~Three years later~
Kurt grew considerably better. He was on stronger medication and eventually they were approved to adopt. A four-year-old girl with chestnut curls and green eyes named Jayde. She was seven now and the love of Kurt's life. Blaine was at work. Jayde had just come in from playing outside. She ran up to her room to play. Kurt was fixing his daughter some lunch when he froze, gripping the knife in his hand. A cold fear settled over his body.


Jayde skipped downstairs. "Daddy? Is it ready?"


"A-Almost sweetie.." Kurt breathed out shakily.


"Are you okay?"


"Of course..J-Just go play Jayde.." Kurt panted as the dark voice hummed behind his eyes.


"But I want to be with you, daddy.."


Kurt gripped the knife before stabbing it into the counter.


Jayde gasped, tears filling her eyes as she ran upstairs and grabbed the phone. She called Blaine as panic settled in her chest. She heard Kurt start yelling under her, his voice traveling towards the stairs. She ran into her room. "Daddy.." She whimpered.


Blaine answered on the last ring. "Hello?"


"Daddy...Daddy's acting scary.."


"What? What is he doing?"


"H-He stabbed the counter with a big knife..Now he's yelling..He's coming upstairs.."


"Baby, lock your door. Hide in your room. I'm coming home." Blaine said quickly, grabbing his things and running to the car.


Jayde jumped up, locking her door a spilt second before a loud bang against it made her scream. She ran to her closet and shut the door.
"Jayde..Jayde baby..Open the door.." Kurt sobbed, gasping.


Jayde shook her head. "N-No.."


"I won't hurt you..Just open the fucking door!!"


Jayde let out a scream at the noise. "Daddy's on his way home!"


"I don't give a fuck about Daddy!!" Kurt growled, pounding his fist on the door.


With shaking hands, Jayde called Blaine againe. "Daddy! Please h-hurry! H-He's at m-my door!"


Blaine heard the banging and took a deep breath. "Listen..I want you to sing..Sing for me and I'll be there soon..Any song..Sing.."


"You make me happy, whether you know it or not
We should be happy, that's what I said from the start.." She sang shakily, listening to each bang.
"I am so happy Knowin' you are the one that I want for the rest of my days
For the rest of my days, yo all of my days.."


"That's it baby girl. Keep singing. A little louder." Blaine said as soft as he could.


"I'm happy knowin' that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I-I think the more I wish that we could lay here for hours and just reminisce
Ooh-ooh.."


"I'm here, Jayde. I'm coming inside. Don't come out until I tell you, okay?"


"O-okay.."


Blaine hung up and ran upstairs. "Kurt?!"


Kurt was banging on the door, clawing down the wood and his arms.


Blaine grabbed Kurt's arms from behind. "Kurt, stop!"


Kurt struggled against Blaine, trying to pull away from him. "Jayde!!"


"Kurt!" Blaine yelled. "It's me.. Relax!"


Kurt panted heavily, tears streaming down his face.


"Shh.. Shh, it's okay. I'm here."


"He's back..H-He.."


"We'll figure it out.. We will. I promise.."


Kurt collapsed, sobbing heavilly.


Blaine held his husband close. "I love you.. We'll fix this.."


"No..He c-can't be back.."


"We'll get rid of him. Okay? We'll get through it." Blaine sad strongly.


Kurt leaned against Blaine as Jayde slowly cracked the door open, her green eyes terrified.


Blaine looked up. "See that beautiful little girl? You're going to be okay. For her. She loves you and I love you. We can do this."


"Daddy?.." Jade whimpered.


"He's okay, sweetie. Come here." Blaine said.


Jayde shook her head, hiding behind the door.


Kurt's breathing slowly went to normal. Tears were still in his eyes. "I'm so sorry, Jayde. I-I didn't mean to.."


Jayde slowly stepped out, wiping her eyes and sniffing.


"Please, come here.." Kurt said weakly. Jayde walked over and climbed into Kurt's lap, hugging him tightly. Kurt let his tears out as he held his daughter. "I love you so much, Jayde. I'm so so so sorry."


"Why'd you get mad at me?.."


Kurt bit his lip. "Daddy is..sick.. Sometimes, I don't know what's going on.. But you didn't do anything, okay?"


"O-okay..Do you need to gp to the doctor?.."


Kurt looked back at Blaine. He didn't want to go back. "I think so.."


"We can get through it on our own.." Blaine said.


Kurt gave a weak smile. Something told him he wasn't so sure about that.


