Talking to the Moon

Chapter 5

The TV was still turned on, but no one was watching it.

It was 1 in the morning and Kurt was still awake. He was in his room.

What's that feeling? It's like someone's just kicked me in the stomach. I'm gonna throw up. Who's that Seb, anyway? Doesn't he have a normal name? Seb…. He snorted in the silent room. Anyway, seems like Blaine had fun - or still having. He sighed a huge and sobbed into his pillow. I wish I could fall asleep and then wake up like this never happened. Maybe it'd better if I still were up in the sky and shine like a star. At least, my existence would have more sense than now. Life sucks. Gosh, I wish I could talk to Cailsey now.

The apartment's door opened. Kurt heard that Blaine switched the TV off.

Uh-oh. A message.Blaine pressed the play button and the record started.

"Hey, Blaine it's Seb. I just wanted to thank you for the mind blowing blow job, what you just gave me a few minutes ago. I remembered that you were good at it, but not like that. Anyways, call me when you get back home."

Fuck! Hope Kurt didn't hear that. Wonder, where he is?

Blaine went into his room, but he found it empty. He's probably sleeping by now.

He changed into his PJs, then went to sleep.

Kurt cried himself into sleep three hours later.

Fantastic smell was in the apartment, when Kurt stepped out of his room about 3 in the afternoon.

"Hey." he greeted Blaine quietly. Kurt's voice was husky and his eyes were still a bit puffy from last night.

"Hi." Blaine turned around to be able to see Kurt, but when he saw him, he felt something was not okay. "Are you okay?"

Kurt just nodded shortly. He opened the fridge and was looking for something to eat. He took out the bottle of milk and poured it onto some cereal. After he found a spoon too, he sat down on a chair around the dining table. "What about you?"

Gosh, he heard the message, isn't he? "I could be better." he picked up his cup of coffee and took a seat next to Kurt.

Awkward silent came up what Kurt broke. "How was the dinner?"

"The dinner was okay."

"And the dessert?"

"I didn't ordered any."

"I wasn't talking about ordering it..." Kurt finished his cereal and now he was staring at Blaine. He looked broken and angry. "How could you-" Kurt couldn't finish his question because his voice cracked and tears started to fall out of his eyes.

Blaine reached out towards Kurt, but Kurt pulled down his arms slowly onto the table. "I thought something special was between us." he said on a faltering voice.

"Kurt, let me explain." Blaine said despairingly.

"There's nothing to explain. I thought that you-, that you might be my fate, but it seems like I misunderstood. Sorry, for stealing your time. I think it'd be better for both of us if I'd just go away – or disappear." Kurt stood up and started to walk out of the room.

"Stop it!" Blaine's voice faltered a bit. "There's a lot of thing, which is waiting for to be explained. Please, let me explain it." Kurt turned back to be able to look at him. "Would you please sit back?" Kurt took a seat. He was looking at Blaine with his tearful eyes, expectantly. "Thank you. So, umm... Let me start with the most important thing, what you have to know. I didn't blow him." Blaine tried to stay calm while he was talking to Kurt.

"Then why did he say that?"

"Because he was angry at me." Blaine sighed. "He wanted to get together again, but I told him that I-, that I have a boyfriend." he took a short, shy glance at Kurt then continued. "And he started to ask lots of things about you continuously and I told him, that we're living together." Kurt nodded. "But, because he was drunk, he got angry at me and told me he's gonna call my apartment just to be able to talk to you and say the exactly same thing what he said on my answering machine."

Kurt hummed. "Get together... again?"

"Um, yeah. We used to date for like a month, but we broke up. Gosh, that was four years ago. We used to go to the same school – Dalton – and one day he asked me out. I didn't had a boyfriend before and I really wanted to be with somebody. I liked him, so I said yes. He was nice and sweet at the beginning, but then he got angry for like everything, which was about me. Why do I always sing the solos? Why am I so selfish? Why would Broadway wants you, Blaine? Wake up! One day I had enough of it and I broke up with him. That's all." he took a nervous breath. "God, I thought that we finally could be – maybe not the best but – be friends. He can be such a 'drama queen' sometimes. That was the reason why I was upset yesterday."

"What exactly?"

"Rachel came here, to warn me that Sebastian wants to get together again."

"That was very sweet of her."

"Yes, it was."

