“So I'm a little confused as to how all this started to be honest,” Blaine said after they had finished cleaning up the endless feathers. They'd have to pay for those pillows misfortune too when they left. Kurt grinned at him “Well, while you were taking your time to get here, Evan suggested that they'd buy the food as an apology for their reactions, as they said they acted out of loyalty to you and they hadn't meant to hurt my feelings, Evan felt bad in particular for saying that they should suspend me.

I told them that there was no way I'd be able to eat all that food; me, Jeff and Nick were already watching the show by the time they got here so we asked them to join us, I don't think they even liked the show but they didn't want to appear too rude and say no I guess; Your friends are really nice Blaine,”

“No, they don't normally watch fashion shows so I'm impressed they managed to last an entire 4 episodes. I'm glad you get along with them,” Blaine said being serious as he threw more feathers into plastic bags when Julian spoke up “What took you so long anyway Blaine? I mean even with the car, public transport takes about the same amount of time.”

“I missed the first train,” Blaine answered “And I kind of ran into someone, well more of I think she was following me, but I could be wrong,”

Kurt looked intrigued as he raised a delicate eyebrow at the word ‘she'. Blaine took his hand and went to pull him to his room. “Guys I need to talk to Kurt for a bit,”

“Sure, I bet talking is all you'll be doing,”

WHACK

“KURT! That was uncalled for! The pillow fight ended 2 hours ago!” Jeff didn't look happy as Blaine laughed when Kurt smirked, satisfaction all over his face “Oh I didn't know pillow fights had rules, sorry Jeff,”

“You're not sorry,” Jeff muttered but obviously not too annoyed as he smiled back throwing the pillow away so that it couldn't do any more physical damage. Kurt grinned “No I'm not really,”

“The other guys could have stayed to help us clean this mess,” Sebastian mumbled who was picking up scrunched up serviettes, and the empty paper plates as Nick rolled his eyes “Well they were smart not to be the ones to have started this pillow fight in the first place,”

“He has a point Bas,” Blaine agreed. “Besides, the other guys are heading to the music shop to get some songs for us to practise tonight, we don't have much longer to practise before we have to sing and we can't be sight-seeing all the time, they should be back in a few hours time,” Blaine said as he was walking Kurt into his bedroom.

“Well technically you started it Blaine,” Kurt defended Sebastian who nodded in agreement “Now what did you want to talk about?”

Blaine walked up to Kurt who was standing near the hallway and pulled along his arm towards his room “Come with me, and I'll explain, we won't be long” He said to the others as Kurt was trailing behind.

Kurt followed feeling anxious and nervous as to why Blaine seemed so preoccupied in his thoughts as they sat down on the bed after Blaine closed the door making Kurt feel a little self-conscious all of a sudden at the issue of privacy.

“I uh…I just want you to know that although I'm comfortable with kissing and obviously I want to make out with you, and I'm fine with getting to second base; I'm not ready for…well I'm not ready to get too intimate if you know what I mean, I don't think I could have se….I don't think I could do it yet, I'm not ready for that ..”

Kurt rambled as Blaine stared at him wide eyed  he added feeling confused as to why Blaine's looking at him like that “I mean not that we were going to do that in the first place! I just um… I just wanted to mention it, get it out there,” and sat down on the bed so that their knees were touching. He grabbed Kurt's hand and held it between them on the bed “Kurt, this isn't about having sex, and frankly I'm not ready for it either,”

“You mean you haven't done it before?” Kurt asked gently as Blaine shook his head “No, I'm a virgin Kurt,”

“Oh,”

“Oh? As in…”

“Oh as in I'm a virgin too,” Kurt replied giving him a shy smile. “But we can still…make out right? Even though I'm not ready for well THAT yet, I still enjoy touching you, and when you touch me, I…it feels amazing Blaine, you're amazing,”

“I think I'd go insane if I couldn't make out with you, it's already hard enough not to touch you, and I think you're the one that's amazing,” Blaine made a point to reach out and stroke the bare skin that had been expose with a bit of Kurt's t-shirt pulled up revealing the skin probably from the previous pillow fight fiasco “And you're gorgeous,”

Kurt's breath caught as he looked down at Blaine's fingers lingering on his skin and whispered “Well why don't you touch me?” He went to kiss Blaine. Blaine returned it but as it was about to get heated he pulled back holding Kurt's shoulders firmly to keep their distance and leaning their foreheads together “We got plenty of time for this later, right now I need to talk to you about something,”

Kurt groaned “It can wait,” He went to kiss Blaine again but Blaine held him back with his arms outstretched. “Kurt…” He warned, stroking up and down Kurt's right side of the stomach through the thin material of his t-shirt. “We can't not yet,”

“Fine, what's so much more important than spending time together?” Blaine chose to ignore Kurt's tone of annoyance and decided it was important to discuss this if they were to go to Nationals with the right mind set.

