Chapter 44 - Double Date

"Are we supposed to meet them at the restaurant?"  Blaine was in the driver seat of his BMW, sunglasses perched high on the bridge of his nose.  Blaine hadn't bothered to shave today which left him with a light beard.  Well, maybe it wasn't a beard, but it was too long to be a 5 o'clock shadow.  Kurt was sure it was one of the sexiest looks that Blaine ever sported.  Tonight would prove to be a difficult one.  This was Connor and Ethan's first date and Kurt somehow felt the weight of the world on him.  He had introduced Ethan to kissing and he encouraged Ethan to see what it would be like dating Connor.  Of course, Connor knew nothing of it because he and Blaine were getting coffee while Kurt listened to Ethan gush over how cute Connor was and how athletic he was.  Ethan had cooed over his legs since he was a soccer player.  Kurt could see Ethan falling for Connor.

"Yeah."

"What restaurant are we eating at again?"

"It's a place called Lindey's in German Village.  There's valet parking so we can just go straight there.  Ethan looked it up on the internet and he said it's pretty nice."

"It should be.  I don't think I've ever been there but if there's valet parking and it's in German Village it must be decent.  Plus, German Village will be a nice place for us to walk around after we eat."

"That would be nice."  Kurt put his hand on Blaine's thigh and squeezed.  "I love you."  Kurt's eyes seemed to twinkle just a little more than they did yesterday.

"I love you too."  Blaine placed his hand on top of Kurt's patting it gently.

"You know, you look absolutely, positively sexy with your face all scruffy and your sunglasses on."  Blaine just shook his head smiling ever so slightly.  If he blushed, Kurt probably wouldn't see it under all the hair.  "I mean it Blaine.  If we weren't going on a double date, I would have you tied to the bed at home right now."

"Save that thought for later, Babe."  Kurt blushed and Blaine just smiled at how he still had that effect on Kurt.  "I want to talk to you about something."

Blaine looked very serious.  The worry showed on Kurt's forehead immediately and his body language tightened.  "Is everything okay?"  Kurt tried not to grip at Blaine's leg too tightly showing his worry.  In his head, everything was great.  He was thinking a mile a minute trying to think of anything that would worry Blaine or make Blaine worried about them.

"Everything is fine.  Relax."  Kurt tried to relax, but he couldn't see Blaine's eyes behind his sunglasses.  He didn't want to ask him to take them off either.  "I want to talk to you about the whole roughness lately?"  Kurt wasn't sure what he was referring to and it showed on his face.  There was a blanket of question that washed over him.  "During sex, Babe.  You've been asking me to be rough with you and you've been kind of rough lately too."

Kurt's heart fell a bit.  Had he been overly rough?  Was Blaine mad?  "I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize.  I love you and I want to do things that you want to do, but it seems like it's all the time lately."

"Did I hurt you?"  Kurt's eyes were starting to fill with tears over the pain that he'd done something wrong. 

Blaine now regretted bringing it up because they were on the highway and there was nowhere to stop and discuss this, except the side of the road.  Blaine instinctively squeezed Kurt's gently to offer comfort.  He didn't want Kurt to feel bad, but it was something that they needed to discuss.  "Don't cry Kurt.  You didn't hurt me.  It's just strange I guess.  We've always been gentle and caring."

That was all it took to make Kurt feel like all of it was wrong.  He let a tear roll down his cheek as he turned to the window.  He didn't want Blaine to know how bad and how guilty he felt right now.  Thinking back to those times, he was just very excited and it was thrilling.  Dirty talk had been sort of fun but he admitted in his head that he was asking for rough sex.  Blaine was absolutely correct.  He was asking Blaine to pound him hard.  In Kurt's mind, he just wanted to feel it and remember it.  "Oh," was all that came out of Kurt's mouth.  Anything else and Blaine would hear all the hurt and pain.

Blaine sighed.  This is not what he wanted, but he opened it up and now it had to be settled.  He pulled to the side of the highway and put the car in park.  Kurt refused to look at him.  "Kurt, please look me."

Kurt didn't respond, but Blaine heard him sniffle and saw his hand raise to wipe away the tears that Blaine knew were there but couldn't see. 

"Kurt, please my love."  Blaine loved Kurt and he knew it was always hard to resist when he called him that.  "Please look at your sexy fiancé that loves you so much.  Please?"

Kurt made a last swipe of the back of his hand picking up the last tears that fell.  "I feel guilty Blaine.  I don't even know what I did wrong, but you made me feel guilty."

