Wes’ POV

As I approach the door with Melissa, I am quite excited. It’s been a while since I’ve seen Kurt and Blaine, so I am looking forward to having an evening out with both of them. It’s something the four of us have done quite often since Melissa and I got together a few years ago, but recently we just haven’t had time. I knock on the door and am rather surprised at how long it is before I hear any movement from behind it. Because Kurt Hummel-Anderson lives here, and I know what he’s like when we go out. He spends hours getting ready but he is always ready bang on time. Finally the door opens and I am shocked by what I see.

Blaine is standing behind the door wearing what looks like sweats and a baggy Henley, with no gel in his hair. And this is Blaine we are talking about. ‘I go through a bottle of gel a week’ Blaine. He is never seen without gel in his hair.

Guys what are you doing here?” Blaine questions me, and once again that shocks me because as I said, Kurt lives here and Kurt is the most organized person I know.

 “Blaine,” is all I manage to reply at first, because really, I am in total shock. I manage to finish the sentence however. “We’re here, because the four of us are meant to be going out; Melissa and Me and you and Kurt.” I see something flash across Blaine’s eyes the second I mention his husband’s name, and I’m not quite sure what it is but I know I don’t like it. Something’s going on here, and I know I have to try and find out what. I’ve known Blaine for years and I know only too well that this isn’t the normal him. It’s also surprising that Blaine doesn’t reply back to me straight away. So I decide to question him here and now.

 “Blaine what’s going on?” I ask concerned.

“I er nothing um…” And if I need anything to confirm something is wrong here I just got it, because Blaine is many things, but he is never short of words.

“Blaine let me in,” I demand. And I know he isn’t going to do it easily. His body language makes me think he’s hiding something, and I just have a feeling that it’s something big. When Blaine doesn’t instantly move, I turn to my wife. “Melissa, darling, would you mind going to the car for me for five minutes so I can speak to Blaine?” I ask her, hoping that maybe Blaine will open up if it’s just the two of us. My wife quickly nods at me and walks off, just like I suspected she would. I am glad to see that as she does, Blaine steps back away from the door allowing me to enter the house.

The second I enter the hallway I take off my shoes. I know what Kurt feels about that. It’s then I notice that there isn’t a single pair of Kurt’s shoes by the door. And instantly that strikes me as strange as I know that man owns more pairs of shoes that I do work suits. I also know that a good amount of those shoes are normally by this door. I follow Blaine into the living room wondering what is going on; because I am pretty sure Kurt wouldn’t have forgotten us going out.  I sit in the chair opposite the couch Blaine has placed himself on. I just look at Blaine hoping that he will at least say something. When I realize he isn’t however, I decide to speak myself.

 “Blaine, what is going on?” I ask again hoping to get an answer this time. 

“Nothing’s going on. Why would it be?” Blaine answers too quickly. It’s strange how I still know all the little signs of him lying. I remember them all too well from when he was a scared boy that had just moved to Dalton. He did everything he could to hide and lie about his attack and his sexuality. Unfortunately for him he still has the same give away signals.  

No matter what it is, I am not in the mood for him to mess around so I decide to just be direct. “Ok Blaine, I will ask it like this then, where is Kurt?” And once again something flashes across his eyes at the mention of Kurt’s name. I’m not quite sure if it’s sorrow, or hurt or anger but there is something going on. And from what I have so far I am pretty sure it’s to do with Kurt.

 “He’s gone away for work,” Blaine replies, too quickly again. “Isabelle asked him last minute when someone had to pull out due to illness. He’s gone to Paris for two weeks.” And again I know he’s lying, because he’s looking down fiddling with his Henley rather than looking at me as he speaks. And Blaine is normally a person who is very particular about eye contact during conversations.

I hope that by not replying I will make it obvious to Blaine that I know he is lying. I am not silly and I don’t know what he is trying to hide from me, but I do know I will do my damn hardest to find out.

