Early the next day and Kurt was as ready as he would ever be to go any see his son for the first time. Yes that was a very scary thought his son was three and he was seeing him for the first time.

“Blaine, are you sure you don’t mind that my dad is coming with me?” He questions for the third time that morning stood by the front door.

“Listen Kurt, I really don’t mind, Alaxander is your son, that makes your dad is Grandpa, you two have the right to go and see him. You can come back and tell me all about him later,” Blaine reassured him.

Kurt sighed, “Blaine you’re amazing I hope you know that,” he spoke while leaning forward to pull Blaine into a hug. “I’ll drop you a text so you know we have arrived safely and give you a call once we are finished, I don’t know how long we are going to be though, as I know that Elaine wants to speak to me both before and after I see Alaxander.”

“It’s fine Kurt, don’t worry about it, as I told you yesterday just don’t expect anything then everything that does happen will be a bonus.”

“Thank you Blaine, I love you,” Kurt said before connecting his lips with Blaine’s in a good bye kiss. As Kurt pulled away from Blaine, Blaine spoke.

“I love you too, see you later sweetheart,”

With that Kurt turned and walked to the car in which his Father was already waiting. He climbed in to the car his nerves seemed to get worse, after around fifteen minutes of silence Kurt decided to speak to his dad. They hadn’t spoken much in the time Kurt had been back in Lima.

“Do you think I’m doing the right thing Dad,” Kurt questioned,

He had to wait a while for his dad to reply but eventually he got an answer, “Yes I do Kurt. I don’t think you would have been able to make the right decision if you have never met Alaxander. I think you are showing what a special young man you are by stepping up to all of this. Men much older than you would have run at the same news. I am proud of you and I know your Mom would be too,” Kurt could hear the sincerity in his father’s voice, knowing he meant every word of what he was saying. “You just have to remember that you have to do what you want to do, you have to think about what is right for you and Blaine. You also have to remember that whatever decision you chose to make that Carole and I will be here to support you, and your mom would have too, and you know it.”

His mom, god he missed her so much. Yes Carole and his dad had been amazing through all of this but he would give anything to have a hug from his mother right now. The thought of his mother makes him realise that he is making the right decision in going to see his son. He knows what it’s like to lose his mom, so while Alaxander’s mother wasn’t dead he would be missing her badly. He knows that he couldn’t tell him he is his dad, but as Blaine had said yesterday he could talk about his mother with the boy. Okay he wouldn’t be able to tell Alaxander much himself but he would be able to listen to stories from the boy, hopefully find out about some of the things he had missed out on. Kurt suddenly realised he hadn’t replied back to his dad.

“I think you’re right you know dad, I am doing the right thing. I just hope I think the same thing when I get there, I don’t have any idea what to expect,” Kurt admitted.

“Just try not to worry about it that is why you have Elaine, she will tell you what you can and can’t do, what should and shouldn’t happen, and I doubt she will leave us alone with Alaxander. Just ask her anything you need to before you go and see the boy.”

“Again you’re right, thanks dad,”

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20 minutes later, they had arrived at the children’s home where Alaxander had been placed temporarily, and were sat in the waiting room waiting for Elaine. Kurt couldn’t stop the slight shake of his hands he was so nervous, no matter whether he decided in the near future to take parental responsibility of Alaxander or not today was still going to change his life; he knew this day would remain with him forever.

Kurt looked up as the door opened, and saw a well dressed women, with brown hair and brown eyes enter the room. She walked directly up to him.

“Hello, I am Elaine, and you must be Mr. Hummel and I correct?” She asked him, holding out her hand.

Kurt stood up and accepted her hand, he noticed out of the corner of his eye his dad had also stood. “Yes I am, please to meet you Elaine, and please it’s Kurt, and this, is my father Burt Hummel.” Kurt let go of her hand to allow her to greet his father.

“Pleased to meet you Burt,”

“Same to you Elaine,” Kurt noticed that Elaine had quickly turned back towards him,

“If you would mind following me into my office, we can discuss Alaxander, and I can explain a few things to you and then I can give you time to ask any question you may have before I take you to see him.”

Kurt nodded, and beckoned for his dad to come to. He followed Elaine into a small but cosy office, with soft leather chairs.

“Please take a seat,” Elaine instructed him, and Kurt obliged, as did his father.

Kurt could feel the tension in his body, his back felt stiff and his shoulders felt like they wouldn’t drop into their natural position.

“Can I get you gentlemen anything to drink?”

