July 22, 2013, 7:42 p.m.
The Epic Love Affair
Forever Love: Chapter 36 - Mc-King-ly Homecoming
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Chapter 36 - Mc-King-ly Homecoming
Homecoming Game was upon them. Blaine went on to win the softball toss and obstacle course during Game day. Kurt jabbed at him saying it was because everyone else had to crawl through the tunnel while Blaine could walk through. "Blaine, I am so proud of you, you know that?"
"I'm in love with you. Did you know that?" Kurt just beamed at Blaine.
"I still can't believe you're at McKinley with me for senior year. I just knew it would be perfect with you here."
"I want to make it awesome for you and me. I would never have been happy at Dalton alone."
"I can't imagine you not being happy anywhere. You were popular there too."
"I would have been lonely, sexually frustrated and tired from driving to Lima every night." They were outside of the locker room doors and it was getting close to time for Blaine to head into the locker room.
"Are you sorry you can't be in the Homecoming Parade?"
"A little, but you'll take some pictures for me, right?"
"Yeah. I'll take a picture of your sign and the car you were supposed to ride in." Kurt put his arms around Blaine's neck. "I love that I don't have to hide this anymore. I just.. I'm so..." Kurt's throat tightened and he had tears in his eyes. He was so choked up at realizing how perfect everything was for him, for once.
Blaine ran his fingers into the side of Kurt's hair. "What is it Kurt?" He pulled him in holding him tightly by his hips and nuzzling in to Kurt's neck until he felt wetness on his cheek.
"It's nothing really." Blaine wiped the tears away kissing Kurt gently on the lips.
"So, nothing makes you cry now?" He cupped Kurt's face gently in his palms. Kurt tried to look down, but Blaine didn't allow it. He held his face close so that he could get Kurt to talk. He wondered if Kurt was going to finally tell him what he'd been thinking about yesterday. He knew something was bothering Kurt, but he didn't push yesterday. Today and right now probably wasn't the right time, but he knew he couldn't go into the locker room without knowing that Kurt was okay. "I know something's been bothering you Kurt."
"Just a little, but you need to go."
"No, I don't."
"You'll get in trouble."
"I don't care. You're definitely more important than a stupid football game." He stood his ground hoping Kurt would crack.
"Okay. But I really don't want you to worry. It's Homecoming game."
"Hey.... What hurts or bothers you, hurts or bothers me too. We're a team. We're in this together, remember?" Blaine pressed him. "I won't be able to play if I'm worried about you, Baby."
"I'm so proud to be with you Blaine. I've never, in my life, been this happy. I just worry about college. What if you get in and I don't? What if things change and you don't want to be with me. New York is a big city with tons of people and a world of new experiences. We're just here in this little town, in this little world. What happens...."
"Okay. First of all, here is no one, and I mean no one, that I could possibly love more than I love you. We have a bond that surpasses everything. I know that you're all I'll ever need and want forever." He paused to gather the right words for Kurt. He would do anything for Kurt. "Don't take this wrong. What I'm going to say, I'm saying for you and for us, okay?" Kurt looked as frightened as Blaine had ever seen him. "Do you want to not get married?"
Kurt was shocked. "What? No. That's not what I meant. I just worry, you know?"
"I know. I just want you to know that if there ever comes a time that you.. that you, say, change your mind, that you tell me. I would wait for you Kurt. I'll wait until you send me away."
Kurt burst into tears. "No. no. no. that's not what I want, Blaine. I love you so much. So much."
Blaine gathered Kurt into his arms. Coach Bieste showed up at the doorway. "Anderson?"
Kurt looked up with his red rimmed eyes and tears flowing. "You need to go Blaine."
Bieste responded before Blaine could even move. "Take your time Blaine. You've got about an hour before we need to warm up."
"Thanks Coach." Blaine turned back to Kurt, pulling him back in again, stroking his head softly and lovingly. Blaine's heart was breaking to see Kurt in pain. "I love you, Kurt. I am ready to take the next step with you, but if you're not, if you're not sure of us, I'll wait. We can stop planning and postpone everything."
"OH God, Blaine. That's not it. That's not it at all." Blaine was so confused right now.
"Kurt, you need to tell me or we can't resolve it. Okay?"
