Dec. 20, 2014, 6 p.m.
Never Look Back: Chapter 15
E - Words: 2,396 - Last Updated: Dec 20, 2014 Story: Complete - Chapters: 21/? - Created: Aug 22, 2014 - Updated: Aug 22, 2014 202 0 0 0 0
He woke up earlier than normal but Blaine was already up rooting around in the kitchen, he walked through with a small frown wondering why he was up at this time in the morning.
"What are you doing?" He asked with a small giggle when he saw flour all over the place.
"Youre up early, I was going to make you breakfast and have this cleared up before you got up," Blaine said with his eyes a little wide.
"What happened with the flour?" He asked trying to keep in the laugh rising in his throat.
"I tried to open it but it pulled it too hard and it exploded," Blaine explained clutching his hands together.
He couldnt keep it in anymore and began to laugh uncontrollably.
"Hey, dont make fun of me I didnt mean to," Blaine whined.
"Blaine, you have it on your face and in your hair," he said between laughs trying to calm himself down.
"Oh," Blaine said joining in on laughing now. "What are you up so early for?" Blaine asked and he stopped laughing. He didnt know whether to tell Blaine about going to meet Sebastian. He closed his eyes, he didnt want to lie to Blaine, he trusted him and if he found out about it later he didnt want to compromise what they had built.
"I-Um, come sit down," he said walking in the living room and taking a seat on the couch waiting for Blaine to sit next to him before sighing.
"I-Im going to coffee this morning," he said and Blaine frowned.
"Ok," he said slowly looking confused.
"With Sebastian," he said and he felt the shift of the mood in the room.
"What?" Blaine said standing. "Why?" Blaine continued looking panicked.
Blaine turned away from him and he stood walking around him so he could look him in the eyes.
"He kept saying that hed changed Blaine and I know hes full of shit but Im trying to protect you," he said but Blaine looked to the floor avoiding his gaze. "Please look at me," he said and Blaine looked up. He felt bad because he knew that it was slave instinct that had made him look up.
"Hell never change," Blaine said through tears.
"I know Blaine, which is why I have to do this, hes up to something and I want to know what it is," he said and Blaine moved forward wrapping his arms around his waist. He closed his eyes resting his chin on top of Blaines head.
"You dont have to do this, Kurt. Once you talk to him, he wont leave you alone," Blaine said into his shirt.
"Ill be fine," he said leaning back and placing a kiss to Blaines forehead. He giggled. "Youve got flour on your nose," he said brushing it off slowly with his thumb gazing into Blaine beautiful honey eyes.
They both stared for a moment gazing into each other eyes, but then Blaine moved forward and placed a small kiss to his lips before breaking apart and walking towards the kitchen.
"You should eat your breakfast," Blaine said turning to him and giving a smile before disappearing into the kitchen. He looked to the floor a smile forming on his face from ear to ear, he was really falling for Blaine.
He walked into the kitchen and pancakes were set out on the table.
"They smell great," he said picking up the fork and started to eat them leaning up against the counter. "Ummm," he groaned. "You really need to teach me how to make these," he said taking another bite.
"Youll just have to watch me make them sometime," Blaine said with a shrug and he nodded. He knew that Blaine had told him before that he didnt know what he did different to the way he made them.
He finished up the plate before turning to Blaine. "Thank you so much for breakfast but I have to go," he said and Blaine nodded.
"Ok, are you going to be later again?" Blaine asked and he thought for a moment.
"I dont know, but you never have to worry about me not coming back because that will never happen, and if it does then somethings wrong," he explained.
"I trust you," Blaine said with a nod and he walked over pulling him into his arms one more.
"Ill see you later," he said with a quick kiss to the forehead before he let go and turned walking towards the front door.
….
He watched as Kurt disappeared out of the door. He wasnt sure if he felt betrayed or not, Kurt seemed to think he was doing it for the better so he trusted him, he trusted Kurt with everything.
He started to wash up all of the dishes that he had used to make Kurts breakfast with before walking into his room retrieving his keyboard. He loved playing his keyboard, it was what he normally did when Kurt was away until he made lunch.
Walking into the living room he plugged it into the wall before going to sit on the couch the keyboard in his lap.
He took a breath and closed his eyes brushing his fingers over the notes before playing the song he had been learning for the past couple of days.
I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
His fingers ran over the keys effortlessly and the music ran through him.
Til all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that Ive said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
Ive been on the brink, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So Im gonna give all my secrets away
This time dont need another perfect lie
Dont care if critics ever jump in line
Im gonna give all my secrets away
He didnt hear Kurt walk back into the apartment, his eyes still tightly closed only opening when he needed to see where his fingers were going.
My God, amazing how we got this far
Its like were chasing all those stars
Whos driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Send it straight to gold
But I dont really like my flow, no, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So Im gonna give all my secrets away
This time, dont need another perfect lie
Dont care if critics ever jump in line
Im gonna give all my secrets away
Oh, got no reason, got no shame
Got no family I can blame
Just dont let me disappear
Ima tell you everything
So tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So Im gonna give all my secrets away
This time, dont need another perfect lie
Dont care if critics ever jump in line
Im gonna give all my secrets away
So tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So Im gonna give all my secrets away
This time, dont need another perfect lie
Dont care if critics ever jump in line
Im gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away
He heard clapping and his head flew up to Kurt who had a huge smile on his face.
"What are you doing back?" He asked and Kurt held up his wallet. He must have left it on the table in the kitchen.
