Two weeks passed. Thanksgiving came and went. The weather turned cold. The New Directions won their Sectionals. Blaine started going to one class a day at the end of the day and then staying to pick up his school work from the other classes.

Kurt saw Blaine, but after Blaine specifically saying "stay away from me," it brought up too many memories of a horrible time gone by. Kurt saw Blaine, but Blaine did not see Kurt. He tucked himself away in corners, ducked into classrooms and bathrooms, and turned himself around to walk in the opposite direction. He knew that if he had more strength he'd walk right up to Blaine and tell him everything. He'd tell him that he's sorry he couldn't obey his wishes to stay away and blurt out that he loves him; that he's always loved him and that Blaine loved him once too; as if confessing his love for Blaine would fix or change everything. It sounded so simple.

But he couldn't do it. Blaine rejected him. What if Kurt confessed everything and Blaine still rejected him? He'd never know if he didn't try, but to try and fail would kill him. Blaine gave Kurt no inclination, as far as he was concerned, that Blaine felt the same way. Kurt was his mentor, not his boyfriend. Not his boyfriend.

The one thing that made him happy was that he was now able to stay after school with his friends and fellow glee club members again. It was nice getting to rehearse with them again.

"Mr. Shoo?" Kurt inquired, raising his hand."

"Yes Kurt?"

"I know this has nothing to do with our lesson this week, it's actually geared more towards last weeks lesson, but Zach's forcing me to do this. May I have the floor?"

"The floor is yours." Mr. Sheuster stepped aside and took a seat with his students. Kurt stood front and center. Zach got up with him and grabbed a guitar.

"I know I've been in a funk lately and I know you all think you know why. But I haven't actually spoken about it. Anyway, in light of Thanksgiving, Zach has challenged me to find something that I'm thankful for and focus on that, instead of the negative. There are many things I'm thankful for, but when I think about memories and what I enjoy doing that helps me take my mind off of things, while at the same time, keeping me focused on happier things, I can only think of one thing that does that. Gardens. I know that sounds silly, but I really enjoy gardening. If you ever seen Finn and I's back yard, you'd know what I'm talking about. Winter makes it hard, right now, but with Spring coming in a few months, it'll bring new life. I look forward to Spring every year. As luck would have it, I happened to find a song that encompassed what gardens are to me in a way. I'd like to sing it for you."

"Actually, he'd like to mope, but I'm forcing him to sing it," Zach smiled as he concluded.

Zach had just started strumming the guitar and the door to the choir room opened. Zach stopped playing and all eyes went to the door. Blaine walked in with Mike entering before him. "Sorry for interrupting," Mike said. "Mr. Shoo. Blaine's going to be sitting and watching today. Is that cool?"

"Yeah. That's definitely cool. Blaine, welcome. Welcome back. We're happy to have you."

Blaine couldn't keep his eyes from wondering over to Kurt, but he was at least able to control his line of vision and kept his eyes looking to the shoes Kurt wore. "Thank you."

"You're just in time. Kurt's singing for us."

Shit. Fuck. Kurt kept swearing in his head. He couldn't believe his luck… or lack thereof. No. Bad. This is very bad. Fuck. FUCK. FUCK.

Blaine took a seat next to Mike and Tina and kept his eyes fixed on the ground.

"Kurt, you and Zach ready?" Mr. Shuester asked.

Kurt looked behind at Zach, pleading to let him off the hook. Zach shook his head and answered for Kurt. "Yep. We're all set." Zach started strumming again.

Kurt turned back to his friends in their chairs and made sure he didn't look at Blaine.

I found you in the garden

Your hair was thick with dirt and

I heard you gently saying

I want you to stay

I found you in the flowers

Your lips were red with wine and

I heard you gently saying

I want you to stay

The song had more relevance than his friends knew. The garden was always Kurt and Blaine's special place. Particularly in the flower section among the rose bushes. He had lost count of how much time they'd spent in his carefully crafted garden. "I want you to stay" was one of the many things they said to each other often. Having once been in a long distance relationship, they said things like that a lot. "I want you to stay. Don't leave yet. I miss you." These were sentences engraved in Kurt's mind forever. Just as important as those sayings, Kurt had grown attached to hearing Blaine ask him "Will you come back tomorrow?" He always heard this before he left each evening after the accident.

