June 14, 2013, 11:29 a.m.
Making Friends With Shadows On My Wall: Chapter 3
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Kurt nodded, holding Blaine close. They got in the bed and watched a couple of movies on Blaine's phone. Well, Blaine watched the movies and Kurt traced Blaine's features with his fingertips.
As the last movie ended, Blaine looked up at Kurt. "How are you feeling..?"
"Like..I'm safe.." Kurt said softly.
"Good," Blaine smiled.
Kurt's nurse came in and gave Blaine a small cot to sleep on. "Lights out in ten minutes..We lock all of the doors after then." she smiled. Blaine thanked her for the cot as she left. He turned back to Kurt to give him a kiss goodnight. Kurt seemed a bit shaky at the thought of Blaine leaving his bed. He just held on to Blaine, kissing him softly.
"Want me to stay here until you're asleep?" Blaine whispered.
"Please.." Kurt whispered, making sure to keep his lips to Blaine's. "What if he comes?.."
"I'll stop him," Blaine said softly.
Kurt nodded, running his hands through Blaine's hair.
"I can't tell you how good this feels.."
"You don't have to.." Kurt said quietly.
"What do you mean?" Blaine asked.
"I know..Feels so good..Reminds me of back then.."
"Me too.. Can I sing to you..?"
"Mhmm..." Kurt hummed sleepily.
Blaine held Kurt close as he started to sing.
"Hello my friend, we meet again
It's been awhile, where should we begin?
Feels like forever
Within my heart are memories
Of perfect love that you gave to me
Oh, I remember
When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice"
Kurt kissed along Blaine's jaw lazily as he listened. Blaine smiled at the gesture as he teared up a bit.
"We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around
In an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and within your mind
Let's find peace there
When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice.."
Kurt found Blaine's hand with his own, lacing their fingers together.
"When you are with me I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
Cause when you are with me I am free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice, My sacrifice.." Blaine finished the song quietly and kissed Kurt's forehead. "I'll never forgive myself for letting this happen to you.."
"Don't.." Kurt said softly. "I'll always love you.." he whispered, on the edge of sleep.
Blaine's head snapped up at Kurt's words. His heart swelled. He needed to hear that. He couldn't believe how wonderful it made him feel. "I love you too, Kurt."
Kurt curled up against Blaine, humming softly as he fell asleep. Blaine waited a few minutes, making sure Kurt was asleep before sliding into his cot. He looked over at Kurt who looked so peaceful..He couldn't possibly have any of the nightmares tonight. Blaine smiled to himself, letting sleep take him.
Around midnight Kurt's eyes shot open as the lock on his door beeped quietly. The door knob slowly turned and the man stepped inside. His eyes darted over to Blaine, who could barely be seen in the shadows. He was still there..
The man stepped over to the bed, the moonlight reflecting his wicked grin the spread over his face. Kurt trembled, shaking his head as he scooted closer to the wall. "No.. Please.."
"Shhh...It's okay.." The man said, grabbing Kurt's wrists and slowly pulling him to the edge of the bed.
Kurt's entire body started to convulse as his dashed back and forth between Blaine and the nurse. "B-Blaine.." He whispered, his voice quiet and fearful.
The nurse pulled him off of the bed and quickly bent him over, pulling his wrists together behind his back and shoving his face against the mattress. "No screaming tonight..You know no one will come.." he whispered against Kurt's ear, his stubble brushing against Kurt's neck as he trembled beneath him.
Kurt whimpered, trying to get out of the stronger man's grip. The voices in his head started getting louder. He heard Claude screaming, telling him he was nothing. He deserved this. Blaine didn't really love him. Blaine wouldn't wake up to save him. But then, something happened that Kurt hadn't experienced before. He heard his mother's voice boom over Claude's, telling her son to scream. Scream for his boyfriend. 'Listen to me baby,' she yelled to Kurt. 'Scream.. He'll hear you.. Blaine will stop it..'
'I-I can't..I can't..' Kurt whispered to her, tears spilling down his cheeks as the nurse hastily started to pull Kurt's pants down, making him whimper and try to draw his legs up.
'You can, Kurt. You're strong,' Elizabeth said back.
'Don't listen to her! She's a liar! You know he'll never love you!' Claude growled loudly. 'Blaine left you. He didn't want you. You'll never be good enough!'