“Coffee please,” Kurt answered he hoped having a drink of coffee would help calm his nerves, “white no sugar.”

“Same for me please,” Burt commented. Kurt wanted to say something to his dad about his heart but right now wasn’t the time. Elaine left the room leaving Kurt alone with his father.

“This is it dad, somewhere in this building my son, your grandson, is playing or watching telly or something, I don’t know what to think dad,” he said worriedly not daring to catch his father’s eyes. Kurt felt his father take hold of his hand before he began to speak.

“Just stay relaxed, ask any questions you need to and take your time. I’ll admit it Kurt I don’t really know what to think, and as you say he’s my son not my grandson, so I can only imagine what you are thinking right now. I’m here for you though son, whatever happens and whatever you think.”

All too quickly Elaine came back into the room, and Kurt withdrew his hand away from his father, to accept his coffee.

“Thank you,” he said taking to coffee off Elaine, who sat behind her desk after handing another cup of coffee over to Burt.

“Kurt, I understand that you have never seen your son before am I correct?”

“Yes you are, I didn’t even know he existed until just over a week ago,” Kurt confirmed.

“Okay well, I will talk to you a bit about Alaxander and then take it from there I am sure you are interested to know more about him, am I correct.” Kurt could only nod this time.

“Well as you know already his name is Alaxander and that is how he likes to be address he doesn’t like Alex, or Al or any other nicknames. He is three years old, and a very bright one at that. While he is bright he is a typical three year old boy, loves cars, and trucks and power rangers, however he also has a tendency to like some not so typical boy things, and he likes dressing up and tea parties. However we allow him to do these things to we are not about to stop him doing something he enjoys.”

“I understand, I will admit, I liked tea parties myself as a child.” Kurt saw Elaine smile at this admission.

“Good we just have to make sure people understand, so people don’t think children should play with toys that are not typically meant for their sex.” Kurt nodded he knew this only too well. “He seems to have settled in here fairly, well he gets on with the other children, but it is clear he misses his mother. We have been told by Miss Day that it is the first time they have ever been apart from each other. Because he hasn’t been here long there isn’t much more we know about him do you have any questions so far?” Kurt took a drink of coffee before replying

“I do have a couple of questions actually, I know that Alaxander is 3, and born in May am I allow to ask when his birthday actually is?” It was one thing Kurt had been wondering since he first found out for sure that Alaxander was his.

“Of course you are,” Kurt saw her flipping open a file, which he guessed was Alaxander’s “27th May 2013.” Kurt could help but gasp he wanted to believe the he had miss heard. He looked over at his dad and saw a shocked expression on his face, and knew instantly he hadn’t heard wrong.

“Is everything okay Kurt?” Elaine questioned him.

He took a deep breath before answering, “I was born 27th May 1993, it’s just a shock to know my son shares my birthday.” Elaine looked at him in surprise. “Don’t worry about it, yes it’s strange but I’m sure he wasn’t the only child born that day.” Kurt stated simply trying to act calmer about the news than he truly was. “Do you know much about his health recorders and such?”

“I have some of his documentation here yes, why?”

“I was just wondering if he had any problems with is glands?” Kurt waited for a while why Elaine looked through Alaxander’s records.

“No he doesn’t seem to have had; it seems he’s only ever seen the doctor for an eye infection and an ear infection. May I ask why you asked?”

“When I was younger I had glandular problems, my parents were told by doctors that there was a 50% chance my children would inherit these same problems. There is still a chance he may have done, I don’t know if it is something you may want to record, and it is something Miss Day most certainly wouldn’t have been aware of.”

“Thank you, yes any information we can get like this is useful for us to have while he is in our care, is there anything else you would like to ask.” Kurt allowed himself to drink more of his coffee why he thought, he couldn’t think of anything, so he shook his head.

“Okay, if you don’t mind then we shall go onto speaking about your meeting with your son?”

“Very well,” Kurt knew this part of the conversation as needed if he was going to see Alaxander and be able to act normal.

“I understand that going in there is going to probably bring up a lot of emotions for yourself, however it is important that Alaxander doesn’t pick up on these too easily. I have informed you already that he cannot know you are his dad, I’m guessing you are wondering why?” she questioned, Kurt just nodded wanting her to continue as quickly as possible. “While he is a smart boy and that is good it shows that Miss Day seems to have been caring for him properly it also means that he picks up on things more easily than other children. He knows things are not normal right now, and he knows his mother has done stuff she shouldn’t, but sometimes he wants to know more, more that he just wouldn’t understand. We have been informed by Miss Day that Alaxander knows nothing about you; he never asked her about his father, we are assuming it is because he never knew of a father figure he never asked. If you go in there and tell him you are his father, while he would understand straight away what you meant, it would lead him to wanting to know more, and again ask questions we just cannot answer.”