Here with me, I want you to be

I want you to stay, darling

Here with me, I want you to be

I want you to stay, darling

I found you in the morning

Your hands were thick with blood and

I heard you gently saying

I want you to stay

Here with me, I want you to be

I want you to stay, darling

Here with me, I want you to be

I want you to stay, darling

While Kurt couldn't look at Blaine, Blaine couldn't take his eyes off Kurt. He thought about how sweet it seemed that Kurt and, who he now knew to be, Zach could sing such a personal song together in front of everyone. Then he went back to feeling jealous because Kurt was singing with, and probably to, his boyfriend. He gulped and looked away again when everyone started clapping. He shook himself from his thoughts. A wave of guilt went through him because Kurt had this effect on him, when Blaine had been dating Sebastian for two weeks now. Sebastian was sweet and very patient. Blaine was convinced that Sebastian was too good to deserve someone who couldn't stop thinking about another guy. Although, more often than not, when Blaine was in Sebastian's presence or even talking to him, Sebastian had this air about him that made Blaine focus only on him and all his feelings for the whole Kurt situation disappeared for the time being.

Zach and Kurt sat next to each other with a girl on the other side of Zach that Blaine thought was either Quinn or Brittany. The blonde hair threw him off, but that wasn't what bothered him. He saw Zach's arm resting on the back of Kurt's chair.

Blaine sat through the entire practice in silence and promptly left with Mike and Tina after practice was done.

"You two still aren't talking, huh?" Rachel asked.

"No and I don't want to talk about it."

"Does he know?"

"Know what?"

"About how you feel?"

"I don't know what he does and doesn't know, but I'm still not talking about it."

"He should know. He needs to know."

"Why? Because it'll effect how he feels now? It'll make him forget that I kept so many secrets from him? Rachel, I believe he said it best two weeks ago when he told me that nothing has changed and nothing will change what happened."

"He said that?"

"Not in so many words, but yes."

"Kurt, I-"

"I don't want to know what you think. You have no idea how to fix this or even what I'm going through, so please, for my sake, leave it alone and just be my friend. Go back to telling me who isn't as talented as you and how much better than everyone else you are."

"That's really mean."

"Sorry, but that's the only way I can get you to listen. If I start talking about you then you'll drop whatever topic it is you were trying to talk about and asserting whatever opinion you had on it. I'm sorry. I don't mean to be mean, but I told you twice that I didn't want to talk about it, but you didn't care."

"You need to find a way to resolve this, Kurt. You're snapping at everyone. We all love you, but you're impatience and anger is making it hard to be around you."

Kurt didn't know how to respond. He didn't want to apologize and didn't want to talk about it. "I gotta go. I'll see you tomorrow." He grabbed his bag and headed out the door.

"Kurt!" a male voice yelled out to him.

Kurt had gone to his locker again one last time and Mike was calling him. He shut his locker door and turned to Mike, giving him his full attention. "What?"

"Who's Sebastian?"

Mike saying that one name made Kurt give him his full attention. "Sebastian? How do you know about him?"

"I was going to drive Blaine home, but this guy named Sebastian was waiting in the parking lot for him. Blaine left with him instead. Do you know who he is?"

Kurt was almost confused. He hadn't known that Sebastian and Blaine spoke, never mind saw each other again after their visit to Dalton. He hadn't had a clue. "Um. Sebastian is a boy at Dalton that Blaine met at the Lima Bean. We all hung out two weeks ago."

"So he's not some random person who Blaine shouldn't be around?" Mike was growing into big brother mode.

