June 30, 2010 contd

Great I said to myself. The last thing I wanted to do was talk about it with Blaine. It was a good feeling that he wont leave me, though. I dont know why I was so scared about it, but maybe it was because not many people like me, and finding someone who will love me, through everything, is something that Im still getting used to.

When I got home, Blaine was already there. Great. I didnt want this day to happen. I didnt even want him to know. If Mercedes wasnt such a douchebag about it, and had actually listened to me...I thought she was my friend, too. I saw Blaine sitting on the hood of his car and texting someone. I walked up behind him and rested my head on his shoulder. 

"Who are you texting?" I asked him. 

"Finn" he replied.

"Why?"  

"I wanna know when he is gonna be home, so I know if we have to go to my house" He answered

"Oh...Baby, I dont really wanna talk about it. I honestly didnt even want you to know. I told Mercedes and she called me a liar. God, Im pissed at her, you dont even know" I told him

We went inside and sat on my bed, cuddling. 

"I love you, Kurt. I really am sorry for this morning when I ran out of the bathroom." Blaine said

"I know. You know, Blaine, this is embarrasing, but I didnt want to tell you because I was scared you would break up with me..." I said

"I would never break up with you. Especially because..." He trailed off

"Because....." 

"Im scared of the same thing" Blaine said as he rolled up his sleeve to unveil various scars.

"Oh, Blaine..." I said and started to kiss his scars

"At least your scars make you more beautiful, and you dont have to worry about people seeing them. You cut on your legs, I cut on my wrists. Thats one reason why I liked Dalton. The blazers covered the scars. Now, I have to wear long sleeve shirts." Blaine told me

"Actually..." I said and walked over to the sink and washed the foundation off of my wrists to show him the scars that went up all the way to my elbows, on both sides.

"Whoa" I heard 2 voices say....wait 2?

I turned around and Finn was standing behind me with Rachel.

"Fuck you" I said and ran out to my car with Finn and Blaine following me.

"Kurt! Kurt!! KURT!!" I heard Blaine yelling behind me.

"WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?" I snapped

"I told Blaine I would be back at 5. I forgot something and I was just gonna ask you if you knew where it was...It wasnt Blaines fault. He knew he had enough time, it was my fault. I wont tell anybody, but I dont know about Rachel. You know her" Finn said

"Hey!!" Rachel said. "Mercedes already knows. She told me that you were trying to make her feel sympathetic about nothing"

"She better not have told anybody else" I said

"Actually...she told everybody" Rachel informed me.

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