"Maybe the timing wasn't." Kurt smiled slightly at Blaine and awkwardly chuckled a little. Blaine was relieved, and smiled back.

"Probably."

They were silent for a while. Blaine was watching Kurt's face. He was waiting for him to start to talk.

"So you didn't do anything yesterday?"

"I did not. Kurt..." he reached out towards Kurt's hand and this time he could seize it. "... you became the most important thing in my life." he was caressing Kurt's hand with his thumb and were looking deeply into the other boy's eyes. "I thought that it'd never happen to me, but then one morning after a sucky birthday I went for a run and I ran into a wonderful, flawless guy. My heart skipped a beat and I felt the time stopped. It was like no one else was in the whole World, except for us. I was afraid of not going to see you again, but then you collapsed into my arms and now look at us. We're living together, we nearly dated and had some... fun. This argue is only made me realize even more, what I always thought. I need you in my life, Kurt. I-" he closed his eyes and tried to stay calm. Come on, Blaine. Courage! "I love you."

"You …" Kurt cleared his throat and continued quietly. "… love me?" Oh my god! I can't believe it. Please, tell me I heard it right!

"With my whole heart, Kurt." Kurt's skin started to glare, while a smile appeared on his face.

Kurt locked Blaine into a tight embrace. "I love you too!" he answered happily. Gosh, I'm going to cry again, but this time because I'm so happy. He sniffed a little, but he still hadn't released Blaine from the embrace.

"Are you crying?" Blaine pulled back a bit, but he didn't let go of Kurt's hold.

"Because I'm so happy." he sniffed again and chuckled.

"You're adorable." Blaine smiled at Kurt.

"Oh, stop it!" Kurt was blushing and still glaring slightly.

"Why would I? It's true. You're the-, most adorable-, and beautiful-, thing-, I've ever-, seen." Blaine gave short kisses down on Kurt's neck between the words.

Kurt moaned a little and started to breath quicker than the normal. "Do you have any plans for tonight?" he asked Blaine.

"I gotta work tonight again, but-" he gave a kiss on Kurt's lips. "-if your leg's gonna be fine tomorrow, we could go out – if you want to, of course."

"Ooh, I'd love that. My leg's better than it was yesterday. And I try not to step under any vehicle this time." He chuckled, but Blaine just gave him a worried look.

"Please."

"I'll try my best. You know what? I'm just gonna stay in the apartment and wait for you."

"Best idea, ever." He grinned at Kurt. "But I gotta go now." He gave another kiss to Kurt. "Love you." He said and smiled. I still can't believe, that this beautiful guy is in love with me. It just can't be real. Why does he have to work?

"I love you too." He smiled back at Blaine. "Break a leg, tonight." He let go of the embrace but Blaine reached after his hand and grabbed it.

"You can come, if you want to…" he was looking at Kurt expectantly.

"I'd love to." Kurt eyes were sparkling.

Blaine squealed.

"But I dunno what could I wear." Kurt continued. "And I should take a shower, too."

"Okay. Go into the bathroom, then and I'm gonna put some clothes on your bed during it, okay?"

"Okay." Kurt took a long breath.

"I really gotta go now. Do you know how to get there?"

"Yes, I remember."

"Perfect. See you there, then. Love you."

"Love you too." Another short kiss and Blaine left.

I can't wait to see you again, love.

"Blaine Anderson, you seem to be over the moon." Lauren greeted Blaine.

"Because I am exactly over the moon." Lauren was trying to figure out what was on Blaine's mind. "I just told Kurt, that I'm in love with him." he said.

Lauren put her palms on her mouth and took a breath, but didn't let it out. "What did he said?" Blaine was still smiling at her like an idiot. "Does he-?" Blaine nodded proudly. "OHMYGOD! I'm so happy for you, Blaine!" Lauren locked him into a squeezing hug.

"God, let me breath." Blaine said after a minute of hugging. "He's coming here tonight, again."

"That's amazing. Hope he's going to make it easier than last time."

"Yeah, me too. We'd talked about it and he promised he's going to be way more careful this time."

"Good boy."

Blaine just grinned at her but his smile disapperared immediately.

"Hey." Sebastian greeted them cheerfully.

"Hi." Lauren greeted and asked enthusiastically. "Have you heard the news?"

"What news?" he asked back.

