Sept. 11, 2013, 9:08 a.m.
Sixteen Powers: Rethinking Decisions
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Blaine looked quizzically at his boyfriend, unsure of what was meant by those words.
"What do I do in the future?"
"Wait and see"
Kurt stroked Blaine's cheek affectionately and a single tear travelled down his face. Before the tear drop fell off the end of his chin, Blaine kissed it away and turned to Kurt with a serious expression.
"Now you have to tell me what happened, what did you see?"
"It doesn't matter"
"Kurt you're crying, off course it matters!"
"Ok, maybe it matters but I can't tell you"
"Why not?"
"You have to figure things out for yourself. I'm not going to be the one to pressure you into doing something you may later regret" Kurt was referring to the fact that he didn't want to pressure Blaine into saving him and risk not loving again.
"I won't regret anything when it comes down to you and you're definitely not pressuring me to do anything, I love you"
"I love you too"
Blaine said nothing but he continued to stroke Kurt's cheek softly.
"Well, I hate to interrupt but if Blaine's not going to try his luck at defending himself, do you mind if we leave? I don't mind staying but the air is turning chilly and night is beginning to set in and I'm scared of this place in the dark. It gets really creepy, especially when the owls come out and they stare at you with those fluorescent yellow eyes and just – I freaks me out, ok?"
The two boys laughed lightly but agreed and followed Finn back to the car.
...
Later that day, around 11pm, Kurt was alone in the darkness of his room. He'd been crying for a good part of the evening. Surrounded in his duvet, Kurt dwelled on his vision and what could happen after that. Kurt knew that changing the vision where Blaine was injured would've still meant that someone died but he never would've guessed that it would be him. There was one thing he knew, he wouldn't change it again for fear of putting Blaine back at risk. Deep down, he knew he had to tell Blaine but couldn't gather the courage needed nor could he come up with the words to tell him.
...
Friday at school, Kurt spoke to Rachel about the situation as he knew she would help him. He walked up to her locker first thing that morning and waited patiently for her to arrive.
A few minutes later the over dramatic teen entered the far end of the corridor. It was hard to pick her out from the rest of the cattle that lurked in the hallway but he would recognise the dark brown ponytail that swung from side reside when she walked, no stomped, towards him anywhere.
"Hey Kurt, what a surprise"
"Really?"
"No, I could see you from the parking lot" she smiled her dazzling smile which showed off her bright white teeth when she noticed the sad look that adorned Kurt's facial features. "Are you okay?"
"Not really Rach I-" Kurt felt himself being wrapped into a tight hug and allowed the tears that wouldn't go away to fall freely down his face.
"Come on, let's find a quiet place to talk as we both have a free period"
Rachel led Kurt in the direction of the library. The two sat at a table in the far corner of the abandoned room by a tall bookcase that lined the walls.
"What's bothering you Hun?"
Kurt looked down at his hands that rested neatly on the mahogany table in front of him.
"I love him, I do, but I can't do it to him"
"Can't do what? You're not making sense"
"I'm going to die Rachel, I know it, and I've seen it. I can't string him along and pretend that everything is going to work out fine when I know it isn't! It breaks my heart to say it but I can't deal with seeing his face light up when he sees me. I can't handle the emotions passed from him to me in a kiss. I can't handle that fact that he's in love with me and I repay that love by leaving him. I just can't Rachel and I don't know what I'm going to do. Help me"
The plea for help pulled at Rachel's heart strings. She hadn't seen her best friend this torn up since Karofsky first started bullying him and even then it wasn't as bad as what he was like now.
"Maybe it's best if you don't see each other. I know you love him but it's hurting you and it'll hurt him if things turn out how you expect. God knows I'm not ready for this battle and I know the chances I survive are extremely slim but I have to fight for myself, no one else; maybe you should too. If Blaine cares about you as much as he says, he'll understand" with that Rachel got up and left Kurt alone with his thoughts; that was a stupid thing to do. Whenever Kurt was alone he would always think of the worst case scenarios but as he did, the same end occurred in each one. He couldn't put Blaine through that pain. It was decided, it was time to rethink their decisions.
...
