Panic

The time was finally here. Burt loaded up Finn, Kurt and Blaine’s suitcases. He had the 3 of them lined up in front of him. “Now I expect each of you to behave as you would when you are here with me under my roof. Treat yourself and others with respect. I know this is a big deal, so have fun. Make sure to use the safe in the hotel rooms. Finn and Kurt, I know you have cash and Carole and I got you each mastercard’s to use for you souvenirs and extra stuff. Blaine, you need to make sure Finn and Kurt know what’s going on. I know you’ve done quite a bit of traveling in your time.”

“I promise Burt. We will be totally fine. There are 4 chaperones and there are only 30 of us. We should be pretty well watched over.” Blaine always had an air of confidence around adults. Kurt always felt like a child. Blaine had made a great mentor for Kurt because of his confidence.

“Dad, I’ll miss you. We will bring you and Carole back something really special, won’t we Finn. We are just so grateful for you both letting us go on this trip.” Kurt jumped into his dad’s arms and gave him a fierce hug. Kurt had admitted to himself that he knew he would miss him.

“Burt, tell mom that I will miss her. Well, and I’ll miss you too, Burt.” Finn gave him a hug too.

Burt looked at Blaine who was smiling at him and to his surprise, Blaine walked over and gave him a hug too. It felt really good that Blaine felt that close to him that he would give him a hug. Burt’s eyes got teary because he realized that Blaine and Kurt would someday give him his last hug and Kurt would go away and no longer be in his home. The last thing he had left of Elizabeth would someday belong to someone else, but Kurt was already partially gone. Blaine had turned and gave Kurt a beautiful smile and Kurt kissed him and held his hand. They turned to get into the car.

“Do all of you have your passports? Cell phones, chargers, converters, money and credit cards?” Each boy was fishing these things out of bags and wallets. “I guess that was a good exercise for you boys.” Burt was laughing. “It might be better if you put all of those things in one place so that it’s easy to get to. Okay, let’s get in the car or we’ll be late. We’ve got an hour drive to the airport.”

Kurt turned to Blaine and gave him a kiss. “Blaine, I’m excited to be going, but I am nervous too. What if-“ Blaine held his finger up to Kurt’s lips to silence him.

“Baby, I promise you, we will be fine. So, stop worrying, you’ll get wrinkles and your moisturizers will not help you.” Blaine entwined their fingers together and brought Kurt’s hand to his lips to place a tender kiss to his hand. “Let’s go.”

They got to the meeting place at the airport. Everyone was arriving at around the same time. Wes and David were already there with Dean and Mrs. Royce. To Kurt’s surprise, Mr. Schuester was standing next to Miss. Pillsbury. So that was the fourth chaperone. “I guess the on again, off again couple were on again.” Kurt whispered to Finn.

Parents made quick goodbyes because the groups needed to start checking in for their flights. There was a lot of excited chatter amongst the group. They were really beginning to come together as a whole group instead of separate groups.

“I need to check in with the Dean and the council, Kurt. I’ll be right back.” Blaine placed a quick kiss to Kurt’s cheek. Kurt smiled and watched Blaine walk away. Kurt liked to see Blaine take charge in situations that he was unfamiliar with. This was definitely one of them. What really made Kurt feel special is that even when Blaine was not right next to him, he was so good at keeping track of Kurt. He didn’t think Blaine even knew that Kurt noticed it, but he knew that Blaine was a little protective over him. Every glance that Kurt managed to see, Blaine would give him a smile or nod his head to make sure Kurt knew that he was in Blaine’s protective care. It was almost secret service like.

“Kurt do you even notice how Blaine watches you. It is so cute.” Rachel never missed a thing. That was a talent of hers. She managed to always be able to see the bigger picture of things. “It’s like he wants to make sure are okay all the time.” Kurt smiled because he believed there was a little more to it than that.

“I know he does that. I actually like it.” Kurt blushed at the admission. All of this meant so much more to him and if he knew Blaine, it meant more to him too. When they were apart they felt less than whole. Apart they were good, but together they were great. How lucky Kurt felt to be with Blaine and to have found his soulmate so early in life. “I miss him even when I can see him. I miss him when I can’t move my hand over and touch him. I think that’s why he always looks for me when he’s not next to me. I know that’s why I look for him.” Kurt looked up for Blaine again and found him still talking to the Warblers. He was so animated telling them a story. “I sometimes wonder if he knows that he does that and if it for the same reason I do it?” Kurt laughed because he caught Blaine again.

“Does what?” Mercedes was there and now the trio was complete. “You mean Blaine. Boy he is so head of heels for you Kurt. I wish I had someone like him.”

Kurt smiled at Mecedes because he knew that in the back of her mind, she had always hoped that Kurt was not really gay. Like that was even possible. “Mercedes, there is someone out there for you. Just not in Lima. You are way too big for anyone from here anyway. You will be in New York or LA and will have some awesome guy.” Kurt knew how to make Mercedes feel good.

“Thanks Kurt. I know. The road to get there is so tough.” She frowned a little. “But you’re right. I am destined to get out of Lima and do great things.”

“You and me both Mercedes.” Rachel gave Mercedes a big hug. Finn appeared behind Rachel and she turned and gave him a big hug.

Mr. Schuester gathered the entire crowd. “Warblers and New Directions. We are getting ready to check in. Everyone have your passports available. We will call 2 at a time and you will check in right here. Then as a group, we will go to security.”