Kurt sighed and leaned his forehead to Blaine's. "I just want you to know that if we have to part because one of us doesn't get into school in New York, that the other has to go. I don't ever want either of us to give up our dreams for the other. You get in and I don't? You go. Okay? But that also means that we have to separate. I'm scared Blaine. I'm really scared that one of us will end up here and one will end up there."
"Okay, first things first. We both applied to University of Cincinnati and they have a fantastic theater program and fashion design program. I applied to University of Michigan and that's right up the road from here. You applied to Ohio State. We have options that are all good options. We will make decisions based on what's best for both of us. Kurt, we're getting married and that means something to me. Scratch that, it means everything to me. If we ended up living in a box in Toledo, I would still feel like the richest man on earth because I have you. This doesn't end with college Kurt. You and me, we're forever." Blaine was crying now. His life was right there in his arms. He meant everything he said. It didn't matter where they went to school, He was certain that wherever they ended up, they would be happy as long as they were together. "Maybe it's juvenile of me to think this way, but I don't care. You are stuck with me forever, Kurt. Forever."
Kurt fell happily into Blaine's arms. "So, we are forever?"
"Yes, My Love. Forever."
"Even if we end up panhandling down by the highway exit ramp?"
"Even then, but I know we are destined for bigger and better things." Blaine brushed Kurt's hair aside. "Okay?"
"Yes." Kurt smiled feeling comfort in all the love that Blaine had for him. This was just another confirmation that Blaine was completely devoted to him, just as he was to Blaine. "I trust you with my life Blaine. I trust you with my heart."
"I'll never treat it with anything but love and respect, Kurt. Forever, I promise you that." Blaine's lips met Kurt's tenderly and sweetly. They kissed like this a million times before, but for some reason, this time Kurt felt the future in them. He felt them pulsing through his lips into his body and straight to his heart. "Now, I'm going to get ready for the game. You are going to go get pictures of Quinn who I should be sharing a car with in the parade. Then I'll look for you in those bleachers to watch me walk with the rest of the nominees at halftime and then later score the game winning touchdown.. Hopefully."
"I'll be there. Then we can celebrate and get ready for the dance tomorrow night."
"I have a surprise for you."
Kurt's heart jumped and Blaine could see it in his face. This was what he loved. Kurt never expected anything special. It was like he kept his expectations low so that he would never, ever be disappointed. "You won't even give me a hint?"
"Nope." Blaine kissed him on the cheek and winked at him. "Go to the Homecoming Parade before you miss it too."
Kurt was glad his family was there when he got to the parade route. "Hey Kurt, what took you so long kid?"
"Nothing dad. Just saying bye to Blaine and lost track of time." Burt crooked and eyebrow.
"Really?"
"Seriously Dad. We live together. We're getting married. We don't have to sneak around in cars to.."
"Okay, you have a point. You didn't miss anything yet. Just the standard sports floats so far." Burt resolved that Kurt was right.
"I didn't want to miss the Homecoming Court. Blaine wanted me to take pictures of the car he was supposed to be riding in with Quinn."
"Kurt, how are you son?" Jack approached.
"I'm doing well. Thanks for coming in Jack."
"Are you kidding? We wouldn't miss Blaine in the Homecoming presentation. It's at half time, right?"
"Yeah."
"So they actually announce the King at half time?" Jack didn't seem to really know how all of this stuff went.
"Yes, they do." Kurt smiled.
"So what are my Grandson's chances."
Kurt was honest when he said, "I would say he's going to win. It's between him and Finn." Jack looked excited.
"Did you hear what Kurt just said?" He yelled over to Ellen, JR and Catherine.
"Honey, you know we never listen to you anymore." Ellen laughed at her own humor. "What is it Jack?"
"If you three were listening, you would have heard Kurt say that Blaine may just win this thing."
"Kurt!" Ellen and Catherine both made their way to him. "We didn't see you walk up?"
"I got here late. I walked Blaine to the locker room and we were running late." Kurt hugged and kissed both his future mother-in-law and his grandmother-in-law.
"We missed you Kurt."
Kurt's face hurt at how big his smile was. Hearing Ellen say that she missed him gave him the most unbelievable feelings. "I missed all of you too."
