Kurt POV

After Blaine told me the entire truth about him and Sebastian, ive been admittedly distant. its not for any other reason than i cant get passed the lying. I understand why he did what he did. He was upset that Adam and I were spending a lot of time together. It was a better reaction than his sex spree he had when Cooper died. I know what hes capable of. Sex and violence. Yes hes an amazing man who helps people and has a heart of gold. He takes care of me and always has my best interest at heart. Which is why Im not that mad that the worst thing he did was sleep with Sebastian. Well that wasnt the worst thing. He did get aggressive with a guy at a bar he thought was too close to me. Really I can take care of myself. Theres no need for him to come to my rescue but I love him for it anyway. 

When i think back to that night it gives me chills. Theres no question that Blaine has zero tolerence for others peoples shit. And always stands up for what he believes is right. But this night was a little too much. I know he was going thru the death of his brother by sleeping with every Tom, Dick and Harry he met, i let it slide. And while im being the doting best friend, standing back watching him to make sure he didnt get too drunk or come across someone who can possibly take advatage of him, a guy, a cute guy approaches me at the bar.

"Hey there sexy"

"Hi" i keep it short - bar guys are not really my cup of tea, cute or not.

"Is that your boyfriend youve been watching all night?" 

"If you must know hes my best friend"

"Well he looks like hes taking care of himself, lets get out of here" and as he takes a step foward all i see is Blaines fist jamming right on to his right cheek. 

"WHAT THE HELL?"

Blaine drops this guy with one punch, grabs me and we walk out

"Want to tell me what the hell that was?"

"He was all over you Kurt. Dont argue with me! not now!"

"Im Not - "

"NOT NOW KURT"

i see the anger and hurt in his eyes and i drop it. 

After that night i never questioned his actions. I never questioned why he did what he did. He had a lot going on and there was no way i was going to hold Blaine responsible for the things Angry Blaine did. And that included Sebastian. I alwas thought there was something going on, but i locked it up in a box and left alone. 

Until now - now its back and it has feelings. Feelings that im not 100% sure Blaine is over. I just want to make sure that Im where he wants to be and there are no second thoughts or regrets. 

They did spend a lot of time together. I knew they were close. As much as i hate to admit it, he was part of helping with the grieving. Thru Coopers death and even thru Finns. 

He loves me! i continue to repeat this to myself so i can leave the past where it belongs - in the past.

"Hi Baby" Blaines voice comes from the other room

"Hi" I say with true love in my voice.

"Lets make italian tonight" - Blaines fave

"Oh that sounds nice. I can pick up some wine and it would be perfect" i hear the relaxation in his voice and it makes me relaxed

"Should we invite some friends? Rach? Brody? Andy?" - at this point Rachel has only told me about Sebastian and Andy, she hasnt had the time to talk to Blaine yet, and i feel it would sound like gossip if I told him. If i didnt invite Andy he would question it.

"Sure. You know I got this weird text from Andy the other day saying he needed to speak to me but he wants to do it in person, maybe this is a good time"

"Sure, ill send them all texts"

THe night falls, dinner is done. Simple spaghetti and meatballs with salad and bread sticks. Reminds Blaine of sunday dinner, his mom always made his and Coops fave.

Andy arrives alone with a nice bottle of Vino - no doubt to kiss ass.

"Andy, lets talk in the kitchen before dinners served" Blaine says, everyone is drinking laughing. Im getting to know Rachels new friend Mel, shes an actress, beautiful and charming.

"You needed to talk? Whats up?"

"Well you know I went out with Rach a few weeks ago"

"You and Rach go out a lot" Blaine says joking

"Yea, well, this night was different"

"Come on just spill, youre scaring me"

"I met Sebastian"

"Okay" 

theres a pause with them

"Ohhhh" Blaine responds again

"I hope youre not upset"

"No No. Its fine, hes a good guy. You have my blessing"

"Really? Because i think i may actually like him. Plus were all friends and what if i want to invite him out? or to dinner with us? will that be weird?"

I look over and I see an uneasy look on Blaines face. My stomach falls into knots. I know that face. 

"Andy listen. Im okay with it. You guys should explore whatever it is you have going on. Im happy" he looks up at me and catches me starring. "I have Kurt. Dont worry about me"

Andy takes him into a hug

"Thanx Blaine, you really are awesome"

Blaine grabs his phone out his pocket and does something. I dont know whether its responding to a work email or possibly sending a text to Sebastian. 

We sit and have a wonderful dinner.

Blaine doesnt change behavior so thats good. Sebastians name is mentioned once or twice in conversation, Mel asking hows it going and him glowing saying how wonderful he is. I want to throw up!

I bet now ill have to deal with him. Hell be at parties and dinners and get togethers. I really do hope its over with Blaine because he wouldnt be able to sit around and watch that. I know Blaine and I know if he has feelings, he cant hide them for too long.

Everyone leaves and I clean up.

Blaine is laying in bed reading a book.

I crawl in

"How long did you know?" he asks calmly

"The next day. but i couldnt tell you. Coming from me it would sound like petty gossip. After everything that went on I just kept it to myself. Plus it shouldnt matter who hes with now"

"Youre right, but im glad Andy came to talk to me. We do have a shaky history and would have been awkaward for sure if he just showed up with him so one of out gatherings"

"Youre right. Are we ok?"

"Of course we are baby" he leans over and kisses me

"I love you"

We have very busy schedules but no matter what we keep our Wednesday lunch.

 Today is Tuesday tho. I have some free time and decide to surprise Blaine at work with a slice from his fave pizza joint.   

I walk in to see Sebastian and Blaine in what seems to be an heated discussion.

"Am I interrupting something?" "Nope, i was just leaving - I have to meet Andy for lunch" Sebastian walks out  

"What the FUCK was that about? You have 10 seconds to explain before I assume the worst" 

"Relax Kurt, Please. Its not what you think. I got a complaint from the building and i thought we should talk in person" 

he seems like hes telling the truth ..

I realize then that Blaine isnt the problem. I am. I dont trust him as much as i thought I did.   

I drop the pizza and walk out.  

He follows. 

"Kurt hold up, you believe me right? You know I wouldnt lie to you!" 

"I know" my eyes start to swell from tears "I want to believe you. But I dont think Im over knowing you guys were more than just a one night stand. I need some time. Im gonna stay at the townhouse tonight"  

I walk away and he just stands there. In shock.