"We can do this." Blaine whispered.


"I love you.."


"I love you too..And Jayde..And everyone. We're gonna be okay.."


Jayde cupped her father's cheek. "You'll be okay."


Kurt nodded, standing and hissing at the sting of his scratched arms. "I-I'm gonna go shower.."


"Are you sure you're okay?" Blaine asked worriedly.


"I'm fine.." Kurt whispered. "I just need to wash up.."


Blaine nodded. "Come on, Jayde. I'll make you some lunch."


Kurt walked into the bathroom and slammed his hands on the counter looking at himself in the mirror. "What do you want?.." He growled. "You go away for years and come back now..It doesn't make sense.."


Kurt cringed as he heard a low chuckle. "What do you want?!"


"I just missed you, beautiful.." Claude said snidely.


"I didn't miss you, asshole." Kurt spat.


"Such language for a father..Jayde..She's beautiful.."


"Stay away from her!"


Claude laughed loudly. "Oh! So I've found a weak point.."


"How are you back? You were gone for so long.."


"I was dormant..not gone.."


"Why..?" Kurt whispered.


"Just waiting for the right time.."


"F-For what?.."


"You'll see.." Claude laughed. Kurt wrapped his arms around himself as he tried to ignore Claude. Claude continued to laugh loudly, his voice echoing and laying over itself. "You know how to make me go away, Kurt..How to make it all go away.."


"No.."


"It's the only way..Or do you want me to come out again? Say hello to Jayde?.."


"No!" Kurt growled, trying to push Claude away. He scrambled back, turning on the hot water and quickly pulling his clothes off. He got in and looked at a razor. No.. He couldn't.. He had come so far. But Claude's voice was too much. Kurt slammed his head against the tile, grunting loudly.


"Did you hear that?" Jayde asked Blaine.


Blaine looked up as he heard another thud, he hurried up the stairs and knocked on the door. "Kurt?.."


"I-I'm fine.."


"Can I come in please?..I need to get something.."


Kurt took a deep breath, wrapping a towel around himself and opening the door.


Blaine gasped, "Kurt, your forehead.." He whispered as the blood trickled down his nose.


"I-I'm fine.."


Blaine quickly grabbed some toilet paper against Kurt's forehead. "Kurt.."


"What?"


"Your forehead is fucking bleeding.." Blaine whispered harshly.


Kurt just shrugged.


"Don't just shrug..I thought we were past this.."


"Well, so did I. But I guess not."


Blaine sighed deeply. "Are you hurt?..dizzy?.."


"A little dizzy."


Blaine nodded lightly. "Just hold this down.."


Kurt reached up, doing as he was told.


Blaine got some hydrogen peroxide and cleaned Kurt's forehead, placing a small bandaid over the cut. He leaned down, kissing Kurt softly. "Don't let him get to you.."


"I'm scared.. H-He's talking about.. Jayde.."


Blaine's breath hitched. "He..He's bluffing.."


"I don't know, Blaine.."


"He said he would kill me..I'm still here.."


Kurt thought about how Claude said he had a plan. "I know.."


Blaine kneeled in front of Kurt. "We're gonna be okay.."


"Promise..?"


"I swear.."


Kurt sighed. "Thank you.."


Blaine nodded. "Now..Put on the cool water..Wash up..And come spend time with your family.." he smiled.


"Okay."


Blaine kissed Kurt again before standing and walking out.


Kurt climbed back into the shower and washed off. He walked to the room to get dressed, his fingers twitching impulsively. Oh god..It was coming back..The twitches..Claude..All of it.. This couldn't happen. Not now.. He had a child..A family..Maybe he should go stay at the hospital. He didn't want to put Jayde in danger. But how could he leave his beautiful baby girl? His bottom lip quivered as he leaned against the wall. Why was this so hard?.. He had tried so hard to be better. What was Claude planning? Kurt quickly pulled himself together and walked downstairs.


"Are you feeling better, daddy?"


Kurt nodded, smiling. "Much.."


"Come sit with me." Jayde grinned.


Kurt nodded again, sitting next to his daughter. "So..What did you play today?.."


"I played on the swings and played princess." She smiled.


"How are things in the kingdom?.." Kurt smiled.


"Lonely." Jayde sighed. "I want my friends to come over."


"Well..Maybe we can fix that. How about having a slimber party soon?.."


"Yeah! We can have pizza and play and maybe make s'mores again?! Can we daddy?" Jayde asked excitedly.