Kurt's breaths were rapid as his thoughts raced. 'You're wrong..Y-You're wrong..B-Blaine..Blaine..Blaine!' Kurt yelled before bucking underneath the man and letting out a bloodcurdling scream.
Blaine awoke immediately, jumping out of the cot. His mind raced as he looked towards Kurt's bed. Adrenaline rushed through Blaine's body as he lunged forward, pulling the man off of Kurt and throwing him to the ground. He pinned him to the cold tile, making sure he couldn't move as he screamed for the doctor.
Kurt cowered, backing away from both of them and into the corner, continuing to scream as a doctor and security guards ran into the room. "What's going on in here!?"
Blaine looked up without letting the nurse go. "I heard Kurt scream. I woke up and he had his pants down. You still sure Kurt was having nightmares?!" he spat at the doctor.
The doctor looked in a rage, yelling at the security guards to call the police and have the nurse arrested. The nurse took a long look at Kurt, making him shake harder in his corner before he was carried away.
Blaine went to the bed, pulling Kurt close. "I know you're scared. But you have to tell me. Is he the only one? Has anyone else touched you?"
Kurt could barely think, his thoughts sending sparks in his vision like some machine was raging in his head. "J-Just..Him..Just.."
Blaine nodded, glancing back at the doctor. "It's okay baby.. He's gone.."
The doctor had his head in his hands and sat on the edge of Kurt's bed, shaking his head.
"You said he screams at night. No one cared to check on him?" Blaine asked.
"W-We assumed it was just night terrors..He's had them before.." The doctor whispered.
"I can't believe this. If he hadn't asked me to stay.. No one would know.."
The older man just shook his head. "I can't believe this happened.."
Blaine sighed, rubbing up and down Kurt's back as he tried to soothe the trembling man.
"Take me home..Take me home.." Kurt whispered.
Blaine looked at the doctor, eyes full of resentment. "What am I supposed to tell him? He has to stay where he was constantly raped? This won't help him."
"I..I can see about having him transferred to another hospital..Mr. Anderson..You have to know..no one had any idea.."
"We'll talk to Kurt when he's okay enough to talk to." Blaine said.
The doctor nodded. "If you need anything, let me know.." He whispered, walking out of the room.
Blaine sat up pulling Kurt between his legs. "He's gone.. He can't hurt you.."
"You woke up..He..He didn't hurt me..You saved me.."
"I know baby.. You're safe now.."
Kurt pulled Blaine close, kissing him deeply. Blaine gasped before kissing him back. "He said you wouldn't..He was wrong..He was wrong.." Kurt smiled.
"Who? Claude?" Blaine asked.
Kurt nodded, tears streaming down his face.
"He told me the same thing. But he was wrong. I'll do anything I can to help you.."
Kurt nodded, kissing Blaine again.
"He can't hurt you anymore." Blaine whispered. "Not unless you let him. He's gone for good.."
Kurt twitched as he heard Claude's voice ring through his ears. Kurt closed his eyes. "Shut up.." He whispered angrily.
"Don't listen to him. He's a monster. You're better than him. You're Kurt Hummel. You can predict the next fashion trend a year away. You're beautiful and amazing," Blaine encouraged, trying to drown out the voices Kurt heard.
"I just want him to go away.." Kurt whispered brokenly.
"Ignore him. I know he's loud and what he says hurts.. But don't listen. He'll get annoyed and stop.."
Kurt nodded, looking up at Blaine as he reached up to pull his own hair, closing his eyes. "I hate you!" He yelled. Blaine kept his arms around Kurt, hoping this would help. Kurt's breathing grew faster as he began to argue with himself. Blaine could swear he felt Kurt's body tremor with each change in his voice.
"He does not love you..He never has and he never will!" Claude roared, trying to push Blaine away.
"He loves me he says he loves me and I love-"
"Don't you say it you filthy little-"
"I love him!" Kurt screamed before something in him snapped and he went limp in Blaine's arms, his breathing slowing to an even pace.
Blaine's eyes were wide as he watched. "K-Kurt..?"
Kurt said nothing, pulling Blaine close and nuzzling against his shirt.
"Are..Are you okay..?" Blaine asked quietly.
Kurt nodded, eyes still closed. "S'quiet.."
