Blaine lay there staring at the ceiling. He was so tired of feeling things for people, he just wondered why? Why did people always leave him.

After Cooper had left him in high school he had been terrified, he always had this thought that his father would come back and hit him over and over again for disobeying, but the night that his father told him he had no son, and Cooper took him to the hospital, he knew his father didn't care.

He turned over in his bed feeling the tears slip out again.

He remembered the first day he came to Dalton and how quiet he had been, maybe he should have stayed like that.

Freshman year

"Cooper, I don't want you to leave, please don't leave," Blaine begged at the door in his uniform still clutching onto his brother's shirt who was trying to get him inside.

"Blaine, I can't let you go back there, if I don't go, you won't be safe,"

"I don't care," Blaine begged.

"I do little bro, I need you alive okay, if you stay with father he's going to ...you won't survive squirt,"

"I will! I'll stay strong, like Alladin! I'm not worthless, just like he said!"

Cooper smiled and smoothed his brother's hair down with gel.

"I know Blaine, you're not worthless, you were never worthless, don't ever think that okay?"

Blaine nodded with tears streaming down his face when he met two knew people.

"Hi Blaine! My name's Wes and this is David, Coopers told us all about you, you know, we have a no bullying policy, you'll have a TV in your room, a bed, your own desk, it'll be just like at home, and every weekend the boys get together for a movie night, hows that sound?"

Blaine was staring at his brother with another please stay look.

"They'll look after you, I promise, enjoy yourself squirt, I have to go, but we have Skype so you'll still be able to talk, and I'm going to be working as much as I can to send you money okay brother? Keep those grades up!"

Blaine hugged Cooper not willing to go just yet.

"You'll be okay," He promised again.

"So Blaine do you sing?" David asked eventually after they said goodbye to Cooper and he waved him off in the car, trying to cheer the newbie up.

Blaine was silent for a moment and nodded.

"You know, we have a choir, you're always welcome to join, we're called "The Warblers" we are like...rock stars, we could use a soloist too,"

Blaine nodded but not answering.

They took him to his room and the moment he got in he just sat there and stared at the ceiling

"You okay?" Wes patted his shoulder as he shook his head.

"You wanna talk about it?" David pressured.

Blaine shook his head.

They both frowned.

Later that day after they left Blaine when he asked them to, he just laid there, still staring at the ceiling when his phone rang and he answered it.

"Forgot to tell you, I love you Blaine, don't shut people out okay? I know you don't want to be there, but they are really nice people Squirt, they'll keep you safe,"

"I just want you here," Blaine whispered choking on his tears.

"I'll always be there for you Blaine, even if I am miles away,"

"They have a choir..." He mentioned.

"Really? You should join squirt! You were exceptional at singing, maybe with the choir you can beat me one day," Cooper smirked.

Blaine chuckled. He missed his brother.

"I'll think about it,"

"Maybe they'll let you sing Katy Perry songs,"

Blaine blushed.

"I can see you blushing through the phone Blaine, don't worry I like girl singers too,"

Blaine laughed.

"Only because you think they're hot,"

"Well they are! Any cute boys there yet?" Cooper asked.

"No..." Blaine said quietly.

"Mhm, maybe you need to socialize a bit, sorry brother the Plane is ready for take off I have to go, keep your head up okay?"

"Love you coop!" Blaine shouted as the engine became louder.

"You too bro!"

silence.

A knock was at the door after he woke up an hour later.

Blaine didn't answer.

"Blaine?" Kurt asked.

Blaine still didn't answer, he didn't want to hear Kurt complain about him being a terrible friend. What was he doing there anyway?

"Blaine, please open the door,"

Why did Kurt sound upset?

He still sat there debating on it.

"Blaine, look I...I really miss you okay, I know what I said was wrong, I shouldn't have just shut you out like that, I was upset, but please, please talk to me,"

Blaine sighed.

"Please just go away Kurt,"

It hurt him to say that, but he didn't want to rely on Kurt, and then have him walk away again when he did something wrong. He couldn't handle it again. Not this time. Blaine was sure he had a crush on Kurt, and it scared him, and when he said they couldn't be friends, it reminded him of his childhood and the ripping of his paper card. It just broke him.

Kurt was silent for a moment but he heard a paper being slipped under the door and quietly moved over to look at it.

I'm sorry.

Forgive me?

There was a bird on it, the Warblers bird.

"Blaine please?" Kurt begged.

Nothing. An object was pushed under the door then.

"Just talk to me, whenever you feel like you can, I don't want to loose you Blaine, I care about you okay?" And with that Kurt was gone.

After 5 minutes, he jumped of the bed and picked up the object on the floor which was a CD. He put it in his player an put his headphones on.

Kurt's voice was on it:

"Blaine I know you don't forgive me, I found out about what happened with your father, and brother, and I just want you to know that I would never intentionally let you down like that, Wes and David didn't tell me, Cooper did. I don't think you even know he was here, he told me that he flew over the moment he heard you were upset, and got a job at the Lima Bean just so he could run into me and let me know how you were doing. He really cares about you Blaine, and I'm glad, because I was such an asshole, he had to go back though, because he's expecting a big commercial break where he could get the jackpot, but Cooper opened up my eyes. I was upset the day I told you we couldn't be friends, but I hadn't meant to say it, the bullies at school were really pissing me of too...they threw me in a dumpster, tossed a slushie at me, called me a faggot 3 times, and locked me in the toilet for 6 hours one day, until Finn managed to find me, but you know the worst part was? I didn't have you. I was so used to having you cheer me up at the end of a school day, even though we've known each other for just a week, that I felt empty, I lost a wonderful inspirational friend, and I feel so guilty Blaine, I miss you so much, so I sang this song just for you, hoping that I have the opportunity to be your friend, again, I also got the Warblers to help me out on this, since they were part of this unfortunate event,"

Blackbird singing in the dead of night

Take these broken wings and learn to fly

All your life you were only waiting

For this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night

Take these sunken eyes and learn to see

All your life you were only waitingFor this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, blackbird fly

Into the light of the dark black night

Blackbird fly, blackbird fly

Into the light of the dark black night

Blackbird singing in the dead of night

Take these broken wings and learn to fly

All your life you were only waiting

For this moment to arise
You were only waiting

For this moment to arise

You were only waiting

For this moment to arise

Blaine's tears stopped as he listened in wonder of the boys voice.

A final message from Kurt.

You are amazing Blaine and...

WE MISS YOU! Nick shouted then a HEY!

Blaine laughed.

Is this my message or yours?

Blaine smiled. Kurt really was something.

Please forgive me.