"Of course.."


She grinned, thanking Kurt and Blaine before continuing to eat her macaroni and hotdog.


Kurt smiled at Blaine nervously; reaching over to hold his hand.


Blaine used his thumb to stroke the back of his husbands chair. "Want to go see Carole tonight?"


Kurt nodded, "Yeah..Jade, you want to go see grandma?"


"Yeah!" Jayde smiled.


"Good.." Kurt smiled before his hand twitched in Blaine's. He sighed shakily, closing his eyes.


Blaine gasped quietly. No.. This couldn't happen..


Kurt pulled his hand away, slowly reaching up to pull his hair lightly.


"Baby.. It's okay.." Blaine said softly.


Kurt shook his head, looking down.


"Daddy..?"


"Yes, baby?.."


"I just want you to know I love you very much."


"I-I love you too, baby girl.."


Jayde stood up and hugged her father tightly.


Kurt sniffed, pulling her closer. "Thank you.."


"Welcome." She smiled.


Kurt pet her hair before kissing her forehead softly.


"Guess what."


"What?.."


Jayde looked up at Kurt with her big, innocent eyes. "I'm really happy I'm with you and daddy.."


"I'm so happy you are.."


Jayde leaned in and kissed his cheek.


"I love you baby.." Kurt whispered.


"I love you, daddy."


Kurt sighed softly, looking over at his husband.


"I'll go call Carole.." Blaine said, getting up and leaving the room.


Kurt nodded, rocking Jayde in his arms.


Blaine stepped out into the back yard and dialed Carole's number. He paced through the grass until she answered.
"Hello?.."


"Hey Carole.."


"Hey sweetie.." She smiled.


"We were thinking about stopping by later. Is that alright..?"


"Of course, of course.." Carole grinned.


"I.. I really need to talk to you.."


"What's wrong?.."


"It's Kurt.." Blaine said quietly. "Claude's back.."


Carole gasped softly. "No.."


"I-I don't know what to do.. He came out today. I.. I wasn't home. Jayde.. She had to lock herself in her room.."


"Is..Why is he coming back?.."


"I don't know.."


Carole was quiet for a while. "It's gonna be okay.."


Blaine nodded. "We'll be over around five.."


"Okay, sweetie.."


Blaine got off the phone and went back inside. Jayde had gone upstairs and Kurt was curled up on the couch. Blaine sat down and rubbed Kurt's back. "Are you okay?"


"I don't know.."


"I'm so sorry.."


"It's not your fault.."


"I know..I just wish I could help.."


"Me too..I just..I don't understand."


"I know, baby." Blaine sighed. Kurt nuzzled under Blaine's jaw and sighed. "It will work out. I promise."


"I hope so.."


"Me too."


Kurt sighed deeply, closing his eyes.


"Do you want to see someone?" Blaine asked.


"Maybe..Maybe just a therapist..For now.."


"Anything you want."


"I just don't want Jayde to get hurt.."


"Neither do I.." Blaine sighed. "Can I ask you something..?"


"Of course.."


"When he comes out.. Is there any way you can control who gets hurt?" Blaine asked quietly.


"I..I have no idea what he does until I come back.."


"Okay." Blaine sighed.


"I'm s-sorry.."


"It's not your fault."


"Yes it is..I should be able to control it.." Kurt whispered.


"That's not why I was asking." Blaine said.


"Why were you?.."


"Because, if you could control it.. I was going to tell you to wait for me. Let it out to me.."


"What?..W-What do you mean?.."


"It doesn't matter. I just worry for Jayde."


"Blaine..What did you mean?"


"Just.. If anything happens, I prefer it to happen to Mel
Me."


"Blaine..I could never h-hurt you.."


"I know, Kurt. But it's better me than Jayde."


"It's better if it's no one!" Kurt snapped.


"I'm not trying to fight, Kurt. But you know what he's capable of." Blaine said before getting up and leaving the room. Kurt sighed, his eyes filling with tears as he curled up.


Blaine went up to their room. Why was this happening again? He wished he could take this away..Why was this happening to them? Kurt had worked so hard to get better. Blaine clenched his fists. Was he not taking his medicine again? Something had to be causing this. He decided to let Kurt have some time to think before asking. He sighed as Jayde walked in. "Daddy?.."


"Yes, baby?"


"W-What's really wrong with Daddy?.."


"He's..sick.."


"But..He doesn't have a fever or a tummy ache.."