Blaine let out a long breath. He kissed the top of Kurt's head. He didn't know if it would last or not. But at least they had some peace for now. Kurt asked Blaine to carry him to bed and the shorter did, climbing in with him. "I love you.." Kurt said quietly.
Blaine traced Kurt's jaw line. "I love you too."
Kurt smiled, humming happily in the darkness. "Do you remember..When we would stay up all night..Just kissing..And..When we made love..It felt like..We were..Together?.."
"How could I not?" Blaine grinned. "I remember everything with you."
"I want..To feel that again.." Kurt whispered.
Blaine's lips trembled. His eyes teared up as he hid his face against Kurt's chest.
"Don't cry.." Kurt said quietly.
"I-I.. I thought.. I thought I'd lost you..forever.." Blaine breathed out, trying not to cry.
"I'm here.." Kurt said, petting Blaine's curls. He was quiet for a minute before speaking up. "You know..I'm getting married.."
Blaine's held his breath, his body going still. "What?"
"To Blaine.." Kurt said softly. "He says..When I get better..He'll give me the perfect wedding.."
Blaine bit his lip. "Why do you talk about me in third person..?" he asked, scared he was losing Kurt again.
Kurt looked over at Blaine, his eyebrows kneading together in confusion. "You're..Not.." he squeezed his eyes shut, grabbing Blaine's hand and clutching to it. "You are..You're Blaine.." he whispered as he relaxed.
"I am.." Blaine said quietly.
Kurt pulled Blaine closer so the younger was on top of him. "Tell me things you used to.."
"Used to what?"
"Things he..Y-You..Used to tell me..The little things.." He said, wrapping his legs around Blaine.
Blaine cupped Kurt's cheek. "How much I love you.. How gorgeous you are. Especially your eyes.."
Kurt looked up at Blaine, placing his hands on the shorter's shoulders.
"I loved just watching you. When you worked.. You were so passionate. How your eyes would light up as you spoke about your dreams.. It inspired me.."
"My dreams?.." Kurt asked.
Blaine nodded. "Designing clothes.. Performing on a big stage.."
Kurt smiled as he thought about it. He would've loved to have remembered those dreams.
"I remember watching you practice. You were amazing," Blaine said in awe.
Kurt smiled, leaning up to kiss Blaine softly, tightening his legs around him.
Blaine sighed happily. "I love you so much, Kurt."
"I love you too.." Kurt whispered.
"It's been a long night.. You should rest.."
"I want you..While its quiet..Just us."
"What if.. What about earlier..?"
"What happened earlier?.." Kurt whispered and Blaine remembered his memory lapses. Maybe it wasn't a good idea..
"Nothing. I'm just really tired," Blaine said, giving a loud, fake yawn.
Kurt pouted, sighing softly. "Me too.."
"We will when we go home," Blaine said softly. Kurt nodded, rolling them onto their sides.
"Goodnight beautiful.."
"Night.." Kurt hummed, kissing Blaine softly, making sure their lips were less than an inch apart all night. The next morning, Blaine was in the bed alone. Kurt was on the floor, the ear buds of Blaine's mp3 in his ears. He took a deep breath and stretched, taking a moment to just watch Kurt. Kurt had his hands on the floor in front of him, moving his fingers like he was playing the piano as a classical song hummed in his ears. He wondered if Kurt remembered. Maybe he could take him to a music shop one day and let him play.
Kurt smiled to himself before looking up at Blaine. "Morning.."
"Good morning," Blaine said softly. "How did you sleep?"
"Well.." Kurt said, sticking a finger in his ear and shushing someone.
Blaine sighed. "He came back?"
Kurt just nodded, standing up. "I don't want to stay here."
"We can get you transferred.."
Kurt nodded. Looking at his arms where he had taken off the bandages at some point.
"Kurt.." Blaine sighed.
Kurt didn't say anything as he ran his hand over the scabbed skin. "I want to leave."
"Okay. We'll talk to your doctor.."
"Now?.."
Blaine nodded, standing and reaching for Kurt's hand. Kurt took it without hesitation, squeezing lightly. They headed into the hall and went to the doctor's office. Dr. Hanson looked up as they walked in. Mr. Anderson..What may I do for you?.."
"We wanted to talk about the transfer.."
