachel looked away, too tempted to run to him and hold him 'till his pain went away. But she couldn't go back to him yet.
Half and hour later, after they had arrived back at the Hudmel household, Kurt found that he could sit with his family and pretend to be happy. He had to get out of the house.
“Dad, I'm just gonna go for a drive. Okay?” Kurt said after he had stood up from his seat and looked over to Finn, who had copied his action.
Burt nodded at his son. Kurt smiled at his father as he quickly pocketed his phone and wallet and walked over to get his keys. He had decided to leave his Navigator in Lima, until he really needed it. Walking back into the lounge room, he noticed that Finn also had his keys in his hand.
“Where are you off to?” Kurt asked as Finn looked over to him.
“I have to go back to school. I need to put up the list for the play.” Finn replied as waved to their parents and moved towards the door, Kurt right behind him. Walking out to their respective cars, Kurt waved to his step-brother before he climbed into his own car and waited for Finn to pull out of the driveway. Finn waved to him before his car slowly disappeared. Kurt had no idea where he was going, but after five minutes of sitting in his car, he decided to follow Finn.
It took his five minutes to get to the school, and he looked up in wonder at the place he used to hate. The only good thing about the school was Glee club. It was the only thing that made him feel safe and wanted. Parking next to Finn's truck, Kurt slowly climbed out of his car and locked it before slowly walking towards the school. He stopped by the choir room, and smiled when he saw that Finn was still there. Kurt was about to say something to his step-brother but his words were cut off when he suddenly felt arms wrap around his chest. He turned around to see Tina, Sam, Joe, Brittany and Artie behind him. Tina was the one that currently had her arms around him. Kurt grinned as he wrapped his arms around the Asian girl and hugged her close.
“Tina, how have you been?” He asked happily as Tina pulled away. Slowly, he was hugged by everyone else, apart from Joe. He hadn't really known him that well.
“I'm great, thanks Kurt. How have you been?” Tina asked as Brittany clung to him. Kurt grinned down at the slightly dopey blonde cheerleader's head as she turned her face up to look at him.
“Other dolphin has been really sad.” Brittany said. Kurt didn't know what to say to that, and he was happy when Finn suddenly exited the office.
“Oh, hey guys. What are you doing here, Kurt?” Finn asked, sending his step-brother a confused look.
“Didn't know where else to go.” Kurt replied as Brittany finally let him go. Brittany gave him a sad look before walking over to Sam and let him wrap his arms around her.
“Well alright then. I was about to put the list up. I'd tell you all now, but not everyone is here. So come on. Are you coming Kurt?” Finn asked. Kurt nodded and slowly followed his brother down the half empty hallway. Kurt was happily talking to his old class mates, that he didn't notice the dark-headed person waiting at the bulletin board. Kurt still didn't see him, seen as Finn had stepped right in front of him to place the list on the board. A few gasps were heard as the other members formed around the board to see what roles they had gotten.
Despite the happy cheers, Kurt could clearly hear the footsteps walking away from the board. He knew it was Blaine, even though he hadn't noticed that he was there. Kurt looked up at the board then and had a look at who was actually playing the roles for Grease.
William McKinley High School Production
Grease
Roles:
Cha Cha- Brittany S. Pierce
Frenchy- Sugar Motta
Doody- Joe Hart
Kenickle- Sam Evans
Jan- Tina Cohen- Chang
Danny Zuko- Ryder Lynn
Sandy Olsson- Marley Rose
Rizzo- Wade “Unique” Adams
Putzie- Jake Puckerman
Patty Simcox- Kitty Wilde
Teen Angel- Blaine Anderson
Kurt stared at each name for a moment. Different thoughts flew into his mind as he looked at the name and then looked at the person that belonged to that name. He looked over at Tina, and noticed who sad she seemed that she didn't get the lead role even though she was a senior. Then he looked over at Sam and Joe, who were laughing at Sam's ridiculous impression of Kenickle. He looked over at Brittany and Sugar then, and found then happily giggling at their roles. The person that he presumed was Marley, was happily jumping up and down next to who he thought was Ryder. Next to the was Wade, who Kurt had already met, and he looked blissful at getting the role of Rizzo. Kurt looked back up at the list again just to make sure that he had read one of the names properly. Since when did Puck have a brother? Kurt looked over at another one of the guys, the one that looked a lot like Puck.
Like the year before, Kurt wished Blaine was beside him. He wished he was there to hug him, to show him how proud he was. But Blaine wasn't there. Blaine had walked away after seeing the list, without a word. It was then that Kurt decided to follow him. He went to the one place that had once given him comfort, and he knew that it gave Blaine comfort. The auditorium. Kurt knew he was right as soon as he heard singing, and he couldn't mistake that voice.
Kurt quietly walked into the auditorium and sat down, not wanting to disrupt Blaine as he sang.
