My plan to make sure nobody knew my secret was the following. (I written it in chronological order in number's 1-3 because I like order and professionalism)

1. Tell Grace and Finn my plan in case they tell

2. change my clothing (because Grace says that people can tell that I'm not exactly your average straight guy from the flamboyant things I wear)

3. make Grace my girlfriend (requires a lot of work)

I think that should do it, maybe the forth would be "not to kiss boy's" but that was kind of a given. I made a note of them in my red notebook that was $2 from a market my dad went to in Europe for my parents honey moon. In the 10 years they were together none of them had used it so when my mother died from a car accident on the 7th January, my dad gave that notebook to me. I treasured that note book for my mum, because it still smelled like her and I knew she would be upset if I ruined it. She got mad at me for ruining things, but she would always realize it wasn't anything I could help.

When I was an infant I use to get very confused sometimes and would scream at my parents for little things that would annoy me, I don't remember this but I would thrash around and knock items over and they would break sometimes. Mother was especially upset when I broke her favorite amaranth pink vase in the front room at our first home. It was a gift from my great grand mother. Whom is dead. Most of my family is dead; my mom, grandparents and great grandparents and I've got two aunts and one uncle left from 5 aunties and 2 uncles. That is because my mother and father were both the younger siblings in my family by a great deal so my aunts and uncles were a lot older than them.

I don't want to die, I feel that life is a gift and no matter what you choose to do with it, you have to make it the best you can. I don't believe in religion so I don't think we ever meet in heaven or get reincarnated into a rat or an owl. I prefer science because I can see proof rather than books that were written years after the incidents happened. This means that the facts may be unreliable and lies. And I don't like lies. So that's why you should spend more time with the ones you love, because it might be the only chance you get.

"Kurt, come on we have lunch" Grace stood in front of me at my desk. I was sat next to a ginger haired boy who had a dopey look on his face and seemed to have not used any deodorant or soap this morning. I looked up at the clock at it exactly 13:21.56 which meant that I'd not realized that it was the beginning of lunch and most of the class had left by now. Grace stood smiling down at me and her hand was on my desk with her palm facing up. This meant she wanted to hold my hand. So I did.

"Where do you want to sit for lunch Kurt?" Grace asked once we walked into the busy hallway. I shrugged because I didn't feel like talking and Grace told me that shrugging meant "I don't know" or "I don't mind". We walked through the hallways and down stairs until we reached a tree near 1,000 benches all in lines surrounding a football pitch. I like football because I like kicking things, and my dad likes playing football with me because he likes to bond with me. I like to 'bond' with my dad because I love him and he loves me. I have fun when me and dad go to the movies or build a car, especially when we go really early to the cinema and hardly any one else is in the cinema. It feels like we are the only two people in the world, and I love it.

"The floor's wet" I state simply. I look to the white benches and see others sitting further away on one of them. "Shall we sit there?" I ask pointing to the bleachers.

"Sure"

I like sitting on these chairs because they are nice and white, and I like white because it reminds me of clouds and my teddy Beth. My mom had it as a little girl and it was a white teddy bear with a red spotty bow tie. I used to look at it when i was in mother's room because she put it on the highest shelves with all her jewelry and I longed for when I could hold it. In my mom's Will it stated that the teddy bear was mine and I was thrilled. I keep it on me all the time so right now it's in my bag in one of the zipped up pocket's. If I'm ever without it I can't talk to anyone because Beth is my voice and she always needs to be with me.

"Look, it's the cheerleaders" Grace exclaimed when a group of 16 girls wearing same cheer leading uniforms can running enthusiastically out of the school and on to the football pitch. They all looked happy and fresh faced and it made me smile.

"They look so happy" I thought out loud and Grace said she agreed with me. She also told me how she wanted to be a cheerio, which is what they call themselves. But she couldn't because she wasn't popular enough. I was upset then because Grace said she wasn't popular, which I thought wasn't true since she is so nice to me and everyone else that nobody should dislike her. She just snorted when I said that and told me that in this school thing's were a little different.

"HEY YOU!, WHAT'S your name?!" A Latino looking girl asked as she came running up to us, she started off shouting but as she came nearer she lowered her voice since she was panting slightly. She raised her left eye brow and I didn't know what that meant. So I panicked a little and looked away.