"No.. It's more in his mind." Blaine said, sitting up.


Jayde climbed onto the bed. "Like..His brain is sick?.."


"In a way, yes."


"What's wrong?.."


"Something happened to daddy a long time ago. And it hurt him very bad. So.. Sometimes, there's this angry..side that comes out. It's not daddy. It's the pain and hurt that he went through."


"But..It is daddy..He just sounded different.." Jayde said quietly.


Blaine sighed. "It is daddy. But he doesn't know what's happening when that angry side comes out. So if you see it, promise me that you will hide where no one can get you and call me, okay?"


"O-Okay.." Jadye said quietly.


"Come here." Blaine said, pulling her close. "Daddy Kurt loves you very much. We're going to get him some help. I promise."


"How are people gonna help?.."


"They can change his medicines or maybe just talking to someone will help. I don't know."


Jayde nodded. "How do I know when Daddy's bad side comes out?.."


"When he gets really angry, his voice gets a little..scary.."


"What if I can't hide?.."


"What do you mean?"


"What if I can't get away from Daddy's bad side?.."


"Just run. Run as fast as you can and find someone to call me." Blaine said seriously.


Jayde's eyes went wide. "D-Daddy wouldn't hurt me.."


"No. But I don't want you to see him like that."


"O-okay.." Jayde whispered before tearing up.


"What's wrong, baby girl?" Blaine asked.


"I'm scared.."


"Why?"


"I don't want daddy to get scary again.."


"That's why he's going to get help." Blaine said softly. The little girl nodded, squeezing Blaine's fingers. "I love you, Jayde."


"I love you too.."


"Come on. Let's get you out of your play clothes. We'll go see grandma then go shopping for your sleepover."


She perked up at the mention of the sleepover and nodded, climbing off of the bed. Blaine helped her pick an outfit before going to get Kurt. He was in the kitchen, cleaning when his family came down.


"Hey. You almost ready?" Blaine asked.


"Yeah..I'm just cleaning. I have to..Clean.." Kurt sniffed.


"Okay.."


"Daddy..The kitchen is clean.." Jayde said as Kurt scrubbed at the counter.


"Not enough."


"Kurt.." Blaine sighed. "It's clean.."


Kurt's hand twitched again. "O-Okay.."


Blaine grabbed Kurt's hand. "It's okay.."


Kurt wrapped himself around Blaine as a small whimper escaped him. "I-I'm sorry.."


"Shh..Its okay.."


Kurt clutched to his husband as he tried to calm down.


"Deep breath.." Blaine whispered, rubbing his back. Kurt nodded as he inhaled deeply. "Let it out..You're okay.."


Kurt exhaled and took another breath. "I'm okay."


"Okay..Lets go to Carole's..Alright?.."


Kurt turned to his daughter and smiled. "You know that's daddy's favorite dress."


Jayde smiled, looking down at the powder blue dress. "That's why I wear it.."


"It's beautiful. Just like you." Kurt grinned.


"Thank you Daddy..Carry me?"


Kurt bent down and picked her up. "You'll always be my princess."


Jayde giggled happily, wrapping her arms around Kurt. Kurt kissed her cheek before putting her in the car. They drove to Carole's Jayde singing happily the whole time. The sound soothed Kurt. It helped him ignore Claude.


"When we get to Grandma's will Uncle Finn and Aunt Rachel be there?"


"If not, we can call them." Blaine smiled.


"Okay!" Jayde grinned.


They got to Carole's and knocked before walking in. They found her in the living room with Finn and a very pregnant Rachel. Jayde squealed, running towards her family. Rachel giggled as she hugged her niece. "Hey Jayde!"


"Hey!" Jayde smiled before hugging the rest of them.


She sat in Carole's lap as Blaine and Kurt sat down. "How's the baby?"


"Good..Kicking a lot.." Rachel giggled.


"How much longer do you have?" Kurt asked.


"A few more weeks." Finn smiled, placing his hand on her stomach.


"What's the baby's name?" Jayde asked.


"Well...If it's a girl..We're naming her Barbara." Rachel smiled wide.


"Oh dear god.." Kurt sighed.


"Are you surprised?" Carole chuckled.


"Can I call her Barbie?" Jayde asked.


"Of course." Rachel giggled.


Jayde smiled. "I hope it's a girl."


"Me too." Rachel pretended to whisper.


Jayde ran over to sit by Rachel and pressed her little hands to the big belly. Rachel smiled, running her hands over it before the baby gave a kick and Jayde giggled happily.


