I woke up happy the next day. For once, I could actually say that I was excited to go to school. I woke early, so I could spend some time on my outfit. What can I say? I wanted to look good for Kurt. I only knew him for three days and I’m already falling hard. But seriously, how could I not? He was absolutely perfect! He was so beautiful, witty, smart, funny, understanding and most of all; he seems to really care about me.

The only problem is he sees me as charity work. A disabled friend.

I went to my locker as soon as I arrived at school. I was smiling to myself, I was happy for once. I didn’t need to put an act on for my parents, for Abbey, for anyone. I was so happy, that for the first time in years, I let my guard down.

I was suddenly pushed into my locker and I felt my books fly everywhere. I looked up to see Karofsky, the bully from yesterday. “Hey queer, looks like you don’t have lady face here to protect you.” He said before shoving me again. “Oh, and one other thing. Stay away from Hummel!” He warned before he laughed and walked away. As I slid to the floor.

I stared into the distance. The corridor was basically empty. I felt my eyes begin to well with tears. It was going to happen again they pain. The bullying. The scars. How could I kid myself that it was going to be different this time?

I jumped up and collected my books, slammed my locker shut and ran. Ran fast into the bathroom. I locked myself into a cubicle. Where no one could hurt me. I slid down to the floor, my eyes covered by my hands silently crying. My phone suddenly vibrated.

Hey friend arrived at school and I can’t find you! Where are you? I’m at my locker, meet me there? Xx Kurt

I stared at my phone in silence and almost threw it at the wall. It was then I realised how much danger I was putting Kurt in. Sure, I really liked him, but if hanging out with him would put him in more danger then he already was in, I don’t want to be apart of it. I mean, I’m the weird new kid. One, I am a homosexual and two, I am deaf. I cannot hear. I am a freak.

I can’t believe I thought this place was different. I don’t want Karofsky to hurt Kurt because of me. Who knows they may even bully the rest of the Glee club even worse then they already are because they are friends with me.

My phone vibrated once again.

Blaine, I am worried. You usually text me back instantly. I’m in maths now; I have a seat saved for you. Please tell me if you are alright. Xoxo – Kurt

Shit! He genuinely sounds worried! Also class had started. I picked up my stuff and sprinted to my classroom.

I finally reached my classroom, short if breath. I slowly walked up to the teacher and explained I was in the bathroom and I didn’t see the time. She nodded and I sat in the only seat left. Next to Kurt.

I saw him smile widely as I came. “Hi,” he whispered to me. I flashed a quick smile before heading straight into my work. I saw Kurt looking at me confused. I felt so bad to do this to someone so beautiful and pure, but I had to, for his safety.

As I saw the majority of my class leave, I jumped up and joined them on moving to our next classes. As I got there, I just took out the book and begun reading. I saw Kurt slump down next to me. I peered over my book every now and then to see him. All I could see was sadness in his eyes.

Shit, my life has suddenly become so frustrating!

The rest of the day continued in the same manner and I continued to feel completely horrible. At least none of the jocks were attacking him for standing up for me.

I spent the majority of lunch in the same cubicle in the bathroom, crying. I didn’t know what to do.

I checked the time and soon enough I had to go to my locker to get the books for my afternoon classes. I saw Abbey storming down the hallway…This was not good.

“What did you do?” I could tell from her facial expression she was yelling.
“What do you mean?” I asked her, innocently.
“ You know exactly what I mean. One, I searched for you at lunch everywhere and you can’t be found. And two, why were Kurt’s eyes red and puffy as if you broke him? I put one and two together and that equals you did something.” She explained. “It is my fault.” I confessed, in a weak tone, sliding to the floor.

“Hey nerd.” She began, hitting me playfully. “Tell me what happened.” She demanded. I have to admit that she is the tougher sibling. “ I came to my locker and as soon as I got to school that jock, Karofsky began to tease me and shove me. I got really scared because he told me to stay away from Kurt also. And the problem is…I really really really like Kurt. I don’t want him to get hurt because of me. I would feel even worse then I do now I’ve been trying to avoid him all day.” I admitted to her. Once again, the tears began pouring out.

“Sweetie,” she started once I looked up at her. “ I know why you did this, but Kurt wouldn’t like it. He knows who you are and he chooses to hang out with you. This bastard jock doesn’t know the real you. Kurt does. And between you and me, I think Kurt really really really likes you too, Blaine.” I laughed at the last part, knowing she only meant in a friendship way when I longed for more.
“Blaine, the only thing I can tell you to do is to find him and talk about it…and there goes the bell.” She told me. “Promise me you’ll talk to him while you’re in class?” She asked.
“I promise, Abbs.” I told her, truthfully. She smiled back to me.
“Now, go in there and get your man!” And Abbey the goober has returned. She smiled before walking away.

I got up and collected my books and headed to history class. When I got to the room I began to feel so nervous. I felt the blood disappear from my face and my heart race uncontrollably.