"Catherine and Mom. Quit smothering Kurt. Come here son." Kurt still sometimes felt a little awkward with JR. He was the last of Blaine's family to come around to accepting Blaine and Kurt together. However, since accepting him, he had become a staunch supporter of the two of them.
"Hi JR." JR gave Kurt a hug.
"So, you really thing Blaine would be able to get the votes?"
"Yes. Absolutely. He's one of the most popular kids in school now. We won some game day stuff yesterday and Blaine won a few of the events. We sat in the senior bleachers and it was crazy." Kurt smiled and JR saw that bit of insecurity in Kurt that he tried to hide all the time.
"You're his life Kurt. He won't ever share himself with anyone else. He has a fierce love for you." Kurt was a little shocked to hear it from JR. "I see it more and more when we visit. You have my son's heart. I don't know when it happened because I was an idiot, but I think you had it long before I realized how special the two of you are."
"I hope so JR. I love Blaine so much it hurts. I hope you and Catherine know that I would do anything for Blaine. He saved me, you know. He saved me from.. Let's just say he saved my life and made me a better person."
JR smiled and shook his head. "You've got that a bit backwards Kurt. You saved him too. He was always a good and loyal kid. He never wanted to hurt us or his grandparents. When he finally told me, I feel like I should have known all along. He was okay, but never truly happy. Nothing even close to how he is now. You, Kurt, make him happy. That's it. Just you."
"He does the same for me."
"I know. I can see it in both of you. You are both like bright shining stars together." JR paused. "I never thought he would be happy with another man, but I'm an idiot. You both are perfect."
JR had his arm around Kurt's shoulder as they turned to watch the parade. Burt yelled. "Kurt! The homecoming cars are coming." Santana sat on the back of a red mustang convertible with Rick "the Stick" Nelson. She looked annoyed by the fact that he wouldn't shut up and he kept high fiving everyone. Next was Jessica by herself. Finn was supposed to ride with her. Kurt snapped a picture because Finn would want to remember it. Then came Abbey and Jake and lastly on a black Mercedes Benz convertible was Quinn Fabray and propped next to her was a cardboard cutout of Blaine. Kurt laughed so hard. It was cute. The cardboard cutout of Blaine was perfect. Kurt snapped picture after picture and Quinn smiled pretty knowing she had a good idea.
"Quinn!" Kurt yelled to get her attention. She smiled at Kurt and picked up her cardboard cutout and tilted their heads together. She gave Kurt a thumbs up with Blaine's thumbs up in the cardboard cutout.
"You like it Kurt?" she yelled.
"It's awesome." Kurt smiled so big, his face was starting to hurt. He couldn't wait for Blaine to see it.
The game was going well. Blaine had been effectively stopped by this team because they were prepared for him, unlike so many teams before them. McKinley was still winning by a small margin as they went into half time. Kurt turned to the family. "It's time." The family had seats on the 50 yard line today because all the families that had nominees had reserved seats there. Kurt was nervous and excited at the same time.
Finn and Blaine were, unfortunately going to miss out on the break that the rest of the football players get at halftime since they had to participate in the events. Blaine looked a little awkward on display like that, but his face lit up as soon as he saw Kurt smiling proudly and he could see Kurt's eye's twinkling in the stadium lights. It seemed to take forever to get through the Freshman, Sophomore and Junior princes and princesses, but they were finally to the King nominees. Principal Figgen's called the four boys to the front. He held an envelope. "The first runner up to King is........ Finn Hudson!" Burt and Carole jumped up clapping. Kurt snapped bunches of pictures. This also meant that Blaine probably won. Senior Class King is...." Blaine looked up at Kurt. He needed to know that it didn't matter to Kurt. Kurt brought his hand to his heart and patted on his chest a few times and point at Blaine. JR and Catherine turned to see what Blaine was looking at, just as Kurt performed the gesture. Catherine sighed and her eyes glistened with tears. She instinctively reached to JR's hand and held it tight. Her son and Kurt were perfect.
It seemed like days until Figgins finally finished his sentence. "Blaine Anderson." Kurt jumped up and down, yelling. He hadn't a clue how happy and excited he would be for Blaine. In fact, he dreamed many a day about being happy if he didn't win. The cheering finally died down and Figgins went on to the Queen. Figgins opened up the envelope and seemed quite confused. He looked at the nominees and Quinn walked toward him. Blaine stood confused about what was happening. "I present to you your Senior Class President, Miss Quinn Fabray."