"No. Sebastian is fine. He's nice actually." Kurt buttoned up his jacket. "Blaine seems to like him." Kurt remembered how Blaine reacted to Sebastian's attention.

"Yeah I can tell."

That's an odd comment. Kurt looked at Mike abruptly. "What do you mean?"

"Well, when Blaine saw him, his face lit up like a Christmas tree and hugged him immediately. He didn't think twice about accepting a ride from him. He just smiled that goofy smile of his and got in the car."

Kurt narrowed his eyes and his heart broke.

"It's strange really," Mike continued.

"Why?"

"Remember three weeks ago when he was mobbed in the hallway? We brought him into the choir room and he started crying his eyes out. We thought he was remembering something, but then he came out with: Would it make any sense at all to either of you if I said I think I might have feelings for Kurt?"

Kurt held in a gasp. "He said that?"

"Yeah."

"And you're telling me this now, why?"

"He was so passionate about it that we thought he would have told you himself. He didn't?"

"No."

"Kurt, you need to talk to him. If not now, he had feelings for you three weeks ago and that's pretty substantial."

"But he doesn't want to talk to me. He told me to stay away from him."

"Then maybe you should go talk to Sebastian. If Blaine reacts like that to him then maybe Sebastian knows something. You have to try something, Kurt. This goes way beyond him trying to find out about his past. This is about his present and future. I feel like he has a skewed perception of how things are. You can't leave him to think things through in his head right now. He'll believe anything until he's proven wrong."

"I don't know." Kurt shuffled his toe on the tiled floor.

"Kurt! Didn't you hear me? I just said that Blaine has feelings for you. Isn't that what you wanted? What we all were hoping for, for the both of you?"

Kurt kept silent for a long while. Blaine has feelings for me? "Why didn't he say anything?"

"I don't know. Tina and I just assumed he would have. He was supposed to see you after school that day, wasn't he?"

"Yes… then he met Sebastian." That's when a thought hit him. Maybe Blaine was lying about not being interested in Sebastian. Maybe Blaine thought he had feelings for Kurt, but then met Sebastian and realized that he didn't after all, but didn't want to make a big deal out of it. "I have to talk to Sebastian. You said he was taking Blaine home?"

"I guess so. He asked Blaine if he wanted a ride home, so I can only assume that's where he was going."

"He'll probably stay there for a while. I'll call David and see if he knows anything. Maybe I'll go over there later."

"Good. You need to do this, Kurt. Don't chicken out."

When Kurt got to his car, he didn't know if he should go home, call David, or go straight to Dalton. He settled for texting David.

K- Hey. Do you know if Blaine has been spending a lot of time with Sebastian these days?

D- Hey, Dude! Always glad to hear from you. I don't know if they've been hanging out a lot specificly, but Blaine's spent the entire weekend here at Dalton the past two weekends. Sebastian's always been part of the group, so I guess, but I can't recall them ever being alone. But Sebastian is a pretty quiet guy, so I doubt he would have said something anyway.

K- Blaine's been staying there? Who is he staying with?

D- He stayed in my room last weekend, but the weekend before he fell asleep with the rest of us in the Warbler room.

K- So you don't know if there's anything going on with him and Sebastian?

D- Not that I know of. They seem friendly, but it's more like flirting and goofy glances at each other. How come you didn't come with him the past couple weekends? We told him to ask you.

K- He and I aren't talking.

D- What? Why?

K- I kept too many things from him and he told me to stay away from him.

D- Is there anything you want me to do?

K- No. I'm just curious about Sebastian. I guess… if I can't have Blaine, then I want to know he's in good hands. Or at least with someone with good intentions.

D- I know we're not best friends or anything, but seriously, don't talk like that. Blaine is, or was, like a brother to me and I like Sebastian and all, but he's not you. No one is better suited for Blaine than you.

K- Do you think I should talk to Sebastian?

D- Definitely. Want me to talk to him before you? I can give you the details beforehand so nothing's a surprise.

K- No, but thank you.

D- Good luck, Dude.

K- Thanks.