Dec. 20, 2014, 6 p.m.
Never Look Back: Chapter 14
E - Words: 1,547 - Last Updated: Dec 20, 2014 Story: Complete - Chapters: 21/? - Created: Aug 22, 2014 - Updated: Aug 22, 2014 184 0 0 0 0
He walked through the school towards the exit, class had ran over and he was supposed to have been home nearly an hour ago. He would have to get Blaine a mobile phone so he could tell him when he was going to be late home.
He ran for the gate wanting to pick up the speed.
"Kurt!" Someone call from behind him and he stopped turning.
"What do you want Sebastian?" He asked as Sebastian ran up to him.
"Look, I know you dont like me but Im different from what I used to be, I was wondering if you wanted to get a drink sometime?" Sebastian asked and he frowned.
"No, I think Ill pass but thanks for asking," he muttered before turning to walk away.
"Kurt, please give me a chance," Sebastian said taking his arm lightly but he shook it away.
"Do you think I can even look at you after what you did to Blaine?" He said. Even the thought of what he did made him feel sick.
"Im sorry, Ill even apologise to him if it will help you forgive me," Sebastian said.
"Blaines terrified of you, youll never touch or speak to him again," he said his voice going deep in seriousness.
"Fine, but we all make mistakes and that was the worst of them all for me and I dont actually blame you for not forgiving me because Ive not even forgiven myself," Sebastian said tears running down his face.
He didnt know what Sebastian was playing at it was like he was a completely different person and he didnt believe the act for one minute, but it intrigued him. What did he want?
"I didnt know you felt that way about it," he said putting on a caring voice. It was one of the hardest things hes had to do in his life. He wanted to know what Sebastian was up to and stop it before anyone got hurt and if he had to befriend him then so be it.
"Yeah, just please let me take you for a coffee and Ill try to prove that Ive changed," Sebastian begged.
The thought made him cringe but he nodded. "Fine, but thats all," he said and he could see the evil glint in Sebastians eyes.
"Thank you Kurt, how about tomorrow morning before school?" Sebastian said and he pushed a smile.
"Ok," he replied.
"Theres a coffee shop just up the road meet there at seven thirty?"
"Yeah, see you then Sebastian," he said before turning and carrying on his run. He didnt want Blaine to worry about him.
He felt dirty talking to Sebastian, especially agreeing to go to coffee. It was like he was betraying Blaine in one of the worst ways but he wanted to protect himself and Blaine.
He ran the rest of the way to the flat and rushing into the apartment.
"Blaine?" He asked walking into the kitchen. There was a meal sitting on the counter uneaten, it smelt amazing but it looked like it had gone cold. "Blaine?" He said a little louder walking into the living room.
He stopped when he saw Blaine sitting on the floor by the couch hugging his knees.
"Blaine," he said quietly going to sit next to him. Once he had sat down Blaine glanced at him blankly.
"I didnt think you were coming back, I know thats stupid but I thought youd left me," Blaine whispered and he pulled him into his arms.
"Im so sorry Blaine, class ran over and I have no way of contacting you. Ill get you a phone as soon as I can, ok?" He said as Blaine wrapped his arms around his waist.
"Ok," Blaine said resting his head in the crook of his neck. He smiled lightly, he and Blaine were getting extremely comfortable with each other now and it made him happy that Blaine trusted him enough for this amount of physical touching.
"Im so sorry," he soothed and Blaine held him tighter. He gave him a firm kiss on the forehead and Blaine moaned softly.
"I like it when you kiss me," Blaine said and then he backed away slightly, maybe noticing what hed just said.
He pulled him back against him. "Its ok, youre ok with me. I wont hurt you," he said and Blaine softened his arms again.
"I can try to heat up lunch if you want me to," Blaine said and he smiled.