"I thought as much.." The doctor said as Kurt sat. "I have a few hospitals in mind that have inpatient services and I believe Kurt would be more comfortable.."
"When can I go home..?" Kurt asked quietly.
Dr. Hanson looked up at Kurt, adjusting his glasses. "When your symptoms are manageable.." He said softly before handing a couple of papers about other hospitals to Blaine.
Blaine scooted closer to Kurt. "What do you think of these?"
Kurt grabbed a paper, holding at the corner as his eyes jumped around the paper labeled 'New York State Psychiatric Institute'. "This one.."
Doctor Hanson nodded. "That was my first choice."
Kurt read over it again. "It says I can volunteer for research..I don't want to."
"You don't have to," The older man said softly.
Kurt nodded again, looking at a picture of the rooms. It was nice. Colorful. Not the plain white that was here. "I want to leave now."
"I'll call and make the arrangements."
Kurt nodded, looking over at his doctor. "Thank you..For..All you've done for us." He whispered.
"I'm sorry for what has happened. I believe this will be good for you."
Kurt nodded, looking over at Blaine. "Can we go get my pictures?.."
"Of course," Blaine said, thanking the doctor before walking back with Kurt.
Kurt stood on the bed, carefully taking down each scrap of paper and putting it in Blaine's bag. They gave Kurt back the outfit he had come in with, a black v neck, red blazer, gray jeans, and knee high boots. He changed and he almost looked like himself again.
"How does it feel?" Blaine asked.
"Tight.." Kurt said, pinching at the skintight fabric of his jeans.
Blaine giggled. "You used to love it."
Kurt looked at his reflection and sighed. "Will you still come visit me even though I'm further away?.."
"I can't be there all the time. But I will be there whenever I am not working." Blaine said softly.
Kurt looked over at Blaine, looking like he was about to say something, but stopped and nodded. "I hope they let me have a tv.."
"Me too. I know how much you love the weather.."
Kurt smiled, nodding. They gathered his things and Blaine convinced the doctor to let them stop for lunch.
"Mr. Anderson, you can take him yourself, or we can get a hospital van to drove him there, I just wouldn't recommend anywhere with a crowd." Dr. Hanson said as Kurt bounced excitedly, staring at the doors he hadn't been past for so long.
Blaine couldn't help but smile. "I'd like to drive him. And don't worry. I know the perfect place."
The older man smiled. Kurt hugged the doctor before hugging his nurse tightly and again, thanking them. He grabbed Blaine's hand as the buzzer went off, unlocking the large double doors.
Blaine lead Kurt outside and to his car. "Are you excited?"
Kurt nodded, looking up and around and everywhere at everything. He looked like a little kid on Christmas as he stated up at the buildings and almost pulled his hand away from Blaine's trying to examine people before they made it to the car.
"Do you remember when we first moved here? We barely had money so we went to that little diner? I thought we could go there.."
Kurt shook his head as Blaine helped him with his seat belt while he pressed a few of the buttons on the door, laughing loudly as he rolled down the window. Blaine chuckled as he got into the driver's seat and put in the soundtrack for Wicked. Kurt immediately started singing to himself as the first track came on. Blaine was so happy as he grabbed the taller's hand. Happy Kurt would be safe now..He would be happier here..And happy that he could finally take his boyfriend out on a date. He listened to the beautiful voice as he drove to his favorite restaurant. They walked inside, Blaine having to usher Kurt along as they walked to a booth. Blaine had Kurt sit on the inside while Blaine sat next to him to keep him from wandering off. "Who are all these people?.." Kurt asked in barely a whisper. The diner was mostly empty, but Kurt seemed excited by the new faces.
"Just people coming to eat," Blaine said softly. Kurt nodded, smiling as the waitress walked over to them. "You can get anything you want baby," Blaine smiled.
Kurt nodded, looking up at the waitress. "I'm Kurt." He smiled before looking down at the menu.
"Hi Kurt. I'm Marissa," She smiled. "What can I get for you?"
Kurt got a salad and a small burger and fries, toying with his spoon while Blaine ordered. Blaine got the same and smiled at Kurt as the waitress walked away. Kurt looked up at Blaine and smiled back at him before leaning in to kiss him softly.
"I love you so much.." Blaine whispered.
"I-I..Love you too.." Kurt said, but Blaine could tell it was a bit of a struggle to get it out.