"That's so weird!"


Finn smiled wide as he watched his family.


They had dinner together and went to the back yard to let Jayde play. Kurt sat in a chair next to Carole, watching his daughter as he scratched absently at his wrist.


"How are you doing, sweetie?"


"I-I'm good.." Kurt nodded. "Fine.."


"Are you sure?" she asked.


Kurt nodded quickly, not looking up.


"I'm here if you need me." Carole said softly.


"I'm fine.." He whispered, his hand twitching again. He slapped his other hand over it to keep it still and let out a broken noise.


Carole moved closer and hugged him tightly. "Don't be afraid."


Kurt moved to pull away but stopped, letting himself be held.


"It's okay, Kurt." Carole soothed.


The younger shook his head. "I-I'm sorry.."


"Let it out, sweetie."


"I-I can't..I I don't want..Jayde."


"Why don't you stay the night? We'll have a night and you can just talk."


Kurt looked over at Blaine, silently asking permission.


"You can, baby."


Kurt nodded, looking back at Carole.


She kissed his forehead and sat back against the bench swing.


Kurt leaned against Blaine sighing shakily. "Can you find me a doctor tomorrow?.."


"I can do that." Blaine said softy.


Kurt nodded. "I have to get better again.."


"You will. I know it."


Kurt sighed deeply, nuzzling under his jaw.


"I love you." Blaine whispered.


"I love you too.."


"Stay here as long as you need to. I'll find someone to talk to."


"Thank you.." Kurt whispered.


"I'll do anything for you."


"I'll be home soon.."


"Okay."


Kurt sighed, wiping his eyes.


"You okay?"


"Yeah..I'm just..I don't know.."


Blaine wrapped an arm around Kurt. "It's okay."


"Thank you.."


His husband nodded, pulling him closer.


"You gonna go get Jayde's stuff for her slumber party?.."


"Yeah. We should get going."


Kurt cupped Blaine's cheek and kissed him softly. "I love you so much.."


"I love you too. Call if you need anything." Blaine said seriously.


"I will.." Kurt nodded.


Blaine kissed Kurt again before standing. "Jayde. It's time to go."


Jayde ran up, placing her hands on Kurt's knees. "Will you carry me daddy?"


"I'm staying here, baby girl." Kurt said, leaning forward.


"What?..Why?.."


"To spend time with my mom. I'll be home soon. I promise."


"Okay..I'll miss you.."


"I'll miss you too." Kurt said before kissing her.


Jayde sighed softly before kissing Carole, Finn, and Rachel. She grabbed Blaines hand. "Bye.."


"Bye sweetie." Carole called.


Jayde squeezed his hand as they left. Kurt watched sadly as his daughter and husband walked away.


"Its gonna be okay.." Rachel whispered.


"I hope so.."


"It will be Kurt. We're here.." Finn said softly.


"Thank you." Kurt said quietly.


"Come on..let's get inside and run you a relaxing bath." Carole smiled, standing up.


Kurt nodded, "Thank you."


She grabbed Kurt's hand and walked him upstairs.


"Why is he back..?"


"I don't know.."


"I..I'm scared to go home.."


"Why sweetie?.." Carole asked softly.


"What if he hurts someone?"


"He won't..You're stronger this time around.." Carole assured as she started the water.


"Thanks, Carole.." Kurt said, trying to believe her.


She ran his bath before kissing his forehead and walking out. Kurt slowly stripped, examining all of his scars in the mirror. They were faded but still visible. He ran his fingers over the slightly raised skin. He wouldn't let Claude give him any new scars. Not this time. He slipped into the tub, and sighed deeply, closing his eyes. He could do this. For Jayde. He sank down a bit and looked over the edge of the water. He had to figure out what Claude was planning. It wasn't good. That much, he knew. But who was his target? He tried to concentrate. Maybe if he could channel Claude he would know. Kurt took deep breathes as he tried to focus. He heard Claude's voice and shuddered lightly. "T-Tell me what you're doing.."


Claude just chuckled. "You won't find out until its time."


"Why?.."


"Why would I tell you?"


Kurt swallowed, rubbing nervously down his arms. "I-I don't.."


Claude chuckled. "Maybe I should tell you."


Kurt swallowed hard, trying not to show his fear. Claude took control of Kurt's mind. He showed him flashes of Blaine's curls.. His eyes.. His lips.. then a flash of red all over his own hands. Kurt gasped harshly, as a terrified sob escaped him. "No!"