"Thank you Principal Figgins. I apologize for drawing out the Homecoming ceremony, but the Senior Class felt this was important. The senior class council members and officers got together after the nominations were announced and had long discussions about Homecoming and the nomination process. We knew that it was very traditional. We wanted to be a different senior class, because we are a different senior class than those before us. We are accepting, loving and fair to everyone. Well, most of the time we are. We polled the senior class a week ago and as a group we agreed that if Blaine Anderson were crowned King tonight, which we all knew he would be, that there is no queen that could match him. Only one King." Quinn was looking at Kurt. Kurt's heart was pounding. He was nervous and scared and excited all at once. "There's only one King for Blaine and it wouldn't be fair if he had to stand up here with another girl and take a fake posed picture with a smile that was only meant for one person. I am proud to be close personal friends with Blaine and with Kurt Hummel, who is Blaine's King in every way." She addressed Kurt directly. "Kurt, there is no one we'd rather see down here with Blaine, than you. Please honor us, honor your senior class, by accepting our overwhelming nomination as Homecoming King."
Kurt didn't know what to do, but Burt was there like he always was, guiding Kurt to do the right thing. "Kurt, there's only one right this to do here, Kiddo."
Kurt looked at his dad with questioning. "What is it dad?"
"Go down there and accept your crown and be with your King. It's how it should be anyway."
Blaine watched as Kurt didn't really know what he should do. Blaine was beaming because, even though they didn't ask Blaine and Kurt, He wanted this so much. Kurt was still stunned.
Then a chant started ‘Kurt. Kurt. Kurt.' It started in the Senior cheering section. JR turned to Kurt. "Are you going to leave Blaine down there by himself?"
Kurt smiled at JR. "No, I guess not." He finally stood and made his way to the track and finally the 50 yard line.
Blaine turned to Kurt and took his hands in his, "She's right you know. You're definitely my only king." Kurt had tears in his eyes but wasn't sure if they were for Blaine or what they were for.
"Do you think this is okay?"
Blaine motioned toward the crowd. "What do you think?" Kurt looked to the crowd. Not everyone was clapping, but most of the senior class looked happy about it and most of the crowd did too?
"I guess it's not perfect, but..."
"But it's close," Blaine finished.
It didn't matter because the senior class chose it and it meant a lot to both of them.
McKinley went on to win the game and Blaine did as he promised and scored the winning touchdown as they squeaked past St. Francis 24-20.
The Hudmel-Anderson clan got pizza at a local place after the game. By the time Blaine and Kurt got home, they were so tired of the celebrating and talking that they stripped their clothes off and got under the covers. "I'm sorry Baby. I'm too tired to even move."
"Me too." Kurt curled into Blaine's side kissing him on the cheek. "Let's sleep. Need sleep." Kurt started to doze off already.
"Love you, Kurt." Blaine kissed him on the top of his head.
It was Saturday. The homecoming dance was tonight and Blaine had plans. He slipped out of bed. Kurt must have been tired because he was snoring. It was just a little snore, but definitely a snore. He looked so cute. Blaine had errands to run before he had to show up at film. Coach Bieste promised the team that they would cut film review short because of the dance. Blaine had been good and kept his secret all week. He didn't want Kurt to know his surprise.
To Kurt:
Hey Baby. I had 2 run errands this AM. Then I have football film to watch. Coach said 10-12:00. Be home right after. <3
To Blaine:
You snuck out on me. I love you too. Can't wait for 2nite. How can you keep a secret from me.
Blaine just smiled. He knew Kurt was dying to know what was planned. It made it all the more exciting. Tonight was going to be special for them and not just because of the dance, but Blaine planned something really special.
As promised Blaine arrived at 12:15 after football filming was done. Kurt was in the closet ironing his shirt for tonight. "It's a little early to get ready, isn't it?"
"I guess. We have to be there at 7:00. Aren't they doing the king thing at 8:00?"
Blaine laughed. "The king thing?"
Kurt just waved his hand at Blaine. "You know what I'm talking about."
"You're so cute. And, you were snoring this morning."
Kurt's eyes widened. "I do not snore."
"Okay, Babe. You're right. There was some other hot guy with perfect hair in bed with me this morning and he was the one snoring."
