I am living with Blaine and his mom for two months now. And it is amazing. I do miss my own parents though. My mom was amazing, she had the most beautiful voice Ive ever hears. Her skin was like mine, pale like porcelain. Her hair was brown and long. I dont remember much of her but sometimes I dream about my old family. How happy we were. My dad is another story, he was this big bear of a dad. I loved him, of course I did. My dad owned a shop where he would work every day. After he died, my stepmom trew me out of the house. Looked like she had faked all those years of loving me, she told me I was disgusting and how I would get aids and die. She doesnt know her son is gay, well I think he is. Why would he go into my room at night and stare at me, trying to touch me. One time he even told me he would kill me if I would life like myself more. I never told my dad anything about what happened at night. Karofsky never really touched me like sexual. He only touched my hair or kissed my hand. What was really weird for a straight person. So now I am living with the Andersons for two months and it is really amazing. Blaine is the best boyfriend ever, he always touches me softly when I sit next to him or when we walk together. His mom is the best, I think this is what it feel like to have a real mom. But am I a good boyfriend to Blaine? I dont know. I dont think so. I mean, we only kissed and have make out sessions but it never goes any further. Maybe I should just talk to him about it. Yeah, Im gonna do that.

Later that day I walked into Blaines room to see him sitting on his bed with his guitar. "Hey babe. What are you doing?" I asked him. He looks up at me and smiled. "Hi, just some playing on my guitar. What are you doing here? I thought you were going out with my mom." "Yeah but she got a text, blushed and told me she couldnt go today. So I thought I would go see the most handsome guy in the world." I told him. "Oh did you look in the mirror?" He said with a grin on his face. I punched him at his arm playfully. "You dork." "But I am your dork." I nodded at him and kissed him soft on his lips before sitting down. I lied down on his bad, seeing him putting his guitar away. He climbed on the bed, to my surprise he climbed on top of me. His legs on each side of me and he lowered his body so I would feel his body warmth. He began kissing me softly. But that was it, just kissing. I was getting irritated so I pushed him away. "Whats wrong, Kurt?" He looked at me if he had killed a puppy. "Its just… why is everything we do only kissing? I feel like I-I am doing something wrong. Or is it that you dont want me. Am I not good e-enough? Am I too pale? Am I too skinny? D-do you even lo-like me for me or am I just something you need to have because I live h-" Blaine cut me off with a kiss and looked at me very seriously. "Baby, why didnt you tell me you feel like this? I- you are the most amazing person ever, you arent doing anything wrong. You are being your perfect self. I just- I want to go further but I am scared. Scared I screw up and stuff like that, but I know at the other side that you would never say to me I am doing anything wrong. And of course, of course I like you. I know you for two months and those are the best two months of my live. You are everything to me. I just have the feeling we shouldnt go any further until we are both ready and I want you to be sure." He told me, I could see in his eyes he told the truth. I just kissed him again and well, this time it was more than kissing. Not much but just more.

I walked past a green field, with yellow flowers. They were the most beautiful flowers I had ever seen. I decided to walk into the field. In the middle of the it I saw something. I dont know what it is but it moves, like it dances. I walk closer, step by step. I feel a little scared, what if it is an animal what wants to eat me. but then I look again and I see two moving shadows. I dont know what it is but I want to know. So I walk closer and touch a few of the beautiful small yellow flowers. They feel soft, like my own hands. People always tell me how soft my hands are. I walk closer to the shadows. I see hair, long blond hair. And arms, and legs. The shadows change into people. I want to see who they are. I walk further, I feel an warm feeling in my body. I see two faces, they look like…my dad and the other like my mom. In a field my parents are dancing, I walk until I am standing in front of them. I look up to them. They smile at me, I cant understand what they are saying but they are talking about me. My mom kneels down in front of me. She looks me right in the eye before kissing my hair. "Kurt, my beautiful boy. Stay safe and strong baby. Life will get hard but believe me when I say that we will always be here with you. Right beside you, I promise you." She told me. I danced with them until the yellow flowers are gone, I see them fade away. I want to grab their arms, I dont want them to leave. But they do.

I woke up sweating like crazy and realizing my dad and mom are dad. I cry until I fall asleep again.