"You didn't do anything wrong.  I just wanted to know why you've been asking to have rough sex."

"I didn't mean to upset you, Blaine."

"You didn't upset me and you didn't hurt me.  Okay?  I just want to know why it's been rough lately.  We have never been anything but loving and gentle and honest.  We have always savored every bit of love in the moment with a special connection."

"Well-"

Blaine interrupted.  "I'm not saying that this isn't special.  It's not my favorite way to make love to you.  I worry that I'm going to hurt you.  I worry that you won't tell me if it's too rough.  I worry about what's going on in your head that you don't want me to love your body the way you deserve.  You deserve to be worshiped by me.  You deserve to know pleasure, not pain.  We've had enough pain to last a lifetime."

Kurt's release came with the confession of how much Blaine wanted him.  Blaine was so loving and caring and altogether perfect.  The tears stained his already splotchy pink cheeks and he ducked his head in shame.  "I don't know Blaine.  I guess I just want to make sure I always remember it."

"Kurt, that makes no sense at all."

"It does to me."

"You won't ever forget what it's like to be loved by me.  We will be getting married.  We're going to Boston for Thanksgiving next week with our family and we are going to plan it.  I'll never let you ever go a day without feeling loved."  He paused and lifted Kurt's head gently by his chin so that he could see him.  He took off the sunglasses with his other hand and set them on the dashboard.  "I promise that I will love you whenever you want.  I'll never let you forget how much I love you.  Ever.  But, that being said, I want to love you Kurt.  Not ravage you.  You deserve to be loved.  You deserve the time I take to make you feel loved, Kurt.  You deserve to feel like you'll never be alone again."  It hit Blaine that maybe there would always be this doubt in Kurt's mind.  The months it took for him to realize that it was Kurt he craved all along could have left debris in its wake that could last a long time.  Blaine knew the doubt he cast with it.

"I just wanted to feel it the next day.  It's like taking you with me."  Kurt paused and his shoulder dropped in regret.  "I went so long without you reciprocating my feelings that I think I need it sometimes.  I think I crave it in the back of my mind."

"You've nothing to crave anymore Kurt.  I'm yours for the taking whenever you want.  I want you and only you.  I think I've made that clear many times over."

"You have made it clear and I know that.  I think in the heat of the moment, it's my natural instinct to want it rough so that feeling of being loved lasts into the next day."  Kurt looked wearily at Blaine.  "Maybe I'm crazy Blaine."

"You're not crazy."  Blaine smiled gently and took both of Kurt's hands in his, kissing his knuckles.  "You're perfectly insecure and I'm sorry I made you that way, Kurt."  Blaine pulled Kurt closer resting their foreheads together so that he could look into Kurt's eyes.  They shared the same breath and Kurt's let his eyes fall shut so he could just breathe in everything that was Blaine.  Something about Blaine's scent, his skin, his touch and his sounds comforted him.  Blaine nuzzled noses as he brushed his lips across Kurt's whispering, "If I could rip my heart out of my chest, I would do it.  I would do it and give it to you just so you knew that you were the only one that could ever own it.  You're the only one that can make this one heart beat.  You're the only one that deserves to have it forever."

Kurt sobbed at how beautifully romantic Blaine could be.  Maybe football created some distance that he didn't realize.  Maybe he created it all in his head, but this is what he knew their relationship to be.  Their relationship was whole, loving and romantic.  He wanted this.  He wanted the romance.  He told Blaine long ago that the touch of the fingertips is as good as it gets.  Here he was.  His fingertips held by someone that loved him completely.  His heart was taken by the man with the voice that could make all people swoon.  "I'll be gentle with you heart if you promise to be gentle with my whole being."  Kurt's eyes remained closed.  He continued to breathe in his fiancé.  "This is what I've always loved and craved."

"It's all yours, my love."  Kurt could feel Blaine's lips turn into a smile as the words washed over his lips. 

Kurt's lips matched the smile that formed over the top of his as he managed to say, "I'm all yours."

They settled it there.  Kurt would promise to throw away any leftover doubt.  He gave into Blaine lips moving against his.  There was passion and love in his kiss.  It wasn't desperate or needy, it was perfect.  Blaine backed away taking a deep breath as if to make sure he had enough of Kurt's air with him.  "We need to go.  We don't want to be late."

"You're right.  Thank you for talking about it Blaine.  I'm glad you did."

"WE talked about it Kurt.  That's who we are.  We've always been able to be honest with each other and that'll never stop."