“Blaine!” I say finally, in a tone I am sure I haven’t used anywhere but in a court room for a good while. But I mean business right now and Blaine needs to know that. “I’ve known Kurt for almost as long as I’ve known you. I might not know him quite as well as I do you, but even I know he doesn’t take all his shoes on a work trip, and most of his shoes from your hallway are gone.” I state letting him know that I know he is lying. Then I decide to see what his reaction if I ask him about Kurt in a different way. “Where is your husband?” The second the word is out of my mouth Blaine’s face crumbles, and that’s when I know for sure this has something to do with Kurt. I get off of the couch and walk over to sit next to Blaine pulling him into my arms, hoping to offer a bit more support.

“He’s gone. They’re gone. All three of them. He took the children back to Lima.” I hear Blaine choke out and if I hadn’t been waiting for a response I wouldn’t have heard him, it was said so quietly.

“Blaine, what do you mean they are gone?” I question gently, because I am not quite sure what he means, even if I do have an idea.

I give Blaine the space to answer without pressing, hoping that now he has started talking he will continue, and I am right. “He left me,” Blaine sobs and while it was one of the things that I thought could be the case in my head, I just don’t understand. I have known this couple through the whole of their relationship, including their break up all those years ago, and I have to say, I always thought they were one of the strongest and best suited couples I knew.  “And it’s all my fault,” Blaine continues. I pull away from Blaine, and take hold of his shoulders knowing it will cause Blaine to look at me. And I’m right he does, and I just stay there for a while trying to work out what all those emotions running though his eyes are. Because, if I wasn’t mistaken, I would say he was fighting some giant internal war with himself. It also has the effect I wanted it to, because he continues speaking to me honestly, knowing he can’t lie to me like this. “I was trying to protect him and the children. I thought it would be better when he left, but I can’t do it Wes. No matter how safe it makes him, I can’t have my husband thinking I don’t love him! Gosh Wes how did I let this get so messed up?” the second the rambling starts I know I’ve broken Blaine’s walls so I hold my hands up to silence him, because really he isn’t making much sense.

“Blaine, as much as I am glad you are speaking, you are being kind of cryptic. Just take a few calming breaths, okay? And I am going to go get you a glass of water; I’m not leaving you like this.” I stand up and walk to the kitchen. I am shocked at what I am hearing. I don’t understand why Blaine is here, on his own. Why he didn’t think to contact me or someone to give him a bit of support? I mean after their breakup in Blaine’s senior year, I got a phone call from Blaine before he was even on the plane back from New York. I have a feeling there is still much more to this than maybe I want there to be. I quickly text my wife to let her know I may be a while.

Then as soon as the glass is filled with water, I go back to join Blaine as quickly as I can. I don’t want to leave Blaine alone right now. I hand him the glass and sit back down with him.

“Blaine you said you were trying to protect Kurt and the children. What from exactly? I know you don’t mean from yourself.” I know beyond anything that Blaine wouldn’t hurt Kurt and the children. I know how much he loves all three of them; how they are his whole world.

“I can’t Wes,” he tells me. And I am glad that he is at least being honest with me right now, it’s a big step from where we were. “I know I’ve fucked up, but I can’t tell you before I tell Kurt. I know that even after I do, I will probably never get him back, but I’ve broken now, and I can’t tell him before you.” Now I am getting confused, because why has Kurt left if he doesn’t actually know the problem?

“Blaine, what do you mean before you tell Kurt? I don’t understand how he can’t know if he left.” 

I hear him sigh, and close his eyes before starting to speak “He didn’t leave because of the problem. He left because I didn’t tell him what was up. Instead I pushed him away. I pushed him away and I pushed our kids away. But I did it because I was trying to protect them, Wes. Not because I don’t love them.” Blaine admits to me, and I knew there was more to this than what is on the surface.

“Blaine, what haven’t you told him? Because whatever it is, I can tell it’s killing you. I’ve never seen you like this. And we have known each other for such a long time.”

“Wes I can’t tell you, I couldn’t even tell Kurt, and that caused this. I cannot tell you before him. I don’t even know if I can tell him, even now. I want to but he’s going to hate me and it’s all my fault!” Blaine exclaims, starting to panic.

