Aug. 18, 2014, 7 p.m.
The Place I Call Home: Chapter 9
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Both he and Kurt had made their way back to the forest; he had shoved his stuff back into the hole before sitting against a nearby tree.
Kurt sat opposite him a sad look covering his face, they sat in silence, and his face was little sore as his tears dried on his cheeks.
He wasnt really sure how he felt, he was angry and frustrated but he was also relieved and felt like crying, so many emotions coming to him at the same time and he wasnt sure what to do with them.
He didnt know what to think about Kurt either; he didnt know why he wanted to help him. There wasnt much that he could do for him anyway.
It was Friday which meant that he was going to have the weekend alone; the school day was just about over so he looked to Kurt.
"The school day pretty much over, you should get going," he said wrapping his arms around himself.
"Im not going anywhere," Kurt said and he raised an eyebrow at him.
"There nothing you can do for me, theres not really any point in you being here," he said closing his eyes briefly. He was exhausted.
"Why dont you stay at mine?" Kurt said and he looked at him like he was crazy.
"No way," he said.
"Why not? Its better than staying here," Kurt argued and he just shook his head.
"No Kurt," he said. There was no way in hell he was going back to Kurts place, he didnt want to cause him any trouble and his dad would probably kick him out at the sight of him and he didnt want to go through that twice in one day.
"No chance in convincing you?" Kurt said and he gave him evils before shaking his head.
"Fine," Kurt said standing up and pulling out his phone. He watched Kurt walked away disappearing behind a tree brining the phone to his ear. What was he doing?
He was gone for a couple minutes before he came back sitting in the same spot he had been in before.
"What did you do?" He said knowing that Kurt had done something that he wasnt going to particularly like.
Kurt took a breath before looking him in the eye. "If you wont come back with me, Im going to stay here with you," Kurt said and his mouth fell open.
"Damn it Kurt!" He said.
"Well I wasnt just going to leave you here on your own was it?" Kurt spat and he ran his hands through his hair frustrated.
"Yes, this isnt your problem, its mine, Im not going to drag you down to my level," he said. He felt like he could punch something but he kept the feeling concealed scared that he was going to lash out at the one person in this stupid world that looked like he cared.
Kurt wrapped his arms around his legs pulling them closer towards himself.
"You dont want to be alone Blaine, I dont understand why you keep pretending that you do," Kurt whispered.
"Im not pretending, I may have cried on your shoulder but that doesnt mean that you know me," he said standing up starting to pace.
"I know why you push people away Blaine, youre scared that they are going to hurt you and I understand," Kurt said.
He stopped pacing glaring down at Kurt. "How could you understand? You could never understand!" He himself was even shocked at his outburst.
Kurt stood up. "Because I used to be the same way, I pushed people away because I thought everyone was out to hurt me because I was different, people hated me for who I was and I was never going to get away from that so I closed myself off from the world, and it took me a hell of a long time to get me back to the way I am now!" Kurt yelled back.
He looked at him speechless, looking back to the cut on Kurts lip feeling like an idiot.
"Im not like you, I cant be fixed," he said. He was convinced that he couldnt be fixed, he used to have hope, but in time that left and he was left with the empty shell that he was now.
"I believe that you can, I dont believe that youre all that broken," Kurt said not looking him in the eye as he sat back on the ground.
He let out a little giggle. "You saw my dad, he hates me and my mums a drunk who doesnt give a shit about me, Ive been broken for a long time Kurt," he replied.
He heard the school bell ring in the distance.
"They were horrible to you werent they?" Kurt said finally looking up into his eyes.
"They werent nice," he muttered not wanting to talk about it too much.
He walked to his bag and started digging around into pulling out his cigarettes before sticking one in his mouth and lighting it up.
"You really need to quit that," Kurt said and he took a puff blowing the smoke into the air.
"Do I? Thanks mum," he said sarcastically taking another puff and earning evils from Kurt. He sat down back up against the tree opposite Kurt.
"Are you hungry?" Kurt asked bringing out his phone again.
"Kurt Im homeless what makes you think that I can afford take out?" He said and he saw Kurt smirk.
"Ill pay you dork," he said with a raised eyebrow.
"Actually thats a lie, I have enough to get me through the next couple of weeks, for like shop sandwiches or something, and I dont need your charity," he said and Kurt frowned.
"What do you like on pizza?" Kurt asked and he sighed.
"Still dont want your charity," he repeated.
"Do you like pepperoni? I think thats what I might get," Kurt continued.
"Kurt," he said feeling a smile trying to creep up on his face.
"Should I take that as a yes for pepperoni?" Kurt said starting to smirk.
He smiled not being able to keep it down any longer.
"Ill take that as a yes." Kurt said.
"Fine, I tried," Blaine said as Kurt dialled the number and ordered two pepperoni pizzas. Kurt ordered them to be brought to the school gates so that they could collect them so questions werent asked about them hanging out at the back of the field.
After the pizzas were ordered they sat in silence for a while, he had wanted to break it but he didnt know what to say.
He gathered up his words and looked at Kurt.
"Thank you, for all that you did for me today," he whispered embarrassed almost stumbling on his words.
"Blaine, you dont need to thank me, you just need to let me help you," Kurt replied.
He was still convinced that he didnt really need any help and if he did then he was beyond it, so he didnt reply he just looked at the ground wondering how much better his life would be if he had never come out to his parents.
He didnt know if he was going to come out to Kurt or not, not sure that it was necessary, not yet anyway.