It was a beautiful morning today. When I woke up I finally felt like living again. Maybe it is because of the cute bariste I met yesterday, not that I said a word. Only a simple Thank you. Noting more. The cute barista was gorgeous, he had brown eys were blue, or green? I dont remember, we I do but they changed inthose two minutes. He seemed like he wasnt happy, like he needed his job to survive. I wonder if the cute guy is gay. Oh yeah, I am gay. How the hell am I going to tell my mom I am gay.

When I came downstairs to eat something my mom was already awake. "Hi sweetie." She said to me. I just nodded and went to the malll. It isnt that my mom hates me or something. The thing is...Im scared I let my secret slip. And god know what will happen.
I just walked in when I saw the cute barista was there too. This time sitting at a table in the back, it looked like the guy was crying. I got my coffee and decided to go to the guy.
"Uhm-Are you okay?" I asked him. He looked up, straight in my eyes. Today his eyes are grey. Another colour. "W-what?" The boy said. "I aked if youre okay. Im Blaine by the way." The guy looked at me if he saw an angel. "I-Im Kurt, Im f-fine." Kurt answered me. "You dont look fine." I said to him, he looked away. I sat down at the table and put my hand on his. "Lifes hard, I need to b-be stronger." I saw the pain in his eyes. This guy was hurting. "You can tell me if you want to?" He looked at me if I had become crazy. Kurt sighed and began to talk to me. "M-my dad d-died last week, my step-mom trew me out cause I am gay. She always told my dad it didnt matter, but everytime I looked in her eyes I could see the disgust. And well now Im living on the stree-why the hell am I telling yo-I need to go-bye." Kurt had said and walked away. I saw the pain in Kurts eyes, I felt sorry for him.

What if my mom would trew me out? What if dad had been alive, would he accept me? What would Eliza think of me? What would all my friends think of me? Wait...I dont have any friends anymore. They left me, I was at dalton, being all good and sweet. Joined the warblers and after two months they ignored me and hated me. Why? Because they had seen me staring, they had seen me checking out someone. A guy. They couldnt handle it. They didnt accept I was-am gay.

After hours of walking trough a park, I went home. I didnt say hi to my mom. Just walked up the stairs, got in my room and lied down on my bed. I know I need to tell my mom soon who I really am. Maybe Kurt could help me. Yeah, maybe this gorgeous guy can help me. Help me trough my struggles. I would help him with his. I promise myself I would do anything for Kurt. Kurt. Finally I fell asleep. Dreaming about Kurt.