It's much too late to find
You think you've changed your mind
You'd better change it back
Or we will both be sorry

So Blaine thought he was bi, all of a sudden? After having spent the past few years of his life being sure he was gay? He must've come out to at least a handful of people other than the students at Dalton, Kurt assumed – heck, getting bullied for being gay was the reason Blaine had come to Dalton. Or, that was what he'd told Kurt.

Should he start doubting everything Blaine had ever told him now? Because he suddenly decided that it was time for an identity crisis? He had always seemed so sure of himself, of his entire personality, of his entire being. He had seemed so confident when he'd told Kurt that he was gay, the day Kurt had come to spy on the Warblers. And sure, he had some demons in his past – he had run away from the bullies, something he appeared to hate himself for – but this was not the way to deal with that. Dating a girl you drunkenly kissed wasn't going to change anything.

At least, Kurt hoped that it wasn't.

Why couldn't Blaine get it through that thick head of his that sharing one kiss, one drunken kiss, with a girl wasn't going to change who he was? That people sometimes did stuff when they were drunk that they hadn't meant to do in the first place? That people drunkenly did stuff they would never have done if they hadn't been drunk, and would never do again while sober?

Sure, people were supposed to be more honest when drunk, but that didn't mean that everything people did or said while drunk showed exactly what that person was like, right? Kurt knew that he would never call Ms Pillsbury Bambi while sober, and he would also never vomit all over someone's shoes.

Unless he was in the locker room at McKinley – he might consider doing it, then. But otherwise, no way.

Either way, dating Rachel (Rachel Berry!) probably wasn't going to drive Blaine's demons away. Unless, of course, he turned out to really like Rachel. Then, he could pretend to be normal, like all the other people in Ohio. He could pretend to be straight, he could go to public school or anywhere else and not be bullied for once.

No matter how hard he might've tried, Kurt had never been able to pretend that he really was straight when dating Brittany, and he kind of resented the fact that Blaine obviously thought that he could, and maybe, he would actually succeed.

He hadn't been lying when he'd told Blaine how he looked up to him – not completely, at least. Yes, he admired how proud his friend had seemed to be, but he was aware that he'd made it seem like… his whole world revolved around Blaine. That might be partly true, but come on – he wasn't that dependent on Blaine. Hopefully. But that didn't have anything to do with the fact that he admired Blaine's supposed strength – it had to do with the fact that he might be in love with him. Of course, he couldn't tell him that – not again, because it obviously hadn't made that big an impression the first time around.

All of a sudden, Blaine had changed his mind about being gay. Who did that? Being gay in Ohio wasn't something you willingly chose to be – look at Karofsky, and who knew how many other guys were struggling to accept their sexuality. It wasn't a joke, it was far too hard for that. So Blaine must've been serious when he'd come out – and now he was running back into the closet? That didn't make sense.

And now that they had fought over Blaine being bi or not – what did that mean for their friendship? Did it mean that, if Blaine turned out to really be into guys and girls, their friendship would be ruined forever? That they would never hang out again because Blaine would feel like Kurt had issues with him?

That might actually be the case, Kurt figured. He knew he could – possible should – apologise at some point, but what if Blaine wouldn't accept those apologies? There was nothing more he could do than apologise, and yet there had to be more.

Although – wasn't their friendship pretty much built on the idea of being two gay guys who had been through similar experiences and had many common interests? If Blaine suddenly wasn't gay anymore, wouldn't that be very damaging for whatever relationship they had going on?

Besides – Kurt didn't know if he could deal with having a best friend who was also Rachel Berry's boyfriend. He knew that he and Rachel had actually become friends lately, but he wouldn't let her get away with this. If she wanted his friendship and trust back, she'd better work for it. (Though he might at least pretend to be a concerned friend the next couple of days in order to find out what exactly was going on between her and Blaine, since he was not talking to the other male, or so he assumed.)

Yes, the whole gay/bi question would have a huge impact his and Blaine's friendship. If Blaine would turn out to be not gay – it could very well mean the end of it, and that wasn't just Kurt being a drama queen of sorts. It probably wouldn't even be Blaine's fault; perhaps Blaine would attempt to strike up a conversation with him during Warbler practice or one of the classes they had together. But he, Kurt, would be too proud to let him in, too hurt to listen and to work it all out, and too disappointed in two people he thought were good friends of his.

So Blaine had better be gay. Even if them being gay wasn't a constant topic in their conversations, and they had enough common interests to keep a friendship going – it had initially been built on Blaine helping out Kurt, and, as far as Kurt was concerned, by now, they were equals in that relationship, and he helped out Blaine as well, even if that wasn't exactly obvious right now. But it would all become one big lie if Blaine turned out to be like all the others – straight, or at least, half-straight – and Kurt really didn't want to be friends with someone when that friendship was based on one big fat lie.

So – no matter how egoistical it might sound – for the sake of their friendship (and everything else, but Kurt decided it better not to dwell on those feelings now – it was more than obvious that they were not reciprocated; friendship was all he was going to get for now, at most), Blaine had better be gay.