Claude's menacing laugh slowly faded away.


Kurt's breathing picked up. Was Claude going to kill Blaine? He couldn't let that happen. Kurt let out a scream as he looked down at the water and red began to flow through it. Even his hallucinations were coming back. He quickly jumped out of the water and pressed his back to the wall. This couldn't happen. Kurt had to stop him. He quickly wrapped himself in a towel and ran out of the bathroom.


Carole was at the top of the stairs when he came out. "Kurt? Are you okay? What's wrong?"


Kurt tried to slow his breathing as he nodded quickly.


"What happened?"


"Claude..J-Just talking...Y-You know.."


"Oh, sweetie.." Carole sighed. "Get dressed and come downstairs. I'll make some warm milk, your favorite."


"Th-Thank you.." Kurt nodded before going to his room and pulling on his clothes.


Carol was in the kitchen when Kurt came down. "Here you go, Kurt."


Kurt was still shaking as he took the mug and sat down.


"What was he saying?"


"Nothing important..."


Carole kissed the top of Kurt's head. "He's not going to hurt you. I won't let it happen, okay?"


"I don't care if he hurts me.." Kurt said quietly.


"What?"


"I don't want him to hurt anyone else.."


"Well, we don't want you to get hurt either."


Kurt just looked down. He'd much prefer it be him. If Claude was telling the truth..Kurt might have to make sure it was him..


"Let's try not to think about him tonight."


"Okay.."


"Come relax in the living room."


Kurt nodded, walking into the living room with Carole.


She turned the tv on to a random movie and sighed sighed softly.


Kurt leaned against her, grabbing her hand.


"I'm glad you're staying here. I miss you being here."


"I miss it too.." Kurt smiled.


"Jayde's birthday is coming up. What does she want?"


"A cell phone.." Kurt said softly.


Carole's eyes went wide. "She's too young."


"I know.." Kurt chuckled.


Carole laughed. "What're you getting her?"


"I'm not sure.." Kurt sighed. "Blaine is usually in charge of that.."


Carole nodded. "Maybe we can go shopping tomorrow."


"O-Okay.." Kurt smiled.


"It'll be fun."


Kurt nodded. "It will.."


"You want some more milk?"


"No thank you..This is fine.." Kurt smiled, nodding.


"I'm really proud of you, Kurt." Carole said quietly.


"Why?.."


"You're out of the hospital. You're married. You have a daughter."


"I'm going back to before.." Kurt whispered.


"And you'll beat it again."


"I hope.."


"You will."


Kurt hugged her close and sighed shakily.


"You can do this, Kurt. And we're all here to help." Carole said softly.


Kurt smiled. "Thank you..I-I think I should get to bed.."


"Okay sweetie."


Kurt kissed her cheek before walking up to his old room and curling up under the bankets. He needed his husband.. He hated being alone. Especially sleeping alone. He thought too much..And all of the tiny noises sounded so loud. He brought his hands up over his ears and pulled himself into a ball, whimpering. He didn't want to hallucinate tonight.. He looked over to the nightstand and saw a phone. He reached for it and dialed his husband's number. He sighed in relief as Blaine answered.


"Hello?"


"I miss you.."


"I miss you too beautiful..Are you okay?.."


"I-I don't like being alone. Will you...sing me to sleep?"


Blaine gave a sad smile. "Of course.."


"Thank you.."


"Leave a lighthouse in the wild,Cause I'm coming in
A little blind
Dreamer of a lighthouse in the woods
Shining a little light to bring us back home
Or to help us get back into the world.." Blaine sang softly. Kurt closed his eyes and sighed softly.
"Cause I know
I've seen you before
Won't you shine
A little light
On us now..."


Kurt took a deep breath and let it out, already on the verge of sleep.


"Dreaming of a light house in the woods
To help us get back into the world
Won't you shine a little light
In your own backyard
Dreaming of a lighthouse in the woods.."
Blaine finished as he heard Kurt's breathing even out. He smiled as he heard his husband snore lightly.


"I love you Kurt.." He whispered before hanging up.


Kurt found himself in his house. There was blood on the carpet. A trail of it leading from his feet to the bedroom. His heart raced. What had he done? He slowly followed the trail, panting harshly as he saw Blaine, on the floor, covered in blood and giving sharp shallow breaths.
"Blaine!" Kurt shrieked. He ran over and dropped to the floor, wrapping his arms around Blaine's bloody body. "No! What did you do?! No.."