I stepped into the classroom and saw the beautiful boy alone. No one from Glee was in this class. He saw me come in and we just stared at each other. His eyes were bloodshot from crying as well as a read nose. I have never felt so awful. I think my heart just broke into two.

I sat down next to him, the classroom only beginning to fill up. “Kurt?” I asked not breaking our eye contact. He nodded in reply. “I’ve acted horribly to you today and it was nothing you did, you’ve been an angel to me.” I began. The classroom was now full. I stopped talking hoping that Kurt would forgive me. Kurt moved closer to me, our arms brushing and looked to the front to pay attention.

I began reading the topic in the textbook, while Kurt was writing down notes. I hope I made progress.

Out of nowhere I saw a piece of paper with Kurt’s writing in front of me.

Blaine, I know we’ve only known each other for a few days, and you may think my reaction was too much. I just really care about you. Will you tell me why though?
Xx Your friend, always. Kurt.

I looked over at him and he was looking over at me, smiling sweetly. I reached for his hand and squeezed it, returning the smile. I could tell he was feeling insecure about himself. I really hated that because to me he was perfect. It was my entire fault.

I picked up my pen and began writing a reply.

Kurt, I can’t even comprehend how sorry I am. Before you arrived at school, I was at my locker when Karofsky paid me a little visit. I’d rather not go through details from our encounter. I was terrified that my past was going to repeat itself once again. I ran into the bathroom, where I was until class. Truthfully, I was crying. It was then I realised the pain and fear I had put you in by just hanging out with you and being your friend. So, I though it would be best if I kept my distance. I felt terrible. School is so different and shit without you. I though I’d make it better but instead I made it worse. You are my best friend. I’ve never had anyone to talk to but my sister, but then you walked into my life and amaze me. I care about you so much. Forgive me? Please? Xxxx Your friend, forever. Blaine.

I handed the paper over to Kurt, who obviously was anxiously waiting what I had written. He read the note quickly, before grabbing my hand and entwining our fingers. He looked up and smiled at me. He seemed to mouth ‘ You’re forgiven.’. I smiled and grabbed onto his hand tighter. Kurt quickly I released my hand and quickly wrote me something. I looked down.

Want to go to the Lima bean this afternoon to talk?

I nodded enthusiastically. He smiled. I spent the afternoon thinking about how idiotic I was and how beautiful and amazing Kurt was. I texted mum, telling her I wouldn’t be home after school. I think she was glad I was going out. Yesterday was the first time I had ever been out with someone from school alone.

After school, we went straight to the Lima bean, ordered our drinks and sat at the same table as the previous day. “So, Blaine.” Kurt started, “I understand why you did what you did. But why didn’t you just talk to me? We could have worked it out.” I felt so guilty, I grabbed his hand and he held onto it tightly.

“Kurt, you have to understand that I’ve never had friends before which makes this situation more difficult. I was terrified of the bullying happening again. I was terrified of what happened in my past happening again.” I began to tell him, rubbing the scar on my chest. “ I can’t tell you what happened yet. Oh, but Kurt, I promise I will one day. I was just trying of involving you because I can’t have you go through any of it.” I admitted.

“Oh, Blaine.” Kurt said with tears streaming down his cheek. “I’m so sorry, Blaine. I’m glad our first fight is over. And hopefully our last” I laughed in agreement.

“But seriously Blaine, if anything like that occurs or if you aren’t feeling your best, you should talk to somebody, if not me.” Kurt told me seriously.
“Thanks, I will. I promise.” I replied to him.
“Good.” He replied.

“Now that day of horror, and to be honest, boredom, is over, tomorrow, hopefully school will be awesome.” I told him laughing. He soon joined me laughing.
“Yeah, as awesome as it gets with our bunch of misfits.” He added. Oh, gosh. His smile seriously lit up the room.

We spent the afternoon vaguely talking about my past and then Kurt cheering me up with his smile. I ended up checking the time around six.

“Oh Kurt, my mum would kill me if I stay late, do you mind if we head off?” I asked sincerely. “Haha, so I’m you’re taxi driver now?” Kurt asked, playfully.
I blushed fiercely, “no no no.” I mumbled.
“ I was kidding, Blaine!”
“Oh.”
“Come on,” He stood up and we went to his car.

The car ride was nice. I simply just watched Kurt drive. He was amazing.

We soon arrived outside my house. “Thanks for everything, Kurt.” I told him.
“No problem.” Kurt replied. Then he did something I never expected him to do. He leaned over and kissed me on the cheek.

His lips felt soft and warm against my skin and I wanted to do nothing more then grab his face and plant my lips on his. But I had to be realistic, I can’t.

I couldn’t get that kiss out of my mind all night. I didn’t think Kurt could get any more perfect. But once again, I was mistaken. He was the most amazing person on this planet.