“Blaine, calm down. I don’t know what is going on here, but I know you love Kurt and I know Kurt loves you. And it’s for that reason, that no matter what is going on here, you need to tell him. I know you said that you were trying to protect him and the kids. And I believe that you really did think that was what you were doing. However, can’t you see from where you are now that maybe that isn’t working? That maybe you do need to tell Kurt?”

“I can’t Wes. I mean it. I really can’t. Even if I wanted to.” And I can hear the tears shining in his eyes again.

“Blaine, listen to me. I know this is going to be hard, but you have to tell him. Do you really want to lose him?”

“God no,” he answers quickly again. I can tell by the look on his face that he means it and honestly I knew the answer anyway. I am just trying to get my point across.

“Well that is exactly why you have to tell him no matter what it is. If you don’t, you really will lose him. And I know you don’t like it being brought up, but one of the reasons he was able to forgive you after you cheated on him was because you were honest with him. No matter what it is, at least give the two of you a chance to sort things out and talk to him.” I encourage gently, because I know that really it’s what this situation needs.

We sit in silence for a while and I just allow Blaine to sit with his thoughts. Thinking of how the hell I may convince Blaine to tell Kurt if he keeps refusing. I know it’s the only chance he may save his marriage. If I am being honest, I am wondering if he even can save it, because I know it must have really taken something to get Kurt to take the children all the way to Lima.

“You’re right Wes. I do need to tell him. But I can’t be there when I do it. I just can’t. I can’t be there to see his face when he realizes what is going on.” And well, at least we are getting somewhere slowly.

“What about ringing him then? It isn’t like you can get to Lima right now anyway.” I say hoping that maybe he will agree to that. That maybe I can stay here while he does it, if he needs to support.

“No, I can’t speak to him at all when he finds out about this. You know how much emotion shows in Kurt’s voice.” Blaine panics.

“Okay, calm down. Do you have any idea how to tell him?” I can’t think of anything else, so I will just have to hope Blaine does. He doesn’t answer me however. He just stands from the sofa, and walks over to the table where I can see his laptop lying. He opens it and clicks a few buttons but after a while he seems to freeze. I give him a bit of space in case he is just thinking, but after a while I realize he is back to having a battle with himself.

I walk over to him and sit in the seat next to his, looking at his computer screen and noticing the blank email. “Blaine,” I begin softly, “You can do this.” But he just shakes his head at me. “Do you want me to write for you?” I ask hoping that maybe that is the next best option. He doesn’t answer just pushes the laptop towards me. I take it and nod at him to begin.

“Kurt,

                I know this isn’t how I should be explaining any of this to you, but I can’t do anything else right now. Read what’s in the file and I hope you may realize, even if you don’t fully understand, what I’ve been doing. I am probably being a coward, but I can’t be there when you realize what’s been happening. But I promise, unless I hear from you telling me otherwise, I will be in Lima in a few days.

Blaine x”

And honestly the message seems just as cryptic as half of what Blaine has been saying to me tonight. But I don’t push as he is at least opening to his husband.

“Attach the file entitled ‘minacce’ but please respect me and don’t look inside of it. And send it to Kurt before I can stop you, or myself.” He directs me. And I do as he asks. I wouldn’t disrespect him and read anything when I know he wants Kurt to know first. I can see some of the tension leave his body as I hit the send button, but I also see the fear in his eyes. And I know only too well it’s a fear of losing Kurt. I can’t help but have one question, and I feel awful for it, but it’s there playing on my mind. I obviously don’t hide it well enough though, as Blaine soon speaks up.

 “Ask me Wes.” is all he says. So I do it. I want to be sure.

“I hate to ask, and please don’t take it wrong, but you haven’t cheated on Kurt again, have you?” And I really do feel guilty for asking because I know deep down he wouldn’t, but I also know it will keep playing on me if I don’t.

“No, I couldn’t. That was the biggest mistake of my life, apart from this. But I haven’t done it again. No matter what happens, I know I love him too much to do that to him again.” And the sincerity in his voice lets me know that he’s speaking the truth, and I’m happy enough with that. I just hope that he hasn’t destroyed this relationship anyway.