Oh yeah
Oh yeah
So scared of breaking it that you won't let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters I will never send
Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper then they seem
You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them be
So let me be, and I'll set you free
I am in misery
There ain't nobody who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me
Boy you really got me bad, you really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back, gonna get you back
Your salty skin and how it mixes in with mine
The way it feels to be completely intertwined
It's not that I didn't care, it's that I didn't know
It's not what I didn't feel, it's what I didn't show
So let me be, and I'll set you free
I am in misery
There ain't nobody who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me
Boy you really got me bad, you really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back, gonna get you back
Say your faith is shaken, you may be mistaken
You keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun
I'm desperate and confused, so far away from you
I'm getting here, don't care where I have to go
Why do you do what you do to me, yeah
Why won't you answer me, answer me yeah
Why do you do what you do to me yeah
Why won't you answer me, answer me yeah
I am in misery
There ain't nobody who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me
Boy you really got me bad, you really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back, gonna get you back
Kurt smiled at the way that Blaine had changed the lyrics, and he automatically knew that Blaine was singing about him. Kurt was about to get up as Blaine started panicking and raced across to the stereo that was sat on the edge of the stage. Different music started to play as Kurt dropped back down in his seat, tears forming in his eyes.
Share my life, take me for what I am
'Cause I'll never change all my colours for you
Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do.
I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
I can't run from myself, there's nowhere to hide
Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you, you, you, you
You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of your love
I never knew love like I've known it with you
Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to
I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
I can't run from myself, there's nowhere to hide
Your love I'll remember forever
Oh, don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me, no
Don't walk away from me
Don't you dare walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you
If I don't have you, oh
A smiled formed on Kurt's face as the tears poured down his cheeks. This was the song that Kurt had sung to Blaine the year before. He had sung it as an apology after Blaine had found the messages from Chandler. Blaine had been heartbroken and had sung 'It's not right but its okay' in front of the entire Glee club, angry that Kurt had cheated on him. It seemed that their roles were reversed now, and Blaine was the one begging for forgiveness. Kurt was about to get up again when the music had started again. His movement as he dropped back down into his chair had caught Blaine's eye, but Blaine chose not to show that he had seen him, wanting Kurt to hear the next song he had to sing.
There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
And if I show it to you now
Will it make you run away
Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
A few give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Will you love me?
ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don't run away
Don't run away
Don't run away
Promise you stay
Kurt did stand up then and he walked slowly towards the stage. He didn't really know what to say to Blaine, but he knew that he loved him with all of his heart. Even though what he had done had hurt him, but several words from all of his songs had spoken to him. Yes, his faith was shaken, and just like Blaine had sung, he was also desperate and confused. He also knew that he was everything to Blaine, just like Blaine was everything to him. They were each other's first loves, they had never had anyone other then each other. Kurt had to learn not to run away, no matter what happened. Blaine was the man that he loved, his true love, his soul-mate. There would never be anyone else for Kurt. Blaine was it, and Kurt needed him.
“I promise you I will stay.” Kurt said as he finally made his way onto the stage. “I am so angry at you, but I miss you like crazy. All I want is to be able go to sleep at night and wake up in your arms. I want to be able to trust you enough not to ever have to worry about to hooking up with someone else. Yes, my faith is shaken, but in time I will be able to trust you like I used to. I understand now that I gave you reason to do what you did. I ignored you while I was living my new life, I left you out. I made you feel lonely, lonely enough to find comfort in someone else's arms.”
“I didn't find comfort. It made me sick to the stomach.” Blaine muttered, looking down at his hands, not noticing when Kurt stepped closer to him.
“I love you.”
Blaine's head shot up then and he was staring into the glistening eyes of Kurt Hummel. Blaine had wanted to look into them since New York, but he wasn't able to. Because he was a stupid idiot, a moron that made a stupid mistake and cheated on his caring and loving boyfriend.
“I-I love you too.” Blaine replied, tears forming in his own eyes. Kurt tried to swallow down the lump that had formed in his throat as tears welled in his eyes, threatening to fall if Blaine's did. Blaine's did fall, and Kurt suddenly lost control. Moments later, Kurt had flung himself across the small space between them and into Blaine's warm arms. More tears fell for both of them as Kurt buried his head into the crook of Blaine's neck. Blaine didn't know what came across him, but he splayed his hands across Kurt back and buried his lips and nose in Kurt's hair.
“I'm so sorry, Kurt. I never meant to hurt you.” Blaine said, as Kurt looked up at him, his glasz eyes shining from the tears.
“I believe you.” Kurt said and he took it upon himself to reach up and take Blaine's face in his hands. “I forgive you.”
Blaine's eyes widened, but they soon closed as Kurt leaned in and captured his lips with his own, their tears mixing together. After a few minutes, Kurt pulled back and looked at the shorter boy.
“This is who you really are, my loving and perfect boyfriend. I'll never give up on you.” Kurt said as he leaned in again and kissed his shocked boyfriend.
“We are soul-mates.”
Comments
This was awesome. I am glad that you actually had Kurt realize that he had made a mistake and had ignored Blaine when he promised he wouldn't. That is one problem I have with Kurt on Glee, he refuses to acknowledge what he did that caused Blaine to feel the way he did. Hopefully by the end of the season they can come back together and be happy like they are in your story.