"Oh right, I-I," he started but he didnt know what to say.
"Ill never get over how amazing you are Blaine, you should be going to NYADA," Kurt said with a small sigh.
He smiled at the compliment. "Thank you, that means a lot," he said running a hand through his curls.
Kurt gave him one more smile before leaving again. He sat for a few minutes thinking of the concept of going to NYADA, it was a lifetime away but it would be amazing if he ever got the chance to do something like that.
He looked to the keyboard before playing the song again.
…
He walked into the coffee shop that Sebastian had told him to meet at Blaines voice running through his head. He loved when Blaine sang, his voice was just beautiful.
He looked around the room and of course Sebastian was already there sitting in the corner.
"Hi," he said walking over and taking a seat across from the boy.
Sebastian smiled and pushed a coffee cup over. "Got you a drink," Sebastian said and he nodded.
"Thanks, you didnt have to do that," he said looking out of the window. He didnt notice how much just having a coffee was going to bother him, he felt like he was doing the wrong thing, like he should be a home with Blaine right now.
"I got you to have a coffee with me, so I buy the coffee," Sebastian said with a small smile. "Look Kurt, I can see how much you hate me but youre just going to have to tell me what you want me to do to make this better," Sebastian said leaning forward looking at him with puppy dog eyes.
He couldnt help think how adorable Blaine would look using puppy dog eyes, he would probably melt but on Sebastian it just didnt work.
"I really dont know," he sighed. "Just, why did you do it?" he asked not really sure that he wanted to know the answer.
"I was an idiot Kurt, I was angry and frustrated and Blaine happened to be on the end of it and I know its not an excuse but Ive had therapy and Ive changed. I know I acted like a jerk when we first met but sometimes I cant control myself, if I see someone I like I try to impress them by doing something that probably not that impressive at all and Im sorry for that," Sebastian explained and he looked to the table until the story was over.
He almost scoffed at how bullshit the story sounded but he kept quiet, though he was sure that the look on his face told Sebastian that he didnt believe a word he said.
"Why did you want to do this? Because you know Ill never let you see Blaine," he said and Sebastians eyes flickered at Blaines name.
His eyes suddenly turning back to the same old asshole Sebastian.
"And I wont even try to, if you go out with me," Sebastian said with a smug smile. Shit, he had fallen into his trap.
"What? No way in hell," he said standing up but Sebastians hand flew out taking hold of his arm.
"I was stupid to think you would fall for the nice guy act, youre stubborn Kurt but I noticed this yesterday so I followed you home and I know where you live, where Blaine lives," Sebastian said and his heart started to beat fast. He sat back down and Sebastians smile widened.
"Great, so were on the same page," Sebastian said.
"I can get you arrested for this," he said and Sebastian just laughed.
"My dad could get me out of any charge Kurt, he can do anything I ask, how do you think I got Blaine underage in the first place," Sebastian said crossing his arms.
"Youre an asshole," he said blatantly.
"Whoa, thats no way to talk to your boyfriend now is it?" Sebastian said and suddenly the fear of the situation settled in.
"Please dont do this, Ill be a friend, Ill be a really good friend," he said. He didnt want to beg but he didnt know what he would do if he refused to be his boyfriend. He could hurt Blaine and that wasnt an option, he didnt have anywhere he could take him to keep hide him from whatever resources that Sebastian had.
"You had that chance but you were too stubborn to believe me," Sebastian said standing gesturing for him to follow as he moved to leave the coffee shop.
I can do this, I can do this for Blaine, he thought as they walked out and towards the school. Leaving his coffee to get cold on the table.
"Why are you doing this?" He asked as Sebastian forced his hand into his.
"Because I like you, just like I liked Blaine but I couldnt have him, and I tried to do it the normal way but you werent having none of it and I guess I got impatient," Sebastian said tightening the grip on his hand.
"You talked to me about this yesterday," he said through gritted teeth pain running through his hand at the tightness.
"Yes, but ever since the day I met you and saw Blaine again I knew that I wanted to be with you. Kurt, you may even learn to enjoy this, you might see that Im not as bad as you think I am," Sebastian said as they walked into the gate.
He kept silent, he should have listened to Blaine. He felt like he wanted to cry but he would give Sebastian the satisfaction.
As the day went on the more people Sebastian told about them, he wanted to make them official hed said when he asked why. He wanted to say that they would never be official, that he was disgusting and he was doing this for Blaine and for nothing else, but he kept quiet.
At the end of the day, Sebastian made sure that he walked him home, probably to show that he really did know where he lived, where Blaine lived.
They reached the apartment and Sebastian finally let go of his hand and turned to him.
"Bye," he said and tried to walk away but Sebastian grabbed his arms pulling him in for a forced kiss. He almost threw up, it was nothing like Blaines, it wasnt nice and soft but hard and forced.
Sebastian pulled back and smiled with satisfaction. "See you tomorrow Kurt," Sebastian said before walking back the way they had come.
A whimper escaped his lips as he entered the building and he started to climb the stairs. He got outside the apartment door before he broke down falling to the floor. What had he got himself into? Why was he so stupid?
He sobbed loudly on the floor curling in on himself, he was disgusting. Hed let Sebastian kiss him and hold his hand, hed let him do that.
Tears were furiously rolled down his face when the apartment door suddenly opened and Blaines wonderful voice filled the air.
"Kurt? Kurt, whats wrong?" Blaine said getting on to his knees beside him.
He pulled him into his arms continuing to sob, things had just gotten a lot more complicated.