Kurt slapped Blaine's arm. "Okay. So I only do that when I'm completely exhausted. I can't even believe you woke up before me."
"I told you I had things to do. Surprise stuff."
"You're not going to tell me what the surprise is, are you?"
"It wouldn't be a surprise then."
Kurt smiled, but pretended to be annoyed by it. "Fine."
Blaine started to make his way out the door. "Don't even pretend to be annoyed by not knowing. I know you love surprises."
It was time to leave for the dance and Kurt was dressed. He wore a classic black suit jacket that was fitted and he added skinnier fit pants to it. His hair, after spending the better part of an hour on it, was coiffed just right. "Kurt! It's time to go!"
"Be right down! I need to look perfect for my man!"
"I'm not sure what man that is. I love you no matter what you look like." Blaine giggled at the exchange as he waited at the bottom of the steps with the first part of surprise one.
Kurt emerged from the room and began the decent down the stairs. "Do I look okay?" he asked before even looking up to see Blaine smiling and holding a boutinierre in his hand. "Aww. Blaine. I was going to ask you if we should buy them, but when you didn't say anything, I figured it would be okay without them. Secretly I still wanted one."
"And here it is." Blaine stood close and started to pin it to Kurt's lapel.
"But, what about you. I didn't get you one."
"That's why I got myself one. With everything going on this week, I knew you didn't have time to think about it, so I got them for both of us." Kurt pinned Blaine's on his lapel and crashed his lips to Blaine's. "You are so perfect for me, you know that?"
"Of course I do. That's why I'm marrying you."
"Well. All that makes sense Mr. Anderson." Kurt looked truly happy. "I sometimes think I'm not keeping up my end of the bargain."
"Stop. You bring so much to this relationship Kurt. The stuff I do is the easy stuff. You do all the serious stuff for us. You know all of my medical history, you know how to keep me in check, you keep us solid Kurt. You're my rock."
Kurt couldn't believe how much Blaine thought he did for them. "I love you Blaine. You have no idea how much you mean to me."
"I do Kurt. Trust me, I do." Blaine opened the door. "Surprise two, my King." There was a limo outside their door. "My family limo driver came all the way here from Westerville for the night."
Kurt's eyes sparkled with excitement and Blaine smiled knowing that he did the right thing. He also anticipated Kurt's reaction to his third surprise of the night. He took Kurt's hand. "Blaine. This is amazing. You're amazing!" He kissed Blaine tenderly and they both hopped in the Limo.
Blaine turned to the limo driver and whispered, "Thanks John. I've placed the luggage in the laundry room.
"I'll make sure it's in the trunk when I pick you both up." John winked at Blaine.
Blaine sure knew how to make an entrance, not that he even planned it. The only person he ever wanted to impress was Kurt and Kurt loved him so much that he didn't need impressing. "Okay. So, I'm a little nervous that something bad's going to happen when we get there. I feel like we've made so much progress this year, but I also feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop."
"I'll be right next to you, Kurt. The whole night. We're going to dance, kiss, have fun with our friends and do anything that any other couple would do. Plus, I want our pictures with our crowns. In fact, I want to do something totally cute when we get our picture's taken."
Kurt couldn't help but let the grin take over his face because Blaine was stupidly adorable. He could just picture stupid faces Blaine would consider they make and wanting Kurt to practice them so that they looked just right when the camera flashed. "I want whatever you want."
"We just have so many years of serious pictures ahead of us, would it be cool to have something funny and cute?"
"I agree." They arrived at the school as everyone was arriving. As it happened, they arrived right at 6:30 when the doors open so when they pulled up, there were lines of people still trying to get in. They caused quite a scene when they arrived since it was rare for someone to take a limo to Homecoming. They opened the door to whispers and some hellos.
"Hey, thanks for inviting me." Finn stood there with crossed arms tapping his foot.
"Has Kurt been teaching you the diva look? Looks kind of good on you Finn."
"What?" He glanced at his stance, because why would Blaine say that? "No! It's just... nothing." Changing the subject as quickly as Finn could do it, "You guys look great!"
"Thank you my sweet brother. Where's Rachael?" Kurt looked around.
"She was over there with Mercedes, but now I have no idea." Finn was trying to scan the crowd of people heading inside. "Anyway, let's go find our table."