“Mr. Schue, we don’t get to pick who we sit with?” Kurt showed a look of concern on his face because he would definitely not make it on the flight without Blaine.

“Kurt, trust us. We already mapped out the seats with the airlines. We are sending you up with your seat mates. Just calm down.” Mr. Schue turned to the airlines representative and then said something to Dean Royce. “ We will start at the back, but rest assured gentlemen and ladies. There is a plan to our madness. Dean and Mrs Royce will be at the back and Miss. Pillsbury and I will be toward the front.

They started to call everyone in groups of two and Kurt was still worried, but he should have known that they would never split he and Blaine up. As they went through the list, it looked like they alternated Warblers and New Directions. It looked like the chaperones were really thoughtful as they called up the pairs. As expected, Kurt and Blaine were together and they were sitting right behind Finn and Rachel. The big disappointment was Mr. Schue and Mrs. Pillsbury were right across from Finn and Rachel which meant that they would not get any privacy.

“Come on Kurt. Let’s check in, Baby.” Blaine wrapped his arm around Kurt and led him toward the counter. Kurt was breathing heavy and dropped his messenger bag. “Kurt, are you okay? Calm down baby.” Blaine set his down his bag and looked at Kurt. He knew immediately that this Kurt was not okay. Blaine put his forehead on Kurt’s and placed his hands on both sides of Kurt’s face. “Look at me baby. You are going to pass out.” Kurt wouldn’t look at him and his breathing became more labored. Blaine was starting to worry, but it didn’t show. Finn noticed that Kurt and Blaine had stopped and Blaine was holding Kurt’s face. He and Rachel walked over to him.

“Blaine, is he okay?” Finn was starting to panic himself as he realized that something was wrong with Kurt. Blaine waved them off.

“Finn. I’ll take care of this.” Blaine was trying to get a handle of what was going on and trying to remember what to do in situations like this. Kurt was having a panic attack in the middle of the airport.

Mr. Schue then noticed something was going on and started to walk over. Finn held his hand up and waved him back. He and Rachel turned back toward the group. “Let’s let Blaine handle this, Okay?”

“If he doesn’t get better in a minute or two, I need to call 911 Finn.” Mr. Schue was just making sure they understood that Kurt’s health had to be considered.

“He can handle Kurt better than all of us. Heck, even better than Burt.” Finn responded to Mr. Schue with a look.

Very calmly Blaine firmly ordered Kurt to follow his direction. “Kurt, baby, look at me. You really have to slow down your breathing. Please look at me.” Kurt was continuing to gasp for air. He had brought his hands to his chest as if to help his lungs move.

Kurt started to feel a little dizzy. “Blaine. Blaine! I’m not feeling too good right now. I am starting to get a little dizzy.” He closed his eyes so that he couldn’t feel the dizziness. “I’m scared Blaine. I feel like I’m dying.”

Blaine was beginning to panic a little but hoped it wasn’t showing. “Open your eyes and look at me Kurt. You are hyperventilating. Please, baby, look at me.” Blaine was trying everything and he knew Kurt would pass out if he kept doing this.

“I can’t look at you. I feel like I’m going to pass out.”

Next thing he knew he was yelling. “Kurt, dammit, look at me!” Everyone turned toward the boy yelling. Security was even headed this way. Mr. Schue walked to security to let them know everything was fine. He didn’t want to make more of a scene than already done.

“Kurt!” Finally he saw those terrified blue eyes. “Now, look right into my eyes baby. Look at me, it’s just you and me. We are going to take a deep breath together. Count with me Kurt. Just you and me baby.” Kurt was crying. “You can do this baby. Deep breath. 1-2-3-4-5-6----“ Kurt was not cooperating and Blaine was trying to stay calm. “It’s just you and me here.” Blaine hated to yell at Kurt, but it got Kurt to open his eyes. “Kurt, take a deep breath!” Kurt finally did as he was told. “1-2-3-4-5-6-7-- Good baby, another one.” He did again. Blaine brushed the tears away from Kurt’s terrified eyes. Blaine saw the fear disappear. At the same time, he felt Kurt’s legs start to give out under him. Blaine moved his hands around Kurt’s waist to help keep him standing and then kissed Kurt on the forehead. Kurt’s head landed on Blaine’s shoulder and his body pressed tightly to Blaine. His heartbeats were slowing now and Blaine was no longer worried. He was rubbing circles on Kurt’s lower back. It was the most calming thing to Kurt. “You scared me Baby.” He looked over Kurt’s shoulder still holding on tightly and looked up to Finn and Mr. Schue. He nodded and gave them a small smile.

Finn smiled back to Blaine. “See Mr. Schue. Blaine was the right person to handle this.”

They continued to stand there as the rest of their group checked in. “Kurt, are you okay? You know that I will never leave you alone. We can go back home if you want. I’ll call Burt to come pick us up if that’s what you want. I will be with you no matter what.”

“No Blaine, I think I can do this. But you have to promise not to leave me.” Blaine placed another kiss to Kurt cheek.

“I promise.”

“Okay, I think I can do this now.” Kurt had a firm grasp on Blaine’s hand as they checked in.

They got through security quickly and without any delays and were finally boarding the plane. This was it. When they reach their destination, they will be in Paris.