Blaine pulled up and they both exited the car.  Ethan and Connor were waiting outside for them.  They both looked a little nervous, but they both looked really nice.  "You guys didn't have to wait out here."  Kurt smiled trying to relax both boys.  Blaine had tipped the valet to take good care of his car and made his way around as Kurt continued to chat.  "This place looks really good."

Blaine grabbed Kurt's hand and Ethan and Connor seemed to ease a bit at the casualness that Blaine and Kurt had set.  Connor seemed to be looking for some guidance on what to do next so he took Ethan's hand and opened the door for Blaine and Kurt to walk through.  Connor was last to enter as he made his way to the hostess station where he gave his name.  Shortly after, they were led to a discreet table in the corner.  It was nice.  It was Ethan that broke the ice after the menus were given to them.  "How do you guys do it?"

"Do what?"  Kurt asked.

"You look so comfortable with everything."  Ethan was talking very quietly.

"Because we've been together for a while and we are okay with it.  I'm not worried about what people think anymore."

Blaine cut in.  "We've been through so much together and everything else seems so small compared to everything we've been through."  He threaded their fingers together.  "Just, don't do anything you're not comfortable with in public.  Trust each other to tell the other one when it's too much."

Connor and Ethan both nodded.  "So Connor, what grade are you in?"  Kurt decided casual discussion non relationship related might be a good way to start off the evening.  It was a little awkward, but what's a little awkward when you've had so many harder things to deal with. 

"I'm actually a sophomore.  I was around most of last year.  I transferred really early freshman year after stuff happened."

Ethan took it in because he understood, as did the entire table.  Kurt could sympathize.  "You like it at Dalton?  I really enjoyed my time there."

"Yeah, I heard about you and Blaine and how the Warblers really depended on the two of you.  It sounded like you were both groomed to take over this year.  Why'd you go back to public school?"

"I missed my dad.  My mother died when I was eight and it's always been just me and my dad.  He had gotten married when I was at Dalton, but even with his new wife and my stepbrother, it'll never be the same as me and him."

"This past summer in Europe really changed the two of us.  We had lots of bad things happen and through it we became stronger individually, but even more as a couple."  Blaine looked at Kurt and saw all the past in them.  They were strong.  Kurt leaned in to kiss him on the cheek but Blaine turned at the last moment kissing him chastely on the lips.  The waitress came for their orders.  "We need a few more minutes please."  Blaine smiled at her. 

Suddenly they all realized they needed to pick food.  "I'm getting the Tuscan Chicken Salad with Raspberry Vinaigrette."

Connor laughed.  He was a little bit taller than Kurt.  He was close to six foot tall and he was stockier like Blaine.  As a soccer player he was muscular and did a lot of running.  "How can you live off of just that?  I would die.  I'm definitely getting the Gourmet burger with Blue Cheese and Bacon."

"You're going to die early from all the grease."

Blaine shook his head.  "Don't listen to Kurt.  He always eats like a bird.  I make up for it because I'm having the Filet Mignon with Crab Cakes."

"Blaine, we're supposed to have a long life together, not one year together."

"Life's too short to deprive this body from the food it craves."  Blaine rubbed his belly.

Ethan was quiet.  "I didn't realize how expensive this place was."

Connor leaned over and whispered gently.  "You know I'm paying.  Don't even think about it.  This is a date and I asked you out."

"But-"

"No buts, I'm paying."  Connor didn't realize how comfortable it could really be as he kissed Ethan on the cheek not even thinking.  Ethan turned a shade of red that Kurt had never seen, but he didn't say anything.  He didn't want to embarrass Ethan more.  It was cute. 

Blaine waved a finger very gently and nodded to the waitress as she returned to the table.  They all ordered.  Before turning away the waitress questioned, "Are you Blaine Anderson?  Of  the football Anderson Family?"

"Um.. yes.  Who's asking?"  Blaine had never been asked such a questions before.

"The owner thought you might be related to the Anderson's that own the football team.  He said he recognized you from something your grandfather showed him."

"Apparently he comes in here when he visits the area.  He has family here.  The owner went to school with  him."

Blaine smiled and nodded.  "You can tell the owner that I am his grandson."

"Oh.. Wow. That's actually really cool."  She was giddy with the new information and looked and saw his hand laced with Kurt's.  "It figures that all the good ones are taken."  She turned to put the orders in.

Connor didn't know them very well.  "You own a football team?"

"No, my grandparents do."  Blaine laughed because everyone's first reaction was like that.

"Did Kurt know all this?"