"That Bl-" but the words frozed into Lauren when she saw Blaine's facial expression. He was mouthing a 'no' to Lauren. "That Rachel's already here?" Lauren said suddenly, anxiously, because now she didn't want to mess Blaine's things up.

Sebastian seemed surprised, but they both knew that he didn't satisfied with the answer. "Uh-huh. Big thing... Where is she now?"

"I don't know."

"What if she left the building?"

"Why would she do that?"

"Why don't you just leave us alone?" Sebastian asked on a peremptory voice.

Lauren was just about to snap back something to Sebastian, but Blaine hushed her. "It's okay. Go and find Rachel." Blaine didn't take his glance off of Sebastian.

Lauren was mumbling curses to herself when she left.

"Did you get my voice mail?" Sebastian asked proudly.

"I thought you finally understood what I was trying to explain you. Why did you have to do that?

"I already told you. It was the biggest mistake in my life, when I let you walk out of it in that way."

"I think it was the best thing, what ever could happened to me. You were mean to me and were being jealous almost all the time. I don't say that I always had a hard time with you..." Sebastian wanted to laugh at the word 'hard', but Blaine cut him. "Come on! I'm trying to talk to you, but you can't be serious."

"Alright, fine. Sorry. Keep going." he cleared his throat, looked at Blaine and tried to be serious.

"So, umm... Yeah. I liked you, we had fun, but that's over. We still could have fun and we still can like each other, but not in the way that we used to four years ago." he took a huge breath. "I wanna be friends with you. We work together and see each other almost everyday and it'd be great if we could get along." and if I didn't had the urge to kill you every single fucking moment, like now. "Probably we won't be the best friends, but we could give it a try, at least. Can't you just grow up and try to co-operate with me?"

"Alright." Sebastian sighed and looked at Blaine with his green eyes. "So how's Kirk?"

"Kurt."

"Whatever."

"Good. He's coming tonight again, to see the play. He really liked it last time."

"He was there once? When?"

"Last time."

"Uh-huh. Did he liked my Baby John?"

"I don't know. He said he liked the whole play."

"Where is he going to sit?"

"Find the most gorgeous guy, what you've ever seen."

"Lovesick puppy..." Sebastian said and sighed a huge. "Time for a little rehearsal before the show. C'mon."

"Okay."

Kurt was talking about the play enthusiastically while he and Blaine were sitting in a cab on their way back home.

"How can you be this perfect?" Kurt finished his babbling with this question and sighed.

"I'm am not perfect." Blaine was blushing.

"Yes, you are." he gave a short kiss on Blaine's lips on the backseat. "You are perfect to me."

"I love you. It's so good that I can finally say that to you without any fear."

"What kind of fear?"

"The fear of rejection. That you're going to walk out of my life and I'm never going to see you again."

Kurt put Blaine's hand between his hands and looked into the other boy's eyes. "You're never going to lose me. I love you."

Blaine mouthed back a 'love you too' and gave another short kiss to his boyfriend.

On the next day Kurt was getting ready for they date with Blaine.

I can't believe we're finally going on a date tonight. I hope he's going to arrive home safely. Okay, maybe I was a bit naughty when I sneaked out today to get some clothes – hope I'll learn someday how is it going in real life, until then I'm just gonna do that on my way – even if I promised him I'm going to stay in the apartment all day, but I just couldn't do anything and I wanted to look dashing on our first date. God, I'm so happy. Come home, love. I'm done.

The TV was turned on and Jamie Oliver was babbling about delicious foods in it. I'm going to ask him, or Elisa, to buy some food – maybe tomorrow – and I'm going to figure out how to make this... Spaghetti Carbonara.

Kurt took a pen and a paper and wrote down the ingredients.

The front door cracked open and Blaine stepped inside of the apartment. When he saw Kurt his mouth went into a wide smile and he handed a bouquet of flowers towards Kurt.

"These are for you."

"Oh my God! These are wonderful. Thank you." he gave a kiss on the corner of Blaine's mouth.

"You're very welcome." he was eyeing Kurt. "Gosh, you look stunning."

"You too." Kurt was blushing. "So dapper. I love it."

"Thank you." Blaine was blushing a bit too. "Ready for our first date?"

"I am." Blaine held his arm out towards Kurt, who gladly accepted it, and they went out of the apartment.

To be continued...