“It's about Rachel…”

Kurt huffed annoyed as he stood up away from Blaine's light touches “Well what if I don't want to talk about her? She's loud , she's ignorant and she's a cold hearted witch with horrible fashion sense, you didn't hear what she said to me Blaine, ”

Blaine couldn't help but chuckle at Kurt's adorable idea of trying to pout. It just made him sexier when he got angry and he said so to Kurt who looked deflated by that response.

“I know Kurt, but she told me when I saw her on the train. She was the one I mentioned earlier about running into someone. She really wanted to apologise you know, but then she backed out. I think she was afraid that you wouldn't accept it or something, or perhaps she didn't know how to go through with it…I don't know, I still think she should have made an effort to apologise,”

“Of course she didn't, I'm not starring in the Rachel Berry show, I'm just one of those ‘extra's' hanging in the background scenes, and Rachel Berry doesn't know the meaning of saying sorry” Kurt told dramatically letting go of Blaine's hand to wave his own hands to indicate the mockery of the sentence.

Blaine cleared his throat and seemed determined to explain what was on his mind “Maybe she hasn't been too aware of what's been going on…”

“No she has not, and why should I have to tell her what's going on in my life? I don't want to talk about her anymore Blaine, can you just drop the subject? She thinks I should be used to being a faggot…” Kurt's voice was harsher than it was meant to be as Blaine said “Don't say that word, don't call yourself that,” but Kurt could feel the pressure of his rage growing against his ribs and he didn't want Blaine to see that side of him, but if he continued to pressure the topic about his past than he might not be able to contain himself.

“She doesn't think that,” Blaine disagreed and went to comfort Kurt but Kurt stood up angrily and said with his voice higher than expected “That's what she told me Blaine! She said and I quote ‘You should be used to the word by now' Is that what you think Blaine? Do you think I should be used to torments from buzzards- like my feelings don't matter?”

“Of course not, I never said that! Of course you matter Kurt, stop putting words into my mouth, you know I care about you, and you know I think what she did was wrong,”

“But I don't get why you still stick up for her…” Kurt's determination to think everybody was against him was getting on Blaine's nerves as he spoke struggling to maintain control “I'm not! I told her that she was selfish Kurt, I told her it wasn't you that was selfish it was her, I am not taking sides here, I just want to help make things right,”

“You can't just make things right by trying to be the peacemaker! Newsflash Blaine, the world isn't like that, and I don't want to make amends with her, I can't make amends with somebody who thinks so little of me, or doesn't care to see my point of view,”

“No of course the world isn't like that! You just run away the moment something gets scary, Kurt are you going to run away for the rest of your life? Every time something becomes too difficult to handle?!  Call them out! Confront them! Stop leaving when something becomes too scary to face or you'll never make it in this life!”

There was a loud noise of disapproval coming from Sebastian and both boys finally realised Nick, Jeff and Sebastian standing in the doorway with concerned expressions “We heard you both shouting, um we didn't mean to interrupt” Jeff said quietly as Blaine and Kurt continued to stare.. “But um the guys are on their  way back from the music store,”

“You weren't, I was just leaving,” Kurt added about to turn to the door but Blaine moved towards him looking agitated and suddenly full of regret. “Kurt I..”

Kurt pushed past Blaine not allowing him to finish what he was going to say, he ignored the look Jeff and Sebastian was giving and him of concern but before he fully walked out, he quickly faced them debating on what to say “I appreciate what you all have done for me, and I will repay you all when I can. Maybe I am a coward Blaine, maybe running away is the easy way out, but at least I'll be me, I can't be me if people don't accept me for who I am,” At that Kurt left the hotel with Blaine calling out after him “Kurt I didn't mean it like that!” He stood there dazed for a moment as to what had just happened.

A little warmth, a few burrowed clothes and a spare room has allowed Kurt to feel tranquil, and more at peace with the world, but now with what Kurt had just heard from Blaine, he will probably become less and less so trusting with those around him, and Blaine worried his bottom lip as he ran after him “Kurt!” But Kurt was fast.

He had gone from out of his sight, and he didn't know which road he had taken “Kurt!!”

He desparately called out but there was only silence surrounded by the New York traffic “I'm sorry!” He shouted and fell onto his knees “I'm sorry,” He whispered.

The boys found him in an inconsolable position wandering down the street trying to figure out which way Kurt had gone but debated on leaving incase Kurt decided to come back.

They helped their friend back inside soothing him as they all walked back into their rooms again. Wes was in the lobby when he spotted him he waved them over “There you all are! Me and David found a bunch of songs we cou – Blaine? What's wrong?”

“Kurt's gone,” Jeff said for Blaine who simply walked passed them in silence to go up to his room.

“They got into a fight about Rachel, Blaine said things he didn't mean and Kurt left,” Nick added as David asked what happened.