"No.  Not until the past summer.  It actually caused a little stress in our relationship because it was a pretty big thing to keep from him."  Blaine threw the story out like it was old news.  "I just wanted Kurt to fall in love with me."

"And I did."  Kurt nodded.
Connor was still in shock.  "So you have a lot of money?"

"My parents are lawyers and so is my grandfather and yes, they have a lot of money.  It's their money."  Blaine was always too proud to take credit for their hard work.

"They're not just any lawyers, though Connor.  His grandfather happens to be a partner in the largest international law firm in the world and his dad owns a firm that is in the top three in the United States.   Blaine's lucky, but all that doesn't matter because he is going to Columbia and he's going to make his own way."

Blaine liked that Kurt beamed the way he did when he would say that Blaine was going to be his own somebody someday.  "With you.  We will be making our way together."

Connor looked on in awe as he took Ethan's hand in his and squeezed it.  He hadn't realized how much he wanted this.  Being around Blaine and Kurt was like being around any other regular couple.  It made him feel normal for the first time in a long time.

Dinner went on with casual conversation.  The boys really enjoyed their food and company.  Before long they were laughing about Blaine's losing his shirt out the window over the summer when he thought it would be a good idea to dry it that way after getting drenched at King's Island.  When the waitress made a last stop, she had some type of chocolate dessert in her hand with ice cream and 4 spoons.  "Mr. Schmidt sent this over and this."  She handed Blaine a check that was paid for. 

"Does he have time to meet me?"  Blaine felt obligated to thank him in person.

"I'll ask him.  I'll be right back."

Fifteen minutes passed and she finally returned with Mr. Schmidt in tow.  "I guessed it was you from 2 things.  You look like Jack and then from a picture he showed me the last time he was here.  It was a picture of the two of you.  I wouldn't forget it."

"Mr. Schmidt.  You really didn't have to pay for our meals."

"It was my pleasure, Blaine.  Tell your grandfather that I expect good game tickets."

"I will."  Blaine was a little embarrassed.  This had never happened before.  He pulled out his phone and texted his granddad.

To Jack:

Just had dinner on the house at Lindey's in German Village.

To Blaine:

How is Frank?

To Jack:

Good.  He seems good.  He wants good tickets.

To Blaine:

I always take care of him.  He's and old friend.

To Jack:

Thanks Granddad.  See you in a week.  Can't wait!

To Blaine:

We are ready for all of you!

"At least I was able to confirm that my granddad knows this guy."  They all stood and Blaine snaked his arm around Kurt, settling his hand on the familiar waist that it often rested upon.

Ethan and Kurt walked next to each other talking about random plans for the holidays.  "We're wedding planning in Boston.  I have to finish the itinerary this week."

"Itinerary?"  Ethan questioned

"Naturally.  We have so many things to decide on before the wedding day and we have to secure music, tables, caterer, florist, linens, tents.. the list just goes on."

Blaine sighed.  He knew that Boston would be busy and that Kurt would be on top of everyone in the planning.  He dropped his arm to move over to the other side of Connor to talk about sports.  "Did you have a good soccer season?"

"Same as always.  We're not very good because we're such a small school, but it was fun anyway."  Connor realized he never asked Blaine about sports.  "Do you play?"

"No, I played football."

"Really?"  This was the reaction Blaine got all the time.

"Yeah.  I know I'm kind of short to play, but I was the leading scorer in our football division.  I was always fast, so I was a wide receiver and with my granddad owning a team, it kind of makes sense doesn't it? Anyway, our team went to the state playoffs and lost first round.  Kurt's brother was the quarterback."

"That's really cool.  You guys are really together.  I'm actually a little jealous of how mature you guys are.  You seem to have such a great relationship.  I can only hope."

"You'll get there."  Blaine was reassuring because Connor seemed to really want what they had.

It turned out that Ethan was mildly into fashion and he and Kurt had some discussions about color schemes and decoration for the wedding.  He was really talking Ethan's ear off as Blaine tried to listen to what they were talking about.  "You'll be there though, so you'll see for yourself."

"You'd invite me?"

"Of course.  We're friends.  I wouldn't think of leaving you out."  Kurt was the sweetest person.  After all Ethan had put him through more than once, Kurt still considered him a friend.

Blaine thought it a good time to cut in.  "Movie time."

Connor responded, "We have to head north to go see the movie.  There was nothing close.  Plus it was better to get closer to school." 

"Where to?" 

"Easton?" 

"Sounds good.  We'll meet you there?"

"Sounds like a plan."