“That is understandable,” Kurt acknowledged placing his now empty coffee cup on the desk. “However that doesn’t make me feel any easier about lying to my son the first time I meet him,” he added.

“Yes I understand how hard that must be Kurt,” Elaine assured, “you just have to realise it is for Alaxander’s own good. We wouldn’t do it if it wasn’t in his best interest.” Kurt just nodded again; he was now ringing his fingers together they were getting to the stuff he really didn’t want to have to talk about. “Seeing as you can’t tell him who you are, we need you both to say that you are friends of Miss Day, while I understand that this is even harder, we are hoping it will help the boy speak to you. It has been the way that all of our staff have been able to break the ice with him, talking about his mother. Once he starts talking about her he doesn’t stop. It will allow you to create a bit of a bond with him, which will in turn allow you to talk about other things with the boy.”

Kurt pinched the bridge of his nose, he could feel a headache coming on this was the thing about the situation he hated most right now, how could he pretend to like this woman after what she had done to him. “Yes again I can see where you are coming from, are you aware of the extent of what she has done? “He watched Elaine shake her hair, go figure she didn’t know everything. “May I ask what you do know about Miss Day, and why she has been separated from her son?” He needed to know before he could get Elaine to understand why he was going to find this so difficult.

“We don’t know very much about Miss Day herself, it’s a police matter and it’s Alaxander who is of importance to us. All we were told is that she turned up in Lima, saying that she had broken the law, and that she had Alaxander with her, and that she needed them to find his father and he didn’t know he existed, and that you were the step-son of one of her old co-workers.” He should have known that the police wouldn’t divulge all of the information but he wished that had to save him the job of having to do.

Kurt rubbed the back of his neck as he began speaking. “It seems they have skimmed over the details. What they told you is correct I didn’t know of Alaxander’s existence, and yes she was best friends with my step mother Carole before she disappeared. If you haven’t noticed so far for our meeting, I’m gay, there is no other way for me to put it, in fact, I’m engaged to be married to a man named Blaine Anderson, the very same man who was my boyfriend when Alaxander was conceived,” Kurt explained slowly.

“Very well but I don’t see where this is going,” confessed Elaine.

“Well think about it, if I was gay, and had a boyfriend why would I be sleeping with Miss Day, especially when she is so much older than myself.” He still saw confusion on Elaine’s face and realised he was going to have to elaborate more. “Right I wouldn’t have wanted to sleep with her, and to tell you the truth I didn’t know I had slept with her until last week. The crime she admitted to was drugging and raping me.” Kurt saw Elaine’s confused look turn to one of horror, “that is why I am, shall I say, more than slightly uncomfortable going in there and having to act like she is my friend.” In a way Kurt just wanted to stop the whole thing and say he wasn’t doing it, it was all so complicated, how had his life gone from worrying about which material best suits a dress, if his wages were going to cover the bills on the flat, and which flowers him and Blaine wanted at their wedding, to worrying about if he would be able to lie convincingly about his rapist being his friend.

It was a while before Elaine spoke but when she did her voice towards him was soft, “That complicates things greatly, while I am pleased you want to see your son, I can’t let you see him if I have any doubts that any of the truth may come out to him.”

Kurt sighed, did she really think he was that stupid. “Right I lost my mom when I was 8, I know partially what the kid is feeling right now, I wouldn’t do anything to make what he is feeling any worse. I am wise enough to know when my own resolve is wearing thin, and I would be able to excuse myself to make a drink or the toilet if such a thing happened, without Alaxander thinking anything was wrong,” Kurt was having trouble keep his voice calm, he looked at his watch and realised they had been talking almost an hour, he just really wanted to see his son.

“Okay I believe you; I have to ask if your father will be able to do the same if he wants to meet Alaxander as well,” Kurt didn’t listen to what Elaine and his dad was saying he was too lost in his own thoughts. He knew he had to get himself in the correct mind set to be able to act as Sarah’s friend. Yes he could do it for his son, but that didn’t mean he didn’t need to feel ready. After a while Kurt realised Elaine was talking to him once again.

“…everything is in order. If you would follow me I will take you and introduce you to Alaxander.”

This is it Kurt thought to himself. The moment that changes my life forever.