"Um...hello, you boy, what's your name?" The girl repeated, I didn't want her to say it again so I looked up.

"Kurt" I stated simply, hoping that she would be content with that and leave, but she didn't. She climbed up the bleachers to the one me and Grace was sitting at and stood in front of us.

"You're new, I've not seen you before" The girl said and I nodded, even though it was a hysterical question which meant the person already knew the answer so you didn't really need to tell them. She then looked at me closely and her eyes raked up and down my body, I knew that she was "checking me out" so I got self-conscious and worried.

"Hey, you're hot. We should totes go out. What do you say new boy, Tonight six O'clock breadstix?" She asked and I felt a mixture of panic and relief, If me and this girl went out on a date I didn't need to go on one with Grace. Who was now looking at me with bulging eyes.

"I...I...um..yes?" I stuttered "but what's your name?" I felt stupid for asking that but I really didn't know.

"Santana, Santana Lopez" She purred and then stalked off back onto the field and to her cheer leading friends. At my left side I heard Grace loudly clear her throat which meant she wanted to talk to me. I knew that it wasn't going to be good.

"Kurt, you just agreed to go out on a date with a girl and you're gay!" She snapped so I knew she was mad, and just to confirm my suspicion she then said "And yes Kurt, I am confused and slightly annoyed you didn't think about it properly" This made me mad with myself when she said that I didn't think about it properly like I should have done.

"Grace I am so sorry and I know I shouldn't pretend and hide but I can't deal with the stuff they put Blaine through this morning because he's gay" I gushed because I felt so desperate to get it all out at once, not even thinking about the repercussions.

"I can't believe I'm saying this but I understand and I promise not to tell anyone."

"What, really?!" I exclaimed

"Yes Kurt, I can't expect you to allow people to push you around and take it freely with your...condition" She said and I felt a little piece of me break. I hate it when she brings that sort of thing up. As my friend she was never supposed to bring it up.

"Thank you"

Little did they know but a certain cheer leading coach with amazingly amazing hearing abilities was still standing out on the pitch listening to their conversation.

"Hey Kurt, are you coming to glee tonight, Finn say's you're pretty damn good" I hear someone behind me say. I turn around and see Blaine standing there in a different outfit than earlier looking like an excited puppy dog.

"I can't, I've got a date tonight with Santana" I say and I see his face drop suddenly and I feel incredibly guilty for making him feel sad. Then I remember it's only until 6 and I can get ready for a date in an hour at least.
"Actually yes, I can go" I see the smile reaper but it's not as big as the one before. He nods slowly and turns around and starts to walk down the hall so I follow him cautiously.

I notice him turning into a music room, waving slightly to make me come in too. As I walk in I see 13 other kids already sitting in odd seats in the room and I am happy to see Santana sitting in the far corner giving me a small smile. I smile back and walk to sit next to her. I see Blaine in the corner or my eye with two eyebrows raised looking at Santana and me. I ignore it and sit down next to her and another boy who looks pretty intimidating because of his size.

Everyone seems to be talking to each other in little groups for a while and I don't pay much attention to what they're saying. After about 3 minutes I hear my ringtone for Grace come from my left pocket and I quickly see that she has sent me a text.

to Kurt

From Grace

Where are you? :L confused

I begin to feel a little selfish when I first read her message, I promised her I would meet up with her before the end of school. I didn't forget because I never forget anything, I just simply had other arrangements that take place at the same time.

to Grace

From Kurt

In the music room 601, glee club is about to start, please find me! :L worried

I click send and as soon as I do a man around 34 comes striding in with 6 various boxes in his arms. He seems quite familiar and I realize he is the glee club director whom I saw briefly on the way to second period. He was talking to a blonde haired women and smiling, his smile was very big so I knew he was very happy. He was wearing what he's wearing now but his tie is slightly looser. He's now risen both eye brows and his eyes and very wide and staring at me, but I'm not sure what this means and I wish Grace was here to tell me.

"Oh, hello. Are you thinking to join glee club?" The man asked me and his looks seem unreadable to me and I feel slightly sick and worried. My throat's dry and scratchy so I just nod as a reply. "Well that's great, can I ask you to audition today or later this week?" He says and I shrug because everyone is now staring at me and I hate it. I want to get up off my seat and run away but as I think this Grace comes into the room and I feel automatically more relaxed. I see that Finn is right behind her and I smile to him because I feel happy that he is also there.