Blaine's eyes were fading as he looked at Kurt and rasped out, "Y-You..did..this.."


"N-No.." Kurt cried. "I-I-I love you! B-Blaine.."


Blaine looked away as his last breath left him and the life faded from his eyes.


"Blaine! N-No.. Come back. Comebackcomebackcomeback..nonononono.."


Kurt screamed as he shot up in bed, his body drenched in cold sweat. It was a dream.. Just a dream.. Kurt tried to convince himself. He wiped his hands on the sheets. Blaine was fine..He was alive.. He would never hurt his husband. Never.. Kurt laid back, trying to fall back asleep. But the haunting images came back. They wouldn't leave his mind. How long would this go on? Kurt curled in on himself. It was like that every night. Kurt would wake up, gasping for air or screaming. He couldn't take this.. He couldn't concentrate when he went shopping with Carole. He tried to spend time with her. But it was like he wasn't even there. She would suggest things and he would just nod. Somtimes he wouldn't even respond.


When they got home, Carole sighed. "Kurt, we need to talk."


"About?.." He asked quietly.


"What's going on with you? You love shopping. You love spending time out. What's wrong?"


"I-I'm not sure..I'm just..I don't feel myself.." He said softly, taking his coat off.


"Did something happen last night? You seemed at least okay before bed."


"No..Nothing happened..No.." Kurt said, his hand twitching violently. He growled grabbing it with his other and squeezing tight.

Carole placed her hand over his. "Please.. Talk to me.."


"I..I kept having..Nightmares..All night..It hasn't happened since I was in the hospital.."


"I'm sorry, sweetie. What're they about?"


Kurt swallowed hard. "Just..The hospital..Having to go back.." He lied.


"I don't think you'll need to."


"I'm not so sure.."


"Why?"


"He's just. .He's so strong.." Kurt said quietly.


"You're strong too. You got him to stop for a long time. You'll do it again." Carole said.


"No..I didn't get him to stop..He stopped on his own.." Kurt sighed, sitting at the table.


"It's going to be okay, Kurt. You're so strong. You just don't see it."


"Then why can't I stop him?.."


"I believe you will." Carole said softly. "You just have to find that extra strength inside of you."


"How?..I-I can't get him out of my mind..He's making my hallucinations come back..I-I don't want to f-forget my daughter..I don't.."


Carole got up and wrapped her arms around her son. "You won't. Kurt.. You can do this. And you have me, Blaine, Jayde, Rachel, Finn, and all if your friends. You can do this."


Kurt hugged Carole tightly as he finally broke down.


"Let it out sweetie."


"I-I'm so scared.."


"You'll get through this. I promise."


"I can't..I-I can't.."


"Yes, you can."


Kurt just continued crying. He couldn't get through this he was going to hurt Blaine..He couldn't..


Carole held Kurt until his tears slowly stopped.


"I-I'm sorry.."


"Don't be." The older woman said.


"Can..Can I sleep with you tonight?.."


"Yes, sweetie."


"Thank you.." Kurt said. Later that day, Kurt sat alone in his room when there was a light knock.


"Come in." He said quietly.


Rachel walked inside, smiling lightly. "Hey.."


"Hey.."


"How are you?.." She asked, walking over to sit on the bed.


"I'm okay.." Kurt lied.


"No..You're not.." She said softly. Kurt shrugged, looking down at the floor. "I know you don't remember much of me..Before everything..But I know you.." Rachel said.


"I'm sorry.. I try.. But I can't.."


"I know..But..I know when you're not okay..What's wrong? " She asked, grabbing his hand.


"It's happening again.." Kurt whispered. "He's back.."


Rachel sighed softly. "I know..But..We're gonna get through this.."


"I'm the one going through it."


"We're here to help you."


"Nothing can help me."


"That's not true..You did it before.."


Kurt shook his head. "That's what he wanted me to think."


"What do you mean?.."


"He was dormant."


"Dormant?.." Rachel asked.


"He was there but didn't show himself. He wanted me to t-think he was gone."


Rachel hugged Kurt tightly, her eyebrows kneading together.


"I can't go back.."


"You won't.."


"He's stronger now.."


"So are you, Kurt." Rachel said, pulling away and looking into his eyes.


Kurt just shook his head.


"Listen..How do you think Jayde is dealing with this?.." Rachel asked. "You are her dad. She needs you to be strong."