"If it's too hard, you don't have to.." Blaine said quietly.
"I want to.." Kurt said seriously.
Blaine nodded. "I just dont want you to hurt.."
"It's worth it.." Kurt said, kissing Blaine again.
"Thank you.."
Kurt nodded, squeezing Blaine's hand as he squeezed his eyes shut, his fingers spasming a bit.
"It's okay baby.. Don't listen to them.." Blaine whispered, hoping Claude wouldn't come out.
"Just be quiet..I don't want you here anymore..." Kurt whispered, using his free hand to grab his hair.
Blaine pulled Kurt close. "It's okay baby.. It's okay.."
"I don't want him to ruin this.." Kurt whimpered.
"I know.. Try to not listen.."
Kurt nodded, taking a shaky breath.
"I'm right here. He can't take you away from me. I'm not leaving." Blaine whispered in Kurt's ear.
Kurt relaxed a bit, sighing softly. "Thank you.."
Blaine nodded, kissing Kurt's forehead. They got their food and had a pleasant meal, talking and Kurt playing with Blaine's hands and kissing his fingers and cheeks and jaw, constantly cuddling him and nuzzling him. He never wanted to be away from Blaine. They drove to the new hospital and Blaine sighed deeply. "I'm sorry I can't take you home.."
"Not even for a little while?.." Kurt asked softly.
Blaine shook his head. "I want to.. But I can't.."
"Why not?.."
"We're already here.. I don't have enough gas to go back then come here and go home again.."
Kurt looked down, nodding. "Okay.."
"I'm sorry.. I cut my hours so I can come see you.."
"It's okay.." Kurt said as his mother whispered to him to be understanding. "Will you come in with me?.."
"Of course I will," Blaine said softly.
Kurt nodded, taking a deep breath as they got out and walked into the large, beautiful building. Blaine walked them to inpatient services and checked Kurt in. They took Kurt to the schizophrenia unit, even though that wasn't the case, that would be the unit to best serve his needs, and introduced him to his doctor Nicole Gaine. She was a kind, Hispanic woman with long curly hair. Kurt automatically felt comfortable around her and she took him back for a physical. After that, she decided to speak with Blaine.
"So how far has he come along since you returned?.." She asked.
"He seems better. But he says he doesn't remember what happened last night. He does what he can to keep Claude from coming out. He's doing well. But I'm still concerned," Blaine explained.
"What about exactly?.." She asked.
"A new place. New people. Whether or not he'll get better.. I've seen Claude come out. It's not.. I don't want Kurt to get hurt.."
"Mr. Anderson, I ensure you that we will do everything to make sure Kurt is safe, happy, and on the road to recovery.." She said softly, giving a smile. "We have a room ready for him, suited to his needs and safety regulations."
Blaine let out a deep breath. "How do the visiting hours work?"
"From eight AM to eight PM." She said softly. She turned to Kurt. "Kurt, would you like to see your room?"
Kurt nodded, squeezing Blaine's hand. They walked down the hall and Blaine couldn't help but notice how much more of a home this place seemed. The walls were painted, there was a rec room, a living room where patients were gathered, watching television. There was a garden and a courtyard filled with beautiful plants and a common room filled with bookshelves and comfy chairs. It didn't feel like a hospital.
"I think you'll like it here," Blaine said softly.
Kurt nodded, smiling as they turned a corner and walked down a hall lined with doors. She opened the one labeled: "315 Kurt E. Hummel and Kurt grinned. It was still bare, save for a twin, mahogany framed bed with a fluffy comforter and pillow. There was a dresser and Kurt bounced happily. "The walls are blue!" He said walking inside.
"They are. It makes it more relaxing," Doctor Gaine smiled. "We want you to be comfortable here."
Kurt was beaming as he looked out the window and saw the beautiful view of Manhattan. Before looking in the drawers and seeing his patient scrubs and continuing to explore the room. The floors had a soft white carpet and there was an armchair. "I love it.." Kurt smiled, sitting in the chair.
"Good. I'll leave you two alone. Let me know if you need anything."
Blaine nodded as Dr. Gaine stepped out and Kurt smiled up at Blaine.
"This is better than my apartment," Blaine giggled.