"Kurt, there you are. I didn't know where you were, you scared me!" I hear her say and I'm not sure if she's annoyed or relieved because she doesn't say or give me any sign. I see that now people are looking between myself and Grace. I still don't like it.

"I like singing and music, please could I join the new directions?" I ask.

"Yes, of course Kurt. If that's your name" The glee club director says.

"Kurt Hummel is my name and this is Grace Downy" I say

"Hey guys, this is my step brother whose just transferred here, he can sing like...amazingly" Finn says as he sits down next to me. So now I'm next to Santana and Finn. I look across at Grace and I want so badly to push Santana away so Grace can be near me. But I don't because I don't want to touch her.

"I don't want to sing today, can I sing tomorrow at 5:30 please, for my audition. Could Grace sing with me too please?" I ask looking at Grace and then at the director of glee club. Whom is now smiling. I guess he is happy that I can audition but I can't be sure.

"That would be wonderful Kurt, now Santana why don't you start us off. You said earlier you had something you wanted to say" He hear him say averting his eyes over to Santana who is smiling and raising her eyebrow. She nods and moves off the chair with two blond girls following her. This means that I don't need to sit next to them, so I stand up and move to sit down on Finn's other side where Grace has a chair available to sit at. She sits down and I start with all my questions.

"why was everyone staring?"

"Because you're new and they're interested in you"

"What is Santana feeling, her smile was different to the glee club directors"

"She is smug, you know what that means don't you?" I nod. I have other questions but I want to watch Santana sing her song. So I end our whispered conversation and watch as Santana whispers something to the 5 band members that quickly sort out there instruments to suit the song. The opening bars sound and I know the song completely.

Hey hey, you you, I don't like your girlfriend

No way, no way, I think you need a new one

Hey hey, you you, I could be your girlfriend

Santana stood in the middle of the two blonde girls who stood 30 centimeters back from Santana. They both sung the harmonies and sounded amazing.

Hey hey, you you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it's not a secret

Hey hey, you you, I want to be your girlfriend

You're so fine, I want you mine, you're so delicious

I think about you all the time, you're so addictive

Don't you know what I can do to make you feel alright?

I knew that Santana was singing the song to me because she was staring right at me and so was the two back up singers.

Don't pretend, I think you know I'm damn precious

And hell yeah I'm the mother fucking princess

I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right

She's like so whatever

You can do so much better

I think we should get together now

And that's what everyone's talking about

Hey hey, you you, I don't like your girlfriend

No way no way, I think you need a new one

Hey hey, you you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey hey, you you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it's not a secret

Hey hey, you you, I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me

And even when you look away I know you think of me

I know you talk about me all the time again and again

So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear

Better yet, make your girlfriend disappear

I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again

'Cause she's like so whatever

And you can do so much better

I think we should get together now

And that's what everyone's talking about

Hey hey, you you, I don't like your girlfriend

No way, no way, I think you need a new one

Hey hey, you you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey hey, you you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it's not a secret

Hey hey, you you, I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger

'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better

There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?

She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger

'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better

There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?

She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?

Hey hey, you you, I don't like your girlfriend

No way, no way, I think you need a new one

Hey hey, you you, I could be your girlfriend(No way, no way)

One of the blond girls was smiling at me and she looked really pretty. I could detect her voice and I liked it a lot. She seemed lovely

Hey hey, you you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it's not a secret

Hey hey, you you, I want to be your girlfriend(No way, no way)

Hey hey, you you, I don't like your girlfriend

No way, no way, I think you need a new one

Hey hey, you you, I could be your girlfriend(No way, no way)

Hey hey, you you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it's not a secret

Hey hey, you you, I want to be your girlfriend(No way, no way, hey hey!)

When the song finished I clapped and I went up to the smiling blond girl. "Hi, I'm Kurt"

"I'm Brittany...you're pretty" She said and we smiled at each other before Santana interrupted us.

"Did you like my song Kurt?" She asked and I nodded because she had a nice voice. I didn't get what she was singing about but I liked the tune.

There was another song that Finn sung with his girlfriend that I liked. After that performance the door to the choir room swung open and two people came walking in. One was in a cheer leading uniform and the other in a track suit. The elder one in the track suit pointed to me.

"You, Kurt Hummel. In my office now!"