"I-I'm not strong."


"Yes you are, Kurt..Think about where you were before Blaine came back..Where you are now.."


Kurt looked up at his friend. She was right. He had a daughter that needed him.


"You are the strongest person I know Kurt.." Rachel said, bringing his hand up to kiss it before placing it on her tummy. "And I know Barbie can't wait to meet her uncle while he's happy and healthy.."


Kurt gave a weak smile. "You think I can do this?"


Rachel nodded. "I know you can."


"Thank you." Kurt said. He gasped as the baby kicked. "Oh my god.."


Rachel grinned, rubbing over Kurt's hand.


"That's so amazing.."


"I can't wait until you meet her.." Rachel whispered.


"Me too.."


She smiled, picking his hand up and kissing it softly.


"I should probably go home soon. I miss Blaine. And Jayde. But all of her friends will be there tonight."


"If you feel like it's too much..Just call me okay?.."


Kurt nodded. "Okay."


Rachel stood, grunting lightly.


Kurt got up with her and chuckled. "Is Finn getting tired of you yet?"


Rachel giggled. "Not at all. Our sex life is actually amazing now.." She blushed.


"Oh god." Kurt laughed.


"Thanks to you." She smiled. "How about you and Blaine?"


"We haven't done..that.. In a while.."


"How long is a while?.." Rachel asked.


Kurt thought for a moment. "A couple months?"


Rachel's eyebrows knit together. "Maybe that's what you need.."


"We don't have alone time. A-And I-I don't know.. With Claude here.."


"Listen..When you two are alone..Just give it a try, if you're comfortable."


"I don't know if he'll want to.."


"Kurt..He's your husband..Do you think he's not attracted to you anymore?.."


"No.. Not with Claude in my head.." Kurt said quietly as he fidgeted with the hem of his shirt.


Rachel chewed on her bottom lip. "Come on..Let me drive you home."


"Okay.."


They said goodbye to Carole before Rachel drove Kurt back to his house.


"Thanks for the ride.. Want to come in?" Kurt asked.


Rachel nodded as Kurt helped her out and she walked inside. "Hey everyone. Daddy's home!" Rachel grinned.


"Daddy!" Jayde yelled happily.


Kurt grinned as his daughter ran into his arms. "Hey, baby..I missed you."


"I missed you too!"


Rachel smiled as Blaine walked out and kissed Kurt's cheek quickly. "Hey." He said softly.


"Hey.." Kurt said back.


"How was your time with Carole?.." He smiled.


"Good.."


"Blaine. Can I talk to you for a minute?" Rachel asked.


"Sure." Blaine said.


Rachel walked into the kitchen and sat down with Blaine.
"So..When was the last time you and Kurt had sex?.."


"What? Why?" Blaine asked quickly.


"I think..That maybe it might be part of Kurt's stress..He thinks you're not attracted to him anymore Blaine.." Rachel sighed.


"Are you kidding? I love Kurt. He's the most beautiful guy I've ever met. Of course, I'm attracted to him."


"Why haven't you two been..intimate is such a long time?.."


"We have Jayde. I get tired from work. He gets tired from playing with her and cooking and cleaning. I don't know. He hasn't tried either. I don't know."


"Well..He just thinks you don't want to..Because of Claude.." Rachel said softly.


"Well, not if its when Claude is out. But no. Not because of him." Blaine explained.


"Maybe you should just..try to show Kurt you still want him." Rachel said softly.


Blaine nodded. "Okay."


Kurt poked his head in. "I'm sorry if I'm interrupting, but a couple of the girls just arrived.."


"I'm coming." Blaine smiled. Kurt gave a weak smile and nodded.


"Jayde," Blaine called. "Why don't you and your friends go play outside?"


Jayde nodded. "Lets go play princess!" She called to her friends. They all giggled, running outside after her. Blaine talked to their parents and told them the plans for the night before they headed out.


Rachel smiled at the couple. "Well..I should get back to Finn before he tries to cook."


"We'll see you later." Blaine chuckled.


Rachel gave them each a kiss before walking out.


"I-I should start on dinner.." Kurt said softly.


"Do you need help?"


"I'm okay.." Kurt nodded, walking to the kitchen.


Blaine sighed quietly. How did he let his husband feel this way? He had to fix this. He'd wait for the girls to go to bed before talking to him.


Kurt watched the girls playing outside from the window. Jayde looked so happy..If he could get through this she could stay this way. He could do it.. For her.