“Christ, could things get any worse?” David asked as Julian approached them “Yes it can, guys the weather says on here that New York is to embrace a heavy storm tonight, so expect delays in flights and try not to go out anywhere if possible,”

Julian had been checking the weather for the upcoming week wondering what it'd be like for when they do have the competition.

“Do you think they'll cancel the competition?”

“How long do you think the storm will last?” Sebastian question

“Not sure, but if it's as bad as they predict, than yes, I think they'll cancel the competition,”

“Dad?”

It was so cold outside. It had been cold all week, some worse than others, but in the room at the hotel he hadn't expected it to be this cold when he just left.

He had Blaine's scarf on and he wrapped it tighter around him to stop himself shivering.

“Kurt! Why are you ringing at this time of night? Oh it's so good to hear from you, how are you son? Carole!! Kurt's on the phone” Kurt could hear voices on the other end and he smiled as he held the street phone in his hand. He used the $5 he had to call his dad.

Kurt had walked in a stupor unsure of where his future path was going. All he could think of was Blaine's words

‘Call them out! Confront them! Stop leaving when something becomes too scary to face or you'll never make it in this life!' Why was he running away from home anymore? Now that he knew his dad was sorry for what he did…why was he still here? That's when it hit him. Again Blaine's voiced popped in his mind.. ‘You have options Kurt,'

“I wanna come home dad. I'm so sorry for everything, I'm so sorry,”

“Hey hey…calm down, you have no reason to apologise, I understand why you ran away kiddo, we talked about this remember? What happened Kurt? Weren't you going to sing with your boyfriend?”

“Dad I don't have long to talk, I'm using a pay phone, but I wanna go home, I miss you,” He suddenly felt like a 5 year old waiting for his daddy in daycare.

“I miss you too. Kurt, you sound upset, I won't pry, how about I come fly down there tonight, and we stay in a hotel for a couple of days? It'll take me a few hours before I get there, and then we can at least watch Finn perform tomorrow, is that okay?”

Kurt did feel bad for the way things left of with Finn, and he suddenly for such longing to be the Kurt he was before coming to New York. It also meant that'd give Kurt time before he had to face Blaine again… which was probably not a bad thing.

“Okay, yeah, that sounds like a good plan, dad?”

“Yeah kid?”

“I love you dad,”

He heard his dad make a strangling choking sound.

“I love you too Kurt,”

Blaine was fiddling with the food on his plate which his friends had forced him to sit down and eat, to stop moaning in his room when his ears listened to what was being said on the news in their living room. Someone had left the TV on while they ate in the kitchen that was connected.

“A massive, wind-whipped blizzard slammed into the U.S. Northeast on Monday, creating havoc for more than 60 million people and forcing New York City to shut down on a scale not seen since Superstorm Sandy devastated the region in 2012.

Blaine moved from the kitchen table to the living room ignoring his friends calling his name as he glued his eyes to the Television.

Officials are warning that the storm could dump as much as 3 feet (90 cm) of snow on the region.

New York, New Jersey, Connecticut, Rhode Island and Massachusetts declared states of emergencies and people are urged to stay at home with transit systems, including the New York City subway, suspending services and roadways closed amid white-out conditions.

He grabbed the remote and turned it up louder causing the others to come into the room so they could also listen.

The National Weather Service state a blizzard warning from New Jersey to Maine, with conditions worsening overnight and wind gusting to over 50 mph (80 kph) in the New York City area. Coastal flood warnings are being issued, with tides in the New York metro area expected to be as much 3 feet higher than normal early Tuesday morning.

While New Yorks subway system has shut down ahead of major tropical storms, such as 2012s devastating Superstorm Sandy, transit officials said this was the first time they had canceled service solely due to snow.

New York Governor Andrew Cuomo announced a travel ban for all but emergency vehicles on every road in 13 counties in southern New York state, including New York City, suburban Westchester and Long Island, with the threat of a $300 fine for violators.
Blaine's heart pounded inside his chest as he thought of only one thing.

Kurt was outside. It was a warning for what was to come.

“Blaine where the hell do you think you're going at 11 O Clock at night, aren't you paying any attention at all to what the news is saying?”

“I have to find Kurt! He's out there in that! I can't just sit here knowing he's not safe. I'm going to find him even if I get stuck out there as well, he's not going to be alone in this,”

“Let me come with you,” Evan offered grabbing his jacket too. The others all soon followed.

“No guys, we need someone to stay behind,”

Blaine warned “It'll be useless if we all go and he decides to come back and none of us are here,”

“I'll stay behind then, if anything I can call Lucy and ask her to keep an eye out too and if you guys need help getting transport ring me up alright?” Blaine nodded “Thanks Wes,”

Sebastian smirked as he winked at Wes “Lucy ey?”

“Oh shup up,”