"Why are going to see Breaking Dawn on opening weekend again?"

"Because Honey, you have to see it on opening weekend so that you get the full effect of all the hype.  It's exciting isn't it?"  Kurt's eyes seemed to twinkle as they waited with a crowd of people

"I would be excited watching TV in our living room."  Blaine gave him those smoldering eyes that were dark and shiny.  Kurt could barely contain the pace of his heart when Blaine was like this.  Blaine pressed himself up behind Kurt and Kurt felt how excited Blaine was.  His cock was half hard pressed up against Kurt's ass.  Kurt took a deep breath not wanting the couple right next to them to hear as he eyed Blaine who reacted with a sly smirk.  He was going to torture Kurt tonight.

Next to them Connor and Ethan seemed to be loosening up a lot.  Ethan was around Kurt's height and Connor was just an inch or two taller.  They seemed to be happy.  Connor had his arms around Ethan loosely.  It was innocent enough.  They mirrored how Kurt and Blaine were standing minus the pressing into someone's ass part.  Connor leaned over between Ethan and Kurt, "Are you guys having fun?"  Kurt and Ethan both nodded, they had talked a little bit about wanting to see the movie.  Ethan had a crush on Rob Pattinson and Kurt on Taylor Lautner.  It was funny how they seemed to pick guys that could be similar.   

Both Kurt and Ethan were definitely becoming friends and Blaine was happy for both of them.  He liked Connor and they could talk a lot.  It was an opportunity to have some other friends that could relate to them.  Kurt never had a lot of guy friends before Blaine and Ethan was very quiet before coming to Dalton.  Finally in their seats, Blaine and Connor sat on the outsides of their boyfriends.  It was funny that the two couples had one thing in common.  They had boyfriends obsessed with Twilight.  The movie started and hands were intertwined.  Blaine spent more time watching Kurt than the movie itself.  He leaned over to Kurt brushing his nose on Kurt's neck.  Kurt chuckled from Blaine's beard brushing on his neck, but also because he knew his fiancé wanted to make out. 

Kurt first tried to pretend not to notice, but Blaine was persistent and Kurt finally gave in.  Kurt's lips met Blaine's hungrily and willingly.  The movie theater was dark.  They were slouched down in their seats near the wall.  Kurt could care less who saw.  All he knew was that Blaine's tongue tasted tremendous and it was in his mouth licking and toying with him.  He pulled away only to look into Blaine's eyes and see the desire that he felt mirrored in him.  "Where are we staying tonight?" Kurt asked.

"I reserved a room for us in the hotel right out here."

"Oh, thank God.  I think I can last that long."  When they turned back to the movie, Kurt turned to Ethan and noticed that they were making out.  Kurt smiled at the new couple then adjusted himself to patiently wait until they could go back to their room.  By the end of the movie, between Ethan and Connor making out, the dark movie theater and his imagination, Kurt was so sexually frustrated that he gripped Blaine's hand so tightly he was sure there was no circulation left.

The foursome were standing outside the movie theater and Kurt was facing the hotel that he thought Blaine must be talking about.  Blaine was talking but Kurt was sure he heard none of it.  "Wasn't it fun, Kurt?"

Kurt was shaken into reality.  "Yeah.  We need to do it again guys.  Maybe after the holidays?"

Connor's arms were wrapped loosely around Ethan and they seemed quite comfortable now.  "That would be fun.  It was great getting to know you both better.  I almost wish I had the chance last year.  I think we could've been pretty good friends."

"There's no reason we can't start now.  It was so much fun."

Connor dropped his arms opting to grab Ethan's hand.  "We should probably get back to the dorms and you guys have a long ride home.  I sense that you really want to get home."  Connor winked at Kurt, who turned red immediately.  Thank God for nighttime, or it would've been even more obvious.

Blaine stepped forward offering his hand.  "It was really fun.  We'll call you guys when we get back from Thanksgiving.  Maybe we can get coffee next time."

Ethan was starry eyed but capable of responding.  "It's a deal."

They two walked away holding hands.  Kurt watched them tilting his head to the side and sighing.  "I hope it works out for them.  They are really cute together."

"Shall we, Mr. Hummel?"

"Certainly, Mr. Anderson.  Where exactly are we staying?"

Blaine stood and pointed to the same hotel that Kurt had been eyeing.  "Come on, Baby.  It's late."

After all, it was late.  They went to an 11:00 movie and it was well past 1:00 now.  "I'm not sleepy."

"We're not going to sleep."  Blaine smiled slyly.