It wasn't until Thursday when Kurt and Blaine next saw each other. Finn had taken them to the Lima Bean instead of the field after Kurt explained what was going through his mind. As Blaine got out of the car, a look of worry was etched into his features but when Kurt took his hand the feeling was replaced with calmness. Kurt had the power to calm Blaine with the simple touch or a few words, it was refreshing.
The two sat across from each other with a cup of coffee in hand. Kurt stared at the table top, unable to look at Blaine. Blaine also sat in silence but looked down at Kurt who wore an expression that was unreadable.
Kurt felt himself tear up as he stared into his cup for answers to the hundreds of questions he has. A few more minutes passed before Kurt finally looked up at Blaine.
"I'm sorry" a single teardrop glided gracefully down Kurt's pale cheek. He didn't mean to start crying but all the emotions had been held in for a while and he couldn't hold back any longer.
"Why did you bring me here today? I thought we were going to practise..."
"Can I start by saying I love you?"
Blaine stayed silent, knowing he wasn't going to like what came next.
"I love you so much that it hurts but it hurts more to know that I can't be with you. I've seen things in my visions, I don't want to put you through that, I want to give you the chance to love again. Honestly, this is the hardest thing I'll ever have to do but I can't-" the sentence was left floating in the air between them.
"You're breaking up with me?"
"Blaine...please don't think of it like that, I'm setting you free I don't want you to be trapped in my love it's too much to ask"
"I only want you though"
"Maybe down the line that won't be true, but what could you do then? Nothing. I'm going to die Blaine, I've had to face the facts. If we were to continue this, I know you'd be tempted into saving me and I don't want that, it'll be too much pressure for you. It's better this way, for everyone"
"Not for me, Kurt! You were the first person I've ever felt like this about, I swear you're the only one that can make me feel like this. Don't you get it? I want to be trapped in your love, I want to be bound to you; I don't want anybody else! I want to wake up in your embrace and face the day ahead with you by my side. I want everything with you, marriage, children maybe, an eternity together" Blaine's voice cracked on the last word as tears fell freely "I love you Kurt Hummel, I always will"
Kurt brought a hand up to his mouth, shocked. He stood up, grabbed his coffee in one hand and his satchel in the other. He stood next to Blaine and placed a hard, closed kiss to Blaine's mouth, sweet and chaste, a goodbye kiss.
"I love you too, more than anything, that's why I need to do this"
With that, Kurt was gone.
...
As Kurt left the coffee shop he felt his heart sink to the depths of his stomach and his muscles seemed to increase in weight, which made it harder to walk away from Blaine. Every fibre of his body was telling him to turn around and tell Blaine that he didn't mean any of it but deep down, very deep down, he knew that it was for the best.
Blaine however was sat shell shocked in the same place, he couldn't move. He loved Kurt and Kurt loved him, so why did everything else have to be so hard? He didn't care what Kurt said, they were not splitting up. Blaine was determined to get Kurt back, he just had to wait for battle to commence and he could show Kurt just how much he loved the other boy. All he needed to do was research how to save a person.
...
Kurt was sat at home on his bed with his phone in his hand, unsure if texting Blaine would be a bad thing. He wanted more than anything to pull Blaine into a hug and kiss away the sadness, only now did he realise that Blaine was all he ever needed. Did texting someone after a break-up break the rules of a break-up?
Kurt didn't need to think it over for long because he received a text from Blaine.
I don't care if you've broken up with me, I'm not letting you go Kurt. You're everything to me and I'm going to prove that. In a couple of weeks, at that battle I will win you back. I'm not letting you leave me when I know how much you love me. I love you x - Blaine
...
He didn't know if the text was too much or not, hell he didn't even know if they were still on speaking terms or not. What if Kurt completely freaked out and told him not to text/call/see him again? He couldn't bare that.
All worry was pushed to the back of his mind when he received a simple text from Kurt.
I love you too, you know that, I'm sorry xx - Kurt
Maybe they weren't together but Blaine had hope.
...
It had only been a week but both boys had really missed each other. They missed the times they held hands and the soft kisses and the gentle brush of hands on skin and everything else. They missed each other.
This only made Blaine more determined to make a plan, just two more weeks and they'd both see each other again. They'd see each other again but under very different circumstances, this time they'd be rivals, but love concurs all, right? They could only hope so.