Uniformity

The uniformity is crazy here,

They move like a big navy blob,

I dont fit in,

They talk in loud voices,

I hide from the crowd,

They say its zero- tolerance for bullying,

But how can I be sure,

I havent seen anyone getting hurt,

But then again Im in my own little world,

When they chat and laugh,

I think of Alex,

But hes not here,

I dont have anyone to talk to,

I dont want anyone to talk to,

I dont know who they are,

They dont know who I am,

But,

One still smiled at me like,

This is where I belong,

But it isnt,

Theyre a blob of uniformity,

And I stick out like a sore thumb

Run

One introduced them self,

I didnt want to talk,

I ran,

But in class he smiled at me,

Like it had been normal for me to run,

I turned away like I didnt care,

But heres the secret,

I cared.

Wonderland

Its weird here,

Like Im in wonderland,

Now all of them are smiling at me,

When they pass me in the halls,

In class,

The one that smiled at me before,

Tried to get me to talk,

I tried to talk,

But,

No words came out,

So I ran,

Ive been doing more of that lately,

Running,

I cant stay still,

I feel like a caged animal,

Like Im in  a zoo,

And theyre all just there,

Watching my every move,

So I keep running.

Sang Again

Today I sang again,

I havent since Alex,

Was in the hospital,

But today,

I just did,

And it felt good,

Like relief after the storm,

This time when the guy smiled at me,

I smiled back.

Wes

His name he told me is Wes,

I smiled but I didnt talk,

Why was he being so nice to me?

Im gay,

I wanted to scream,

But I knew if I said that he would go away,

So I smiled and nodded,

And pretended that I didnt wish he would go away.