June 30, 2012, 10:30 a.m.
I don't want to make you unhappy any more: Chapter 2
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He gave Kurt a peck on his hair before calming asking “what has gotten over you this isn’t the Kurt Hummel I know and I don’t like what I’m seeing”
Kurt shudder with a loud sob more tears streaming down his face. “shhhh, Shhhh” Blaine said close to Kurt’s ear so he could actually feel the warmth of Blaine breath. “You know you can tell me anything and I want judge you for it Babe I just want to know what’s happened and why you are like this I want to be able to make it better please?”
Kurt slowly lifted his head out of his hand but the tears were still flowing all too freely. It wasn’t the first time he’s cried like this in front of Blaine. And he actually found it comforting that Blaine wouldn’t just him for it and would just give him time to speak when he was ready. “Thanks” he said in a whisper that Blaine only just heard.
I’m also a little confused as when I walked in you were repeating the phase “by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine” and well as far as I’m concerned I thought you already had me?
“I..I… It’s all probably going to sound so stupid to you Blaine”
“No it won’t anything that’s upset you like this isn’t stupid to me Kurt, anything that hurts you like this hurts me to, I hate seeing you so unhappy”
“It’s Sebastian” Kurt said slowly with another shudder. Blaine rub his hand up and down Kurt’s arm, not saying anything knowing that Kurt would say what needed to be said and that he just needed to be patient. He heard Kurt sob again and pulled him as close to himself as he could.
And then Kurt couldn’t stop himself it all just came rambling out
“You know earlier in the Lima bean when you went to get your coffee, me and Sebastian weren’t talking about when we were all going out drinking again. I told him clearly that I didn’t like him very much, before you left it, this is really going to sound stupid but, it felt like he was hitting on you. Well he said he didn’t really like me much either and we threw a few remarks at each other that probably weren’t called for. But then he…he took it to a whole other level Blaine”. Kurt stopped catching his breath and to look at his boyfriend face he had a tear rolling down his check, so he turned round to wipe it off before continuing. “Well and I’ll quote his exact words here he said “Blaine’s too good for you, new directions is a joke! And one of us has a hard luck case of the gay face and it ain’t me. Odds are by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine and a nationals trophy and you’ll have cakeys and a Lima Bean apron and that gay face”. And at this Kurt completely broke down again sobbing into his hands. Blaine hated him being like this and felt partly, no largely responsible.
“Say what” he said. “Sebastian said all of those things to you and you didn’t think to tell me you were worried by them?”
“I didn’t think I was worried by them Blaine” Kurt said in the loudest voice he had so far during the whole conversation. “It wasn’t until I got home and you were gone that those words kept ringing in my ears, taking over all my thoughts. That I wasn’t good enough for you and that I was going to lose you sometime soon. And you know how I hate things being out of my control, I was gonna end it so I didn’t have to have my heart broken by you as I feel you deserve so much more than me Blaine” Kurt said not daring to make eye contact with the slightly shorter boy”.
“And I’ll be totally honest this one has been worrying me for a while but…” Kurt paused trying to gain the courage to get the words out of his mouth. “I made your family hate you, what kind of boyfriend would do that?”
“Come here” Blaine said moving the arm that wasn’t around Kurt off his chest so that he could gently push Kurt down so that Kurt’s head lay on his chest. “With fear of sounding repetitive I’m going to say this again anyway” Blaine continued “you are the single best thing that’s ever happened to me Kurt Hummel. Even the thought of you makes me dizzy at time. The way you hold me when im down, or just to show me you love me, and the way you kiss, well that’s something to die for and the way you’re not being pushy and don’t mind not going any further until were both ready, your one in a million Kurt. Sebastian may be a Warbler, and yer I love my Warblers as brothers but nothing else, but he stepped way out of line thinking he can talk to you and treat you like that, it’s just not on.” He started to slowly rock backwards and forwards as he could feel a wet patch on him chest and he knew this motion soothed Kurt. “And Kurt my family would be dicks not matter what male I feel in love with its not you they hate it’s me and my “disappointing sexuality” I’m not a son in there eyes im just a disappointment who they are trying to mould out of being gay. The way you love me makes up completely for the way they make me feel I know that Ive found a keeper who loves me for who I am and that’s what matters. You’ve what matters to me, no one else not ever just you, is that clear Kurt Hummel”.
Kurt nodded looking up into Blaine’s eyes for the first time during the conversation. “I’m sorry” he mumbled.
“Don’t be sorry I should have known something was up when we left the Lima bean” He place his hand under Kurt’s chin, lifting it up so he could place a kiss bang in the centre of his perfectly formed and soft lips. Kurt kissed him back, shivering again but this time for a good reason, Blaine’s kisses always made him feel weak. They keep pecking at each other’s lips until Blaine partly Kurt’s lips with his tongue and slowly slid it around the inside of his mouth, he loved the way Kurt tasted. After around 5 minuets they stopped both slightly out of breath. “I love you” whispered Blaine, “ I love you too” Kurt whispered back, moving in for another kiss.