"No, I can do it, its my fault its cold," he said and he let Blaine go. He looked at him, his beautiful honey coloured eyes, his perfect curls, beautiful smile and then without thinking he was leaning forward pressing his lips against Blaine. They were soft like silk, it was amazing.
But then he noticed what he was doing and jumped backwards.
"Oh my god, Im so sorry Blaine! Im so sorry, I-I," he stumbled trying to find an explanation for what he had done. He covered his face with his hands as tears ran down his face.
He had forced a kiss on Blaine, he had promised he wouldnt hurt him and now he had forced a kiss on him.
"Kurt," Blaine looked worried as he leaned over putting hands on his shoulder to try and calm him down.
He felt like he couldnt breathe, yet words he couldnt control kept leaking from his mouth.
"Blaine, Im so sorry, I know I promised. Please Im so sorry," he said.
"Kurt," Blaine said firmly and he stopped looking up at him.
"Im sorry," he said once more. "Ill understand if you hate me," he said looking to the floor.
"Kurt, I said I like it when you kiss me," Blaine said and he looked up. And then he noticed that Blaine was smiling, he wasnt scared or cowering away like he thought he might be. In fact, this was the most human like Blaine had acted since he had got him like forever ago now. "But Im a slave and if you kissing me wasnt a mistake, which it probably was, we can never happen," Blaine continued and he frowned.
"It wasnt a mistake and youre not a slave to me," he said thinking over what was happening. Yes, he felt for Blaine, he felt for Blaine like he never had for anyone before.
But Blaine couldnt have thought the same way, right?
…
As soon as Kurts lips touched his electricity ran through him and he felt himself come back to life, like all the bad things that had happened to him in the past were dreams and he was finally waking up.
It felt like he had been waiting for this moment for his whole life.
But he was kidding himself if he and Kurt were ever going to be together, Kurt could do a lot better. The kiss probably hadnt even meant that.
"Are you ok?" Kurt asked him and he nodded.
"Ive never felt better actually, it felt like woke up or something," he said truthfully and Kurt smiled. God that smile.
"I can tell, you see so confident," Kurt said and he looked to the floor blushing. It was nice to hear.
"Thank you Kurt," he said and Kurt smirked.
"Dont thank me, I shouldnt have done it. It could have gone wrong and I did it without thinking of the consequences," Kurt said and he felt his smile shrink.
"You regret it?" He asked a little hurt.
"No, no Blaine I dont, but I dont want to hurt you and Im scared you might think you have to please me," Kurt said.
"Kurt I know you wont hurt me, I trust you and youre the reason Im starting to feel human again. Kurt you make me feel happy for the first time since I can remember," he said tears welling up in his eyes and he looked down trying to hide them.
"And you make me happy Blaine, but I dont think youre ready for this, we cant just rush into anything because I dont want you to regret it," Kurt explained and he nodded.
"Ok, I understand," he said. He did understand, he felt good today but he might feel different tomorrow, he knew he liked Kurt but he knew he still wasnt ready for a relationship just yet.
He felt alive again but he knew he would have to learn to walk again before he ran.
He closed his eyes and took a breath, it was weird feeling this awake, like the fog had cleared but he knew it was better.
He opened his eyes again and Kurt was standing up.
"Im going to heat up lunch," Kurt said and disappeared into the kitchen and he watched him go.
…..
Blaine looked so alive and he couldnt help but smile. He knew Blaine still had a fair way to go but he was becoming a person again and he loved it, the way Blaine smiled and lit up the room. He hoped he could make it a regular thing.
He felt his heart thumping at the thought of him and Blaine being together, cuddling and sleeping together and it felt right.
But Blaine needed time, he needed time to think it over before rushing into it. The thought scared him so he couldnt imagine what it was like for Blaine right now.
He heated up lunch before walking back into the living room handing a plate to Blaine.
"Thanks," Blaine said and he nodded.
"One day slavery will be abolished," he said and Blaine looked at him and gave him a small smile.
"I hope so," Blaine replied.