Kurt stood, wrapping his arms around Blaine's neck and giving him a soft kiss. "Thank you.." He said softly before grabbing Blaine's phone and turning on a song. "Dance with me.."
Blaine placed his hands on Kurt's hips and started to sway. Kurt smiled, wrapping his arms around Blaine's neck again and swaying his hips to the slow rhythm. "In some ways, you haven't changed a bit," Blaine chuckled.
"I can still dance.." Kurt grinned, biting his lip and he rolled his hips forward a bit.
Blaine closed his eyes. "You can.."
Kurt gave a mischievous smile, pressing his lips to the spot behind Blaine's ear and pulling their bodies closer together.
"Kurt.." Blaine whispered.
"Hmm?.." Kurt hummed, rolling his body.
Blaine rested his forehead on Kurt's shoulder. "I missed this.."
"So did I.." Kurt whispered. His thoughts were quiet. Perfect. He just needed Blaine now. He leaned in a bit, nipping lightly at his lobe.
Blaine gasped, pulling Kurt closer. "I-I don't.. I dont know.."
"I do.." Kurt whispered, his voice sultry. Just the way he used to make it. The sound made Blaine shiver. Blaine let out a small whimper. It had been so long. He wanted Kurt so bad. But would he be taking advantage of him?
"We can go slow..I'll look at you..I'll know it's you.." Kurt whispered, slipping his thigh between Blaine's.
Blaine's breathing hitched. "W-What about..him..? What if he comes..?"
"It's quiet..It's so quiet Blaine, I promise.." Kurt said quietly. Blaine slowly turned his head, hesitating as his eyes focused on Kurt's lips. Kurt smiled, looking down at Blaine hopefully and leaning in a bit. Blaine breathed out heavily before pressing his lips to Kurt's. Kurt sighed happily, kissing Blaine back before starting to deepen the kiss. The shorter tightened his grip on Kurt's hips as his mind went blank and he melted against his boyfriend. Kurt gasped, backing up towards the bed and laying back, pulling Blaine on top of him. Blaine settled between Kurt's thighs, moaning against the soft, pink lips. Kurt whined at the sound as he slipped his tongue into Blaine's mouth, a harsh moan escaping at the contact. Blaine pressed his body to Kurt's as the kiss grew more heated. Kurt pulled back, looking up at Blaine and rolling his hips up. Right now, Blaine was happy for the memory lapses. He wanted to give Kurt this. This intimacy, this security of knowing he would be the only person to touch him like this again. Blaine cupped Kurt's cheek. "Are you sure?" he whispered.
"Just..Keep talking..A-And look at me..Okay?.." Kurt got out.
Blaine nodded, keeping his eyes on Kurt's as his hand traveled up the taller's shirt. Kurt shivered, looking up at his boyfriend and giving a soft hum of pleasure.
"You're so beautiful.."
"So are you.." Kurt whispered. They took their time undressing. Blaine made sure every inch of Kurt's body was kissed and loved and touched as they were both pressed together, nothing between them.
"I love you so much.." Blaine whispered.
"I love you too.." Kurt whispered easily, smiling at that fact.
"Do you want me to stretch you baby..?"
Kurt nodded, kissing Blaine's jaw softly.
Blaine sucked his fingers into his mouth before placing one and Kurt's entrance. "Tell me if you need to stop.."
Kurt bent his legs at the knee and gasped softly, nodding. His breath began to speed up as Blaine's finger slipped inside of him, but he just had to look up at Blaine and it calmed him. Blaine brought his other hand up to cup Kurt's cheek as he slowly worked the digit inside him. Kurt moaned softly, looking up into Blaine's eyes. "A-Another.."
Blaine complied, adding another and placing light kisses along Kurt's jaw. Kurt gasped quietly, amazingly calm as Blaine stretched him until he was ready. Blaine kissed Kurt deeply as he very slowly pressed in. Kurt whined loudly and Blaine pulled back, looking into Kurt's eyes.
"B-Blaine.." Kurt panted.
"I'm here baby.. I-It's me.." Blaine whispered, not moving. Kurt placed his hands on either side of Blaine's cheeks and nodded, pushing his hips down. The shorter kissed along Kurt's jaw to cheek as he slowly pushed in deeper. Kurt let out small gasps and whined as he wrapped his trembling legs around Blaine's waist. "Go..Please go..Blaine.."
