Kurt had been practically glued to his chair on Blaine’s side since Blaine was admitted to the ICU. He couldn’t believe how stupid he was. How could he not notice something was off with Blaine earlier? Even in the state of unconsciousness Blaine looked exhausted and as white as a sheet and not to mention the blue tinged lips. Kurt was scared as hell. Cooper and Sebastian were outside together with a few friends. They had been there from the time the doctor gave them news about Blaine’s condition. There were reporters and paparazzi wanting to know about Blaine but Blaine’s big brother and the ex-Warbler had succeed to keep them at bay.

Finn and Rachel were at the condo, watching the kids for him. Everyone was shocked when they learned Blaine had fainted and was unresponsive; especially Darren, Chris and Jess. Darren had been hysterical, pushing everybody away to get to his Dad while Chris and Jess had been wailing ever since. Kurt wanted to comfort his babies but he needed to be with Blaine. It was for his own sanity.

“How is he?” Cooper stepped inside Blaine’s private hospital room with Sebastian in tow.

Kurt wiped the tears from his face. “Nothing’s change.”

Cooper walked over to the bed. He leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on his little brother’s forehead while Sebastian kept his distance, sitting on the chair near the door so he wouldn’t upset Kurt even more. The truth had been revealed to Kurt but it was far more painful to accept and bear than being lied to.

“Kurt, we are sorry for lying to you but… but Blaine made us promise not to tell you anything. He didn’t want you to worry.” Sebastian said softly. It reminded Kurt of the time when he apologized for throwing the slushy at Blaine years ago.

“You guys should have told me.” Kurt reluctantly replied. He didn’t blame them for doing what Blaine wanted them to do but it still hurt. “I could have been there for him.”

Cooper rubbed Kurt’s back, giving him support and comfort. “You are here for him now.”

Kurt swallowed painfully. “But it’s too late. God, Coop, it’s too late…”

Kurt was at a loss. Why did Blaine hide this from him? In sickness and in health — that was one of their vows when they got married. He was there when Blaine was diagnosed with lupus during his senior year in Juilliard. It was Kurt that forced Blaine to get a medical checkup when he constantly had been experiencing joint pain and swelling, and extreme fatigue. When the news broke that Blaine indeed had lupus, Blaine had assured him that nothing was too serious as long as he got the disease under control.

Their live had been consisted of the rows of pill bottles, the endless hospital visits, the numerous puncture marks on both Blaine’s arms for the blood tests and it seemed like it was never going to end and truthfully, it never did.

Then why did this time seem like it was different than the last time?

“Why didn’t you tell me, Blaine? We could have faced this together like we usually did so why did you decide to go through this alone?” Kurt asked the prone figure on the bed with teary eyes.

“There’s just so much you can take.” Sebastian said, his voice tight.

Kurt sobbed. How was he supposed to tell the children about their Daddy? They were too young to face this, it wasn’t fair for them. It wasn’t fair for all of them and it certainly wasn’t fair for Blaine. Blaine didn’t deserve this.

“Did… uh did the doctor tell you anything? Other than he’s currently in… in a coma?” Cooper’s voice was no more than a whisper as he spoke.

“No more than you already know.” Kurt said quietly, rubbing a hand over his face wearily. Everything went spiraling down in a split second. Just a few hours ago he was talking to Blaine and now his husband had slipped into a coma and the doctors weren’t positive he would come around any time soon… or at all. “They said he has a fever and they are trying to lower it. There’s a possibility he has an infection somewhere. They suspected it’s in his lungs.”

“Kurt…” Sebastian merely gaped between Kurt and Blaine.

Kurt contemplated to look at Sebastian but he didn’t want to take his sight off Blaine.

“Blaine and I… we were never together… romantically. He wanted you to think that but it was a part of Blaine’s plan for you to get angry and hate him afterward. He thought the separation would be easier for you if you hated him. But please don’t despise him for what he had done. He thought it was the best for the both of you.” Sebastian dejectedly stated.

Kurt blanched slightly, realizing Blaine had been pretending to be coldhearted in front of him after all this time. “I could never hate him…”

Blaine seemed peaceful lying there but Kurt knew he was fighting for his life. He touched Blaine’s thinning curly dark hair with affection, letting the insentient man know that he still loved him, how much Blaine meant to him. He wouldn’t leave, not even if Blaine forced him to.

“You want something from the cafeteria? Coffee, perhaps?” Cooper asked considerately.

Kurt shook his head. He didn’t want anything. He only wanted for Blaine to wake up.

Sebastian placed a comforting hand on Kurt’s shoulder. “We’ll leave you two alone then.”

Not daring to speak, Kurt just nodded to Cooper and Sebastian and watched them leave, probably heading to the cafeteria to grab something to eat. Once they left, Kurt slowly got up from his chair. He carefully lied on the bed, needing to be closer to Blaine than before. Minding all the wires, he buried his face in the crook of Blaine’s neck.

“Please come back to me.”