"I'm sure we'll be together. They usually put all of the glee club together."
Blaine was excited as he leaned over to Kurt. "Here goes. My first Homecoming."
"It'll be fun and perfect."
"I'm with you, how could it not be."
‘Announcing McKinley High's Senior Homecoming King, Blaine Anderson!' Blaine walked through the hallway cleared for the Homecoming Court. ‘And for the first time in McKinley's history our second King, Kurt Hummel!'
Kurt nervously made his way through the crowd where he knew Blaine would be waiting with an outstretched hand. "Kurt, you look regal."
"Same to you, Blaine."
"My future husband looks quite impressive tonight." Kurt blushed as Principal Figgin's stated that the Homecoming court should take the dance floor. They clasped hands together as they walked to the dance floor, neither one better than the other. Both equally Kingly tonight.
Kurt first began at acceptable distance from Blaine as the crowd was surrounding the court as they danced. Blaine pulled Kurt flush to his chest and took Kurt's hand that was placed in his, and pulled it over his shoulder and around his neck. The worried look he got from Kurt was immediately replaced with reverence as Blaine showed not signed of remorse for how they held each other or how close he held Kurt to him. Kurt glanced up only to see most of the people smiling or too caught up in their own dates to let it bother them. Perhaps things can get better if you prove that what you have is worth it and that what you have will never be broken, no matter what. "I love you Blaine. Thanks for making my only Homecoming perfect."
Blaine hadn't even thought about that until now. Up until Kurt said that, he never thought that Kurt had not been to any of the Homecoming dances. It made so much sense, yet in the back of his mind, Blaine must have thought that Kurt would have gone with friends in past years. He brushed his lips over Kurt's earlobe. "I didn't know this was your first too."
"I didn't want you to think about that. I wanted you to enjoy your first." Blaine's heart clenched under his ribcage at the confession that Kurt wanted it to be everything for Blaine. "You never had a homecoming before and I wanted to make sure it was perfect, though I can't say that I had any hand in you winning. I wish I could say that I had a hand in you winning, but I didn't. It was all you, Blaine." Blaine looked into Kurt's eyes the blue twinkling under the lights. "I hope it has been everything you wanted it to be."
Blaine said nothing, but pulled Kurt to him as tight as he could. "You made this perfect, Kurt. If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't even be here today. I wouldn't have this experience with you and we wouldn't be in love and getting married soon. Thank you for everything. Thank you for sharing your friends, family, your school and most of all, for not being afraid to share yourself with me."
"I'm so glad it was you I met on the steps that day. So glad." Kurt had tears in his eyes. Blaine kissed each eye catching the salty tears on his lips.
They spent the rest of the dance with friends dancing and having a blast. People they never talked to came by to congratulate them and introduce themselves for the first time. Kurt decided at this point that he didn't care if they liked Blaine and him because of Blaine's family. He was going to enjoy the rest of the year and have fun.
Kurt was hot and a little sweaty as it neared 10:30. People had already begun to leave and it was quieting down a bit. Blaine came up behind Kurt when he was talking to Mercedes, Rachael and Tina. "Hey, Baby. Ready to go?"
"Actually, I am a bit tired." Leaning in close to Blaine. "Plus, I want to get you home and have my way before I'm too tired to actually have my way."
Blaine's eyes darkened as he grabbed Kurt's hand. "We're going to head out guys." Just as Blaine said that, Finn and Puck walked up.
Finn shook Blaine's hand. "I don't even know what to do with you two. You can't keep your hands off of each other for one night. Dudes, this is our last Homecoming. Don't you want to make it our best."
Blaine said, "It was our only Homecoming."
"And, It was the best." Kurt finished as they both stood with clasped hands and lost in each other's eyes.
As they settled in the Limo to head home as Kurt first thought, Blaine said, "Surprised three." Kurt leaned his head on Blaine's shoulder as he caressed the back of Kurt's neck and hair with his fingers. "You're going to love this."
"Blaine, you didn't have to have so many surprises. You know, I already said yes to forever with you. You don't need to do any more than you already have. You've made every one of my dreams come true. That's all I need."
"This may not be something you need, but I'm giving it to you as a surprise. Sit tight and enjoy what I planned for US."