Blaine cupped Kurt's face as he started to thrust. Kurt let out a small moan, allowing himself to feel good. "Oh, Blaine.."
"Kurt.. You feel so..so good.." Blaine whispered.
"So do you..I-I..Almost forgot how..Perfect.." Kurt breathed out.
"So are you baby.. So perfect.."
They moved together slowly, Blaine almost losing Kurt twice, but talking him back with kind soft words. They were flush together, panting and moaning and kissing when Kurt whined "B-Blaine..I-I I think I'm..Oh god.."
"Me too, Kurt.. Let go.." Blaine whispered, on the edge himself. Kurt let out a sound between a cry and a groan, his body trembling slightly as he clutched to Blaine, releasing between them. Blaine gasped loudly as he felt Kurt fluttering around him as he came inside his boyfriend. Kurt's breathing slowed down, and he looked up at Blaine with sated eyes. "I love you.."
"I love you too," Blaine said softly, slowly pulling out and laying next to Kurt. Kurt kept his eyes closed as he cuddled up to Blaine, running his fingers through his chest hair, smiling and giggling sleepily. Blaine chuckled. "You're adorable.."
"You have more of this now.." Kurt said, petting Blaine's chest.
Blaine nodded. "I don't like it."
"I do..It's soft..The rest of you is hard.." He said, running his fingers down to Blaine's abs and pressing lightly.
Blaine laughed loudly. "You dont like it?"
"I love it.." Kurt said, looking confused with Blaine's laughter. "The soft and the hard parts..And the part that's soft sometimes, and hard others.." He said, running his hand down even further to Blaine's member. Blaine gasped softly, fluttering his lashes as he looked at Kurt. Kurt smiled wide. "You're all kinds of different things.." He said, running his hand back up to Blaine's chest. "
"I missed this.. Just being with you.."
"I did too..It's been long..Did you have other boyfriends?.." Kurt whispered.
Blaine froze. He was quiet for a long time. "Yes.."
Kurt looked up at Blaine, who saw the hurt in his eyes. "You did?.."
"Kurt.. I thought you didn't want me. I had no idea about what happened. I thought you didn't want me anymore.." Blaine said quietly as he looked away. Kurt felt like he had been stabbed in the heart but his mother's voice slowly echoed in. Telling him once again, to be understanding. "It had been nine years.. What was I supposed to think..? Trust me.." Blaine said, still not looking at Kurt. "I wish I could take everything back.."
"I understand.." Kurt whispered. "You needed someone. I wasn't there.." he said sincerely.
"It never lasted long. I never felt right.." Blaine said quietly. Kurt nodded, nuzzling under Blaine's jaw. "I thought of you every day.. Wondering what I did wrong.. I hate myself for leaving you.." Blaine whispered.
"Don't..You have no reason to.." Kurt said before his eyes lit up. "Can we go watch the weather?.."
Blaine took a deep breath. "Anything you want."
Kurt smiled, climbing on top of Blaine and leaning down to kiss him deeply. "Thank you." He said before getting up and slipping on a pair of the blue scrubs from the drawer on.
Blaine got dressed as well. "For what?"
Kurt shrugged, smiling. "Being here."
"I'm happy to be here.."
Comments
I am so glad that Blaine was able to save Kurt. I am still very much enjoying the story and l like how little by little Kurt seems to be able to stick around without letting the alters take over. I am looking forward to seeing how he handles Blaine being a little farther away and less able to visit. Off to read chapter 4.
Thanks for all the reviews! I was a little worried how people would feel since there's so many touchy subjects. But this is one of my favorites to write. Thanks sweetie!
I was worried for a second that Claude was gonna take over and hurt them
Omgg I think every chapter breaks my heart more and more but when Kurt comes back and Blaine keeps Claude away it makes me happy. I knew some asshole that worked there was hurting him, but I am glad Blaine stayed and saved him. I am glad they were able to be together without Kurt leaving. I love that when Kurt feels like he is hurting from what Blaine is telling him about things that happened in the past, his mom is there to tell him to be understanding. I love all the songs you picked too :)
My emotions were all over the place! The beginning was so intense but I'm so relieved that Blaine woke up! I really just want to hug Kurt now! I hope the new place is all it seems to be on the surface. Kurt needs a break! The love scene was perfect! Great job!